I Give Myself Around Five Minutes To Ramble At 1am
i give myself around five minutes to ramble at 1am
it’s 1am. let’s see what my adhd riddled sleep deprived jshk obsessed brain has to offer us today. expect nothing, i don’t make sense at this hour i might make this a daily thing, because my insomnia will keep me up anyways and it’s interesting what i do at night… summary: mostly just me ranting about today. and my crippling sense of self
i just cried for like half a minute and it was absolutely wonderful. highly recommend. at least an eleventh of my stress has been washed away (even if it’ll replenish extra during the weekdays).
it’s been all around horrible for the second half of the day, and partly possibly because i skipped lunch and stuff,,, but maybe because my self validation meter is running low and there’s literally nobody here to help?? maybe?
i want so badly to have an irl friend to yap about everything to. it feels too much like ive been taking all the yapping and doing absolutely everything to nod my head and listen like the open-minded person im supposed to be and barely getting to even show any of my thoughts and
it’s honestly normal to censor yourself and stuff, right? because you don’t want to let too much of it leak through and look like you’re asking for attention and such but it’s such a
what again
replace it with something you can never get (im not making sense at all) anyways, speaking of stuff i can never get, they finally found my lost computer and that’s nice, but i’ve been so writing deprived i don’t know whether i can write again, and im sure no one would notice unless i scream it to the hills anyways. wonder how i could get more people to care
and about that, it’s time to stop, but i’m on a roll so who cares
do you ever just kind of
“i want to post this” “i want to make this” “i want to do this”
“… but no one’s going to see it, so why does it matter?”
how does one break out of this? because i knwo it’s all writing for yourself but self-indulgence can only last so long (i regret making that oc so badly right now it hurts) but it’s not good for health and i know that
how do i continue this? i’ll stop. someone talk to me, i think im going insane-
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dead tired but wants to write will be my mood for the next 12h because oops it’s an hour away from early morning.
oops i did nothing for an entire night.
oops i did not sleep.
oops i did not eat.
oops i (did it again-)
oops i
oops
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. if only i could write without turning into a zombie to gain motivation. i hear the birds. it’s gonna be a wonderfully bad day
— soooooooooo... tbhk spy x family au
inspired after this post ! genuinely thinking about writing this with other people 👀 if anyone’s interested... i regret even thinking about it LMAOsomeone help me with the roles
so! roles!
setup #1 — tis does not work
teru as loid
tiara as anya
aoi as yor
akane as yuri (i’m so happy by how the roles fit)
?? as franky
??????? as damian
ok maybe the damian plot won’t work...
setup #2 — ooooooh boy.
nene as anya
hanako as damian (ooooooh boy)
becky blackbell as aoi!!! yes!!
loid as teru??? (this is gonna be weird...)
yor?????? i-
setup #3 — ohhhhh no.
hanako as anya
tsuchigomori as loid (nothing wrong there. this is good.)
yako as yor (kinda fits? ish?)
nene as damian (ohhhhhhhhh no.)
we manifest hakujoudai into bond forger
for questionable reasons, demetrius desmond has turned into aoi
who tf are nene’s parents??
i give up on becky blackbell.
setup #4 — we are turning the storyline into a mess (but this works)
main important cast
nene as anya
hanako as damian
hakujoudai as bond
teru & aoi as loid & yor...
akane = yuri briar >:)
becky blackbell ... mei shijima??
school people
yako & tsuchigomori as hanako/damian’s parents but nicer
uhhh tsukasa as demetrius desmond (oh wait tsukasa EXISTED)
kou = emile
mitsuba = ewen (mitsukou sideplot spotted)
setup #5 — my mind is melting but my heart will go on
ships we achieved: - hananene through damianya - teruaoi & terukane(ish) through loid, yor & yuri - past tsuchiyako through martha & henry henderson - broken hakusumi through damian’s parents (this is cursed)
main important cast
nene as anya
hanako as damian
hakujoudai as bond
teru & aoi as loid & yor...
akane = yuri briar >:)
becky blackbell ... mei shijima?? kou lmao
we give the title of the bill person to mitsuba... because i feel like becky would end up w him... but they don’t match at all...
school people
sakura and natsuhiko hakubo & sumire as hanako/damian’s parents
uhhh tsukasa as demetrius desmond (oh wait tsukasa EXISTED)
?? = emile
?? = ewen
sakura & natsuhiko no one as becky’s parents (we ignore and write them as side characters)
yako as martha (the blackbell butler)!!! both queens
tsuchigomori as henry henderson
the spy & assassin stuffs
sakura as sylvia sherwood/handler
who??? as fiona frost
im back again with my nonstop posting (and nonstop tears)
in order from left to right, up to down:
HANANENE HOLDING HANDS !!!!!
mirai ml <333 🫶🫶🫶
tsuchiyako making peace signs ~~~ skdfhksjdhfjksdk
MY QUEENSSSSSSSSSSS 🥺🥺🥺🥺 SHIJIMA LOOKS SO CONTENT I LOVE HER ♡♡♡♡ MEI LOOKS SO HAPPY AND FUN AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH ♡♡♡♡
anyways. i should shut up.
... JSHK SEASON THREEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!
(aidairo ily)
jumping up to explain!!! i love aidairo’s character designs~
hanako’s capes (there’s two, one over his shoulder and one that loops underneath his arm, it’s really smart for movement and i love it-) have a brown outside & red inside!
here we have an example with the anime design~
his upper cape thing folds outwards from the green-blue-turquoise hakujoudai ! so you’d probably color it red <3
chat what is this 😭😭
bc i wanna assume its the red ribbon shown in the ref but also???
MY MTSK POST GOT RB’D ALL THE WAY TO PINTEREST EVERYONE CHEERED
spreading ml for mitsukou here and tbhkpin you’re welcome yay
UM GUYS. I JUST NOTICED A CRAZY ISSUE W THE TUMBLR UPDATE.
this year's mitsuba cake!!!! (*´ω｀*) as always, i am terrible at cake decorating. but that's okay because mitsuba's beautiful face makes up for it <3
sender: the silly @lyingintheclouds
reciever: the lovely @mysteriousmissme
subject: re: intro post
dear mysti,
realizing what you meant by this made me search my blog frantically for the first post omfg
here it is!!!!! my old messy intro, undeleted and mostly unchanged <3
just in case anyone wants to get to know past me and our shared messiness ~
love,
cinna
cinna ur intro updated !!!! (the school mystery updates in ur tags are gone too though ) BUT ITS SO AESTHETIC WHATHTH (in mourning kinda)
aaaaa i’m probably gonna go back and edit it later anyways 🙏 but im so glad someone saw the tags !! and i love that pic omfg
tysm <3333 im so happy to be ur moot
HELP ME I WROTE A SMOL MESSAGE FOR AN ARTIST, COPIED IT (i do a weird thing it’s just a thing) AND ACCIDENTALLY CLOSED THE ARTIST’S BLOG LMAO
since i feel it’d be a waste to search for their blog again now that i’ve gotten this idea, please take this and imagine that it’s your art i’m talking about ♡ who knows? maybe it is? maybe i faked this story, just to talk about your art secretly? :3
i did take out some parts though,,,
i loveeee your art !! the contrast the lines the perfect imperfect messiness and the COLORS omfg i can;t get enough of it i just spent seven minutes straight scrolling through your art tag
i would love love love to ask for merch of this honestly (do you have some? lemme see!) but it’s alright if you don’t want to make some,,, i’ll laser your art into the back of my eyelids so that i can see it for all eternity instead hehee
tysm for your works!!! especially that one ship art oufdhsjkhfjshjk it made me scream and fall out of my chair tysm again for that experience <333 your art is amazing
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「hi, i'm cinna! she/they｜writer, artist, daydreamer」〜 cloud dweller . . . i hide in shijima's tower『ily shijima & hanako ☆ i write fics on ao3 . . .』
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