I Miss You You Miss Me Yet We Keep Missing Each Other

I’d like to have compassion for him but I can’t I’ve already given him too much of my heart.

I’m no good with waiting.

The silence. The wondering. The voices chattering. It kills me.

But I wait. For you.

There is more than one path to being a Good Human Being™

Try not to think of me when you are alone

Try not to think of me when she won’t do those things for you

Try not to think of me when you are tired of forcing your round psyche into her square hole

Try not to think of me when you realize you can’t find happiness pretending to be someone you’re not

Try not to think of me because I am trying not to think of you

Try not to think of me

Chocolate is a health food. I bring her chocolate and I remain healthy.

I’m no good with waiting.

The silence. The wondering. The voices chattering. It kills me.

But I wait.  For you.

~ Lyss

Please don't remember me fondly

Remember me as the one who held your heart so softly, the one who loved you without restraint even when your love for me was a tangled mess which took years to unravel

Remember my patience and devotion as I sat at your feet, then how you crushed them under your heel

Remember me with pangs of guilt and regret when you think on your habit of assuring me I was safe with you then abandoning me once again

Don't remember me fondly, remember you killed me