May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014
I made myself really upset today. I watched the video you recorded of me after I got my wisdom teeth taken out. We were still together at the time and you called me baby in the video. God, how I miss you calling me baby and telling me that you love me in that cute little way you used to… I’m so happy that I still come over on the weekends, that makes me super happy but I just wish we were back together. I get super jealous when you talk to other women because I want you to still be all mine. We were so perfect, well as perfect as we could be together. We never fought, nothing. It was nothing but pure bliss. I still get that same blissful feeling when I’m with you. I may not show you, and I think I should. But I do. I’m doing the best I can to slim down and show you I’m trying. I’m glad you’re seeing that too. Even though we aren’t together anymore, I still fall for you more and more each time I'm with you
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I don't
wanna lose my bestfriend. I feel like we're drifting apart and I don't like it at all. Please don't leave me alone like this. I want it all to go back to how it was before. When we talked on the phone at night and we talked for hours about nothing. What I would give for all of that back. I hate this feeling so much. I wish I could could have it all back.
Dream come true
This is like a dream come true. Here I am sitting next to you and you have a new girlfriend. And she has no idea that I'm staying the night with you. I know there's still something there for me and this proves it right here. This and the fact that since you started dating her, we've talked so much more. I still see that little sparkle on your eye when you look at me and you can't tell me that it's because of her. You just started dating. I get the feeling that you're missing me in that way. And I feel this way because I don't think you'd have me stay the night with you if you didn't. No one would do that if they had a girlfriend. No one. I just want you to admit it to me is all. That's all I ask for. Tell me that you miss me and that you still love me because I see it. I know you told me that you wanted to experience what it's like to be with someone else and you are but I feel like it's making you miss me. Just admit it already.
May 31, 2014
I'm sitting here next to you in bed and you're sleeping. You're so adorable when you're asleep. You look so peaceful and happy. I wish you'd look that way all the time. I hate seeing you so upset now. I wish I could help you, I really do. But it seems like I can't. You mean everything to me, I really hope you know that. Even though you can't read this, maybe one day you can. And you'll see how I feel.
This is exactly how I feel right now.
I tried everything. I smoked, drank, drove 100 on the freeway. Anything to make my heart feel the way it did when it beat next to yours.
(via yourlifeisyourmessage)
you matter.
