I Thought I Couldn’t Relate More To Francis Abernathy But After He Pretended To Have A Heart Attack

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Guys okay

What if BEAST Dazai edited everyone's brains in the BEAST universe?

In BEAST, we don't get to see the bond of trust that Chuuya and Dazai has in the main series.

I usually see a lot of angst fanart of BEAST skk where Chuuya is mourning Dazai, but I genuinely don't think he gives a shit about his partner.

I'm not even sure if they're partners.

I think Dazai edited the minds of everyone he loves, so they could be safe from his plan.

So they don't try and save him.

Let's be real, Chuuya fought a dragon and activated Corruption, which by the way, could KILL him, to save Dazai.

Chuuya pretended to be a vampire and almost drowned, to save Dazai.

If Twin Dark still had that bond in BEAST, Dazai would not have been able to commit suicide.

If you think about it more, Atsushi respects and fears Dazai instead of loving him like he does in the main series.

He gave up his friends.

He gave up everything for Odasaku.

Odasaku, the man who guilt-tripped him into being something he isn't.

Odasaku, one of two people that could ever understand Dazai.

Although only a diamond can polish a diamond, it can still break at sharp points and edges after being polished.

I feel like we really lost something when we started looking at writing as a reader-centric product meant to appeal to the desires of a specific audience rather than a writer-centric approach of someone writes whatever particular thing particular compels them/whatever weird thing the demons in their head want to talk about, and people out there who are also compelled, and/or relate, find that writing. A lot of discussions of writing really center around what readers want rather than a writer's exploration. Sometimes as a reader I don't know what I want. I click on a fic or pick up a book I'm not sure about but that looks interesting, and I love it. Reading what I expect to get is it's own joy, but we always need to expand our horizons and not get mad at creators for not always writing what we want/expect.

Crack concept: Atsushi doesn’t exactly get absorbed…not completely that is.

Akutagawa: Weretiger!

Atsushi: Oh my god can you lower your volume I’m right here!

Akutagawa:…Well get off the floor then!

Atsushi: Oh jee let me just get my nonexistent leg and my nonexistent arm and oh yeah the entire MISSING HALF of my body and then I’ll be right up there with you.

Akutagawa: Sarcasm is unbecoming of you.

Atsushi: When my leg comes back I’m going to throw it at you.

Akutagawa: I see nothing changed now you’ve lost half your brain.

Atsushi: I see being bought back to life didn’t give you a sense of humour.

Akutagawa: Does it hurt?

Atsushi: You remember when you cut my leg off, the first time?

Akutagawa: Obviously.

Atsushi: I would prefer having that pain over this…every day of my life over this.

Akutagawa: You damn fool, why would you protect me?

Atsushi: Why would you protect me?

Akutagawa: I asked you first!

Atsushi: I asked you second!

Akutagawa: That doesn’t even make sense!

Atsushi: My consciousness is split between here and a 4th dimensional plane of reality where I’m being guided by a hallucination of my dead Headmaster pretending to be Dazai.

Atsushi: Nothing in our lives makes sense.

Akutagawa: I suppose you’re right.

Atsushi: Oh man am I dead? Did you just admit that?

Akutagawa: Idiot you’re not allowed to die until I kill you.

Atsushi: Well I’m at least half way there-ow!

Akutagawa: Don’t even joke about that!

Atsushi: Okay ow! Jeez keep that up and I’ll start to think you were worried- stop kicking me!

Fyodor:…Did you get any of that?

Gozen shrugs.

I can feel Henry Winter in this song.

Currently I’m reading the secret history but I’m so excited to start reading no longer human I began to speed ran tsh and I still have upcoming assessments HELP

Kinda??? Near

Kill me I am doing something that is so not related to my studies but I HAVE TO finish it

TSH spoilers:

I feel like we as a fandom do not talk about Henry’s symbolism in TSH enough. Like, that dude is the literal embodiment of death, and I just think it’s so damn cool. I mean, his whole obsession with language and literature stemmed from the fact that he almost died in a car accident. And then every death we see in the book (the farmer’s, Bunny’s, and his very own) is directly at his hands. The others were accomplices, sure, but Henry’s the one who takes action every time. And in Francis’s failed suicide and Richard’s near death in the epilogue, they both see Henry, not Bunny or Charles or what have you.

Henry is not only obsessed with death, he IS death. He’s the reaper who’s friends toy with their mortality all the time through drugs and booze. The reason they all admire him is not only because of his size and stature and brilliance; it’s because he’s dangerous. If beauty is indeed terror, than he’s the most beautiful of them all. They all have the life preservation skills of a fly, so of course they love Henry. And of course his actions constantly bring them closer to danger and death.

sorry for the quality I expected this to just be a doodle

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