Atsushi asked "why did you save me?"
Akutagawa wondered "why did you protect me?"
And that's just...sad
It's sad that they're so doubtful of the other's feelings. Atsushi doesn't feel like he deserves to be loved, and although he's connected to Akutagawa and they have a trust that runs deeper than words, I think he's scared that Akutagawa doesn't care for him, and he doubts and doubts and doubts
We don't know the full canon reason on why Akutagawa saved Atsushi, but we know it's because he *cares*, but Atsushi doesn't know that yet
I don't think that Atsushi doubts Akutagawa's strength or abilities, or his capacity to care for others. I think Atsushi doubts how lovable he himself is, he thinks he's not worth loving, not worth anything
And it's similar with Akutagawa, he probably thinks whatever he feels towards Atsushi is one-sided, and maybe he even fears that Atsushi hates him (although he obviously doesn't 😔)
They've been abused and traumatized emotionally so much that I think it's hard for them to realize how much they care for and about each other
I'm sure there will eventually be a chapter or two where Atsushi and Akutagawa can finally talk, and I can't wait for that because it'll really show their combined perspective on who are they are together
God they're so in love
Asagiri why do you do this to me
Tell me you're in love with him without telling me you're in love with him
FUNNIEST FRAME IN THE WHOLE BSD
what if Atsushi kept the coat. What if after all of this he tries to hand it to Akutagawa, who just swats it away and hugs Atsushi tight. What THEN
treacherous - taylor swift
Akutgawa after hitting Atsushi with his car: You want me to drive you home?
Atsushi just arrived in Yokohama: I’m homeless
Akutgawa: …do you wanna move in with me?
Atsushi, never heard of stranger danger: Okie
Boyfriends <3
Character profile;
Name: Dazai Jisatsu
Name origin: "Jisatsu" may or may not directly translate into "suicide" from Japanese 😭 I mean it's fitting though?
Gender: male, he/him
Family: Osamu, Chuuya, Shiwasu (older twin sister)
Ability name: A Human's Sorrow
Ability description: my friend (@mi1ikan) came up with this mishmash of Soukoku's abilities; basically, Jisatsu can "kidnap" and take an ability user's ability just by touching them, and he doesn't need to keep constant contact to keep nullifying. The longer he keeps the ability "captive" the more it damages his health though (similar to Chuuya's damage during Corruption). The more abilities he kidnaps all at once, the faster his health deteriorates. When he "kidnaps" an ability his appearance changes, his hair goes from brown to orange and his eyes go from blue to a reddish-brown (so he can't really hide when he's taken an ability)
Age: 19
Height: 5'11
Occupation(s): student, Port Mafia executive
Likes: alcohol, dogs, teasing others, fashion, going for drives to clear his mind
Dislikes: pain, dogs, rats, hard work, death
Birthday: August 13th
Hair color(s): brown (changes to orange)
Eye color(s): blue (changes to a reddish-brown)
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I really can't draw oh my God he looks like a serial killer and a fuckboy at the same time 😭🙏 I'm sorry my art skills can't do his justice 😔
This series of artworks/characters has been really fun tbh, I really liked making Jisatsu. (And while illustrating all these semi-OCs I'll still be experimenting with digital art lmao)
He's the second youngest person to become a Port Mafia executive (at 19; Dazai holds the record at 18). His sister Shiwasu is also an executive at 19, but since she's older she's third youngest (they were both promoted at the same time).
Jisatsu is a happy kid, and while he's a bit of a tease he's not an idiot. He gets work done (although not quickly) and he's capable of taking care of himself, he's liked by most people
Next is Ranpoe :D
she/her, minor, BSD fan, sskk shipper, enthusiast, and stan, traditional/digital artist, fanfic writer, swiftie
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