Well, I Passed The Exams Of The First Wave, But Now I'm Lying With A Fever And I Can't Walk Without Dizziness

ᥥ⑅ᥥ unhealthy relationship, unlimited flow / killing games, codependency implied, mention of killing

but imagine that you have a childhood sweetheart, and he is so beautiful that even flowers, even the sky, even the sea, even precious stones, even a fire — nothing can compare with him, and he looks as if he really smells of perfumes and mists, but at the same time he is beautiful not only as a woman, even if he is thin and flexible like bamboo, but as a man, wide and stable, and you constantly look at him 24/7, thinking about how much he is smart, ambitious, loving and caring, adoring you with all his soul and more, then looking around, afraid that someone will take him away, because years later you don't even care if he becomes ugly, but before your eyes he has gone from an incredibly beautiful boy to the same young man.

and everything is fine with you: he initiates a relationship, takes care of you all the years, continues to take care of you even when he makes you an offer at home in an intimate setting (respecting and fulfilling your desire if you suddenly want a public proposal, asking in advance), and you are already married, and he always takes care of you, builds with you plans for the future, your families communicate closely, he is always respectful, but not "too shy or timid"... Eeen if all these annoying perverts keep hitting on him, as if they don't notice the ring on his finger or your presence!...

... just so that one day you wake up in a world where you refuse to play some kind of horror game in real time, without being able to get out, saving your life, with the same incomprehensible "players", fearing for your life, knowing that your husband is waiting for you at home, probably anxious that you've been away for so long, and you're even ashamed that you haven't said goodbye to him in any way and can't contact him, but you're forced to stay here — and when you're almost desperate, you meet your husband!...

... but it's not your husband?

they look the same, the same mole, the same curve of the eyes, the same smell, the same breath, the same look — but it's not your husband. something's wrong- why doesn't your husband recognize you? and it's so annoying! why can they harass him, taken man, and seduce him like shameless rakes, but you, a legitimate spouse, can't do anything?! it's annoying! he's your husband! it's definitely him! how could it not be him?! it's one person! is this damn place playing with you?! you're trying to find out something, but it's useless! Is it really an NPC? but they are the same! How can this be a projection? even the most perfect projection can't be that good!

... when you manage to return home after completing your mission, you can't help but scare your husband with your agitated behavior, as if you're some kind of angry dog or spouse and he's an unfaithful husband, — even if he's trying to play along with you and trying to find out what's wrong, massaging your shoulders and asking you to tell him what not so much, looking into your eyes so... touchingly and promising to improve if you talk to him and spend more time with him... that your heart melts.

you're just... on your nerves. of course, you can't say anything, but you're still glad that he accepts you, even if he doesn't understand anything. he's so good! much better than everything that happened! no NPC can compare to him! he is so loyal, gentle and loving, as if he cannot live without you, as if you are the center of his universe, and looks at you with the eyes of a sad dog... that you don't find the strength to feel any dissatisfaction in the end.

... but when you are forced to return to the "game" again, there is an NPC who looks like him again. and again. and again. and again. and again, someone is trying to seduce and flirt with them! why is someone flirting and seducing your husband (even if it's a projection) in front of your eyes?! you can't stand it! It's your husband! yours! how dare they touch his waist, make greasy compliments despite his disgust, try to touch him, offer him privacy, make greasy, obscene phrases and jokes behind his back- if they could, they would have stripped him here already!

disgusting! beasts!

you can't be polite or kind enough! how can you just watch?! you're definitely going to get into a fight with someone! right here!

you're so shocked when it's this "likeness of your husband" who protects you by hitting you first, and takes care of your wounds, even if it's a zombie apocalypse — but you're still amazed that he didn't try to stop you as the instigator, and instead asks you to go with him. or when he gives you supplies. or when he's looking out for you. or when he takes care of you even in terrible conditions, promising you that he will definitely buy you new clothes and put you in order as soon as the world becomes "like before," and you try to smile, but everything inside you gets cold. why does he look so much like him, even if you know it's not him? why is he just- are you cheating on your husband with this likeness of a husband who is exactly his copy, not even a mirror image, who breathes the same way, looks the same, holds the same, walks the same, they are the same, you don't see a single difference, and you get scared.

this is the first time that you die in a mission on your own, because you cannot withstand this strange, uncomfortable, abnormal overload, even if your death still counts as success in the mission — but when you open your eyes, lying on the bed,

your husband looms over you,

looking almost... frightening. and scary. very.

“... my love, you were restless in your sleep. do you want to talk, or should I get some water? or both?”

both.

both, — and you're afraid of it.

ᥥ⑅ᥥ soulmate au, mention of death

soulmate au,

but instead of "soulmate" it says the name of the person who's going to kill you / you're going to die for, but that name can also mean the person who's going to spend the last seconds of your life with you. meeting them before death is avoidable, but death cannot be avoided.

imagine: it's the first time you meet a dirty teenager who killed his owner, who resembles a wild animal that needs to be cleaned up properly, like a small animal trapped in a trap — but this is the one whose name is on your arm, and you know for sure that it's him.

(bonus points: your name is written on his hand, but AVENTURINE doesn't know because you use a pseudonym instead of your real name.)

HAHAHA i love you too, dearest<333 mwah mwah<3

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Hello darling :))

How's the blog migration going??

HELLO LOVE mwah mwah mwah<333

you have no idea i shshsgdhsg I finished these exams better than I had hoped but worse than I could, - at my usual level hhhh, so I mute all social media and started writing!!!

I was thinking of coming up with a better design, but I'm not a good designer, so I plan to start writing first and solve something there, since I also learn html in parallel so that at least everything is beautiful :333

I'm thinking of sharing a blog at the end of the week, but I do not know,,, I'll look at the development process. after all, I already have the primary colors, I like the text, and most importantly, - I have the best pfp!!! so there's just a couple of things left to do, and we're ready<3

OKAY SO many things need to be done, but let's try to start something interesting instead of these boring things

Oh yeah??? Well, guess what???

*evil boops u evil boops u evil boops u evil boops u* evil boops u*

Finally bringing chomps back? It's been too long 🙄😒 /t /j

I can't wait!! It was actually really fun to see you design ur blog, so Im excited to see it again (*´∇`) /gen

-panna cotta

I was just waiting for you to gain strength & start sleeping & eating normally so that it would be more pleasant to chomp<333 at least i hope you do it🤨🤨🤨 i dont eat bones

heheh,,,, silver tongue, smooth talker<///3333 /t /affectionate i hope so, pretty thing<3 will make everything prettier again, wouldn't we?<3

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OMG YAAYYYYY are you feeling okay though?? Have you taken any medicine?? If you have come down with something, then it's good to hear you managed to get some rest!! (And just getting a nap in general, knowing your sleeping habits 🙄😒 /t /j) :OOO YUAN YE??

-panna cotta

<3333 50/50, i think😔 false information, I now only have a stuffy nose, but everyone around me is now sick with coughing, lack of voice, fever and sneezing. I am also a kind of sigma, every time I get sick, I recover quickly, but everyone else gets twice as sick<333

🙄🤨😮‍💨 i am!!! now I start going to bed at 23 and fall asleep before midnight!!! what about you? From the looks of it, you're still acting like you have one life to work and another life to sleep🙄🙄🙄 smh smh shame u shame u shame u!!! /t

apocalipsis zombie jayvik?😏😏😏 i stalked ur page even months before, I've been waiting for the opportunity to finally show you this😌 <33333 send me the link pspspsp when u finally write it plz /kith kith

whenever tumblr shadowban me, it feels like enlightenment into real blogs. im the chosen one.