”my Body My Choice.”

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Wip of my jeckole fic (with emiari, Aricole and Jeckelly mentioned :3)

Nicole wasn’t jealous.

Nicole wasn’t jealous, definitely not. How could she? Jealousy wasn’t a regular emotion she felt. However, the fact that Jecka’s fingers were carefully placed next to Kelly’s, perfectly pink painted nails resting lightly against the others white ones. Jecka’s flushed face and excited eyes, following Kelly’s mindless movements. The way the piss yellow lighting of Jecka’s lightbulb reflected off of her equally piss coloured eyes (they weren’t really) really irked Nicole for no aparent reason. Probably the fact that Kelly was Jecka’s ex. Just by the fact that she was currently alone, perched in the thorn ridden bush next to the kitchen window, squinting into the bedroom window, said everything you needed to know. Nicole couldn’t see much, but from what she could see, apart from the plumes of smoke and echoes of fake sounding laughter, it seemed that Jecka and Kelly were having a good time.

Bullshit, Jecka didn’t have fun with anyone else.

Nicole wanted to gag, this was disgusting behaviour, she felt like Jeffery, or the hoodie version of Harold. Or Hudson. Fuck, what was Melanie’s (wait, was that even her name?) boyfriend’s name again? Whatever, it didn’t matter. If jecka was going to hang out with Kelly, Nicole was going to hang out with Ari. If that bitch let her near the porch anyway, and if Emily wasn’t there too (Nicole could give less of a shit if Emily was there or not, but Ari had some unnecessary fear that Emily might throw herself at Nicole and start eating her face off).

This was a really unhealthy mindset for Nicole to have, but she couldn’t help it. After moving so many times, failed friendships, her trust being broken like it was her mom cooking spaghetti (not that she cooked often), it wasn’t an unreasonable fear. Jecka had been keeping Nicole alive for the past what, ten? Eleven months? She didn’t want to die when gay marriage still wasn’t legalised, or before Jeffery, that cunt deserved to die first.

“Fuck- ow!?” Nicole hissed, a long yet small thorn embedded in the back of her hand. She really needed to stop hiding in this fucking bush. There was definitely a better place to watch her girlfriend through her window without being caught. She fumbled in her jeans pocket for a second before sliding her sidekick out, thumbs running along the keyboard.

“Caan…I…come..uh….overr…” Nicole murmured as she typed, “question mark….and sent!”

Her lips quirked slightly as she sent it, somewhat proud of herself for genuinly no reason at all. Maybe for being alive right now? Yeah, that seems good.

It didn’t take long before the device buzzed as that desperate bitch responded

Nicole’s smirk was quickly whipped off of her face, lips curling into something of disgust, “the fuck does she mean no!?” She snapped loudly.

“Did you hear that?”

Shit. Her heart practically leapt into her throat, as she fell backwards into that god forsaken bush again. She really needed to learn how to be quiet sometimes.

Being silent for nearly ten minutes seemed to make everything better, so now Nicole could go back to hating.

“What the fuck does she mean no?” She whispered loudly, eyebrows furrowing. This was about to become a long, long night that Nicole might not last through.

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“Nicole, I said no, what part of that did you not understand?!”

“the no part,” Nicole replied dryly, hands resting lazily in her hoodie pockets, hair wild and thorns stuck to the fabric she wore. In front of her, Ari stood angrily, cheeks flushed to the point it blended in with her hair.

“Well fuck off! Im busy!” She scorned, arms crossed tightly over her chest, but it didn’t do much to try and hide what Ari was obviously embarrassed about. Obviously, her normally freckled chalky skin was stained with deep red and purple marks, from Emily of course. Nicole didn’t even have to see that bitch to know.

“Ari, if your embarrassed about the hickies, I didn’t even notice them-“

“Yes you did! Stop lying to me?” Shit, maybe she was immune to the manipulation now, Nicole thought. That must be the only reason that Ari wasn’t letting her in now. She had tried her sexy voice like, four weeks ago and that didn’t work because she was still outside of that fucking front door.

“Okay well maybe I did, but I can ignore them,” Nicole offered half heartedly, head slowly tilting to the side

“No,” Ari stood her ground, for once, she wasn’t being a spineless fish, “Go home Nicole, or bother Jecka, just fuck off,”

Her jaw hinge felt like it was about to shatter in a second, sending vibrations through her teeth when her jaw clenched at that fucking whore’s name. She had never felt her body respond like that - normally she’d just get hard.

“What?” Ari seemed to notice something was off, not that she cared or was interested, but Nicole still hadn’t moved away from her house, “You’re still not coming inside, so move, come on,”

“Im not a dog,” Nicole blinked herself out of that moment of silent spite, “stop speaking to me like that, bitch. Let me inside,”

“Nicole I already said no! Fuck. Off,”

“Ari just let me inside for fucks sake!”

Neither of them knew what just came out of Nicole’s mouth but her voice carrying desperate pleading was not it. Nicole intended that to come out forcefully and somewhat angrily, but it in fact was the opposite. That was more embarrassing than getting caught in that fucking bush (Nicole wasn’t letting it go. She was gonna tell jecka to get rid of it because the fact she had thought of it like, twelve times now, was ridiculous).

“…are you begging right now?” Ari asked confused, yet amused.

Lmk if it’s out of character 🥸

EmiAri Night Thoughts...

Nicole’s very very pissed off ride-or-die

I hate him so fucking much img imgknreoivneoidnv idk what I’ve done why did I do that

Unusually obsessive Jecka where she’s just a down right bitch to and about Ari unprovoked. Nicole will mention her in passing and it just comes over her like “Why are you talking about her?” “Do you still like her” and Nicole is just baffled bc wtf she’s the crazy one in the relationship. She can only respond with “What’s wrong with you? I NEVER liked her.”

and then they make up and make out the end

emijeckole hcs or smth even tho no one asked

Nicknames : E - J : Jecks/babe/pretty girl E - N : Nic/ babe N - E : Babe/em/ems/ho N - J : Jecks/ho/babe/bitch J - E : Em/Ems/Babe(s)/bitch J - N : Nic/Babe/bitch/beautiful

(Future + Present) Nicole is really the only one who can cook real meals. They can all do microwave/oven meals, but thats as good as they get really. Emily can make pasta, and Jecka can make oven pizza but neither of them can make meals like nicole 💔

(Future) They all have self harm in some way and they all know they cant really stop eachover so they stock up on medical supplies like gauze and bandages so if they do need it its there

(Future) Nicole and Emily lwk forget to eat or if they do its takeaway or junk food (cus theyre too lazy to wash fruit or anything healthy) so jecka washes fruit and puts it in containers in the fridge so they actually get nutrients 💔

(Future + Present) Nicole and Jecka try hard to not accidentally piss Emily off because hg gets violent quick 😭

(Future) They all have VERY intense emotions. Nicole gets jealous strongly, so if she feels like Jecka and Emily are hanging out with eachover/other people more than her than usual, she'll immediately mute their notifications, not speak to them unless its dire, isolate herself away from them etc etc. She also gets great bouts of depression where she will just lay in bed all day, no eating no drinking no showering. She'll cut more than usual, cry at least twice, refuse to be near Emily or Jecka and its just a whole mess until the other two realise. Jecka gets angry incredibly quickly, mainly thanks to her dad. She likes the apartment tidy, basic cleanliness and presentable, since a lot of the time her own home was covered in alcohol bottles, used needles, and general nastiness unless 'work friends' were coming over. When Nicole or Emily leave their empty beer cans or half full takeaway on the coffee table it genuinely enrages her. During arguments, she can and will get loud and almost physical - but she does catch herself before she swings at one of the others. She'll shout a lot, she'll scream, most the nights the neighbours think that they're having a domestic. She'll also give the two silent treatment a lot over something as simple as living dishes in the sink, even though they could of rinsed it and put it in the dishwasher. She takes a lot of xanax to calm herself most days. Emily has BPD so she basically just lives her life like everyone who has BPD. (i dont wanna mischaracterise BPD or anything so fi anyone cud help me write this it wud b aprreciated

(Future) They have a minecraft world. Nicole built the house, Emily mined all of the resources and Jecka got a them a pet cat (Jecka doesnt know how to play for shit)

(Present) They skip to fuck in Emily's car, because Jecka doesn't want stains on her seats

(Present) How it started was Nicole and Jecka were like pining for each over and then Kelly 'accidentally' locked Jecka and Nicole into the kitchen pantry and left them there for like, 4 hours while she checked on Kylar in her yard to make sure no one was dead or there was a fire, and then Nicole and Jecka were both drunk and were like 'i rlly luv u and im drunk and i might b sick but ye' and then they made out and then dated 👍 And then the Emicole OD happened and Emily was like 'omg i rlly luv u nicole' and Nicole was like i have a gf and some other stuff and they had a threesoe and jecka didnt like it at first until Emily was started giving her discounts on adderal and xanax cus they were dating and gave her some spectacular head and then she was gud with it.

(Future) Jecka is a doctor, and lwk a really good one, Nicole is a tattoo artist, and Emily is unemployyed.

They all get really jealous, really quickly. And they all give eachover silent treatment when they're jealous

this felt really gay to write im sorry

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hey dude. obv u don’t have to respond to this but on ur old acc i saw u reposting some ed and pro ana stuff and it really scared me for u. obv eating disorders are complex and hard to get over but i just wanted to say help is always available and there no such thing as a “perfect body”

- someone who cares and had an eating disorder for like 3 years :)

omg wtf this is so sweet?? Thank you so much dude I can't tell U how much that means to me 💗💗

Yeah, on my old account of was reposting that kind of stuff (not to trauma dump or nothing) but I was and still am a little bit struggling with my weight and how I look and things, but I'm not st@rvibf myself or anything, just eating healthier

But thank you so much anon, that's actually so sweet since you didn't have to do that, yet you did so thank you so much 💕

At the end of the day, I know ill never be what they are to me to them