FINALLY SOME GOOD...sfx...makeup...totally Not Real Blood

IM SO HAPPY I ATE ONLY AROUND 500 CALS TODAY !!!

(i would have eaten less but it is so hard to get around eating when in recovery 😭

Im currently at 42-43 kg (it alternates because yk im in recovery so its acc so hard to starve or purge now)

AND I WAS AT 39 KG !!! LIKE TWO AWAY FROM MY UGW BUT HAUFDAUHWHFEF FUCKING THERAPY SNITCHED ON ME >:[

"you're all jirai enough" Until one of us is fat, pudgy, copes/deals with trauma in a different manner than what's commonly perceived, doesn't dress "dark girly", is transgender, is gay, is a man (????there's a literal term for Male jirais), is black, isn't European, isn't Japanese, isn't American, is from a second or third world country, *can't* dress "dark girly", doesn't self harm, doesn't do drugs, doesn't do alcohol, is hypersexual, isn't an NSO fan, is pro-recovery (that one's a little debatable but whatever), isn't a female in general, isn't deathly pale, doesn't have an ED, doesn't have "soul crushing" trauma, is undiagnosed, self harms but not by cutting, and the list goes on

i am such a terrible and disgusting being!! i deserve to have terrible things happen to me!! ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

Tryin to prove a point to my homophobic mom

Reblog if you think it's perfectly fine and maybe even great to put coins in the blender

gng i literally couldn't get out of bed without crying this morning, but then I happy now 🤤🤤🤤🤤

(the delusions and Maretu are keeping me alive rnnnnn🤤🤤🤤🤤🔥🔥🔥💪💪💪💪)

I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone *rocking back and forth, chanting this and gripping my hair*

idk what happened to my day, but I feel really bad now. I guess that's what I wanted

I js feel very small. Like I want to be. I really want someone to care for me, and like me, and not make me feel bad. I'm very scared right now, I don't have anyone to help me, and its really scary. I know I kinda joke about suicide but I don't tell anyone about how bad it gets. I don't like getting violent thoughts to hurt myself, I just want to be held and taken care of, and understood that I can't be ok

Whatever, mb, my throat really hurts

Im posting these to close to each other 😭

More make-up and sfw training!!!

(Bc living rn is making me wanna go...uhm...do some reaalllyyyy hard and deep...make-up...)

Tw: realistic blood and cuts :3👍

Im js a rlly good make-up artist, it's all fake and for my classes >////<

I think I got baaabbyyy styro??? Idk tho, I dont wanna hype myself up cause yikes :P

me core after downing the whole box of chips cause i was a lil sad🤤🤤

Like ??? Is thattt styro?? Or js a deeper cat scratch :P I think I'm being dramatic I'm gna jump.

Anyway :P here's all of my leg🤤🤤 I like fucking 10 sliced in that big bleeding one (the moot who got sent the video can vouch for me ~)

WAHHH, I WAS READING THE CUTEST SKK FIC AND NOW I REALLY WANNA WRITE MY OWN SKK FIC BUT I HAVE SO MANY THAT I KEEP NEGLECTING 💔💔💔

Yes looking at pictures of peoples self h4rm makes me feel better

Yes it also makes me feel like shit because I know I don't have enough courage or supplies to actually cut as deep as them