I Was The Victim Of Identity Theft Once And I Learned Bc My Mom Looked Me Dead In The Eyes And Asked

Hi, I'm generally new to this blog, but I needed a warmup to start writing an essay for school and this Au inspired me! Hope it's okay I wrote a snippet for Jonathan's first awakening.

(this is me rn ⬇️)

Jonathan couldn't feel, not really. He hadn't felt in ages, except for the occasional sharp pain over his birthmark. Not enough to tell he was alive, truly, but definitely enough to say he at least wasn't dead. He didn't know what he'd done to deserve this. Maybe Father was right, maybe he wasn't good enough, wasn't perfect enough to protect even himself, much less Erina, or Speedwagon, or anybody he loves-

And for the first time in ages, Jonathan feels.

It begins with a sharp pain in his temple. Far away enough to be written off as his mind finally beginning to betray him, but also there enough to be cause for questioning. Then it's the pain in his abdomen. His shoulder, his leg, his heart. Someone, somewhere is hurting, and it makes Jonathan feel.

It's been a very long time since Jonathan had felt anything, so it takes him a long moment to recognize the feeling. Sadness? Melancholy? Frustration? Anger?

Fury.

Someone is hurting something of his like Jonathan was once hurt. And he had sworn to not let it happen to anyone else.

And, suddenly, Jonathan felt everything.

Jonathan felt bone cracking under his fists, the confused screams of the assaulters, his own throat and hands burning with the strength of his breaths, his life, his Hamon, and his screams. This thing, this boy, Jonathan learned when he looked back at what exactly he'd been protecting, was his, and he didn't like for things of his to be hurt.

Jonathan knelt next to the boy, and was met with a frightened flinch and scramble back. That was understandable, Jonathan must've been incorporeal at best, and a veritable sight at worst. Then Jonathan looked down at his hands to survey the damage.

Purple fingers. Black gloves. Golden knuckles. No blood. Jonathan didn't recognize the body that must've been his. He looked back at the boy who was staring at him like he had murdered an entire city. Jonathan reached out, trying, desperately, to reassure the boy that it was alright.

"Or-"

And Jonathan was thrown back to the unfeeling.

(Just gonna @ you here too in case Tumblr pulls some bull like its done to me before-)

@starry-blue-echoes

This theory has been rotting my brain as of recently ✨so✨

AU where Jonathan is Star Platinum

Jonathan has no idea what’s going on.

He’s pretty sure he died but now he’s floating and glowing which definitely isn’t normal and also there’s this teenager in black who’s being cornered by four guys who are armed so guess he better deal with that- Oh. Oh, he’s a lot stronger than before. Huh.

Oh bother now the boy thinks he’s an evil spirit haunting him, which is a tad rude since sure he might be a spirit but he’s not evil- Oh, now he’s locking himself in a jail cell.

So yeah, Jonathan has A Time in this new day and age

Another bloody Castiel

I’m proud of him :) I’m surprised I managed to get that devotion in his eyes-

Anyways, if y’all are wondering why I always use the titles on my posts, it’s so I can see what people interact with without having to scrutinize the tiny photos cause I use a lot of the same color palettes 😅 And I have a new watermark!

Ref down here

lighting a cigarette off the rim of my guardian angel's halo and they have to watch and let me shorten my lifespan by smoking it even though they're assigned to protect me from harm. because of free will.

‘Nightcrawler’ seems to be feeding into the demonic stigma that Kurt faces.

In personal experiences, demons have always been creatures of the night. They ‘fear the light of the Lord’, as is said in the Bible. Their dealings are shadowed in darkness, and they are coated in flames of righteous fury in Hell. They stench of sulfur and brimstone, associating them with a putrid yellow and a furious red. They have been depicted as having pointed tails and horns in media, also sometimes possessing anthropomorphic qualities like a goat’s eyes or legs. Kurt may not have horns, but he has the tail, often the anthropomorphic hands, feet, and legs, and those pure yellow eyes. His main color is blue, yes but there’s also that red and yellow- both colors associated with something vile and evil. And many monsters in literate media are described to be clambering or ‘crawling’ towards unsuspecting humans. And when Kurt fights, he often ‘crawls’ towards his enemies when he’s not ‘banf’ing around. And the white gloves and shoes come off as him trying to ‘purify’ his touch, like a priest or the Pope who both wear white. The color is associated with purity and beauty, and Heaven in some Christian beliefs, and Kurt is catholic. He seems to be attempting to distance himself from demonic imagery and his father Azazel as much as he can, considering what the man has done and how he seems even more like a demon than Kurt both in name and appearance, turning to God and religion in the process. And yet, Xavier turns all that away and keeps that name given to him by the circus and gives him a uniform that feed more into that demonic imagery.

Though the name didn’t originate with Xavier, his choice to keep it for Kurt has always felt a bit off and almost capitalizing off the imagery to maintain control.

Honestly, it makes me so sad thinking about the first few seasons of Supernatural

These two dumbass brothers being codependent because of a shitty dad but it's okay because they know what they're doing is right because what they're killing is evil

And then when you look at Season 9, where I'm at right now, Dean's still codependent to all hell and Sam's just tired. He pushes Dean away because he tried to save him even though he's barely done the same any time Dean's been almost dead

Bobby's dead, that old house is gone, monsters are good it turns out, and the brothers aren't really acting like brothers, because Dean couldn't live without Sam

But Sam could always live without Dean, so the rift just grows

Love and Power Concerning Odysseus

            (Introduction) When most people look at Odysseus, they see a wise strategist who bested various beasts and gods to get back home to his wife and son. But some see a man who embraced other women willingly, followed a corrupt goddess, and did not love his wife as it was stated he did in Homer’s Odyssey. But when one takes a closer look at the text itself, one can see that this is likely not what Homer had intended to imply. Homer meant to display how Odysseus was taken advantage of by goddesses and gods alike. (Thesis) Calypso and Circe both seemed to take joy in the power they held over Odysseus, while Penelope displayed the love for him that truly showed how they cared for each other. (Direction)

            (Statement of Facts) Homer lays out Odysseus’s life quite well. Odysseus was a Greek soldier who, after having made the suitors of Helen swear to defend her from any potential threat, was whisked away from his wife, Penelope, and his infant son, Telemachus. Odysseus fought for ten long years at Troy, facing hardships from the Trojans and even within his own ranks. He advised Agamemnon, gave counsel to Achilles, complimented Diomedes on his work ethic, and slaughtered those who stood in his way. After Troy fell and the Achaeans divided the spoils amongst themselves, Odysseus set off for home. For twenty years, he braved trial after tribulation from gods to monsters to betrayal from his own men. Eventually, after making it home and seeing the state of his palace, Odysseus, alongside his now grown son, Telemachus, strung his war-bow and slaughtered the suitors leeching from his wealth and harassing his wife. The interpersonal relationships in his journey are where things get complicated (Homer Iliad) (Homer Odyssey).

            (Division) Odysseus’s Roman counterpart, Ulysses, brings an interesting point of view to the discussion. The Romans did not like the Greeks’ Athena, and thus any hero related to her through patronage or skill. This influenced how they depicted Odysseus in their own mythology, which sparked many arguments against him in some modern circles. It is debatable, depending on which book is referenced, whether or not Odysseus was the man to throw Astyanax from Troy’s walls; but, for the sake of argument, this paper will use Pseudo-Apollodorus’s Bibliotheca- or, The Library, as is the English translation-which seems to imply that it was, in fact, Odysseus who committed the murder. The true application of coercion may also be called into question, considering the customs and culture at the time that Homer’s Odyssey was written; however, this paper will be viewing it through modern lenses and definitions for the sake of this discussion. Considering these details, this paper will discuss Odysseus’s relationships with Circe and Calypso and the power they exerted over Odysseus in comparison to how Penelope treated him with love.

            (E1P1) Odysseus was coerced into his relationship with Circe based on the threats to the health of his crew and himself, and of the gods’ anger towards him. “…[S]uddenly she struck with her wand, drove them into her pigsties, all of them bristling into swine- with grunt, snouts, yes, and only the men’s minds stayed as steadfast as before” (Homer 238). Here, Circe displays a clear power imbalance between herself and Odysseus’s crew. With a single touch and some magic, she sent them “bristling into swine” with hardly a chance to fight back. Any attempt to stand against her could be reasonably expected to be met with a similar display of power and danger. Later, when Odysseus approaches Circe’s palace to do just that, Hermes- the god of travelers, mischief, and often Odysseus’s own grandfather- approaches, offering the advice of: “..but don’t refuse the goddess’s bed, not then, not if she’s to release your friends and treat you well herself” (Homer 239). Hermes’s approach offers another layer of concern on top of the threat of Circe herself. Odysseus has been shown before to fear the gods’ power when he murders Astyanax, as depicted in Apollodorus’s Bibliotheca and would likely fear Hermes the same, despite their blood relation (239). To have Odysseus “[not] refuse the goddess’s bed” for fear of safety is the definition of coercion, which is an action taken under duress of retribution or harm (Cambridge). Thus, the relationship between Odysseus and Circe could not have been one of love, but only power.

            (E1P2) Calypso exercised her power over Odysseus to keep their relationship afloat, rather than relying on kindled love or affection. “On that tenth, at night, the gods cast me up on Ogygia, Calypso’s island, home of the dangerous nymph with glossy braids who speaks to me in a human voice…” (Fagles 285). Here, Odysseus immediately makes it known how he feels about this nymph. She is “dangerous”, even to a man who had faced down the Cyclopes, the Underworld, and much more. Any relationship built on danger cannot thus be one of love. When earlier, Odysseus had recounted the tale, he made clear mention that “she never won the heart inside me, never. Seven endless years I remained there..” (Fagles 187). Despite the time spent on her island, “seven endless years”, Odysseus never caved to Calypso’s charms. That amount of time would have been more than enough for some semblance of Stockholm Syndrome to kick in, but it never did. Odysseus remained resolute in his dislike of her, even to the point of having “no choice- unwilling lover alongside lover all too willing” when she brought him to her bed (Fagles 157). This is another clear example of coercion- the act, process, or power of coercing, which means using threats or intimidation to force someone to do something against their will (Cambridge). Despite the time Homer lived, he still understood that Calypso’s and Circe’s relationships differed from Odysseus’s with Penelope.

            (E2P1) Penelope truly loved Odysseus, unlike how Circe and Calypso treated the Ithacan king. “How well you knew- you heard from my own lips- that I meant to probe this stranger in our house and ask about my husband… my heart breaks for him” (Fagles 393). Penelope, with the first mention of her husband, immediately wilts with grief for Odysseus. She stands up to her own maids and caretakers in defense of this beggar for even a hint of news of Odysseus without even knowing the man himself was in front of her. “…[D]own she sank, laying the case across her knees, and dissolved into tears with a high thin wail as she drew her husband’s weapon from its sheath…” (Fagles 426). Even at the sight of only Odysseus’s weapon, Penelope cannot contain her grief for Odysseus’s absence. Even with the suitors’ adverse personalities, twenty years would be more than enough to decide Odysseus was dead and choose another husband, but Penelope never did. She stayed faithful to Odysseus even through the desolation of her home and desecration of her image. “Living proof- Penelope felt her knees go slack, her heart surrender, recognizing the clear signs Odysseus offered” (Fagles 462). Penelope truly loved Odysseus and her actions showed she saw him as a man, a husband, and a father, rather than a toy to be used and discarded.

            (Refutation) According to the Roman iteration of Odysseus, Ulysses, some may say that Calypso’s and Circe’s relationships with Odysseus were willing and filled with love. In Ovid’s Metamorphoses, Maraceus- one of Odysseus’s men- recounts the story of the crew’s encounter with Circe. “Ulysses was happy to join fair Circe in her bed, but insisted that she must restore his friends...” (Ovid 563). Now, the Romans were known to not be fond of Greece or their interpretation of Athena, which would allow for the intentional mischaracterization of Odysseus to justify their hatred of the goddess. Also, this scene is recounted by one of Odysseus’s men- a likely unreliable narrator. Understandably, Maraceus might see Odysseus as ‘happy to join fair Circe in her bed’ as he looked in from an outside perspective without having heard the prior discussion between Ulysses and Hermes. Maraceus did mention Hermes- or the Roman Mercury- meeting Ulysses before he came to Circe’s palace “with [the moly] and the god’s instructions” (Ovid 526). However, it was unlikely that Ulysses recounted the entire set of instructions Hermes gave him to his crew, considering the sensitive nature of the discussion. A misunderstanding would be almost inevitable among the crew. Unfortunately, we do not have a similar recounting of Ogygia from an outside perspective, but similar arguments can be made and rebuffed with the same points.

            (Conclusion) Despite many angry men and scheming iterations, Odysseus’s reputation as a faithful, wise man who adores his wife fails to be tarnished by their efforts. Looking at Homer’s text alone, one can see how Odysseus was truly meant to be viewed and how the power held over him by the immortals of his world changed the implication of his journey.

Works Cited

“Coercion | English Meaning - Cambridge Dictionary.” Cambridge Dictionary, dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/coercion. Accessed 30 Apr. 2025.

Homer. The Odyssey. Translated by Robert Fagles, Penguin, 1997.

Apollodorus. The Library, Volume II: Book 3.10-End. Epitome. Translated by James G. Frazer, Harvard University Press, 1921.

Ovid. Metamorphoses: A New Verse Translation. Translated by D. A. Raeburn and D. C. Feeney, Penguin, 2004.

Homer. The Iliad. Translated by Robert Fagles and Bernard Knox, Penguin, 1990.

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