-Once You’re Gone You’re Lost Forever_

Introduction to “The Entity Of The Sketchbooks”, project TEOS

Konj is someone you haven’t met, yet are very familiar with. He only exists in notebooks with a profuse amount of pages meant for creative purposes, or to put it simply, Konj only exists in sketchbooks.

It is very hard to describe Konj, or “the entity of the sketchbooks”, because he doesn’t have a physical form. Instead, he possesses one singular notebook at a time because that’s the extent of his power. No one knows why he can’t possess anything else, and it is still undergoing research by doctor ReMoVeD.

The entity doesn't seem to display any hostile intentions, and from the data that our team has gathered from the subject, we’ve been able to put together a synopsis of the one known to the world as Konj.

He is only able to control one character at once. 

You see, Konj doesn't control the notebooks itself, he controls the pages by living in them. We’ve found that he sort of… “lives”through the characters you draw. He inhabits them, breathing through their nose and looking through their eyes. He may switch to a different character if he doesn't like the ones near him, displaying that this entity does seem to have somewhat of an opinion.

As he inhabits the character, the sensations he feels from them are realistic. He feels the material of the clothes you drew, brushing against his skin. Through his drawn nose, Konj inhales and exhales handfuls of oxygen, the air tickling his nostrils. And through his ears, he hears every tap or scratch you make on the page around him, traveling through his external auditory canal before the sound is eventually registered in his brain.

He takes on the characteristics of whatever you’ve drawn, but is unable to enact bodily functions through parts you haven’t drawn yet. When he does blink through the characters eyes, you won’t be able to see your possessed drawing move from just looking at the paper, as seen from our experiment 3496. Instead, you would need a microscope to zoom in on parts of his body and see the small atoms move through him controlling his body

2. His life force is unknown 

All humans live off from the blood pumped from our heart, which is one of our most important muscular organs. Though it wouldn’t be able to survive without the oxygen supplied to it from parts of our respiratory system like our nostrils and mouth.

However after test 8924, our team of scientists found that not only does Konj not have a heart, but he can live without breathing. This was found when scientist ReMoVeD drew a humanoid shape on the first page of a sketchbook without facial features. Due to the amount of atoms and offset of particles, we found that he was still maintaining a healthy vitality, and thus recorded that the experiment was a success.

Humanity might not ever know how Konj is able to live, as we haven’t been able to find a way to establish contact with him. There of course have been many hypotheses from our team about how this unique individual may be able to exist, such as the guess that his life force is based off of the pencil lead itself, but we have not yet been able to confirm that that is true, as we haven’t seen any degrading of the pencil lead, which might be a sign that he’s feeding off of it.

3. His powers do have a limit.

Even though he is able to jump to multiple sketchbooks, he can’t access them if they’re out of his range. (50m.) This prevents him from moving around, or leaving the current notebook he’s in, forcing him to stay in one place.

Because of this, we were able to set containment procedures. He is bound to a 5 by 6 inch sketchbook made out of clear pages, stowed away in a pristine white cabinet. No paper is allowed to be within 50m of him, for fear of him escaping out of containment. And finally, everyone who touches the notebook containing Konj must wear gloves, since any damage to the sketchbook slowly erodes the contained entity.

We have no reason to destroy Konj yet, as he hasn’t shown any hints of malice. We don’t want to allow him out into the world, for fear of Konj gaining a will to carry out unlawful and hurtful acts. He has shown that he is able to gain an interest in humans however, jumping from paper to paper just to watch the certain individual. With this ability we are afraid that Konj could have a chance of ending up in the wrong hands and being used to spy on others. We have a firm belief that no one could establish contact with him before using all of this information that is classified, but we are a team of scientists that would rather be “safe than sorry.”

4. He does have a gender.

Despite taking on several characters of varying gender, Konj’s fixed gender is male. This fact has caused him to prefer taking control of male sketched characters, and pretty much only possessing females if it’s necessary. This fact was found out by ReMoVeD, after they discovered that he has less than twice of X-chromosomelinked genes that females have.

The amount of data we got from its DNA was limited, not allowing us to fully explore its genetic code. To acquire this, we had to rip off a piece of paper that Konj was possessing, and put it through our high-tech DNA processor. Though we couldn’t get a lot of information due to Konj quickly moving to another page, causing his DNA to leave the page in the processor. For that reason we have a very meager amount of knowledge about his genetics, but the pieces of info we have is still very valuable to our research.

We cannot find the parents of Konj, but our hypothesis is that he does have some, since one’s gender is decided at birth by the amount of chromosomes that the male parent contributes. Still, without confirmation that Konj has parents, whether alive or dead, we cannot gain more information about his origin, thus leaving more information enshrouded in the shadow of Konjs mystery. One can only hope that soon we can understand more about this unique creature.

(Leaked classified information from the website www.guardianarchive290/Uwest.com)

A/N= 

This is sort of an SCP Oc. Due to the amount of work I put in it and the time it took, you aren’t allowed to use this Oc in anyway without my permission. Failure to follow my set rules will result in an immediate block, and this punishment is non-negotiable since you didn’t follow the set rules. Thank you for following these rules, and I hope you have a good day. I may expand on this Oc if asked too, but there is no guarantee that this character is going to resurface in the future if I’m not asked to do more stuff with it.

Ps: If the link works for the website this info was “leaked from” DO NOT CLICK IT. I pressed random words on my key and used suggestions to make it a random website link. If you choose to still click on the link, I can’t guarantee the safety of everything on your device, and will be risking your own digital safety. But if the link doesn’t work than you can just ignore this little tidbit and go about your day.

This is some fanart I made for my favorite yandere writer, @yandere-writer-momo! She’s great at describing scenes so you can envision them and every time a story of hers end, I’m really upset cause I always want to read more! I don’t think my art does one of my favorite stories of hers, build-a-yandere justice, so I definitely recommend going to read all of her stories and following her!

The artwork is completely mine though, as I busted out some of my own art supplies that’s been buried away in a dark corner. I also used some of my friends markers, which surprised me by not bleeding through the page. You’re NOT allowed to claim this artwork or any other pieces that I’ve made as your own, as my hard work on this piece would be completely overlooked. You can always ask me if it’s ok to use my artwork and then, IF I GIVE PERMISSION, it’s allowed. Thank you for respecting my rules about my artwork.

Posting a yandere quote because this post got a note. Actually my own idea i thought of today! ^^

“Darling if I can’t keep you in a chokehold hug to keep you all to myself, then what is love?”

:/ (Me who has no idea what this means lmao)

Mizooks 5 tip tour for a good Easter!

1 - Make lists. No you will not remember if you let it float around in your head, so write it down! It’s much more easier to keep things organized when they’re written or typed, so make sure those ideas of yours get on lists.

2 - Confirm allergy’s of all the guests coming. To make sure what to serve and what not to, you should keep tabs on everyone’s allergy’s. Warn people of them before they come, and keep epipens nearby just in case.

3 - Make sure you are allowed to place eggs where you have spots planned. Ask your neighbor before you litter eggs on their front yard for example. If they aren’t ok with it, you’ll have to learn to take a no and hide them somewhere else!

4 - For gods sake please don’t use eggs with the two little holes in the top. Since you’re placing them outside with candy in them, this is a prime opportunity for bugs to sneak in and infect the candy with germs. Plus imagine eating a bug, yuck!

5 - Have your guests clean up after themselves. Yes I know this is a very basic, common, and standard household rule. But if your guests don’t remember, gently remind them. After all, no one is there maid here.

I know this is old but here’s to having good Easters everyone!

I do apologize for not posting again yesterday. I ended up using my free time to watch all of the music freaks and was going to post this night, but my friends ended up going out to dinner with me so I stayed out till like 11 pm lol. So because I ended up not having time yesterday, I'll do another double post today! :D

Today, on Saturday April 13 2024, I'm going to tell you guys my favorite female anime character. Though I can't mention one without mentioning the other, and they both happen to be from the same band. Yes, band is right because the two happen to be Ena Shinonome and Kanade Yosikai from project sekai!

Growing up, I had my parents divorce at an early age of 5. I can't really remember much, but it still is a sort of trauma for me. But that's not the only trauma I have. At an age of 12, I ended up getting mental hospitalized, also causing me to miss Valentines day.

So you may be wondering, what does this all have to do with the two anime characters?

Well growing up, not only did I have mentally abusive parents but I had around five to six mental disorders. (Dont worry my mom has stopped and my dad and I are working on things.) I won't reveal them because I don't fell comfortable since I've already told you guys so much personal information, so please don't ask me as that won’t end up well.

Anyway, I’m still trying to find my gender and place in the world, but that's not the point.

One of my friends has called N25 (my favorite group) an emo band before and I think that's one of the worst insults you could give them.

All of them have very meaningful and lore built backgrounds even though I may not have a full understanding of Mizukis.

But, my adoration for Kanade came before Ena actually.

It's very obvious that she's with depression, but she still tries very hard to get past it. Her work for a song to save Mafuyuu is honestly heartwarming. Throughout the story she shows strength and even in the story called “(something) discord”, she fights to save Mafuyuu so N25 doesn't lose her forever.

Her strength has been an inspiration for me, since I was hospitalized for being suicidal and self harming. During that time, I couldn't see my family which was honestly one of the biggest wounds someone could inflict on me. Sometimes I feel like her songs are meant to save me too.

Even though she doesn't actually “write” the songs because they're all covers, all of the songs are imbeded with deep lyrics. The one I think I can relate to most is “Bitter Choco Decoration” sung by everyone in Nightcord. Though the whole band is in a deep spot in my heart, because there songs are something I can grasp onto and they give me hope and perseverance to continue living.

And even when they're all not doing deep things and just hanging out, its still fun to watch there silly antics. Ena and Mizukis banter are fun to watch, it's nice to see Mafuyuu getting a much needed break, and overall there group interactions.

Plus Kanade is really pretty. (Looks are always a contrubiter to my simp qualifications lol.)

Now to Ena. Kanade isn't the only one whos strength inspires me. For example, some of my favorite events have these Ena cards:

(Idk this event :’))

On this black canvas I paint.

Also, I love the event where she teaches Honami how-to draw and paint.

Lets start with the first event that I don't remember, but it's one where Mizuki is the main person you follow. The picture is from where they talk on the rooftop, and Ena tells Mizuki that she can vent to her when she's ready, and that Ena won't push her. To me this shows how kind Ena is because she's demonstrating that she's here for Mizuki. She went up to the rooftop, and didn't stop in the story at all to support Mizuki, and made sure she knew she was supported and loved even if she didn’t feel like she could tell anyone. 

Even though there in highschool, this is an amazing amount of maturity. It sure how kind she is, caring for her friend and being able to tell when something is off. My friend was wrong when she called N25 an emo band. What they really are is a group of friends who have gone through tough things, and they try to support each other throughout life. It's something one could really admire, and consider there family that isn't there by-blood-related-family.

Now the one where Ena teaches Honami how to paint is registered in my favorite stories. It's on the light-hearted side, where you can see Honami, Ena, and Emu, hangout and see there fun and warm-hearted interactions. 

Through the storyline you can see Honamis insecurity with her art, and anxiousness to painting on the wall of a kindergarten. It's a fear I can understand, as every human is worried if being made fun of, yet even though Honami is a stranger, Ena agrees to help her out and even meet in person.

Throughout helping Honami at Emus house, Ena is worried about changing Honamis art style because everyone paints in a different way. It's because beauty and art has its own style, and she doesn't want to change here because it's unique. So instead, she teaches her how to assemble basic shapes into animals and it works, but when Ena goes home, she still wonders if that was the right thing to do.

This shows how much she appreciates others things, even if something may not look understandable from first glance. And I say first glance because she ends up looking at it more, and eventually makes out Honamis drawing of what she first sent to Ena - an elephant. 

So when Emu and Honami are finally painting the kindergarten wall, Ena rushes back over just when Honami is finding a girl getting upset for being bullied for having the same style of art that Honami had. So Ena walks over to the girl and points out the parts of the animal to the others, and even suggests things the girl can add.

She also encourages Honami to draw how she normally does, because now she sees that it isn't just blobs of paint or whatever, it's something if you squint hard at it. So even though the kids laugh at Honami, Ena continues to encourage it and even paints on the wall with everyone!

This shows how she encourages people and helps defend others. This adds even more qualities to the other kind type of person she is. But that isn't the main reasons why she has a deep place in my heart. 

It's a reccouring thing where Ena tries to encourage Mafuyuu to break free or stand up against her mom, providing Mafuyuu a bit of strongwill. I've gone back into the log and even screenshoted some of her quotes to Mafuyuu, because they were really inspirational to me. Especially since even though my friends say I'm like Mizuki, I feel like Mafuyuu sometimes. Her quotes help me feel like no everything is lost, and that there's hope yet, just like Nightcords songs.

Also in the event “this black canvas I paint” I feel really bad for Ena. She is trying to be like her dad who's a famous artist but he's said things like “you'll never be a great artist” and what not that brings her spirits down. Hearing that from a parent can be extremely hurtful, especially since she has a really harsh art teacher. So harsh in fact that she gave up, but she eventually does gi back because she wants to get better at art.

And her going back eventually produces the card where she's crying in the classroom, one that makes me feel sad for her every time I look at it. Though she continues and eventually her art teacher takes her aside and tells her that she actually has a really good talent for art, and that she's always welcome.

Despite the pain and people telling her no, she continues on being persistence and pursuing her dreams. It's an admirable trait, and I feel that her and I are the same in a way. Both trying to improve and worrying about our art, even getting some harsh feedback that brings our spirits down. After all, my dad is one of those brutally honest people, and there are many times in my life where I wish that I had Ena and Kanades bravery.

They both are strong and beautiful women despite there circumstances, helping each other and friends and pushing forward on steadfast resolves. They both and their songs have set many foundations for parts of me to build on, and have been inspirations and things for me to cling onto when I'm in a bad mood. I truly do not have enough words on how I appreciate both, and will continue to love them until the day I die. These reasons are why that if you ever seen my profile on colorful stage, I not only have both an Ena and Kanade card in my main party, but also there fan and partner titles in my status. I wish both of them as much blessings as they've given me <3.

*Cough cough.* Everyone ignore how long that was and I'm going to move on to question six, asking me what anime I've watched that in ashamed I enjoyed. 

Honestly, there isn't really any. There are certainly some games I've enjoyed that I'm ashamed to admit that I had, but if I had to say an anime, I'd say No Game No Life. I like it because I also want to live in a game world like they do, but am ashamed because the anime also contains nudity and sexual stuff sometimes.

I even have a memory where I brought a book from the series to school where I didn't look through the photos, and oh boy did I regret it. And I still do today, so much so that I'm never bringing it to school again. 

I pulled it out to read and one of my friends caught the sight of a character um… not wearing clothes. So my friends quickly stole it and looked through the pages. It wasn't pretty but it was especially embarrassing since they were loud enough to let the whole class know.

And let's just say, naked wolf man is a joke thats been stuck against me for a while. And that I've also learned an important lesson to check books before I go to school. Never again will something like that happen. Hopefully.

Time for day 4! My favorite male character.

Hmm… that’s an interesting question. If we were to go overall maybe for kindness it would be Toya from PJSK? He’s just a sweet little muffin that has been through a lot with his dad, and trying to find his place in the world.

One of my favorite fanmade comics of him was actually made by @juicelooped , and I saved it so I can look at whenever.

This honestly warms my heart, and I’m so glad I found this so make sure to show Juice some support!

Anyway his dad has put him in a kerfuffle so many times, thats he’s even cried before. Yet he still remains kind to others like when he tried to make muffins for the Tenmas. He supports everyone when they need it, and would never be mean to a soul. He has had a hard time growing up, but not only does he have great vocals, he also is doing it to pursue his love of music and because it makes his dad frustrated.

As the story progresses, I’m glad to see Toya learning to stand up for himself, and I wish the bestest boy my sweetest regards. :)

One of the fears of being in my life is that you have to constantly worry when your one friend says “guess what” so you can respond with “chicken butt” before they can. A couple of weeks ago I learned a new response where you can say “guess why” then after the next person asks, you respond with “chicken thigh.” Let the war begin. 🫡

not dead, just last weekend did a huge double show and have been staying up late for self care. So have an image :)

I noticed by art skill had been falling a bit so I tried drawing a cover of one of the books I had. I’m not sure if I’ll color it yet tbh.

Good morning everyone! It’s time for your favorite pastime on my blog. The anime challenge! Let’s get started >:)

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Today’s question is who I think the best anime villain. 

Well those who have seen that I’m a fan of Death Note, I bet you might be able to predict who I guess. Though I guess mentioning the title of anime I’m gonna pick from gives it away, huh? 

Yes, thats right if you guessed Light Yagami the college murderer, you’re correct! (And also probably correct if you think that Light wants my hide for calling him a murderer lol.) 

He is who I believe the one and only villain in Death Note, and I will debate with you over this if needed. Yet that isn’t why we’re here, you’re here for my disjointed thoughts due to staying up at 10pm+ every night (which I apologize for.)

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Why I like him:

It’s cool to see his character development, but one of the biggest reasons why I love this potato-chip-eating-bean is his looks. Yes, I admit I’m a simp for Light Yagami. 

He’s probably the smartest villain I’ve ever seen in ANY show for that matter, not just anime. If you want to bring up Yuno Gosai I will say that I haven’t seen all of Future Diary yet so I still stand with my choice. 

Light Yagami is so smart that he was definitely a contributor to the fact that after I read several pages of the manga, my brain shorted out after trying to make sense of all their logic.

He also is kind when not under the influence of the notebook, even though we rarely see moments like those.

Even though he gets deranged when he gets the notebook, his planning skills and how he keeps an act is amazing. He gets away with it for several years, and  even had the smart idea of hiding a small piece of paper in his watch. 

Also, his voice and the laugh at the end are amazing. He sounds so good!

Personally I wanted him to win because he always spiced things up and I simp for him, but when you love Near too you have an internal conflict lol.