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just recorded a talk @ my moms church abt sexual immorality bc i have the NASSSSTIEST nanami idea (age gap, emotional infidelity, ANDDD a church setting meowwww)
see iâm a suguru gooner but as soon as i see a legitimate analysis on him and his character i need to set down my phone and take a walk
okay so hi. it ended up angsty LMAO pls donât hate me
now playingâŠ
angel by massive attack
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yandere asylum therapist! suguru x reader
my first ever dark content/yandere oneshot aaaaaa!!! plsss thoroughly go through the cwâs before reading ^^;
cwâs!!: non-consensual drugging, mentions of needles/syringes, medical malpractice, descriptions of violence (gutting, beating someone to death, etc.), mentions/romanticization of cannibalism, blood eating, medical abuse (???), gn! reader, no use of y/n, uhhhh freaky suguru. like heâs actually crazy (but so are u) and uhhh i think thatâs it?? ^^;
wc: 1.3k (what.)
âhow have you been feeling?â your therapists voice is soft, just barely loud enough for you to hear. itâs like heâs trying to grasp at any sense of normalcy, as if any of this was normal. your head feels like itâs filled with cotton when you move to look at him, a deadly look in your dazed, slow-blinking eyes.
he completely disregards your glare with nothing but a growing smirk, shifting to adjust your position on his lap. âi see youâve taken well to the sedatives.â his cold hand grazes your bare arm as he speaks and you have to resist the urge to use all of the strength you have left to throw yourself onto the floor just to get away from him. you decided against it. you wouldnât give him the satisfaction of seeing you like that.
suguruâs a charming man. every nurse, therapist, and criminal in this hellhole of an institution knew that. maybe thatâs why he clung to you like this. you saw through him, had threatened to knock his teeth out just because you found his smile unsettling in the preliminary meeting (âa convenient way to find your perfect fit!â is what one of the brochures had read).
a few weeks later he was your primary therapist. the only one allowed to see you for sessions and the only one able to prescribe what medicine you took.
this time it was a strong sedative administered by needle, only given to you the one day a week you saw him for your âsessionsâ. he seemed to enjoy this one, considering how he hadnât switched the prescription in almost a month (though you were sure he was upping the dose every week, there was no other explanation for the way the syringe seemed to get more and more full every time you saw the nurses holding it).
itâs only now that he seemed to notice the narrow-eyed expression you were giving him. âaw, donât look at me like that⊠itâs for my safety, angel. i canât have you lashing out and hurting me, can i?â his palm rests on your cheek and as much as you will the muscles in your neck to jerk away from his touch, it still doesnât work. only a small grunt leaves you and that sound only heightens the amusement in his eyes.
âmâgonna fuckinâ kill youâŠâ you manage to strain out. you despise how weak your voice sounds. you despise the way his eyebrow quirks up in interest in response to your threat. you despise how his voice comes out a low, patronizing purr when he asks âoh, are you?â because he knows you will. he knows that if he lowers your dose you wonât hesitate to hunt him down. heâs seen your files, he knows.
you let out a shaky breath at his words, that deadly glare in your eyes never faltering as your head nods in response to his question (though heâd barely constitute it as a nod, more like a subtle twitch of your muscles). âmâgonna gut you⊠cut you alllll the way from your bellybutton to your fuckinâ throatâŠâ you can feel the delirium from your medication settling in when youâre halfway through speaking, but that doesnât stop you.
âhow gruesome.â is all he hums, a deep, twisted glint of admiration in his gaze. âyouâve certainly grown more creative.â the pad of his thumb presses into your bottom lip as he speaks. he seems almost satisfied with your violent description, like youâd just given him the greatest gift he could possibly ask for (to him, it was).
he couldnât help but feel touched by your words, how you planned something particularly torturous just to bring him as much pain as possible. the way you hurt people â at least before you were admitted â was concise and unmeditated. someone made you lose your temper so you hurt them, plain and simple as that. you were only able to plead insanity because of the way you âblacked outâ, only noticing the soreness in your arms (and the brain matter in your hair) after you had beat a man to death.
so for you â a patient with uncontrollable violent outbursts â to plan something specific just for him? oh, he could feel the pleasant chill rolling down his spine. how would you do it, suguru wondered. would you steal a scalpel from the nurses or a knife from the kitchen? would the way you cut him open be clean â planned, even â or would you just hack at his skin until you were satisfied? he could almost imagine the way youâd pin him down (not like you had to, heâd let you see his insides if you asked politely enough) and run the cool metal over his abdomen before he felt the sharp contrast of the warmth of his blood trickling down his skin. he could only hope he would be alive long enough to see the crimson tainting the pretty skin of your hands, getting under your nails and sinking into the grooves of your palms, absorbing every drop of him.
suguru was so lost in his fantasies that he didnât notice the way you had squinted at his far away expression, a muscle in your jaw giving a small twitch. maybe if youâŠ
suguru also didnât notice the way you had managed to slowly pry your jaw open, the tip of his thumb now resting against the ridges of your bottom row of teeth. at least, he didnât notice until you miraculously willed your jaw to snap shut, the metallic taste on your tongue bringing you a primal sense of satisfaction (you wouldâve preferred to bite the the tip of his thumb clean off to teach him a lesson, but this would do).
and oh, you wouldâve laughed in his face if you could when you heard that strangled little gasp leave his lips. you relished in the way he watched you with a dumbfounded look, his usually piercing eyes opened wide in surprise.
your victory was disturbingly short lived, though. his shock quickly turned into something almost giddy with the way his eyes seemed to light up like a child who was just handed their favorite toy. he forced his thumb deeper into your mouth, his head cocking to the side almost observantly. âhow do i taste, angel? hm?â thereâs a crazed look in his eyes. you feel like youâre getting dissected. âmaybe you should eat me after you cut me open, yeah? iâd let you, you have my permission.â heâs all too eager to give you more ideas, more ways to torture him even after death.
his arm snakes around your middle so he can press a palm to your stomach. âiâd be with you forever⊠wouldnât you like that, angel?â he murmurs lowly by your ear. you donât have the strength to answer anymore, your eyes blinking slower⊠and slowerâŠ
he holds you tight as you slump against him, (the sedatives make you intensely drowsy⊠it doesnât help that he had prescribed you double the recommended amount) making a mental note to up your dosage once again. he canât risk you building up some sort of immunity, can he? if the force of your bite was any indication, heâd have to find a new medicine for you within the next month or two (not like it was any hassle on his end. if anything, he was excited to see your adorably pathetic attempts to brute force your way through the daze of a new drug).
he just had to keep you here with him⊠youâd learn to love it.
to love him.
Me reading Chainsaw Man: damn, Fujimoto is so good at writing compelling female characters, how does he do it
Fujimoto: women are evil and scary and they want to cut off my dick
ow. owwww. i jerked backwards on the left one so she had to take out the needle and repierce bc the placement was wrong. ow.
iâm getting my nips pierced tmmrw. i am so scared. so nervy.
i feel like suguru never broke the habit of eating candy/drinking soda after eating curses.
like even as an adult with all the cult leader stuff, he still always carried around small candies or lollipops to stave off the nasty taste after eating a curse. especially after you came into his life.
it felt strange to eat a curse only to kiss you with those same lips without something to cleanse his palette. he didnât want to associate the bitter taste of a curse with your lips, heâd much rather associate them with something sickly sweet.
the sound of crinkling wrappers and soft crunching had become customary, a sort of white noise after suguru had ingested a curse. he always, always leaned in for a kiss after, slipping his dyed tongue into your mouth as you hummed at the sweet flavor laving over your tastebuds, even playfully trying to guess the flavor from the remnants of the sugary treat.
thatâs why you watched him expectantly as he finished the remnants of his lollipop, his tongue mindlessly fiddling with the stick for a moment before throwing it away. he raised an eyebrow when he noticed your stare, a smirk gracing his lips.
âis there something on my face?â he sounded too smug to be clueless. you only shook your head in response, that same wide eyed, expectant gaze fixed on his face.
he broke sooner than he wouldâve liked, clicking his tongue with a small âcâmere.â he fought back a smile when you came closer, cupping your face in his hands before pressing his lips to yours in a heated kiss. you pulled him closer, a small gasp leaving him when you sucked on his tongue softly before pulling away completely with a thoughtful hum.
âis it peach?â
he gave you an incredulous look, a small laugh leaving him at your words. god, you were going to be the death of him.
(you were right.)
soaking in the bath while toji sits on top of the toilet seat bc heâs a big baby and canât handle how hot you like your water.
youâre on your phone or reading a book, the skin above the water dewy from the steam and he just watches you. he watches as your head lulls to the side with a sigh before your breathing steadies. heâd think you were asleep if he didnât know you any better, but he did.
heâd normally tease you, say something about how he didnât know cpr if you fell asleep in the bath⊠but he doesnât. instead he matches his breathing with yours (anything to make himself feel closer to you in the quiet moment) and leans against the back of the toilet. heâs content with watching you until your skin got all pruny. after all, isnât that what heâll be doing years from now anyway?
wolf!suguru x lamb!reader x serpent!satoru
cw: suggestive (?), they like your mouth??, fingers in your mouth, mentions of eating you (not out but like literally), biting, etc... i'm sorry everyone mist is the one who enabled this behaviour. blame them in full (kidding ilysm my darling pls nvr stop enabling me)
serpent!satoru would pry your lips open with his fingers, squishing your cheeks in his hands as he's poking to hold your face as he's prodding around inside your mouth. thick calloused fingers pressing into your tongue, he'd be so teasing. teasing about how small and flat those pitiful excuses for teeth you have are â mischievously betting that they couldn't a dent in his hard gleaming cerulean scales. he'd bring them up to your mouth without another word, only a glint in his eyes. a hand at the back of your head would guide you to bite down on them as hard as you can, hardly even making a dent, satoru didn't even feel it. he'll laugh at you, the sound coming from his chest it's so loud and he's so mean with teasing voice saying that you could do better, just bite down harder lambi it shouldn't be too difficult, even for you â there's no way that's all you've got for him. laughing even harder if your pretty eyes begin to water from his teasing and the ache in your jaw and gums becomes more prominent. you're embarrassed but more annoyed at him than anything, because even now he somehow manages to find way to be a nuisance and your left unable to retaliate when he's got his fingers roughly shoved so deep into your mouth; maybe you could use them to practice meanwhile.
wolf!suguru on the other hand will coax you into letting him into your mouth. he's cradling you, head rested in one of his arms close to his chest. his own little lamb. his fingers running along your flat teeth, suguru is cooing at how smooth they are, not pointed or jagged at all. he's so condescending as he begins his displays and performances of the false sympathy he feels for you. it must be hard; having such small fragile teeth, such soft skin and weak bones. he's carefully holding them between his gentle fingers and wondering how much force would be needed for them to shatter beneath his fingers. it's okay though! because your teeth match the rest of you soo well. they're well suited for a little lamb like yourself, tender and easily broken. he'll ponder out loud how scary it must be for you, poor little lamb having no fangs, no claws, no venom, no thick skin or hardened scales to protect yourself from predators like himself and the other dangers of the world . suguru wonders if you understand how incredibly easy it would be for his teeth to sink into your tender flesh, claws slicing through your soft skin with so. much. ease. it feels nice. thoughts of your sweet blood on his tongue and dripping down his sharp teeth onto his chin , he could be so messy for you. he's baring his sharp jagged teeth behind his smile, eyes closing delicately with the movement; it's equally possible to be either kindness and mockery â perhaps both at once. he's telling you about that's you've got to stay near him, so he can keep you safe, letting him make up for your lack and protecting you. keeping you safe and cared for like you've never gotten to experience before. he's got no choice but to care for such a sweet little thing.
now if both of them managed to get you in their shared embrace? that's smth else entirely ;>