THE SEAL AO'NUNG!!

Growing up with Creepypasta experience

"SENSELESS"

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- Fandom: Shingeki no Kyojin

- YumiKuri (Ymir x Historia)

- Oneshot

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Just a little thing I wrote while I was feeling sick. English is not my first language, so I'm sorry if it's bad-

Fanfic also posted on Spirit Fanfics (on Daisy_akaFox's account)

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I used to live alone no matter how young I was. I used to wander like a lifeless wanderer, however much I knew where I came from. I stole to live, and nobody ever arrested me.

I used to have nightmares from the past, and although I still bear the same name they gave me so long ago, I knew that as a savior I had nothing.

Just a little girl with no name and life, who now could at least introduce herself to someone, because the dignity is gone.

I used to not know about tomorrow. Whether she would have food or not, whether she would be beaten on the street or not. At least, until I heard them talking about you. I might not know her face, but I became interested in her name.

That's when I met you. By a name, but it carried so much history. I joined the cadet group, certain that I would find you and make you live more for yourself and less for others.

Everything has seemed to make sense since then, and I was only tasked with protecting you. And more than that, I just wanted to marry you.

Historia Reiss, you made me feel in the midst of a world so chaotic and full of pain. Because outside these walls, I know well, that there is only misery, prejudice and death, much more than we know. Thank you for being my beloved Historia and bringing meaning to me. Thank you for letting me know what it's like to be home.

I knew that I had been reborn on our night. Even though it was so difficult, I chose to stay by your side for all this time. Even though my body suffered and bones creaked, I hope you don't cry my beloved. Be proud and live. My only rising star; guide us away from our own hell.

But now that I'm dead, I can smile with my debt paid off and knowing that I was once loved too. It's just a shame that we couldn't get married before I left...

Draco Malfoy

When your autocorrect knows you better than you know yourself (Harry still wonders why Draco is taking so long to respond...)

Spoilers for chapter 147

Okay, mikuni has baited people into doing what he secretly wants by revealing information to them before (like when he told sakuya about the barrier spell) so maybe he wanted mahiru to come to the the realization that he came to, but if not lol.

Basically mikuni says to mahiru that even if he remembers the old world that it's not the world his current self has lived in, that world would be the one he's presently in and that's why he shouldn't fight to return to the old one.

He also tells mahiru why he doesn't have the powers of a magician despite his parents both being magicians. Akira had researched how to revive people for her brother because their parents had died young. She didn't go through with it, but did end up using it when mahiru died in an accident. Mahiru came back at the cost of akira's life and also lost his magical power in the process.

But because in the new world mahiru had been saved by his father he never died. Mahiru realizes that because of that his current self has the power of a magician and starts using it against mikuni

top 10 moments before disaster (dazai is about to step on his toes)

ok i was looking through my reference pins and though of what's obvious

the reference in question:

Analyzing why Eren did the Rumbling (He's stupid and that's genius.)

There's a lot of confusion and misunderstandings of the reasons why Eren did the rumbling, due to so many conflicting factors and the mask he was using during the entirety of the final arc. In his final conversation with Armin, he gives so many reasons and yet keeps contradicting himself about everything and it only adds to the confusion, so this is my attempt to explain why Eren did what he did, and why it's founded on irrationality and how that's perfect for his character and the themes of Attack of Titan.

Eren's Motives

Three of his generally accepted motives are these:

1- To see the sight in the book, aka, "levelling" the land. His childish dream he couldn't let go of.

2- To save his friends by having them kill him (they would be seen as heroes and the titan curse would end, saving Armin, Reiner, Annie, etc.).

(The result being the end of the titan's curse)

3- Keep Paradis safe (the level of development of the world would be incredibly reduced, Eren's friends could act as diplomats, and Paradis would now have a fighting chance.)

(I'd argue this motive is just a happy consequence of his real priorities, number 1 and 2).

But the first and second motive directly contradict each other, no? If Eren wanted to do a complete rumbling and truly level the land, he wouldn't wish to be stopped. But according to the second motive, he always intended to be stopped. Not only that, he knew he'd be stopped at 80% because of the power of the Attack Titan.

So why bother doing the Rumbling at all even though it could never accomplish point 1? For his friends only then? But he didn't even know which one of his friends would survive, just that they'd stop him and end the titan curse.

Maybe everyone but Pieck could have died while trying to stop him, so his plan wouldn't fulfill point 1 nor point 2. He wouldn't get a full Rumbling to fulfill his dreams nor a happy ending for his friends.

To make sense of this, my theory is that Eren is stupid and just couldn't help himself despite the risks and impossibilities. He just had to do it.

Eren is an Idiot.

Eren has always been stupid. He tried things irrationally just because he wanted to be free and go outside the walls, believing that it would go well as he severely overestimasted himself, almost getting killed several times because of it.

He's a subversion of a shonen protagonist in a realistic world. The only reason he got so far is because so many people were covering his back and because he got the Attack Titan. This is a vital part of his character. He is average, childish, and prone to succumb to his feelings; and that's exactly what he did. Eren developed so much along the course of the series, and managed to keep control of his recklessness with rationality and discipline... but he never developed emotionally, and this was the result.

Even if he knew that the Rumbling would stop at 80%, it'd still partially fulfill his dream to see a levelled land and becoming free. At least for a moment, he'd be able to feel like he was accomplishing that goal of his and feeling free because of it.

He fought back against Armin because Eren wouldn't give up his freedom without a fight, and he wanted to know that he truly tried everything (aside from taking away his friends' freedom, which would make him a hypocrite in his eyes). Eren was a slave to freedom and was unable to give up on it unlike basically every other character in the series. (give up on your dream and die). He was the ultimate shonen protagonist, especially in his unyielding dream, and it backfired immensely. In no universe Eren was able to stop himself from doing the Rumbling, because it's what he wanted to do to get his freedom, even while knowing it'd fail. It isn't rational. He just couldn't help himself from doing his upmost to live freely, because he was born into the world and thus had a right to, in his eyes. Eren latched onto that childish idea, of never compromising, of being unable to give up on his desired outcome, and it ended up making him a mass murderer. He never grew up, and this was the result.

At the same time, though, he did want to give his friends the chance to stop him and become free themselves, which would also save them to boot. There was the risk that they died, but he couldn't help himself, and in the best case scenario, most of them would live.

Thus, no matter what, the Rumbling was the best way of fulfilling Eren's contradicting goals, not from a logical sense, but from an emotional one.

Rationalizations

In the end, Point 2 and 3 of his motivations are just rationalizations for going through a plan he knew would fail. Point 1 was the main reason he did it (even though, as I explained, it's not really the only reason, just that if he truly wanted to save his friends and Paradis this plan was one of the worse options), and the worst part is that he knew it wouldn't go his way and he did it anyways.

So yeah, he's smart, stupid, free, trapped, selfish, selfless, and that's the point? If so, I think it's a pretty interesting point to make. Eren never managed to mature enough out of being a child—he was denied agency again and again by the world, and unlike everyone else in the series, he couldn't accept that. He couldn't compromise, not on his dream, but not on his friends, either.

I think it's really clever writing to hide all these layers behind Eren, even though the confusing explanation did end up making a lot of people wrongly excuse his genocide "because he did it for his friends", even though he straight up admits he wasn't, he just thought he was.

In truth, he killed 80% of humanity because he wasn't mature enough to pinpoint his irrational motives founded in the trauma of living trapped in walls with the physical manifestation of being trapped embodied by the titans. (A systemic analysis of Eren coming in another post!)

I do admit that actually understanding that all of this was Isayama's intention though, if I even got it right, was completely convoluted and confusing and could've been written way more neatly; but I still love the ending, because it shows us that Eren is doing the most Eren thing imaginable through the Rumbling—showcasing his stupidity, rashness and average nature, which was always a huge part of his character that I'm glad wasn't forcefully taken out of him because of his "cooler" role in the last season.

If there's one thing I've always loved about Eren, is how human he is. How imperfect he is. And his actions are, without a doubt, the embodiment of what it means to be an irrational being with a brain that tries to rationalize everything—a being that would kill 80% of humanity for his dreams, while risking his friends' lives, while also deeply wishing to save them.

I guess that his character (and humanity) can be summed up by Mikasa quite well, don't you think? Because in the end, even if he's stupid, he's also kind. He's cruel...

Art by Jonathan Wesslund

happy birthday eren you little shit❤️

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