Soft as Clouds
Neteyam x F!Reader
Summary: You weren't well known in the clan, and when you become friends with Tuk, no one believes her.
Warning: Straight up Flufff
When you were growing up, you found yourself wanting to linger in the background more than insert yourself into the everyday activities of those your age. Like now, you were currently lounging in a tree, eyes facing up at the clouds as they moved by at their own pace.
You were a gatherer for the clan, not that anyone knew. You would rise before the sun to go out and gather the sweetest, most bountiful food your clan had ever tasted, leaving it in the baskets by the main fire circle. The fruits were always plump and juicy, herbs and spices nicely placed in pouches for easy access.
You wanted to begin early to end early, opting to stay out of sight of others. Now, some knew of you, the elders for example always took a small notice on how you were much more reserved than others your age. Your parents of course knew you, but you were a failure of a child in their eyes. At your age you should've been chosen for a mate, or made a mark on the clan in some positive way, but you didn't, so they turned their attention to your more 'promising' younger siblings.
You never cared, preferring your more modest lifestyle of peaceful serenity.
"Whoa! What are you doing up there?"
But Great Mother had other plans for you.
You gazed over the side of the branch you were currently laying on, brushing your hair that had fallen into your eyes away, spotting a young girl in the forest floor below you.
This was not just any girl, oh no, this was Tuktirey, Toruk Maktos youngest child.
You let a small smile slip on your face as you slowly began a decent, swift and agile, like that of a cat.
You knelt infront of her, your eyes meeting hers that were still so full of child like wonder, "what are you doing here small one?" Tuk giggled, looking side to side as if looking for something, or someone.
"I was following my brothers, but I guess I got lost," Extending a hand to Tuk, "Well, let us get you home then," her small fingers wrapped around yours and you both began your walk, going back down the path you had made from the times you ventured out here.
Tuk couldn't help but wonder why she had never seen you before, yet she thought you were very beautiful. The aura that surrounded you was so soft and peaceful, it made her feel instantly safe.
"Why do you come out here, it's very far from home? Are you a hunter or a gatherer? Your hair is very pretty, can you do mine like that? Wait! What's your name?" Tuk rambled out, skipping beside you. A chuckle escaped your lips, you liked Tuk, she was very silly.
You stopped and knelt down beside her, her yellow eyes stared into your soft green eyes and she couldn't help but think you held the forest in your eyes, "My name is (Y/n), I much prefer to gather, and I think your hair is fine just the way it is, simply because it's yours,"
You couldn't help but boop her nose, her nose scrunched as she let out a laugh. You smiled, "now, what is your name?" Tuk felt like you already knew, but she puffed out her chest proud, "My name is Tuktirey, but you can call me Tuk!"
"Such a pretty name," you gasped, standing up and resuming your walk to the village. Tuk swung your intertwined hands back and forth, both of you finding comfort in eachother.
When you had finally happened upon the village, you could hear everyone in a state of panic. Tuk groaned, her ears pinned back, "I think they realized I was gone," you knelt beside her, both of you hidden just out of sight with the plants, "then maybe you should appear,"
Tuk hugged you, you wrapped your arms around her to return the embrace. "Will I see you again?" She asked, pulling away enough to see your face.
"Of course, I quite like you," you smiled, slowly giving her a nudge to the panicked clan members.
When Tuk had emerged out of the brush, the panicked cries turned into one's of relief and joy. Many ran over to embrace her, but by this point you had already vanished without a trace.
"Tuk! Where were you, we were worried sick!" Jake exclaimed, sweeping his youngest into his arms and giving her a extra tight hug. "I tried to follow Neteyam and Lo'ak but I got lost, but it's okay!" Tuk laughed, "I found (Y/n) and she helped me get home!"
Jake and Neytiri exchanged a look, as did some of the other clan members. Your name was no familiar, almost positive there was no one in the village who has that name.
"Tuk, what are you talking about?" Neytiri wondered, taking her child from her mate and settling her on the ground in front of her, "There is no one named (Y/n) in the village," Neytiri began to examine Tuk for a head injury, but Tuk pulled her head away in annoyance, "I know what happened, (Y/n) helped me, she's right,"
But when Tuk turned around to where you had been, you were gone, "she was right here," Tuk cried, but her parents chalked it up to fatigue from being lost all day.
"Come, you must eat and rest," Neytiri pulled Tuk along by the hand, which Tuk did almost sulkly, glancing back one more time to see you emerge and give her a wink before disappearing behind everyone's backs. Tuk grinned, now happily walking with her Mom.
~.~
Weeks had passed and Tuk now snuck off any chance she had to find you, sometimes waking up early to join you on your gathering. You were like another big sister to her, you were so soft and gentle with her, it almost reminded her of her own mother. You would show her the best places to gather fruit and herbs, show her how to move silently through the forest so not to disturb it.
In return, Tuk gave you simple companionship. You always thought it was fun being alone, but Tuk gave you a shining light of what having someone around could be like.
When Tuk would return from wherever you two had disappeared to, she would tell her family all about it, now causing Jake and Neytiri to worry that she was making up stories to make herself feel important like her siblings.
"Ma Jake, I'm beginning to worry about Tuk," Neytiri spoke one day when she watched her youngest venture off into the brush before she could stop her, "it is not safe out there but yet she continues to go, we must stop her," Jake could only hum in agreement.
"What's the name of the person she speaks of? (Y/n)? Are we sure she's not a person in the clan?" Jake questioned, Neytiri feeling her shoulders sag in exhaustion cause she had asked any gatherer, hunter or healer she could think of and no one knew about you.
"Maybe we should send Neteyam with her one day? Make sure she's really safe? See what he can find out?" Neytiri fired off question after question, Jake taking her hands into his as he calmed her down, "That's sounds like a great idea, if there's anyone who can find out it's him, come, let's find him,"
They both set off to find their eldest, who they were sure was going to throw a fit hearing about their plan.
~.~
Tuk panted, running up to a clearing where she saw you relaxing by a small pond, toes and feet floating in the clear water. "I'm here! What are we going to do today?" Tuk skipped over, taking a seat next to you as your turned your gaze to her, a smile coating your face.
"What would you like to do?" You asked, Tuks face scrunched up in thought before asking you, "Could we go for a swim next to the waterfall?" You thought about it, before nodding. It was very close to the village, but you were looking forward to spending time with Tuk.
"Awesome!" She cheered, pulling you up off the ground and began the walk, with you giggling behind her.
The water had been very liberating of any stress or thoughts that plagued you. You sighed in bliss, leaning back to float in the water as your eyes gazed up at the clouds, the soft white making you forget everything.
Tuk had jumped in, splashing you and causing a laugh to erupt from your stomach as you flipped over, watching the young girl giggle and continue to splash you with water.
You began a water assault back, both of you not even paying attention to how loud you were being which caught the attention of Neteyam nearby who had been searching for Tuk under the instructions of their parents.
"Tuk!" He called, walking into the rocky terrain that held the waterfall where he saw Tuk soaked and wading waist deep in the water, her breath heavy as though she ran for miles, yet a smile plastered her lips.
You were no where to be seen, ducking under the water to find a rock that had caught your eye.
"Tuk, it's time to come home, let's go," he helped her out of the water, not noticing you surface up to your shoulders in the shade of a tree that grew on the nearby bank.
Your hair had rested on your face a little and your shoulders, the shade making your eyes almost glow as you analyzed Neteyam. He was your age, currently training to be the next clan leader and yet here he was, fetching his sister.
Tuk through a glance over her shoulder to see you in the shade, throwing up a quick wave goodbye and taking off in front of her brother.
Neteyam had caught her look and couldn't help but turn back, catching a quick sight of you.
A beautiful, young woman who was lounging in the water covered by shade. Your eyes are what caught his attention the most, but just as quick as he'd seen you, the next second he blinked in shock before opening them to find you gone, the water only rippling from where he saw you, well, where he thought he saw you.
Neteyam was now becoming a quick believer of Tuk's stories.
~.~
Now that Neteyam had caught a glimpse of you, he started to see you everywhere. Although, it was out of the corner of his eyes, because when he would turn to see you, your figure was gone, the place he had seen you now empty or void of anyone or anything.
He had told his parents that he didn't see anyone with Tuk, but that was only because he feared how crazy he would sound. Seeing someone who wasn't entirely there and then them being gone the next second. They'd send him straight to the Sky People for evaluation.
Neteyam had followed Tuk out of the hut one late afternoon, Tuk turning to him confused since he has never followed her before, "What are you doing?" Neteyam just smiled, playing an act to follow his parents instructions, "Well, I've missed hanging out with my favorite littlest sister," he roughed up Tuks hair, causing her to hiss and push his hand away, "so I figured we could spend the rest of the day together,"
Tuk glanced sideways towards the path, a bit unsure about how you'd reac to Neteyam coming along, "I don't know, you probably wouldn't be up for it," Neteyam raised an eyebrow, his thoughts consumed on what a child would be doing that he himself couldn't or wouldn't wanna do, especially so late in the afternoon.
"Well, if you're sure," Tuk grinned, taking off down the path faster than Neteyam had expected, "Tuk! Wait for me!"
~.~
You had been lounging in a tree again, this time basking in the setting sun's glow. You felt so warm, the lights rays bringing a sense of belonging to your being.
"(Y/n)!" Tuk exclaimed, running into sight as you glanced down at her, your lips showing your usual soft smile that you saved for her.
"Neteyam is following me, come on let's hurry!" Tuk tried to rush you, but you only laughed, "Why are we hiding from your brother?" Tuk felt her cheeks puff up in annoyance, "Come on (Y/n)! I don't want him to find you!" It wasn't often Tuk would throw a childish fit with you, so you knew this must be important to her.
You quickly climbed down, taking her hand and pulling her out of sight just in time for Neteyam to come around the corner. He stopped and took a quick look around, running a hand through his braids aggravated. "Come on Tuk! Mom and Dad don't want you out here by yourself,"
Neteyam continued on through, running right past where you two hid in a flower bush before emerging a minute after he disappeared.
Tuk laughed but quickly stopped when she saw your disappointed face, "I'm sorry," she mumbled, kicking the dirt with her ears pinned down.
"Let's walk and talk," you took her by the shoulder softly, "Is there a reason you keep running away from your family? I understand you want to be friends, but surely I'm not worth worrying your family over?"
You led her down a path as Eclipse began to set in, the forest coming to life with lights and sounds. "Well, I thought you might want to be kept alone, like how you were before we became friends," Tuk answered, but you knew better, "but?" You pushed, Tuk groaning before replying.
"Well, Neteyam has his hunting parties and future clan leader responsibilities, Kiri has healing and grandma, Lo'ak and Spuder go on treks through the forest, I just wanted something that was mine for a while," while a bit childish, you could see what she meant. It was nice to have something all your own, even if it wasn't necessarily yours to keep or own.
Tuk kept her eyes trained on the ground in front of her, hands rubbing together embarrassed. Tuk thought that you would be upset with her, but she was shocked when she felt your hand rub soothing circles on her back as you continued to walk together.
"Do not feel bad, sometimes we wish for things that cannot always be, but if it makes you feel better, you will always be my first and best friend," Tuk felt giddy knowing that you felt the same as she did. You truly were a big sister to her.
"I think it's time we returned for the night," you told her, Tuk nodded, feeling a little tired. "Come," you picked her up, her arms wrapped around your neck and head rested on her shoulder.
You smelled of flowers and mist, a calming scent that soon had Tuk drift off to sleep. Which means she couldn't return to her parents on her own, meaning you had to face the leaders of the clan.
Entering the village, you took notice that many had already gone to dinner, leaving a clear path straight to the leaders tent, where you could hear inside Jake Sully, the Olo'eyktan and Neytri, his mate and Tuks mother frantically asking Neteyam where Tuk was.
You held Tuk up with one arm, softly clearing your throat to make your presence known as you lift the drape, all three coming to a freeze as they saw you, a stranger, with Tuk fast asleep in your arms.
You dipped your head in greeting, eyes over looking the two males and straight to the female who quickly walked to you with fear and concern for her baby. "She is alright, just sleeping," you whispered, not wanting to wake up Tuk as Neytiri gently slipped her from you.
Neytiri nodded a head in thanks, though her eyes held confusion. Your eyes slipped over Jake Sullys form, a small gesture of hello from another head nod before you allowed your eyes to stay trained on Neteyams shocked yellow.
'She is real,' is all Neteyam could think as you both played a stare game, you breaking it off with a soft smile before disappearing. He found the sudden ability to move, dashing to the drape only to pull it back and find you gone, like a phantom.
"I think, that's (Y/n)" Jake mumbled, his mind wracking to find any sense of familiarity of you, but found none. Neytiri felt a small rumble from Tuk, glancing down at the small girl to find her awake and giggling softly, "Told you she was real,"
~.~
Neteyam couldn't get you out of his head, now actively looking for you, but you weren't anywhere to be found. Tuk had told him all about you, and this time he listened, but she wouldn't tell him where you go.
"(Y/n) doesn't like to be sought after, you can only find her when she wants you to find her," Tuk laughed like it was the most simplest thing in the world, but it just made Neteyam frustrated.
He knew so little about you but felt a strange need to be near you, hear your soft voice again and find out more. Call it a crush, infatuation or even obsession, he just wanted to see you again, even if for a last time.
It was only when he took a stroll through the brush on a warm afternoon, that he found you. Only you were laying patch off soft moss, eye shut as you looked at piece with the world.
The world itself seemed to be happening around you, each breath you took was like a breeze from Eywa herself. Insects and small animals passed you by, as if you were just one with them.
Neteyam had approached you slowly, footsteps light as he observed your face. It was beautiful in his eyes, your soft lashes caressing your cheeks, lips parted ever so slightly with each breath you took in. Your hair seemed to flow around you in the vast green foliage.
He was too lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice you open your eyes and look back at him. Your green eyes traced his features as well, taking in the rough yet handsome face he was gifted with. He truly was his mother's child.
When he saw your green eyes staring back at him, he fell back from his squat in shock. You softly hummed, a smile so small but just for him.
"What are you looking at?" He coughed, his face feeling warm from your stare.
You sat up slowly, his eyes glancing at how your body was bending, hair falling over your cheeks to frame your face.
Eywa help his sinful thoughts.
"Oh you know," you drawled, "The clouds,"
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This is my part for the bnharem collab, please check out all the other amazing authors here. The theme this month was flowers!Â
Warnings: Angst.
Word Count: 4101.
Youâd never been much of a flower person before. You could appreciate their beauty, but youâd never really understood their meanings. The reasons why each flower had its own unique message behind it. More interested in aesthetics than any cryptic messages. Thatâs why when you received the first bunch, you were perplexed.
âOi, shitty woman. Why the fuck were these at the front door this morning?â Bakugou flung a bouquet of flowers across the room to you, the ashen smell of his explosive quirk filling the air as you took in the sight of the dishevelled paper, the flowers in a disarray as you looked down at them in confusion.Â
âIsnât it obvious, Bakugou?â Ashido was already leaning over the couch to look at the paper, trying to find a note with them. Seeing the small pink rectangle and grabbing it off the sugar paper before you had a chance to stop her, your hand trying to grab it from her fingers as she held it away from you, âSheâs got a secret admirer!â
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Synopsis: Your worst nightmare comes to life after you receive a call well after midnight that isn't from your husband Bakugou but about him. Rushing to the hospital you're thankful to find him alive but when he comes to he asks to see his wife despite you standing there.
Warnings: Angst
A/N & wc: just something quick I whipped up, 3.6k
This is what you wanted isn't it?
All along you begged the Gods for this.
Asking with hot tears streaming down your face that you wished that you weren't here. Not dead but that you never truly existed at all. That no one could remember you and it would be that much easier to be nothing in the wind.
The Gods have a cruel sense of humor, granting your wish, much to your dismay, at an extremely shitty time in your life.
The call comes in the middle of the night, another fear you've had since you married him. Worry clawing up your stomach as your clammy hands reach for the phone. It's Kirishima, it's just Kirishima. He just wants to chat right?
At 2am he just wants to ask about your day doesn't he?
Deep down in the very marrow of your bones you know that's not true. Not even able to fool yourself for a second as your groggy voice shakes with a weak "H-hello?"
Kirishima comes out and just says it. Explains it all but it's as if he's speaking a different language. You barely make out Bakugou and the name of the hospital before the ringing in your ears is deafening. He goes on for what feels like hours as your mind plays out grotesque, horrifying images of what may be left if your husband.
He never got hurt.
Ever.
He promised.
He fucking promised he'd be okay. He always does when he kisses you goodbye. When you say stay safe and he affirms with a hum and "I will. For you I will."
But you didn't say stay safe this time did you? No you spat insults at him, hormonal, pms fueled rage over something he couldn't even control.
He was a superhero. He should be able to control everything.
"Sweetheart, I'm fuckin late." Is what he growled and when he leaned in for a kiss. You leaned away.
"That's it. I'm coming to get you." Kirishima hisses about to hang up when you tell him you're fine. That you'll be there and he can go home to his own worrying and extremely pregnant wife.
You use your quirk, illegally, flying at the speed of light to get to the hospital. Rushing out the syllables of your new last name, Bakugou in such a rush the nurse asks you three more times before you spy Kirishima's hands running through his red mane as he steps outside an ICU room.
Pushing past the nurse, biting your tongue as you rush towards Kirishima. Ignoring his warning as he tries to catch you as you slip under his large arms. Through the heavy door and pulling past the curtain.
It's worse than you imagined and yet still not as bad. He's unconscious, an oxygen mask over his face but thankfully no tube snaking down his throat. You launch yourself at his side, the slow beep from the monitor by your head reassures you he was still breathing.
Still alive.
Your palms are clammy again as it all comes rushing into focus. With each beep comes new information piled on top of the other. First is the pungent smell of cleaner. Disinfecting anything and everything until it's bleaching the lining of your lungs. Then comes the cold, thick plastic of the bed handle beneath your hands. Groaning from your grip as your heart rate increases.
Beep
The stiff blankets, they're scratchy and all wrong. Bakugou doesn't like this type of "cheap shit". He's more high maintenance than you. He likes tightly woven or soft down comforters.
Beep
Red, the bandages on his chest are weeping red. So much fucking color clashing with the white gauze. That can't be right. It'll get on this stupid scratchy blanket. The sharp inhale brings in more sanitation, your breath becomes more shallow. Teeth grinding and competing with the sound ringing in your head.
Beep
It's dark, it's so fucking dark in here you can barely see. Where are his eyes? Why won't his eyes open? You're whispering his name so softly like you do when he's worked overnight and you're leaving for work by mid morning. His crimson eyes always open. Always crinkle when he says goodbye. Why can't you see his fucking eyes?
Beep
Why
Beep
Is he gonna..
Beep
"Hey." A solid hand clamps onto your shoulder pulling you out of your spiral. Bringing you to shore with his rough grip, "Are you sure you'll be okay?"
At some point Kirishima has pulled up the reclining chair for you, offering it silently with one of those stupid, shitty scratchy blankets. You feel your skin crawl and not from the low thread count.
Eyes flickering back towards your husband of three years.
Three whole years and he's just going to leave like this? Like a candle snuffed out byâŠby
By some damn extra?!
Kirishima watches your labored breathing, he is never going to go back on the promise he made his best friend and the one Bakugou made in turn.
"She's stubborn. Look after her if something fuckin happens."
"I'm staying with you. I'll ask the nurse to-"
"No!" It comes out too quick, too loud as you turn on him like a wild animal. For just a moment you can see it. Dully reflected in his eyes in this damned low light, your reflection. What he sees.
A scared little girl who's about to lose her shit.
You clear your throat, straightening your back before you breathe out deeply.
"Your wife is going to pop any minute. You need to be available for her." You say sternly, pretending this was something so much more mundane. Like you've missed the bus or the taxi Bakugou sent for you.
A small inconvenience, yea that's all this was. You were just going to be late, late to see Bakugou and-
"You're sure?" Thunderous voice threatens to crack, looking over his friend, making it harder on you.
"Yes. You're injured, yourself. Besides your paternity leave starts the second she goes into labor and as office manager I do have a say on that. In fact it starts now." There it is, there's that stern voice he's used to. The light scolding you've always given him and Bakugou for the last five years.
Kirishima seems to give it some thought, a lot of thought.
"Eiji, please I'll be okay." You smile up at him, lips twitching at how difficult it is to turn them upward when all you want to do is scream. Scream until the burn of bleach is replaced from the raw emotion that's bubbling up your throat.
The large man shifts his weight, debating giving you a hug and when he sees your body closed off, hands white knuckled on the bed frame he thinks better of it.
"You better call me if you need anything. At least give me that okay?"
"Okay." You appease him, still forcing the smile and hoping he'll get the fuck out.
Finally he does, staring you down with a soft goodbye and a stern I mean it that you wave off. Until finally he shuts the big, scary door.
Leaving you alone with that sound that is both reassuring and yet nauseating.
Beep
Beep
Beep
And this time you can't hold back the tears.
Crying enough tears to fill up two weeks. Almost drowning in the amount shed as the doctor reassures you he'll wake soon. He has healthy brain wave activity and he's breathing on his own.
"All good signs. Try more of his favorite music."
It's all they can say. All they can give you to cling onto as you replay your last words to him.
Hateful, cruel things.
Over the stupidest fucking fight.
"It's because you're still in love with her!"
Throwing insecurities in his face and for what?
Suddenly his heart rate monitor beeps loudly, quickly chirping the increase in speed as you watch his eyes move beneath his long lashes.
Before they flutter open, looking over at you with⊠with
With disgust.
Your heart hammers in your chest. Was he? Was he still mad at you?
"H-hey Suki." You go to reach for the hairs that cling to his damp forehead only to be caught in his deadly hot and tight grip, "Katsuki, you're hurting me."
His free hand rips the mask from his face as he looks over at you with harsh set eyes. The intensity weakened only by his groggy state.
"Don't use my given name." A threat that has your eyes watering, "I don't even fuckin know you."
He tosses your hand back into your lap as if you were trash, eyes narrowing to slits.
"Where's my wife?"
"I am your -" But he cuts you off.
"Where the fuck is Momo?!"
Momo, Bakugou's first wife, comes quicker than you'd like. Wrapping her arms around you, sickeningly sweet perfume chokes you out, almost drowning out the harsh chemicals of the room. She came straight from the movie set, long lavish dress fit for the Mafia Princess character she was playing in some new film.
The same very ex wife who you claimed Bakugou wasn't over. Gritting your teeth as she fusses over you, as if you were a delicate thing that could break any minute and not Bakugou who lies under that itchy blanket.
"Momo, darlin." He croaks and she visibly flushes. Rushing to him, spying the blanket as well before she's using her quirk to make something more to his liking.
"Baby why weren't you here?" You can hear the strain in his voice, the emotion he's biting back as she looks down at him confused, "Are you still filming that dumb super hero movie?"
"Bakugou-"
"Katsuki." He corrects sharply, even moving his mask that the doctors fought to put back on to make sure she heard it. Momo looks over her shoulder cautiously to gauge your reaction.
"KatsukiâŠ" It feels odd to form the syllables on her tongue, "I finished that movie seven years agoâŠ"
"Wha-what?"
"I'm alsoâŠBa-" His glare causes Momo to correct herself, "Katsuki, doll, we aren't married anymore. We divorced. You're married to her now."
Momo pulls you into view and Bakugou stares at his ex and "current" wife.
A long, heavy moment of silence passes before the heart monitor beeps furiously. The smell of caramel permeating the room much too quickly before the doctor rushes in.
Just as Bakugou takes in a breath to start yelling, pulling at the mask and almost ripping out his IV his body goes slack. The doctor was barely faster than him, injecting him with something to lull him back to sleep.
Especially since explosives and oxygen did not mix well.
The doctor blinks rapidly having just caught the tail end of the conversation. Memory loss was normal, expected, but possibly six years or moreâŠ
Well that wasn't, even with his long history of concussions.
With the quick assessment he turns to the two women in the room. Debating on just how to go about this as bedside manner wasn't always his strong suit.
"What I'm about to say may be difficult for you two however keep in mind this is what is going to be best for the patient and his recovery. Since he is experiencing amnesia we will have to go along with what he thinks is true right now. Just like one would when someone has dementia. There will be less stress on his body if we indulge in his perceived reality."
"For how long?" Momo asks tentatively. Doctor Yashido takes a sharp inhale.
"Until his memories return."
"And how long will that take?" Two different tones ask in unison. One a frustrated bark the other laced with deep concern.
"Could be weeks. Could be months." He swallows thickly, Yashido never was good at delivering bad news and this was almost as bad as it gets, "If they ever return at all."
The hospital floor falls away from beneath your feet. Causing you to plummet into the deep dark depths. Questions buzzing in your head battling alongside the screaming. The sound echoes in your mind whipping up the thoughts of Bakugou having never loved you. Of Bakugou thinking so little of you, of finding you so fucking annoying, like the gnat you were he went and forced himself to forget the last three years of your marriage and taking it a step further by going back far enough to forget you existed at all.
Isn't this what you wanted? What you wished for that night? That you'd wake up and you hadn't existed at all?
Beep
This wasn't about you. Fuck this was about him. Would he be happier with Momo? He never really did say why they broke up. He always said it was "just mutual" and left it at that.
Beep
At least he was alive right? You could watch him from afar again. Watch the star rise as your feet stayed firmly planted on the ground.
Beep
You could forget he ever brought you up in the night sky to dance along with him. It would be easy right?
"Love." Momo calls for the third time, manicured hands on your shoulders, "Why don't you go home for some rest. And a shower."
You stare up at her blankly, at the doctor who gives a curious look before you slowly nod.
"YeaâŠ.yea that's a good idea."
Returning the next day proves painful as you see Momo has changed, stunning even in leggings and a cropped shirt. Even took the initiative to alter the decor of his ICU room. Soft yellow string lights, a humidifier, soft fluffy blankets and silky sheets that Bakugou might bleed on anyway if he didn't stop moving around so much.
It's awkward to stand in the corner and watch them interact. To watch everyone else interact with the man you so desperately wanted to see.
And wanted him to see you in return.
But he can't now, he doesn't even know your name. And everytime you come close to the bed he stares at you with such discontent, with suspicion as if you were the dirty liar in the room.
Kirishima falls back, bumping his shoulder into yours gently. You look up at him with deep bags under your eyes.
"Mina is worried about you, ya know. She says you can stay at our place if your apartment is tooâŠmuch." He offers with a strained smile, you place another lip twitching half assed smile on your own mouth.
"I'll be fine."
Yet the late hours of the night, all alone in your too big apartment, curled into his pillow that is slowly losing the smell of him haunt you the most.
A few more weeks pass and even with Bakugou's restlessness the doctors argue with him about downgrading his stay to general admission. They instead move him from the ICU to the neurology floor, making this the longest Bakugou had ever been in the hospital to date. Meeting even more doctors that now talk to both you, for legal reasons and Momo, for Bakugou's fantasy, about his brain damage.
How there is hardly any and that there were many things about the brain that we as humans had yet to understand.
But that was his whole fucking job wasn't it? To study the brain and unlock its god damn mysteries. Not tell you you were shit out of luck and non-existent to your very real husband who was in such a twisted reality.
It's baffling to see his scans, to hear nothing is wrong. Painful to see the love in his eyes that shine for Momo and not a spark for you.
How odd it is to share your husband with his ex wife.
Sometimes you're brave enough to sit closer to him like you are today. Steeling your nerves against his harsh interrogation as if you were the nasty villain that put him here in the first place. Sitting second to Momo who holds his hand or smooths down his blanket. Watching the days bleed together as her once, almost forced and polite smile turns into something else.
Turns real, genuine.
It makes your stomach churn.
"The fuck are ya still doing here extra?" He hisses at you when he wakes from a nap, Momo shushing him. Scolding him about being rude and he counters.
"What's rude is that she fuckin exists! Why is she fuckin here, Sweetheart?" Your heart falls into your stomach. Throat closing up as your body rejects this.
Rejects everything, especially the sound of his nickname for you aimed at someone else. At someone you're stupidly jealous of. At someone whose fault this could never be and who has only ever shown you kindness.
Sent your flowers on your birthday.
Avoided hero galas the two of you went to.
"Katsuki!" No correction on his name now, Momo having settled into his given name once again and quickly at that.
"No, it's okay. I'll- I'll get us some coffee, Momo." You say abruptly getting up. Wanting comfort from no one but the man that just cut you with his sharp tongue.
He's just groggy. It's cause he's hurting. It's the meds that are saying that.
The same excuses echo through your head as you walk through the halls, air thick with intangible weight as you trudge towards the sludge machine painted in coffee labels.
You wondered what exactly the air was thick with. Grief most likely, of lives forever altered resting on the shoulders of sobbing loved ones who could barely hold themselves up but were now expected to carry the weight of the world.
Or maybe it was resentment, festering anger. Angry that this happened. Angry at God or the Gods or at no one in particular that let this happen to their loved one.
All you knew was that the air was thick with it. Smothering you with every futile breath you took.
Somehow you make it back to the room, muscle memory must have guided you back here. Toeing open the door that you left slightly ajar quietly.
Only to find a sleeping Bakugou, breathing even and heart rate lazy, slow. Momo sighs softly as she pushes his ash blonde hair away from his forehead murmuring ever so softly.
"Why'd I leave again?"
The paper cups in your hands crush easily. The scalding liquid burning in your hands as Momo startles from the sound. But nothing burns as badly as the angry tears you're holding back.
Maybe you should leave. Give these two their happily ever after.
Maybe everyone was right. Bakugou was a lot to handle. Mitsuki had said so herself. Saying you'd never be good enough for her son as long as you stayed weak willed.
Weak hearted.
"You won't last four years with my son. Mark my words. You'll give up on him because he's too good for you, Momo was the better fit."
She muttered them to you as she pulled the veil over your blurring vision before you walked down the aisle to her son.
You never did tell him. And now you never would.
Mind made up as you storm from the hospital room. Biting your lip until you tasted blood as you held yourself back. A war raging inside your head.
He's just lost his memories, that's all this is. No you fucking idiot his love for Momo was stronger.
Soon you're marching up the stairs to your shared apartment, almost snapping the key off in the lock from the sharp turn of your wrist. Rushing inside without bothering to remove your shoes as tears cloud your eyes. Threatening to fall in fat drops as you rummage through the closet for your suitcase. Stacking it haphazardly with random items in the room. A small painting, your charger, random clothes and jewelry. All the while murmuring to yourself before you bully your way into the en suite.
Gathering things here and there before you see it. The box catching your eye that has you instantly nausted.
It's quiet for a moment. The buzzing in your throat and head silenced by your intense concentration.
Before erupting with a raw scream shoving everything off of the granite in one foul swoop.
Shattering his expensive cologne and your pricy perfume onto the wood grain tile. The scents meld together reminding you of hot dinner dates the two of you never made it to. Too busy fucking on the vanity counter, staring at one another in the mirror. Now all that stares back at you is a ghost. Hollow eyes and a heavier heart.
Biting your lip you stare at the black box on the floor, torturing yourself by picking it up. The rectangular shape feels different in your hands, the rounded edges feel sharp as you gently unwrap the gift as if you didn't know what sat inside.
Two white tests. Neatly capped and set in tissue paper. Two solid pink lines on one test and the other written clear as day in digital text Pregnant
With finality you slam the box into the trash with such force the can falls over. The other several tests toppled out indicating the same thing. Confirming what your blood tests results in your voicemail echoed back to you from your OBGYN
Congratulations!
The sound of her voice rings in your head. Was it a "congratulations", was it really?
This is what you wanted right? A baby?
To not exist? To fall off the face of the earth?
Fate is a twisted and cruel thing, giving but always taking its hefty price as tears burn your eyes, bags packed leaving the once shared apartment.
The universe only gave you what you wanted right?
So congratulations, you got exactly what you wanted.
You were finally forgotten.
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Stop it I'm fucking sobbing đđâ€ïž The blessing of having messes to clean, of having someone to hold and love and cherish.
{single dad!katsuki bakugo x kindergarten teacher f!reader}
summary: katsuki bakugo has never liked mess and always made sure his son and his life reflected just that. with years worth of a sparkling clean and organized home, toys put away and not once scattered about, and a barking knack over any calls of disorder in his lifeâ meeting you, his sons sweet and sugary kindergarten teacher who was the definition of pure and who was for some reason turning his fiery heart into complete gooâ was altering his boring strict cycles of no messes around⊠and for the better.
warnings: cursing, FLUFFF GALORE MY GAWD??, no smut but a lil steamy something, slight angst, afab!reader, katsuki thinks you are an ANGEL, sunshine x grumpy trope, mentions of abandonment, WHOLESOME AFFF, use of y/n, all characters are aged up.
word count: 11.4k
authors note: THIS MAKES ME WANT TO BE A MOTHERRRRR omg this one is sickeningly sweet and iâve gotten a few requests to do sunshine x grumpy with sir katsuki and i WAS ALLL OVERRR ITTT i hope i fulfilled!!! <333 THANK YOU THANK YOU AS ALWAYS FOR ALL OF YOU BEING SOOO SWEETT TO MEEE I LOVE YOUUUU MWAAAHHH :] <33333
katsuki bakugo hated messes.
âoi!â he grunted, his sonâs little head turning to look at him as he munched on his gummy fruit snacks from the backseat. âyou better not leave that wrapper in here. take it outside with you when i drop you off.â
âkaaayyy!â his son dragged out happily, completely unphased by his dads snappy personality as he contemplated on which color fruit gummy to eat next.
âand wash your hands too. ask your teacher.â
âmhm!â he chirped.
âand donât be a brat. pay attention.â
âyup yup!â
and for the most part, his life reflected that almost entirelyâ raising his son to always clean up after himself and not make bombastic huge messes around the house, begrudgingly understanding that heâs a small growing human, that a little spill of apple juice or two is basically guaranteed⊠but he just hated mess, and heâll be damned if he doesnât raise his son right to be a clean and organized man even at five years oldâ katsuki keeping everything in his life practically spotless.
that was of course, until he met you.
katsuki shoved through the other parents in line as he went up to the front desk in the main office with a grip on his sons little hand, not giving a damn about the glares and huffs of bewilderment he got as there was no way in hell he was gonna wait like an idiot with the rest of them.
the lady at the front desk raised a quizzical eyebrow.
âcan i helpââ
âwhere the fuck is room twenty four.â
her eyes bulged open as the rest of the parents in line softly gasped and murmured.
âeâexcuse me?ââ
he rolled his eyes.
âroom twenty four.â he pushed. âwhere is it?â
âsirâ if you need me to help you iâd like you to wait in line untilââ
âhah?! absolutely not.â he spat. âif i wait in that fucking line my sonâs gonna be late why canât you just tell meââ
âuh sir if you couldââ
katsukiâs son giggled as he continued to spout profanities at the poor front desk lady.
ââsir please no foul language there are children aroundââ
âi donât give a shit! just tell me where room twenty four is what the hell is so hard about that?!ââ
âoh! thatâs my class!â
katsuki snapped his head over, fiery red eyes shooting towards the voice until they landed on yours.
âis he one of my kids?â you smiled sweetly, eyes coming down to look at his son.
âohââ he let his shoulders relax just a tad as he watched you fix the strap of his sons backpack on his shoulder. âi meanâ if your class is twenty fourââ
âit is!â you beamed, nudging your head. âiâll show you where!â
âhiii miiiissss!â his son greeted, happy and silly as he followed you down the hall.
âhi honey!â you gushed, just as excited as he was as you patted over his blonde scruffy hair. âwhatâs your name?â
âmilo!â
ânice to meet you milo! are you excited for your first day?â
âyeaaahh!â he cheered, smile bright as he grabbed your hand.
katsukiâs eyes widened.
âmilo!â he snapped lowly. âwhatâd i tell ya? you canât grab her hand like that you have to askââ
âoh itâs alright!â you dismissed, smiling. âi donât mind it at all! the other kids do it too.â
milo snickered and stuck his little tongue out at his dad, and katsuki rolled his eyes.
âis he yours?â you asked kindly, tilting your head.
âwho else would he beâŠâ he grumbled.
âi guess youâre right!â you giggled. âhe looks just like you.â
katsukiâs eyes flickered to yours before dropping back down, a permanent furrow in his brows as you all rounded the corner.
âhere we areââ
âooo! ooo!â milo hopped up and down. âmiss you have race cars?! dad can i please go?!â
he looked over, a mountain of toys scattered about in the classrooms play area, little kids already making a damn mess and the school day hadnât even officially started yet.
âthe hell you asking me for? ask your teaââ
âmiss miss can i please go play with the race cars?!ââ
âof course my love! go! go have fun.â you smiled, gently ushering him on before milo zoomed over to the play area and crouched down with the rest of the kids.
âoi!â katsuki barked. âput them away when youâre done!â
he huffed under his breath as he watched his son give him a thumbs up and fucking dump the entire bucket of race cars down on the âabcâ play rug, taking one in each hand and dragging them across floor.
âheâs so cuteee.â you grinned. âiâm glad heâs not afraid being itâs his first day.â
âoh fuck no.â he mumbled. âmilo doesnât care. the little runt doesnât have a filter and does whatever the hell he wants without askinâ sometimes.â
he leaned against the doorsill as he watched milo converse with another kid and share a car, satisfaction in his chest that his son was sharing and being nice.
âbut i guess he gets that from me.â he finished off.
you nodded. âbut thatâs a good thing, isnât it?â
he pursed his lips.
âin my experience, not really.â
you hummed.
âi think itâs definitely a good thing⊠iâd rather be assertive of things and not be afraid of what the consequences will be.â
katsuki looked at you, properly this time.
âwhatâs a kindergarten teacher afraid of?â
you shrugged, a slow playful grin spreading across your face.
âparents.â
he snorted, crossing his arms over his chest and you quickly had to look away, a pink buzz to your cheeks at the way his big built arms flexed.
inappropriate inappropriate inappropriateâ
âi donât know how you do it..â he spoke lowly.
âdo what?â
âtake care of little shits all day.â
you laughed loudly, reeling over a bit as he watched you out of the corner of his eye.
âi donât take care of them! i teach them.â you quipped cutely. âtheyâre small, but this is when their brains drink up the most knowledge⊠and i love to see the progress from the beginning of the year compared to the end! i love it all really.â
pure.
katsuki curtly nodded, your sweet positive ambiance throwing him completely off, as he doesnât think heâs ever met or surrounded himself around someone whoâs directly emmitted the feeling of sunshine and rainbows and candy as much as you did.
and his cheeks flared up for some reason.
âoh!â you looked to the time on your little wrist watch and walked inside your classroom. âitâs almost time to start! i have to wrangle them all in their seats heh!â
katsuki swallowed and nodded.
âmilo!â
he turned and upon seeing his dad wave him over, milo dropped his toys and bounded to him.
âdonât give her a hard time alright?â he spoke sternly, nudging his head over at you for emphasis. âlisten. listen and learn and be the best one in there.â
âkaaayyy!â
âand you let me know if any of the other kids mess with you or you deal with it yourself. you already know howââ
âbeat the crap out of them!â he cheered loudly and katsukiâs hand flew to clasp over his sons mouth before his frantic eyes looked at you.
the last thing he needed was someone to call up fucking child protective services on him.
âheâs joking! heâs joking⊠fuck.â
you giggled hard and clutched your stomach, your pretty smile sending katsuki for a loop.
âno youâre absolutely right!â you waved your hands in front of your face, reassuring. âtreat others the way you want to be treated, so if someoneâs being mean to you, bite back milo, okay? and also let me know first though!â
katsuki gave you a wobbly tiny smile amidst his branded serious face, looking at his son then and ruffling up his hair.
âokay, go.â milo ran off. âand donât let me pick you up with dirt all over your clothes ya hear me?!â
âbyeee daaaddd!â
you could tell that behind his harsh exteriorâ the slight purse of his lips, stiff frame and bouncing leg gave away that he was only worried about his kid and his first day of school, a sight youâve seen time and time again since you started working as a kindergarten teacher, and one that never failed to warm your heart.
âdonât worry!â you sweetly smiled, and katsuki switched his gaze over to yours. âiâll watch him especially⊠okay? to ease the nerves.â
he softly snorted, attempting to play it off but internally relieved as he pushed himself off the doorsill and nodded, thankful that the teacher milo got was as kind as you.
âumâŠâ he mumbled. âkatsuki.â
you tilted your head. âkatsuki?â
âitâs my name idiot.â
âoh!â you giggled, a blush rising in your cheeks again as you tried to simmer it down. ânice to meet you katsuki! iâll see you after school then with milo?â
he stiffly nodded, the way his name sounded so sugary off your tongue something heâd never heard before in his life or was used to at all.
ââŠya gonna tell me yours or what?â
âsorry!â you sputtered, laughing nervously. âsorry it justâ flew! you knowââ
you stuck your hand out and offered it to him.
ây/n!â
katsuki untangled his arms and firmly shook it, grip strong and one that nearly made you stumble forward as you caught yourself and smiled.
âiâll see you katsuki!â
out of all of the kids youâve taught, milo was by far the cutest one.
the little man was like your personal assistantâ a little bee buzzing around as he followed you everywhere in the classroom and helped you clean up after the rest of the kids that didnât, âyellingâ at some of them to and cutely scolding them whenever heâd catch them leave some things behind, and was always on watch for you like a security guard with his little balled up fists on his hips, surveilling the classroom for any misbehaving kids or messes that youâd missed throughout the day.
all traits you no doubt knew he got from katsuki, even if you had just met him. it was pleasantly obvious.
âthanks for helping me out today, milo!â you gushed, pushing another students chair in as they all sat down and chattered for lunch. âyou made my job a lot easier!â
âreally?!â he squealed, big glimmering eyes beaming up at you before he happily chowed down on some apple slices.
and you noticed then miloâs lunch was insane, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches cut up and molded neatly into the shape of panda bears, his watermelon and apple slices shaped like stars with carrots and celery lined up with a little wedge of lemon if he wished, tiny rice balls on the side for a little snack you figured in case what he had didnât fill him upâ all so considerate and carefulâŠ
âwow!â you exclaimed, kneeling down next to him. âyour lunch looks so yummy my love! did your mommy make this?â
ânuh uh!â he shook his head, cheeks filled with watermelon. âmy dad did!â
you faltered.
âkatsuki made this?â
âwhoâs katsuki miss?â he asked curiously, sipping on his little juice box after swallowing the fruit in his mouth.
you giggled. ânothing! nothing. enjoy your lunch okay?â
you went to stand, but miloâs hand shot out and caught your wrist.
âcan youâ can you eat lunch with me?â he mumbled shyly, fiddling with some carrot pieces in his hands. âplease.. i always eat with my dad but heâs not hereâŠâ
your eyes softened and you quickly nodded.
âof course! let me just go grab my lunch and ill bring it over! sounds good?â
âyaaaayyyy!â he cheered happily, arms up as you scooched a tiny chair over from a nearby table and sat with him, laughing at his cute expression.
you knew you shouldnât use a little kid to pry⊠but you were guiltily curious as to know if katsuki was married or not for reasons that made you ridiculously flustered and red in the face over.
and you wanted to be respectful in case he was⊠since the ogling you did at his muscles this morning through his black ribbed tank was the most embarrassing moment of your career and one you hadnât seen coming at all, it catching you off guard and feeling horrible if katsuki indeed had a wife.
but he didnât have a ring on his fingerâŠ
âmilo?â you spoke up softly.
he smiled big. âyes miss!â
âdoes your mommy make you lunch as well or just your dad?â
he shook his head. âjust my dad! i donât have a mom.â
your shoulders deflated.
he didnât have a mom⊠at all?
you slowly reached over then and patted his blonde hair, smiling warmly as his cheeks went pink. âthatâs alright! iâm sure your dad makes you lunches like this every time huh?â
âyeah!â he gasped excitedly. âyesterday he made pizzas and cut them into dinosaurs! it was so cool! and then!â and then this morning for breakfast i had waffles that looked like dynamite blasts!â
âoh my goodness!â you giggled, your heart absolutely thumping over the fact that katsuki was so dedicated to his son like that. âman, i wish my lunches were as cute as yours!â
his little eyes snapped to yours.
âiâll tell him!â
your brows furrowed confusedly. âwhaââ
âto make you lunch! iâll tell my dad to make you lunch!â
your eyes widened and you frantically shook your head, cheeks blazing as you laughed. âoh no my love! thatâs totally okay donât worry about me sillyââ
âiâll tell him iâll tell him iâll tell him!ââ
âmilo itâs okay! iâm a big girl.â you grinned. âiâm supposed to make my own lunches.â
milo grumbled and plopped a carrot in his mouth, begrudgingly chewing as he sat there in thought.
ââŠwill you at least let me share some of mine?â
you pouted at his generosity, wondering how a kid could be so sweet as you nodded and held your hand up.
âof course sweetie! whatever you waââ
milo plopped all of his peanut butter sandwiches in your palm and grinned, earning a gasp from you.
âmilo this is too much i canâtââ
âeat it! eat it! eait it!ââ
by the end of the day, you managed to get milo to take back his sandwiches in exchange for one singular watermelon star piece, him still doing his regular duties of being your little assistant and helping you clean up after everyone before the final bell rang signaling the end of class, you carefully making sure each kiddo got their designated backpack (as there was often a mix up) and art pieces they made for their parents to take homeâ a permission slip for the end of the year field trip tucked away inside their bags.
and the minute you stepped outside with the rest of the kids, you were surprised to see that katsuki was one of the first parents there as he stood directly across from your classroom with crossed arms, an angry usual scowl on his face that made you laugh to yourself as you led your kids to sit down on a bench in a single file line until their parents physically came to get them or their vehicles pulled up.
âmilo!â you tapped his shoulder gently. âyour daddyâs over there!â
âDAAADDD!!â
milo jumped up and ran across the grass, his tiny arms out as katsuki smiled softly and crouched down to pick his son up and settle him on his lower abdomen, you wringing your fingers behind your back and walking up to them.
âwere you a brat?â he grunted.
ânope!â
âdid any kids mess with you?â
ânope!â
âdid you leave a mess?â
ânope!â
you giggled, and katsukiâs eyes snapped in your direction.
âhow was he?â
âhe did so good!â you gushed, patting miloâs back as he grinned. âwas my little helper and everything! didnât leave a single mess behind and helped me clean up after everyone else⊠he even made sure everyone was paying attention and not misbehaving.â
âyeah! yeah! see dad?â milo poked his dads cheek. âi didnât lie!â
ânever said you lied you little runt.â he scowled. ââŠbut good job.â
âthanks!â
katsuki set him down after milo started kicking his legs and saying something about the swings, him instantly running towards the playground and to the slide.
âdid he actually do all of that?â he spoke up.
âoh yes!â you quickly nodded. âiâve never had a kid do that before so it was really nice of him to!â
you detached your fingers from around your back and fiddled with them.
âyou teach him well katsuki.â
he scoffed and turned his head, cheeks pink as he tried to regain his composure.
âdamn right i do.â
you giggled then, the memory of milo telling you he didnât have a mother suddenly popping into your mind as you watched him happily slide down the blue slide head first.
âhey i donât mean to um..â you timidly began. âi donât mean to pry butââ
katsuki raised a brow at you and you snapped your mouth shut.
ânothing! nothing nevermindââ
âspit it out.â
âno itâs alright! sorry iââ
he glared and you cowered, smiling bashfully as you bit your bottom lip.
âmilo⊠milo mentioned that he didnât have a mommy? i was justâ wondering if that was trueâŠâ
âtchââ he shook his head. âthatâs what you were afraid of askinâ me?â
âi told you iâm scared of parentsâŠâ you slumped cutely, and he chuckled.
âitâs just me and him.â he answered. âhis momâs never been a part of our lives.â
your heart sunk a little, eyes sad as your gaze shifted to milo playing and racing around with another kid.
âdonât do that.â
you jumped and looked at katsuki.
âdoâ do whatââ
âlook all sad and shit.â
he hesitantly reached over and planted an index finger to the crease between your brows, the feeling rough as he tried to gently drag it down and smooth over the lines.
âitâs fine.â he grumbled, letting his arm fall to his side. âit doesnât bother him. at least i donât think it does.â
âno!â you spoke quickly, a crazed blush on your cheeks. âit doesnât! and milo speaks so highly of you⊠especially the lunches you make him.â
his brows furrowed. âhis lunch?â
âyeah!â you nodded excitedly. âyou prepare it so so well! how do you get his sandwiches to look like little bears? and his fruit?! every time i try to cut mine into stars they always break in halfâŠâ
he huffed out a laugh, finding your little whine funny as he reached over and ruffled up your hair, you smiling cheekily in response.
âdo you use molds?â you asked politely. âto shape out the bear?â
âfuck no.â he scoffed. âi do it myself.â
your eyes flew open.
âwhat?! so thatâs really just you? and the dinosaurs too? the pizza dinosaurs? and the waffles? the ones that looked like dynamite blastsââ
âjesus christ how much did that kid tell you?â
your face grew hot as you smacked a hand over your mouth.
âsorry!â you giggled. âi just was thinkingâ that his lunch was really cute and thoughtfulâŠâ you took your hand away from your face. âiâm really glad that you do little things like that for milo to make him happy.â
katsuki stared at you, your swarm of compliments and sweetness and sunshine and butterflies almost suffocating as you looked at him with those pretty doe eyes, his throat oddly closing up the longer he stared right back and allowed you to pull him into your world of wonder and abc blocks and puzzles.
but it wasnât suffocating in a bad way, not at all.
and⊠maybe he did want you to pull him in.
âdad dad dad!â
milo ran over, sweaty and red faced as he reached the two of you.
âthereâs a dead lizard in the slide!â
âa dead lizard?â you laughed, surprised as you reached for his little water bottle from his backpack on the ground and uncapped the lid, handing it over and ushering him to drink.
katsuki didnât know why the domestic sight of you doing that made him melt a bit.
a bit.
âyeah miss! it was big and gross.â he breathed out after gulping some of his icy cold water. âbut i buried him!â
his dads red eyes snapped down to his and narrowed.
âdonât tell me you touched that thing milo.â
âi did!â he giggled.
âoh my fucking godââ katsuki snatched his hand and started pulling him to the car as milo giggled and stuck his tongue out.
âitâs a prank! some other girl in my class did⊠but i helped with the dirt!â
you chuckled softly as you watched katsuki stop and roll his eyes, coming back over to you with a hyper milo.
âsay bye to your teacher ya little runt. and youâre still taking a shower when you get home!â
âbut i donât wanna take a showeerrr!â milo whined, letting go of his dads hand and running to you, you crouching and extending your arms big with a pretty smile.
âbye my love!â you hugged him tight as he giggled. âiâll see you tomorrow okay? and give your daddy a break. no more digging up dirt and playing with dead lizards.â
âkaayyyy!â
you both let go and he stepped back, pressing a quick kiss to your cheek before bouncing back to his dad.
katsuki choked on his spit.
âoi!â he barked. âyou canât just kiss her cheek milo the hell is going on with you?!ââ
âitâs okay donât worry!â you smiled kindly. âheâs just being sweet is all! i donât mind.â
âyou sure?â he pushed, milo snickering. âiââ
you waved him off and wrung your fingers behind your back, leaning forward.
âiâll see you tomorrow morning kats!â
and he froze, nodding hard as he quickly took miloâs hand and backpack before walking to the car, his heart completely aflame in his chest and cheeks red as he led his babbling son further into the parking lot and inside the car, buckling him up in his car seat before hopping in himself and starting the engine, unbelieving that he had barely just met you and he was already thinking and acting like a fucking dumbass.
âand then we learned the days of the week! oh!â and we learned numbers! i can count to fifteen dad!â
âthatâs good milo.â he responded, pulling out of the schools parking lot and craning his neck to see if he could catch a final glimpse of you and settling once he did, you so pretty and conversing so nicely with another kid until he was out of the lot.
âdid you eat all of your lunch? y/n tells me ya shared with her.â
âi did! i did share with her.â he grinned. âshe liked my lunch!â
âgood.â katsuki gave him a thumbs up through the rear view mirror. âthatâs good that you always share. especially with her.â
âyup yup! sheâs preeettyyy.â
he rolled his eyes, but a small smile grew at the corner of his lips as he nodded curtly.
âthat she is.â
katsuki continued to drop off his son personally at your classroom every morning before school.
even when it had been a couple of months into the year, at this point many students already used to their route to and out of class and their parents just dropping them off and leavingâ them not even allowed on campus as security rounded every corner and told any parents who wished to go in that they werenât supposed to, as per policy.
but not katsuki.
katsuki didnât give a fuck as he stormed through the main office and ignored the calls of the front desk lady, her already used to the rude asshole who came through the building every morning as he strode by and down the hall to class twenty four⊠wanting to see youâ his sonâs pretty kindergarten teacher that was sweet and joyful and someone who was everything he wasnât, his mind curious and filled with your giggles and smiles throughout the time that heâd gotten to know you and chat with you in the mornings and the afternoons, loving the way you were with milo and treated him like he was literally your ownâ always watching over him and making sure he had had enough to eat and drink and that his hands were washed when he wasnât around.
and even katsuki himselfâ you bringing him candy bags from their classroom parties or donuts that were passed to faculty in the mornings and saving yours for him, treats he always took and ate with no questions asked even though he wasnât a fan of sugary shit and junk food, always making the exception for you.
he had never experienced honest help like that⊠heâd never experienced someone caring enough about him and his son like the way you did so perfectly every single dayâŠ
and katsuki feared that he was a little obsessed.
âoh! miss y/n!â
âyes honey?â you responded kindly, opening a juice pouch for another student and handing it to them carefully during lunch.
milo dug into his lunch pail and pulled out a small container, sticking his hand up and offering it to you.
your brows furrowed, taking it from him.
âwhatâs this milo?â
âitâs from my dad!â
you stopped, heart dropping to your ass as you recounted his words.
from katsuki?
âyourâ your dad?â
âmhm!â
you shakily popped the lid of the container open, eyes widening and filling with hearts once you saw a mix of star shaped strawberries and watermelon and papayas, drizzled over with sparkling strings of honey and singular little blueberries scattered about.
âfor me?â you asked softly, crouching down next to milo. âmy loveâ are you sure this isnât for you? i think your dad cut these up for youââ
ânope! for you!â he gave you a big toothy smile before stuffing his mouth with crackers. âhe told me not to eat it and to give it to you.â
he swallowed and reached up, you tilting down your head so he could pat it just like you always did for him.
âi hope you like it miss! they look like the ones you told me looked cute!â
âiâ i love them milo.. thank you!â
you picked up a papaya piece and ate it, entirely dazed and love struck as your tastebuds savored over the sweet velvety thick honey, literally blinking back tears at how thoughtful and kind katsuki was.
he didnât have to do this at all⊠yet he took the time anyways out of his morning to do this for you.
and your heart nearly fucking gave out.
after school once you got your rowdy kids to sit neatly on the bench and wait for their parents, you extended a hand for milo and he hopped off the bench and took it, you both walking up to a waiting katsuki as he stood there with a soft smile on his face.
âhi kats!â
âhey.â he picked his son up and settled him over his abdomen, miloâs arms clinging around his neck and chin propped up on his dads shoulder as he was exhausted from a days worth of playing and learning.
âi wanted to umââ you peered up at him. âi umââ
his brows furrowed, and just as he was about to bark about you stumbling over your words, he stopped.
your bottom lip was trembling.
you hurriedly wiped your eyes.
âi wanted to thank youââ hic! âfâfor the star shaped fruit this morningââ
âwhy are you crying dumbass?â he mumbled, reaching over and wiping some tears with his rough fingers.
âbecause it was so nice!â you sobbed, shoulders shaking as you let him wipe your cheeks. âandâ and you put honey over it too! you didnât have to do any of that for me!â
âtchââ
he flicked your forehead softly, not enough to hurt you but enough to get you to snap out of your hiccups as you sniffled.
âitâs just fruit y/nââ
âbut itâs not.â you wiped your eyes again. ânot to me anywaysâŠâ
katsuki slowly lowered his arm, gaze tracing over your pretty face and perfect hair and the way you cried over something so stupid, his brain unable to process the fact that an act as simple as cutting fruit up for you could make you this happy, and it made him want to see what you saw for onceâ how you saw the world for exactly what it was and appreciated it regardless of how big or small things were, not snippy or angry or spiteful over everyone and thinking everything was out to get him and his son.
âcrybabyâŠâ he grumbled. âiâm glad you liked it though.â
âi did kats.. a lot. thank you.â you wiped the last of your tears and smiled. âiâm sorry i cried.â
what a pretty sweet girlâŠ
he shook his head and hoisted milo up, him completely knocked out with drool coming out of his mouth as katsuki felt it run down his shoulder, barely even noticing that though as his entire focus was trained purely on you.
was it okay if he⊠asked you out? would it be weird? would you tell him to fuck off?
katsuki internally rolled his eyes at his stupid fucking high school boy thoughts, though it didnât alleviate the gnawing feeling that if you did tell him to fuck off⊠that heâd be angrily mortified at his fail and probably lose the right to talk to you since itâd be too awkward to.
but you were just so fucking sweet. all of the time.
âlisten uhââ he cleared his throat, face growing hot. âi was wondering if ya wanted to eat dinner with me⊠sometime.â
you stared, eyes big and shocked and katsuki took it defensively and entirely the wrong way.
âforget it.â he snapped. âforget it i didnât say shitââ
âno! no noââ you quickly shook your head. âno itâs okay i would!â
he stopped.
âyou would?â
âof course!â you expressed sweetly, cheeks hurting from how big you were smiling as you tried to simmer down your giddy squeals. âiâd love to have dinner with youâŠâ
his tense shoulders slowly relaxed, an eventual small smile growing on his face.
âaâalright uhâŠâ he sighed. âiâd prefer to take ya somewhere nice but i donât really have anyone to watch miloââ
you shook your head again, brows pinched. âoh no katsâ we donât have to go anywhere at all! we can order something in at your place and eat with milo? orâ or my place?â
âmy place.â he replied. âand iâll cook.â
he cooks?!
âokay!â you giggled, your hand reaching up and patting over miloâs sleepy head gently. âsounds good!â
katsuki and you agreed on the details of the date after and bid each other bashful goodbyes, swooning as you watched him walk away into the parking lot with a sleeping milo in his arms and feeling like none of this was fucking real, for you couldnât believe someone as handsome and cool as katsuki would ever be interested in someone like you.
and funnily enough, he felt the complete opposite, stressed and extra snappy as he cleaned the house from top to bottom (though it barely needed it), unnecessarily fixed the positioning of the furniture and made milo put away his toys, him not even whining or protesting like he usually did solely because the little man knew you were comingâ pretty miss y/n with the pretty smile and the nicest lady he had ever met, and one he secretly hoped would be his new mommy every time he saw you and his dad converse before and after school, thinking you would fit the role perfectly.
especially after his dad had given you those fruits as a present!
âmilo!â katsuki called. âcome âere!â
his son ran into the kitchen, toy race car in hand. âwhat!â
âbe good today, ya hear me?â he pushed, face stern as he flipped a kitchen towel over his shoulder and sautĂ©ed vegetables in his frying pan. âplease milo. donât try to be funny and do somethinâ to scare y/n off.â
milo gave him a look.
âscare miss y/n off? dad youâre gonna scare her off not me!â he giggled. âsilly.â
âyeah..â he grunted. âyouâre probably right but iâm just sayinâ. iâm thinking of the time grandma came over and ya put that fake rat in her purse to try and be funny.â
âohhh yeeeeah!â he doubled over in little fits of laughter, holding his stomach as he did. âi did do that!â
âsee what i mean?â katsuki grumbled, snatching the kitchen towel from his shoulder and throwing it down on the counter top, stepping back to peek in the oven. âyou better not do that with y/n please.â
âi wonât!â he grinned. ânot when sheâs about to be my new mommy!â
katsuki choked as his spit went down the wrong pipe, bending over and coughing uncontrollably in his elbow before spinning around and looking at his son with wide eyes and pink cheeks.
âthe hell you just say?â
âwhat!â milo tilted his head. âthat y/n is gonna be my new mommy?â
his eyes grew even wider as he dropped the pan he was holding on the stove and leaned back, running his hands over his face.
âoh you little runt please donât say that in front of her, alright?â
he pouted. âwhy not?â
âyouâll scare her off! worse than when you put that fake rat in grandmas purse!â
âboooo!â milo stuck his tongue out and crossed his little arms over his chest. âwhatever.â
âoi!â
âwhat!â
katsukiâs doorbell chimed and milo booked it to the front door.
âmissss preettyyyy!!ââ
âmilo get your ass back here!ââ
katsuki swung the door open and swooped his son in his arms just as he was about to pounce on you in midair, you giggling and covering your mouth as you watched the scene unfold before you.
âiâm sorryââ
âhiii misss y/nnn!â milo greeted happily, dangling off of his dad as katsuki tried to stop him from wiggling out of his grip. âiâm so exciteeeddd!ââ
âhi my love!â you gushed warmly, smile wide as you extended your arms and walked forward, taking milo in your arms and setting him on your hip. âhow are you? you excited to hang out with meee?â
âyes! yes!â he vigorously nodded. âi wanna show you all my race cars!â
âoh i canât wait to seeee!â you bounced him on your hip and he giggled, you turning your attention and smiling at katsuki.
âhi kats!â
âthe little brat is hoggingââ
milo blew a silly raspberry at him before wrapping his arms around you and shoving his face into your neck.
you laughed and ran a soothing hand over the little manâs back, katsuki rolling his eyes before stepping to the side and letting you in, shutting the door behind him and leading you over to the kitchen.
and jesus christ you looked beautiful, him noting that pink was what you mainly wore on the day to day as he eyed your small rosy cardigan, you walking through his home and looking around and oblivious to the way he was staring at you like a fucking creep.
katsuki bit the inside of his cheek as he watched your eyes scan your surroundings, stupidly nervous about what youâd think of his house and furniture and minuscule decorations, and annoyed with himself that heâd even give a shit about something like that, trying to occupy himself and ignore it as he looked in the oven and lifted lids of various pots and pans, checking over tonightâs dinner.
âiâm sorry iâm behindâŠâ he grumbled and waved his hand around. âhad to clean the house and shower milo since he decided to play in the fuckinâ mud this morning.â
âoh you donât have to apologize for that kats!â you looked at him worriedly. âyou donât have to apologize for anything i totally understandâŠâ
you hoisted milo further up your hip and grinned. âiâm just happy to spend time with the both of you.â
katsuki felt smoke puff out of his red ears as he nodded and scratched the back of his neck, turning slightly and lifting the lids from his pots and pans again.
âmiss preettyyyy!â milo whined. âwhen can i show you my race cars?!â
katsuki scowled and you laughed.
ânow honey! but how about we move some of your toys to the living room so i can spend time with both you and dad? how does that sound?â
âyayayay!!â milo cheered, bouncing on your hip as you smiled cutely and set him down, him running off down the hall and you quickly following after him.
milo talked you through his entire collection of race cars as you both sat down on the living room rugâ telling you the model of each and every one, what they did, how fast they went, they places theyâd gone, and which were his favorites as you excitedly talked to him about his cars and shifted conversation between him and katsuki, a task he was surprised you did so efficiently, but then quickly realized that that was literally your fucking job everyday dealing with little brats talking your ears off and you attending all of them at the same time.
and when it came around to dinner time, you helped katsuki set up even through his snapping and huffing that you absolutely shouldnât, you giving him a silly little face as you assisted anyways and set up miloâs booster seat, picking him up and sitting him down before buckling him up while katsuki placed your dishes on the tableâ
and gourmet fucking dishes at that.
you were bewildered. absolutely bewildered as you gawked over the lasagna platter he set before you, it delicate and fancy looking as he had even draped sauce on your gray ceramic plate in gourmet intricate designs, knowing that katsuki had mentioned to you he was a chef over the several months youâd gotten to know him, but you didnât know exactly to which extent that chef occupation stretched to.
âkatsâŠâ you murmured. âwhat do you do for a living.â
âi told you idiot.â he passed over a couple of napkins and you gratefully took them, taking one then and wiping down miloâs mouth as he messily ate his cut up pieces of lasagna. âiâm a cook.â
âyeah but what kind? where?â
âwhy?â he gruffed. âdoes it look like shit?â
âno!â you giggled. âabsolutely not the opposite actually! this is probably the most beautiful lasagna iâve ever seen in my life.â
âduh.â he responded, but sent you a small smile as he ate. âiâm an executive chef down at a restaurant in the city.â
your jaw dropped. âthe city?! youâre so cool kats! oh my goodness!â
his face flushed.
âmy dad says his boss is a piece ofââ
âdonât say it!â katsuki snapped at his son, eyes wide as you slapped a hand over your mouth to keep yourself from laughing, not wanting to encourage the little man any further.
âmilo i told ya not to cuss until youâre tenââ
âten?!â you giggled loudly and let your hand fall, sticking your fork in your lasagna and eating. âas long as he cusses with you and not at you⊠i think it should be fine!â
katsuki stopped.
you get it. or you rile up his bad cussing habit. either or he might as well have found his fucking soulmate.
âmiss pretty!â milo called.
âyes my love?â
âdo you have a boyfriend?â
katsuki smacked a hand on his forehead and you snickered.
âi donât!â you grinned. âwhy milo?â
âbecause i want you to be my newââ
âmilo if ya shut your mouth right now iâll buy you two new race cars tomorrow.â
his son gasped dramatically and pursed his lips shut, eyes big and excited as he tried to contain himself and do as told.
âhis new what?â you tilted your head cutely, katsukiâs heart hammering against his rib cage as he stuffed his mouth with food.
he shrugged. âthe fuck should i know?â
âbut i wanna know!â you pouted, taking your final bites of your yummy dinner.
he swallowed.
âdo you want dessert?â
you gasped. âoh my god yes! i do!â
âthen i suggest you shut your mouth too.â
you laughed over the table, quickly nodding as you pursed your lips like milo and pinched your thumb and index finger together, running it across your mouth and twisting your wrist like a pretend lock before dropping your hand in your lap, giddy and excited over dessert.
katsuki playfully rolled his eyes and stood, collecting all of your plates and stacking them on top of each other before taking them over to the sink.
âdad!â milo called as he bounced in his seat, katsuki grunting in response.
âwhatâd you make for dessert!â
âmochi.â
âyaaaayyyyy!â he cheered happily. âcan i eat it with y/n in the living room?â
katsukiâs brows furrowed. âthe living room?â
âyeah!â milo exclaimed. âso i can keep showing her my race cars!â
he struggled for a moment before eventually nodding. âalright⊠but donât make a mess i just cleanedââ
you and milo ended up building a fucking fort once he gave you the all clear, you both saying something about it adding to the ambiance as you used the couch cushions for makeshift walls and miloâs choo choo train sheets for the roof and tent, katsuki before he knew it his entire living room a fucking mess as the three of you sat amongst the scattered about pillows and blankets eating your bits of mochi, milo mainly inside the little tent you made for him as you and katsuki were too big to fit inside with him.
his living room was a mess⊠but he didnât mind.
katsuki didnât mind the mess.
your way of living was entirely different from his, as yours had everything to do with mess due to your full time job with kidsâ paint all over your hands and face, marker stains on your clothes and sticky glue residue and pieces of cut up construction paper somehow in your hair, all things katsuki despised for years and made sure his house never reflected any of that.
but in that moment, with his living room in complete disarray and the positioning of his couches utterly fucked up? the dishes still in the sink and the table still set?
katsuki didnât fucking care.
because he had never seen his son so happy. he had never seen him so excited and hyper as you helped him set up and somehow tie fairy lights that katsuki had somewhere up in his attic for holiday seasons around the fort, you looking fucking gorgeous under the dim dark lightning as you read milo one of his favorite childrenâs books you got from his little shelf in his roomâ âthe very hungry caterpillar,â one of your favorites too as his son followed along with you and giggled whenever youâd make a silly joke only a five year old would find funny.
and katsuki felt warm⊠thatâs all he ever felt when he was around you.
is this what it was like to be a family?
âoh my goodness i almost forgot!â you quickly sat up and handed milo the book, him taking it as you crawled over and reached for your bag. âi brought something for you honey!â
milo gasped and sat up. âreally?! what?!â
you pulled out a ceramic cream colored globe with hollowed out stars, a small bulb inside as you scooched on your knees back over to a curious katsuki and milo.
âwoah..â his son whispered. âwhat is it?â
you smiled and reached for the nearest outlet, plugging in the little globe and flicking a switch.
the darkened room illuminated itself then with the soft murmur of a lullaby playing, star shaped shadows slowly shifting around the entire living room as milo gasped and stood, frantically pointing at each moving shadow and gushing while his little mind was trying to process how cool and fascinating this was.
and all katsuki could do was stare at you.
stare at the way you sat back on your ankles and pointed with milo, counting how many stars you could see before it shifted and repeating that for fun, stare at the way both of your eyes glowed with wonder and curiosity, and stare at the way you smiled so gracefully and looked unreal now under the starry lights, his heart on overdrive at how gentle you were and how much you cared about his son.
about him.
and katsuki was sure then he was absolutely sick over you.
you all settled after a while of playing games and eating more mochi, especially milo, the little lullaby knocking him out as he snored next to you in his fort, you and katsuki laying down next to each other as you stared up at the shifting stars.
âiâm sorry i made such a mess in your living room..â you whispered bashfully. âi promise iâll pick everything up before i leave.â
he shook his head. âdonât worry about it i can pick up. itâs fine.â
you smiled at him warmly before looking back up at the ceiling, feet planted on the blanketed flooring as your mindlessly moved your propped up knees side to side.
âwas it hard raising milo on your own kats?â you asked softly, fingers wrung together neatly on your tummy.
âit was at first.â he mumbled. âbut i got used to doinâ it on my own.â
you frowned, not particularly happy with the idea that katsuki had to raise a human being on his own without any help or guidance, wishing that he wouldâve had someone there to help him every once in a while, or just be there for him.
âyou did an exceptional job, okay?â you began. âyou should know that... milo is such an honest kid⊠and heâs so precious too.â
katsukiâs eyes softened, and he couldnât bring himself to look at you in fear of you noticing his stupid flustered face as he opted for keeping his gaze glued to the starry ceiling, your sugary peachy perfume not fucking helping as he decided to sit up instead.
âhe is.â he grunted softly. âdonât know how his mom didnât see that.â
you faltered and sat up with him.
âwhat do you mean?â
katsuki eyed you before looking down, hands flat behind him propping himself up as he thought.
âah⊠milo happened because of some random hookup i had in college.â he mumbled. âdidnât love her or anythinâ, i barely knew her but still told her iâd support her and the baby obviously.â
you nodded, encouraging him to continue.
âi was there through her entire pregnancy and when milo was born⊠but the minute she got discharged from the hospital and took him with her, i woke up at four in the morninâ with a knock on my door and milo left abandoned on my doorstep.â
you gasped, hand hovering over your mouth.
âare youâ are you serious?â
katsuki nodded.
âshe wouldnât answer my calls, my texts, nothing. i went to her house and found out she took the first flight she could to fuck knows where.â he shook his head bitterly. âbut i didnât give a shit about me iâll raise him i donât care. it was never about me.
he looked at you. âit was about milo. i didnât want him to know that his âmomâ left him behind like that, and i didnât want him to think it was his fault or anythinâ⊠shits ridiculous.â
katsuki shifted his gaze back up to the ceiling. âstill donât know how she could ever do something like that.â
the sound of a hiccup make his eyes widen and snap back to you, your eyes filled with fat tears as your bottom lip wobbled, hands coming up to cup over your mouth and nose as you tried to keep it in.
âyouâre crying?â
you nodded, squeaky slight sobs slipping past your throat as you strained to keep everything down.
âthatâs so cruel.â you cried softly, embarrassingly drowning in your tears in front of him yet again. âyou didnât deserve that at all kats⊠milo didnât deserve that you both shouldâve had such a good mommy andâ and a good support systemââ
katsuki pushed himself up and wrapped his big arms around your shoulders, pulling you in and rubbing a hand up and down your back comfortingly.
âyou cry over everything y/n.â
âsââ hic! ââsorryââ
he laid the side of his head on top of yours as you shook, somehow feeling guilty of what he told you just because of how much you were crying.
more than when he gave you those star shaped fruits.
âoiâŠâ
katsuki pulled back and looked at you, reaching up and wiping your tears with his thumbs.
âdonât cry babyâŠâ
baby?!
you funnily sobbed even more and shoved your face in his chest, him chuckling as he wrapped his arms back around you and gently swayed side to side.
âstop it idiot.â he mumbled. âitâs fine. it happened years ago nâ milo and i have always been alright on our own.â
âŠbut he wanted you now.
now that he knew what it was like to be softly cared for by someone precious like you, to feel what it was like to be warm and fuzzy and sunshine and rainbows and candy all of the time⊠and katsuki wanted you so. bad.
âi know..â you hiccuped. âand iâm really glad but i just wish you had someone.â
you pulled away and quickly wiped your wet cheeks. âmâsorry i cried all over your shirtââ
âdonât give a fuck.â
you breathed out a laugh and dropped your hands in your lap, looking at your fingers as you sniffed.
you were always crying for him.
ây/n.â
âyeah?â
he looked to the side with a blush to his cheeks.
âthanks for cominâ today.â
you smiled brightly and nodded.
âof course kats! how could i not?â you looked behind you to a sleeping milo, reaching over and pulling his blanket a little further up his shoulders. âi want you to know that i wanna be there for you and miloâŠâ
he shifted his gaze to you as you turned back around.
âwhetherâ whether you wanna keep seeing me or notââ you gnawed nervously at the inside of your cheek. âwhich i hope you do! butâ but if not thatâs totally fine i just want to be there for you bothâŠâ
how were you so pure? so thoughtful?
âwhy the hell wouldnât i wanna keep seeing you?â he huffed, grumbly and embarrassed as he pursed his lips. âiâd be stupid as fuck not toâŠâ
you blushed, happy shiny eyes looking at him eagerly like he was everything and more, and he wasnât used to people looking at him like that whatsoever as your gaze flickered down to his lips and back up.
and you were so pretty.
ây/n.â
âmhm?â
he slowly leaned closer.
âwould you be mad if i made a move on youââ
âof course notââ
katsuki lunged and planted his rough lips on yours, you tasting like straight sugar and honey as he placed his big hands on the sides of you head and held you like a piece of delicate glass, kissing and sliding your tongues in each others mouths rather quickly and breathy as he moved one hand from your pretty face down to your waist to grip it.
you placed your hands on the blanketed floor and slowly crawled over to him during the makeout, him reaching and wrapping the rest of his built muscly arms around your waist and pulling you to straddle his lap as he ran his hands up and down your sides and back, wanting to feel you as much as he possibly could and squeeze you tight as he gulped your little self down, brows furrowed and lips red.
katsuki pulled away and ran his fiery wet mouth across your jaw and to the spot right below your ear on the side of your neck, your hands gripping his broad shoulders as he bit and sucked and still squeezed you, manhandling you in a way and eating you up.
your eyes fluttered open once you heard a slight rustle, your line of sight catching milo shifting a little in his sleep.
âkâkatsââ you breathlessly whispered, pushing a little at his shoulders.
he grunted.
âmiloââ you pointed. âheâs waking upââ
âthe fucks that gotta do with usââ
âkats!â
he groaned and pulled his mouth from you, scowling over to see his son only shifted positions and was now directly facing the both of you, tiny eyes closed as he drooled and was probably dreaming about race cars and his dads shark shaped pb & j sandwiches.
âthe little runt is fineââ he shoved his face back in and gnawed at your neck again as you gasped.
ânooo!â you whined and giggled softly. ânow iâm scared heâs gonna wake upâŠâ
he huffed and officially pulled away this time, red eyes dilated and half lidded as he looked over your pinky cheeks and shy face, the purple and blue mark he made on your neck making the right side of his lips curve up into a little prideful smirk, you too distracted to notice over the way he clutched and loosened up the hold on your waist repeatedly.
katsuki kept you on his lap and scooched himself down, laying on his back and head on the pillow as he nudged you to lay on him completely over his chest and body, you more than happy to do so as you settled your head on his pecs and got comfortable with his strong arms around youâ feeling so safe and looked after.
and you hadnât expected to sleep over⊠but you just didnât wanna leave, and katsuki sure as hell didnât want you to either as you softly and quietly talked over the small tinkling of the lullaby and miloâs soft breathing, shadowy stars still slowly shifting around you as you easily switched between various topicsâ ranging from serious to silly as you ran a loving hand over his chest and his on your back, the both of you subconsciously lulling each other to sleep until you were just as passed out on the floor as milo.
since then, katsuki didnât wanna let you out of his sight.
as if he wasnât already involved enough with miloâs school activities because of you, this man became a fucking member of the pta and volunteered himself for every single event so as long as you were there, helping you out especially with fundraisers and bake sales as his desserts always sold out quicker than anything else and made bank as he snickered and boasted at the other parents that werenât selling as much, you giving him a silly glare that never failed to shut him right up as he wanted to be good for you and not upset you.
the front desk lady even went from hating him to loving him, katsuki grumbling and chucking her a bag of leftover fundraiser chocolate chip cookies on her desk as he passed by to drop off milo in the mornings, serving as a ticket way in and to get her to shut up now instead of yelling at him from down the hall.
and he continued to give you yummy star shaped fruits.
except now some days they looked like hearts or little flowers, and he always made his fruit assortments different so you wouldnât get tired of them and added different dippings like caramel or chocolate hazelnut, you gushing and nearly bawling literally everyday whenever youâd open the container and milo giggling at you during lunch.
you also never went a day without stopping by or staying over at katsukiâs house since your first initial date, your days so much fun and filled with love as you ate lunch or dinner with the two of them, laughing at miloâs sporadic comments or katsukiâs barking and scolding while you either played with milo, helped katsuki clean up the house and him the kitchen or you the kitchen and vice versa, or simply cuddle on the couch with kisses shared amongst you and katsukiâ the three of you with milo seated peacefully and comfortable in the middle while you watched a movie or lulled the little man to sleep.
and katsuki had never felt so complete as he started leaving messes behind without even realizing or stressing about it, and he didnât know when the fuck it was that he turned so soft and sappyâ the change a bit strange to those who knew him as he was just a teeny weeny less explosive and angry over small things, and more so when it came to you and his son.
âmake sure you keep your little bucket hat on honey, okay? itâs hot today and i donât want you to tire yourself out milo.â
the end of the year field trip for the kindergarteners this year was a voyage to the local wildlife sanctuary, a gorgeous exhibit that sat right next to the national science museum in your city, its main attraction being the 25 foot koi pond and butterfly wonderland that housed various butterfly species and their little habitatsâ the kids field trip assignment being to count how many they see throughout the day and pick one koi fish and butterfly to draw on their journals.
katsuki, of course, volunteered as a chaperone.
âsingle file line please my loves!â you called, hand by your mouth. âand donât seperate from your friends okay?! everyone stay where i can seeââ
âoi!â katsuki barked, snapping and pointing at a rogue kid who decided to break free from the line and run across the grass. âthe fuck do you think youâre doing!ââ
âkats!â you breathed out a shocked laugh. âyouâre gonna get me fired if you talk to the kids like thatââ
âshit! sorryâ iâm sorry baby hold onââ
katsuki booked it across the grassy lawn and caught up with the running kid on the other side, the rest of your class giggling and cackling as katsuki swooped him up with one arm and dangled him upside down while he kicked and swung tiny punches to his abs, katsuki not even flinching.
âdo that again and see what happens brat.â he spat, the little kid not having a single care in the world as he giggled with the rest of the class, all of them deviously planning to piss katsuki off as much as possible since his outbursts were just funny.
âokay okayââ you smiled apologetically at him before taking the dangling boy from his arm and setting him back down, fixing over his clothes and backpack before patting his head and standing upright.
âno more running alright?â you placed your hands on your hips. âdonât we wanna see some cute little fishies and butterflies?!â
âyeeeeaaaahhhh!!â the babies cheered excitedly, each of them immediately returning to their designated spots in two lines as you grabbed your line leaders tiny hands and started the walk down the grassy field to the sanctuary.
âlemme help ya with one line babyââ katsuki went to grab one of your line leaders hands until they burst into a crying fit.
âno! no! i wanna hold miss y/nâs hand!â
katsukiâs eyes narrowed. âwhatâs so bad about me hah?â
âyouâre ugly! miss y/n is pretty!â
the rest of the kids ruptured, laughing as katsuki sent death glares to a literal child, about to spout something nasty until his eyes flickered to your pleading face, his muscles instantly relaxing as he casted his gaze to the ground with a grumble.
you giggled and gave him a sweet kiss to his cheek in gratitude, his face flushing as he eyed your deep blue overalls and pinky shirt and the way your sunglasses sat pretty in your hair on top of your head.
âwhat honey?â you tilted your head.
ânone of your business.â
you snickered and nudged your shoulder with his, looking over at milo from somewhere in the line to make sure he was okay before walking up the front gates of the sanctuary.
the wildlife guide met you once you all were cleared and inside the greenhouse, your kids absolutely restless as they âlistenedâ to whatever the guide had to say and just wanting to break free and run around to look at all of the fishies and butterflies like you had promised, and you not even listening either as you drooled over the way katsukiâs muscles looked under his t-shirt.
âany questions sweetheart?â
âhuh?â your eyes snapped to the guide, cheeks pink as you quickly shook your head. âoh! no not at all! thank you maâam!â
âalrighty then! just please make sure to tell your studentsââ
suddenly your two perfect lines broke apart as the kids started running around and pointing at fluttering butterflies and screaming, the guide looking like sheâd seen a ghost as the usual quiet and serene sanctuary was now the epitome of noise.
âiâm sorry! iâm sorryââ you guiltily apologized. âmy kids will settle down theyâre just excited is allâŠâ
the guide kindly waved you off before walking back to the main office, you turning and expecting to see katsuki standing next to you, but faltering once you saw he was on the other side and pulling one of your kids down that had climbed up the gates of one of the sanctuaries closed off exhibits.
âoh god..â you mumbled, about to make your way over until you spotted milo in a corner alone, staring at one of the koi ponds.
âmilo?â you called softly, walking up to him.
your heart sank once he turned and you saw his little tear filled eyes and wobbling lip.
âoh no!â you gasped, crouching down and taking his tiny hands in yours. âwhatâs wrong my love? are you okay? is it too hot?â
you pushed some of his spiky blonde bangs back from his sweaty forehead as he shook his head.
âi canât draw!â he sniffled. âand the koi fishies keep movingâŠâ
your shoulders relaxed in relief.
âthatâs okay!â you took his journal and pencil, wiping his wet cheeks as you smiled sweetly. âas long as weâre patient with the fishies, theyâll swim back and you can draw them again!â
you opened his journal and flipped to a new blank page, the both of you waiting quietly until a big chubby koi fish swam by.
âthere!â milo whispered and pointed, and you quickly drew what you could, just making out the shape of the body before it disappeared again.
âand now we wait!â you grinned up at him. âthe fishy will come back around and youâll be able to draw it again.â
âkayyy!!â
âand you can draw milo. iâve seen your artwork in class, remember? you always get a gold star!â
he giggled. âi do miss pretty!â
you ran a soothing hand over his back before passing his journal back.
ânow you try honeyââ
âi love you.â
you froze and looked up, katsuki standing there with a sincere and vulnerable look in his eye.
you stood from your crouched position and looked at him wide eyed.
âiâm notâ iâm not good at this kinda shit at all and i always say somethinâ dumb but i do.â
âkatsââ
âand iâm sorry it took me so long to say it but i tried to make it obvious with my stupid shaped fruits nâ shit⊠and i always thought you kinda just knewâŠâ
milo was too busy focusing on catching glimpses of the koi fish to draw with his tongue peeking out to even realize what was going on next to him.
âyouâre so patient baby. the way you are with me⊠the way you are with my kid. i need that in my life and i canât live without it at this pointâŠâ he spoke genuinely. âyour fuckinâ fault.â
you giggled and covered your face with your hands, face hot to the touch and bashful at everything he was telling you.
âcome here.â
you listened and walked forward, dropping your arms as you wrapped them around his abdomen and his around your head, squishing you in his big chest as he propped his chin up.
âdo you love me too or what.â he frowned. âcause if not this is shitty and embarrassingââ
âno i do!â you giggled, pulling away and giving him a cheeky smile. âi do kats you know that⊠i love you. so much.â
he smiled and pecked your lips. âgood, miss pretty.â
katsuki had heard the entire conversation you had with his son, your words seeping with such tenderness and care, and he almost passed the fuck out when he thought about how much of a blessing you were, something heâd be a fool not to snatch up and take as he nearly fucking proposed to you in the middle of the sanctuary like an idiot, not knowing at all how a person that pissed people off for a living was loved by a woman who was the definition of pure.
because how the fuck did an angry dunce like him, get lucky with an angel like you?
âoh my god that dumbass kid is climbinâ the fence againâ oi!â
katsuki quickly kissed your cheek before flying to the other side of the sanctuary, you doubling over in laughter as you watched him fight and tug and pull, your student not budging at all whatsoever and the rest of the kids laughing at how red katsuki was getting in the face.
âmiss pretty!â milo tugged at your overalls, and you looked down to see him holding up his open journal, a cute wobbly sketch of a koi fish on the page as he smiled big. âi drew it! do you like it?!â
âwow milo!â you gushed, crouching down to his level and taking the journal, examining his artwork. âthis is beautiful my love! see? i knew you could do it!â
âthank youuu!â he responded sweetly, his little cheeks blushing as he looked at you like he had another thing he wanted to say.
you tilted your head. âdo you wanna tell me something else?â
âyeaaahhh.â he dragged. âplease love my dad⊠i know heâs mean butâ but he doesnât mean it!â
your eyes softened as milo looked down at his shoes.
âand love me too⊠because i want you to be my new mommyâŠâ
you quickly blinked back tears as to not alarm milo, surprisingly successful at preventing them from slipping down your face.
âi do love your dad honey⊠and you. the both of you i love so so much.â
he beamed. âreally?!â
you nodded, pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek. âand i thought i was already your mommy milo!â
the little man gasped and flung his arms around your neck.
âYAAAYYY!â he yelled. âmiss pretty is my mommy! i have a mommy now!â
ever since you came into katsukiâs life, his way of living materialized into something completely different.
because now instead of his house being plain and boring and organized from top to bottom without a single thing out of placeâ it was warm now⊠happy. and never went a day without smelling like cookies and vanilla as you and katsuki baked with milo any chance you could, set up more pillow forts and tents with starry ceilings, and slept with milo in his room as he snored content in his little bed, you sprawled directly on top of katsuki like he always had you as you both every day intended to leave after putting his son to rest, but ending up falling asleep on the floor each time.
the three of you were a little family.
and katsuki didnât know why he hated messes so much in the first place.
because mess signified that something had been there, something sunny and tender, something that signified family as you peppered kisses over both your boysâ faces everyday and katsuki drowning you in his rough onesâ your man squeezing you so tight all of the time and anywhere, as milo wasnât just his son now but yours too as you took him to the park or to the aquarium on your days off, the three of you gently living as both of miloâs small hands were occupied now instead of just one.
katsukiâs life looked like it had been generously cherished and lived in for a change.
and katsuki bakugo loved messes.
so as long as they were from you.
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Warnings| slight size kink, slight cervix fucking, mirror sex.
âYouâve never had anyone this deep,â Katsuki muses. You assume he must have deduced this from your expression. From what you can make of it through your blurry vision, you look stunned. Disbelieving of how far inside you his cock is lodged.
He shifts his hips and your eyes cross. Katsuki chuckles. âOh, sweetheart,â he coos. âThatâs really fucking sad.â He withdraws from your body, hips sticky with your mixed arousal and slams into you with enough force to jostle you up the bed. Your lips part on a silent scream, your reflection in the mirror above Katsukiâs bed mocking you. His head blocks your view as he drags his tongue across your parted lips, dipping it inside of your mouth to coax you into a kiss.
Katsuki savors every shift in your expression. Gaze trained on the way your lips tremble each time he bumps into your g spot. The way your brows twitch downward when he grinds his cock into the sensitive, gummy walls. âCanât believe no one has ever reached your g spot,â he laughs. He adjusts you slowly, lifting your thighs from around his waist to perch them on his shoulders. His weight sinks you into the mattress like this his cock reaching somewhere even deeper.
âThisââ he smirks near your ear, grasping the fleshy lobe between his teeth as he cups your ass to hold you steady, his cock catches on something inside of you, a place that feels weird and sensitive, that has your legs threatening to kick out ââis your cervix, angel.â
Your lids flutter and Katsuki tuts. âEyes open, baby,â he warns, words shaky. âLook at yourself,â he reminds you and your eyes immediately rise to the mirror on his ceiling, you can barely focus on anything but the bruising of your pussy under Katsukiâs fucking but your expression becomes burned into your brain. âYou look so good getting good dick,â he laughs. âFucked out and adorable.â
Some sort of your brain registers that youâve scratched red marks into he pale skin of Katsukiâs back. That you can see the shifting muscles of his back with each of his thrusts. That you have a perfect view of his tight ass and the way those muscles flex. But in the forefront of your mind you can only hear Katsukiâs words.
âGood dick has you glowing,â he gloats. And you have to agree. You look good spread under him, eyes hazy and lips parted to gulp air into your lungs. âMy dick has you glowing.â
You can only whine your agreement. You donât think youâve ever looked this debauched or felt this sexy getting fucked but once again Katsuki takes a first you donât even know existed. Youâre creaming around his cock before you even notice it and his pace barely even falters. He fucks you right through it words of encouragement whispered into your neck.
You lock eyes with your reflection and you swear it winks back at you. Finally, weâre getting the dick we deserve, echoes in your mind but youâre too cock drunk to decipher whether itâs a conscious thought or not. All you know is you agree.
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Synopsis ! Jake had taken you as his own after Tsu'tey's passing, leaving no one to care for you. Things had been good before your relationship with him had blurred along growing of age. You and him fought all the time; argued each other's ear off and tonight was no different-- except words have been said, severing the already damaged bond. Content & warning Jake sully x Daughter!Reader, Sully kids x Sister!Reader Neytiri x Daughter!Reader. (wc; 3104)
Jake knew a saying; held onto it ever since he had resided amongst Naâviâ every person is born twice. While he believed that it meant that the second time is when you earn your place here in Pandora, Eywa had a clever way of broadening the idea. His very children were proof of it.
He thinks itâs the great motherâs way of compensation, perhaps a second chance for him to do betterâ to do his very best to keep them alive on behalf of those he lost.Â
While Kiri was a special case enough, you too were an odd one.Â
You are Tsuâtey's daughter. Turns out, he had someone in secret while he trained to become oloâeyktanâ when he was supposed to take Neytiri for himself. It was tabooâ absolutely wrong to become unfaithful to oneâs mate. But following the carnage of the great war, when Tsuâtey had so selflessly sacrificed his life, only then did Tsiâewa came forward; told everyone of their love and what could have been. She was a simple songstress along Ninat, but it was her round and bulging belly that caught everyoneâs attention.
It caused an uproar and understandably so. After all, Neytiri had only announced her rebellion with Jake not long before, but when the people connected the dots themselves and both stories had become one, they understood that their hearts merely yearned for another and no one should have ever dictated otherwise. Arrangements had been made and condolences were exchangedâ everyone can only look back and wish that things could have been different.
Jake was supposed to take you under his wing as a way of honoring himâ he owed Tsuâtey his life and perhaps an apology as big as so. But after your mother had unfortunately died during your birth, he knew to himself that he had to take you in; not as a responsibility, but as his own blood and flesh. His first daughter.
You were the loudest baby, he recalled. That day, Jake had rocked your body back and forth in his arms frantically, while Moâat and Neytiri did everything within their power to help TsĂŹ'ewa. Your cries were ear-splitting, enough to wake the whole clan up.Â
âJust what do I do with you,â He muttered under his breath, eyebrows knitted in frustrationâ just where do he hold you? Is he doing it right? Are you hurt? Why are you crying so loud?
âJake, the baby!â Neytiriâs shout from inside had cut his train of loud thoughts, snapping back to your bawling. He wasnât doing such a good job.Â
âIâm trying, Neytiriâ this thing wonât budge.â
Neytiri had emerged from the hut, stomping her way to Jake with a scowl. "That is not a thing, you skxawng!" she exclaimed before gently scooping you up from his arms, cooing softly to youâ though it was more like mocking him instead. âDoes Jake here make you cry?â She said, patting your thigh soothingly. âHeâs not at all pleasant to look at, but you have to get used to it.âÂ
Almost in an instant, your cries had died down. You babbled along with her, like you were agreeing with her every word. He slowly pulled himself closer to Neytiri, eyes wide with curiosity as he watched your small hands playing with her long braids. âHeh, she has Tsuâteyâs eyes,â He whispers, unable to look away.Â
The flap of the hut swinging open was the only thing that got their attention, momentarily away from yours as they looked at Moâat with anticipation. With a single shake of her head, sorrow surged their hearts, eyes traveling back to your innocent ones. They mourned for you; an unknowing child should never have to carry such grief. They had to make a choiceâ A responsibility they werenât expecting to have so early.Â
Jake mindlessly trails his finger down your stomach, gently, like you were the most fragile thing. Your little hand wraps around it and it was like you had binded his scattered thoughts into one big understanding.Â
Sully. Youâre one of them now.
Jake releases a breathless chuckle as he gazes upon his lover and you with a newfound clarity, a perspective so bright it illuminated in his very eyes. Then came an ideaâ the desire of having children of their own. Perhaps thatâs why Neteyam came after only two years. You were quite the ploy; the push they needed to start a family.
You were truly blessedâ the genius of your age was undeniable, your remarkable talent soon earning you the admiration of all who had seen it. By the time you turned six, you had already mastered many of the abilities that a hunter would needâ your skills with a bow were unrivaled by most of the children your age, let alone those who were much older than you. They'd marvel at your accuracy each time you took aim with an arrow. You could never miss. You had to make sure you didnât.Â
By the age of 12, you had already accompanied Jake in hunts. You had developed a knack for planning, coming up with routes and back-up plans that were often surprisingly effective. You have proved to be helpful plenty of times. You were quick, silentâ full of poise. They often wondered if you were an old, seasoned soul trapped inside a little girlâs body.Â
But as quickly as the spotlight had shone down on you, it left almost as soon as it had come.
(âWhat you did today was reckless, y/n.â Jake settles his bow on the table aggressively, emitting a sharp thud. You were just as frustrated, throwing your satchel down the floor of the hut.Â
The mission had gone rather wildly, with things not going along the plan. There was another airshipâ one that no one was aware of. Your instincts jolted your body, immediately throwing an explosive towards it which had it blowing all over the placeâ its pieces crashing and causing a wildfire.Â
Jake argued that there couldâve been a more safer way. One that didnât have to risk more of our resources and supplies; one that didnât have to injure the other warriors. Of course you knew to yourself that you did the right thing. You did what you had to do.Â
 âYou couldâve been hurt and got others killed! Just what were you thinking?â He continued to berate you. You jest that if this went on, thereâd be steam visible above his already heated head.Â
âI had to take a riskâ not everything goes to plan and this is proof of it.â You answered back with a scowl, âIf I hadn't, there wouldâve been more casualties.âÂ
âThatâs not a call for you to answer to! Jesus Christ,â Jake runs his palms down his face, grunting, before looking back at youâ expression suddenly tired and soft. âCome on kid, whereâs that sweetheart who always listened to what I said?âÂ
You had scoffed, a hurt forming on the pits of your stomach. âThat sweetheart once had a place in plans before.â You said, eyes unwilling to look at him. It weighed in your heart heavilyâ why did people assume that you were the only one who changed? You didnât understand. âPretty sure the Jake before was a good listener too.âÂ
The wrinkle in between his eyebrows deepened in confusion, but he never was one for confrontation. With a single dismissive grunt, he turns his back against you. âIâm way past your attitude. Youâre grounded. Go.â)
As you grew, the resemblance to your father became ever more apparent. Jake started noticing the many similarities between the two of you; the way you walkedâ how you sauntered confidently through a crowd. Your braids would move along your heavy steps (and perhaps, thatâs where Neteyam got his mannerism of swaying his too.), shoulders wide and proud. You even had his signature snarl, something Tsuâtey was known for that unfortunately seemed to have been passed down to you too.Â
However, it was more than how you brought yourself. You were strong-willedâ stubborn.Â
There was another thing about you too. You didnât call Jake dad anymore. It hurt himâ left a heavy feeling on his chest every time you regarded him so distant. It was unfair that you still called Neytiri mom, why did it have to change with him? He didnât have the heart to address it. Couldnât ask you what went wrong.Â
Because he knows damn well why.Â
Loâak was enough of a headache, but you were a different kind of royal pain in the ass, more like a personal problem. It was tiresome. Petty. There was not a day that you and Jake wouldnât argue and bite each otherâs ass offâ and yet, there was never a day where you two would talk it out. The fights would blur itselves out and before they knew it, things would be back to normal, only for it to fall out again over something small. It was routine. The only thing normal for you both.Â
He missed youâ missed his baby. Just when did you grow to become so distant? When did he start to overlook you?
Youâll admit, you might have indulged in the folkâs gossip. They always had a story for everything and they have plenty about your father. Tsuâtey was a fit oloâeyktan. He had proved so in his training and determination. Of course it was a low punch in the gut when the throne had been passed to an outsiderâ a demon, most of all. It was unfair, he knew it wasnât right. A washed up marine had taken something he had worked for like it was nothing. Like he was nothing.Â
You pitied your father and you feared youâd be like himâ like nothing.Â
And history might just repeat itself. You werenât cluelessâ wasnât blind to the fact that Jake had trained your brother more. He adored him so much that the very moment he was in the right age to train, you were off to fend for yourself; trained all alone while Jake went over the routine with Neteyam like he did with you. You remembered waiting for him every afternoon because he promised that heâd make timeâ that time was yours and yours only. But as the light bled and neared eclipse and you were too cold to wait outside, you learned never to wait again.Â
They would come home soon afterâ smiles on their faces and a handful of apologies for you.Â
Soon enough, your suspicions proved you right as the people started to talk again; Neteyamâ the golden child. He would make a good oloâeyktan.Â
Perhaps that would explain the drift between you and Neteyam too. Could they blame you for it? You had lost their attention so earlyâ while you still needed them. You werenât their kid and you were reminded of it everyday. In times when you didnât know if you had space in the family hammock while they sat together, telling stories under the starry sky. You pretended to have fallen asleep everytime; back against them as you listened. In times where the family was growing and growing, until the small table wasnât big enough for everyone anymoreâ or in this case, for you.Â
(âCome on, maâite, what are you doing so far from here?â Neytiri had called for you when she noticed how distant you were from everyone. You silently scooted beside her, wooden bowl in your lap. âLook, I prepared your favorite.âÂ
It wasnât. You hated it. You hated the tangy taste of it so badly. But you had decided to eat what was left on the table after everyone had gotten their meals and there wasnât usually enough for you. Neytiri thought nothing of thatâ didnât think that you eating only scraps and dried fruit was because there wasnât anything else for you to have. She simply thought that it was your favorite and had been making it for you ever since.
You didnât have the heart to tell her. Not when she thought she had been doing well with preparing it. You kissed your teeth, smiling tightly as you lifted the food to your lips, eating silently. âThank you, itâs good.â You muttered under your breath after.)Â
But you were family; they said so themselves. When they tucked you in to sleep, when they patted your head. They were still present now, just not in the way you wantedâ not in the way you longed for. It seemed like making them angry was the only way you could have their attentionâ particularly, your dad. You could never make Neytiri mad. She tries to understand you, she does. Explaining now just seems so.. Petty. So childish, you decided to push her away instead.Â
What do you tell her? That you only let dad blow a fuse or two was because you missed him? Because you didnât know what went wrong?Â
So there goes your routine.Â
âI just donât understand why I canât be oloâeykte.â You had brought up again, lips in a familiar snarl. âYou tire me and for what? Kiri is already training to be Tsahikâ just what would my place in this clan be?âÂ
âWe are not having this conversation again, y/n. Not tonight.â
Jake had just returned from a particularly bad hunt; went home empty-handed and with a patience as thin as a strand of hair. He continued to sharpen his dagger, movements almost aggressive. Everyone immediately went out of his way, not wanting to be on the end of his temperâ not you though. You could never get a hint, it seems.
âYes, tonight! My ceremony is almost near, sir. I have been waiting.â
It wasnât like he had a reason anyway. Jake couldnât tell you because he had no reason as to why. Why couldnât you be oloâeykte? You had all the skills to be one, even more so. But in the back of his mind, a thought so deep and petty that he couldnât bear to say, tells him that the name he carried was something to gift his eldest son. Oloâeyktan was a privilege reserved for Neteyam. He never thought to have you so earlyâ he always dreamed of having a son first.Â
âWait more.âÂ
âThis is insaneâ saânok!â You had turned to Neytiri, eyes pleading. She quickly grasps your arm and tries to tug you back towards the exit, speaking in a soft but firm voice as she tries to soothe the tension.
âMaâite, why donât we go out for a walk?â She whispers. To be frank, she was tired of thisâ never of you, no. But at the way things had been. Parents arenât parents automatically just because they have had children of their own. Itâs a skill they have yet to musterâ to truly understand. She didnât know where the line between you and her had blurry along the years. Didnât know where this constant need of yours to be seen came from.Â
You jerked your arm away from her, almost too harshly. It tugged on her heartstrings, not knowing what was going on with you. âI cannot wait anymore.â You said, taking two steps towards Jake with an unreadable angerâ an anger he didnât know when had stemmed from.Â
âIs it because Iâm not your daughter?âÂ
His eyes widened. A flash of vulnerability visible in his gaze, momentarily softening his glare. âYou stop this right now, y/n.â He had stood up, tucking the dagger back to his loincloth. Jakeâs larger frame towered over you, telling you to drop itâ to leave the conversation. But you werenât backing down.Â
âI am your eldestâ! You trained me earlier than Neteyam, I have been here long enoughââ
âYou arenât ready!â He had shouted with the same fierceness, earning a dirty look from Neytiri.
âWhy wonât you see me?â Your voice had softened, borderline beggingâ just a bit, but enough for his ears to flatten in response. He knew that beneath those few simple words lay many layers of underlying meaning; emotions that have yet to be spoken.Â
But he turns his back against you dismissively anyway. âNeytiri, get her out of here.âÂ
Neytiri grabs you by the arms again, although a bit forceful now, but just enough for her to touch youâ to have you in between her arms. She embraced you, like she was trying to keep the words from escalating. She feared one of you would say something out of line; something you both would regret.Â
But on the brink of the tensionâ the severity of the situation, you had muttered. Your voice was muffled, but it was clear. The message was oh so crystal. âYou took everything from my father.âÂ
Jake grunts, âYeah? Well maybe your father wasnât enough either.âÂ
âJake!â Neytiri hisses and although Jake couldnât see her, he knew very well he was getting quite the conversation with his mate too.Â
It was a low blow. Unnecessary. A straight strike to the gut. It was a pain so bitter, you didnât want it to linger any longerâ you were nauseous. You wanted no more than to vomit everything that spiraled out of your stomach.Â
âYou want to lead so badly and you canât even control your temper. No clan wants a hot-head for a leader.â But he kept goingâ relentless and cruel. âYou ought to be someone elseâs shadow.âÂ
âBut Iâm your daughter,â Your tone had softened, almost cracking as the lump in your throat grew. Tears blurred your vision, threatening to escape as Neytiri held you close.Â
âAnd yet you never listen to meâ because Iâm not exactly your father, yeah?â With one last glance, he stepped out, passing his children who stayed just outside the door, listening. Jake opens his mouth, desperate to ease the tensionâ the discomfort written in their faces, but he quickly shuts it and continues to walks out. He had said enough for tonight. There was nothing saving his face from this. It was best if he left instead.Â
âOh, maâite.â Neytiri rocks her body along yours, drawing soothing circles on your back but the embarrassment settles in your chestâ gnawing at your body. You catch a glance of the pitiful looks from your siblings as they try to enter the hut silently.Â
How could you make a mess out of yourself in front of them? Why had you let this blown over?
You retracted slowly from your motherâs hold, wiping your tears before running the opposite way from where Jake had gone to. It was better if you left instead.
mauve here! finally done writing this after racking my head for weeks. wanted it to be relatable (??) as much as possible, idk why. there is just something therapeutic w writing about your past issues <3 but i hope this one's alright!!! really excited to finally post this heheh
lots of kisses!
When I say treat me like a Princess this is what I mean, let me enjoy stuff while getting bent over okay? Multitasking
Katsuki leaves the small cramped shower first, steps out into the bedroom of the rental so he can dry off easily while giving you room to finish washing your hair.
Peeking into the bathroom and even opening the glass shower door with a serious face, "Yer not done yet? Hurry up."
"Obviously I'm not done Suki." You hiss playfully flinging some suds onto his bare chest that he dries off, "Are you not getting ready?"
"Nah not yet." Slowly his face morphs from serious to a devilish grin as he speaks.
"I want ya to hurry up so you can enjoy the view of the beach while I fuck you til your eyes cross."