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Sylvie Vartan, Grosrouvre, Yvelines, France. 1963

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it makes me so sad whenever i think about misty saying “she’s my best friend, she wouldn’t leave without saying goodbye,” and then crying in nat’s empty motel room when she thinks that she did.

especially since, if lottie hadn’t taken nat hostage, natalie would have left without saying goodbye. and it would’ve been under far worse circumstances.

misty saying “i knew it,” when she realizes the door was broken down, and later scoffing when lottie tells misty nat tried to kill herself…

misty telling lottie “i don’t believe that,” because she’s thinking natalie wouldn’t do that to her; she wouldn’t leave her like that…

nat wouldn’t leave without saying goodbye.

i don’t think natalie ever realized that her suicide would’ve had the same exact impact on misty as travis’s did on her. i don’t think nat ever realized how deeply misty’s love for her really ran.

extremely messy mistynat moment

what if u were the only person who i could show the worst sides of myself to because i dont acknowledge our relationship as anything but transactional ?

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oooh my toxic yuri

YELLOWJACKETS | Season 3, Episode 10, “Full Circle”

juliette leaving really changed everything... AND WE COULD HAVE HAD CANON ADULT MISTYNAT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I firmly believe Misty and Nat were supposed to be the two final girls. It’s been them since the beginning the savior and the knight. The saint and the harbinger of death. The only reason nat died is because only another final girl can kill a final girl

im gonna kms

yellowjackets has slowly established that misty quigley is afraid of water.

she didn't swim in the lake with the others, she watched that rat in her pool— either watching it drown (perhaps not because she's "evil," but because she was unwilling to go in and save it) or watching it swim (and regarding it with a jealous curiosity, because she can't or won't ever do the same). she was even hesitant to get in the sensory deprivation tank, where we saw a brief panic before her "revelation." the only reason she got in at all was to stay at the compound, for nat.

this is not the first time this has happened, nor the most meaningful— when javi fell through the ice into the lake, and nat was at the edge, everyone was afraid to step forward, lest they fall in. but misty, who's terrified of water, leapt across it to save her. without hesitation. she didn't care about the risk, about it being her greatest fear.

because if it meant saving her, misty would swim across the ocean for natalie.

SHES IS A LESBIAN #TOME WE HAVE TO SPREAD IT CAUSE ITS LITERALLY CANON

misty quigley is a lesbian; a comphet reading of her deprivation tank "realization"

in rewatching misty's deprivation tank therapy, i'm more convinced than ever that misty is a lesbian suffering from compulsory heterosexuality. the entire scene, from start to finish, is about misty accepting that walter has feelings for her (not the other way around), and learning to push through her discomfort with that fact.

the deprivation tank scene begins by establishing that misty is afraid. we see quick transitions and hear bubbling water and see a terrifying fish coming at the camera with sharp teeth. followed by a slightly softer stream of images of walter, interspersed with memories of crystal, and of caligula. misty is thinking about three key relationships in this moment: walter, who is actively pursuing her; crystal, whom she loved and hurt and misses; and caligula, who is the only creature that both loves her, and she loves back.

love is the concept that ties these three together: walter is who she could love, crystal is who she did love, and caligula is who she does love.

and so the memories fade into her fantasy sequence, led by caligula, and he begins to soothe her. this creature that represents real (platonic, obviously) love to her (in that it is true and reciprocated, more than she feels it is with any human) tells her "shake off your blues/i'll set the mood for ya". caligula is acknowledging her fear and her loss, and telling her that he can fix it. that he has an answer that will make all of her problems go away.

which is when walter appears, looking like the leading man in a classic musical; an idealized romantic interest, one her fantasy has turned from a real man into a fictional character. and what does he do? performs for her. misty (per the directions of the song, to just "sit right down") sits and watches. she does not interact with him, because she (and her attraction) is not a part of this. one element of comphet is the inability to picture yourself in a fantasy with a man; misty does not put herself with walter, she does not join him.

and while he and caligula perform, three items float around the screen: the plane axe, a syringe, and the black box (which fluctuates between intact and exposed). these three items are such a fascinating choice, because they, 1) all relate to the actions she took in her need to be useful and appreciated, but 2) also represent some of the ugliest things she has done (at a time when she has recently been thinking about what kind of person these things make her). she is thinking about these moments (her behavior with ben, murdering jessica, and stranding the team/breaking crystal's trust) that cause her great discomfort, at the same time she is trying to convince herself that walter is what she needs. she is comparing the discomfort she has with walter's interest and the validation she would feel from a relationship, to the way she's felt about all of these other bad things she's felt compelled to do.

while these items float, caligula sings, "now sit right down/let your troubles melt away/and you'll be sitting pretty in the moonlight gaze". continuing to tell her to push through the discomfort; just let it go. and if you do? "moonlight gaze" is such an interesting choice, because the moon is most strongly symbolic of women. if she lets go and has this relationship with walter, the other women will think she's normal. (especially after just a few hours prior to this, natalie had said, "we're all like this, aren't we?" this is her chance to prove nat wrong, for misty's own sake and/or for nat's!) this is not the first time misty has displayed behavior suggesting that it's important to her that natalie (and other people in general) see her as desirable as a romantic/sexual prospect: telling natalie about her dates on the road trip to travis, "i bet he thinks we're hookers!" said with glee in the jail, "i have a secret boyfriend, too," whispered to natalie in '96. if she decides to accept walter's interest (a man who is so into her that he is literally fine with her being a serial killer!), then maybe the other girls will see how worthy misty is of affection and attention.

once the dance number is over, misty immediately goes to speak with caligula; again, in her fantasy about loving walter, she doesn't interact with walter. instead she seeks caligula out, because he is the one she feels a real connection to; he is the one who knows her and can reassure her - the one whose reassurance will mean something. (walter, a man she barely knows, has been nothing but a concept to her in this fantasy, and that doesn't change.) misty's conversation with caligula is emotional; she is clearly bothered by the idea that other people see her as a murderer. but caligula doesn't give her an emotional response or solution; instead, he tells her she's a "closer". he points out that, even when things are rough (i.e., even though she doesn't like how walter makes her feel), she can persevere and accomplish her goals. it is this reminder that causes misty to transition the scene to to the final piece.

and oh boy, is that final scene a goldmine. because it begins with a close-up on misty's childhood phone. the phone that becky called her on back in 1992, to tell her that she was disgusting. that no man would want her, and that she would never find "a victim" to sleep with. that moment was foundational for misty's issues, for her desire to be wanted and needed in '96, and her deep need to receive validation from men in '21. this scene is so crucial to understanding misty's relationship to comphet, because one of the key facets is wanting a man to see you as desirable, because that is a woman's value in a misogynistic society. this hits misty so especially hard because she's not just lacking interest and validation from men in school; she hasn't been getting recognition from anyone. (for her to break the black box after just a few hours of receiving positive attention? she was starving for it.)

and so walter calls her on the phone - their backs to each other, literal and emotional distance between them - and starts to tell her that he loves her. but he doesn't say the words. instead he uses morse code to send "uoyevoli": "i love you", backwards. a fascinating choice, because it could be argued that the morse code is representative of their shared love of puzzles as crime solvers. but why backwards? surely the symbolism of the puzzle connection has been satisfied by the morse code.

it's because misty doesn't want to hear "i love you." she wants the implication of walter's desire, she wants to know she has value, but she doesn't want the actual feelings. she wants him to say i love you in a way she can't feel. she wants him to call her and turn his back so she can do the same. she wants to "get the ball over the goal line" and to do that she needs this level of distance.

so this scene with walter? it isn't about walter; it's about recreating that brutal memory. it's about rewriting her past. in her fantasy, walter calls her to prove that becky was wrong, that he is choosing misty because she is desirable. that he does want her. and this is so key because this whole scene is about how walter feels. that walter wants her. in misty's "realization" that she wants to be with walter, it isn't about her feelings at all. the purple flowing line of love comes from walter, the words "i love you" - twisted as they may be - come from walter. misty's only role in her fantasy is to "sit right down" and accept her role; surrender to the fact that walter is the right choice.

and when she does, when she finally, finally comes to the end of this moment, she still doesn't interact with walter. the natural progression of a love confession is physical contact. a kiss, or a relieved embrace. misty seeks neither! in this fantasy of hers where she can have anything, she makes no effort to acknowledge walter at all. instead, she turns to caligula, representative of her real connections. and she celebrates her victory with him. misty can close this deal, can get through this decision she's made, by clinging to the people she does actually care about.

im mistynat FOR LIFE but hear me out

mistylot (slightly) canon divergence

misty and lottie start dating post rescue bc nat dumped both for travis - again - and misty visited lottie at the hospital for a while because she needed someone to talk to about the whole situation. someone who truly understood her (in this instance, at least - two lesbians suffering over a bisexual girl who likes emo boys).

for some reason, they break up during the early-mid 2000's. an ugly break-up, makes both of them spiral into their worst versions all over again. lottie starts the "intentional community" and tries really hard to stay in touch with reality, while misty sinks into reddit and unresolved murder cases until she can't really think of anything else.

and this goes on until natalie gets out of rehab (again) looking for misty and all the canon adult stuff from season 1 happens - mistys love and caring for natalie, an old flame reignites. also, the beginning of season 2 - lotties need to make natalie 'heal' and her attempt to reconnect.

then, inevitably, misty and lottie reunite in s2 in lotties cult - we see them getting all weird during their first interaction, they try to act as if nothing has happened since none of the other girls have a clue about their past together (none of them answered misty nor visited lottie anyway, it was their secret).

they focus on fighting over nat again, just like old times, but obviously it doesn't work: lottie uses nat as an excuse to keep misty with them, misty gets crazy over lotties jealousy of nat...

they keep this chaotic dynamic until nat dies - misty stays in bed for weeks, mourning, and lottie is sent back to the mental facility, against her will. without natalie, they're both the outcasts again, so they try to bond with shauna. lottie tries to stay at her house, learning about her family and befriending callie, while misty tries to do the same she used to do with natalie, she wants shauna to do road trips and solve mysteries with her.

the day shauna asks misty to babysit callie (and lottie, lol) they have such a weird reunion, both mourning and with so many unresolved feelings. misty is clearly mad with lottie, but lottie comforts her and, again, they become each others safe haven.

that's when they start remembering the old times - slowly.

DID YALL SEE THE VISIONNN its basically canon

someone write this please........