He's In My Mind Crossdressing

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It's a reference to the russian animated show Fixiki. There's no context or backstory, the words just sound similar :P

Ramblings under the cut

Guys, I'm suffocating in homework and extra classes. My mental health can only take so much. The pressure is unbearable and it's very hard to run a blog in such conditions. My brain is just a buzzing mess right now. That's why I've decided to take a break

I will post WIPs and sketches, even some finished drawings (I hope), but don't expect much. I don't know how long it will take, the semester ends at the end of June, but I hope that some of my extra courses will be finished sooner. Conclusion: I have AuDHD and university is hell😞

I hope for your understanding, love y'all🌸💕

Hey guys! I have bluesky now:)

Here, take these

I think he's a very dysfunctional autistic😞

He displays a lot of symptoms:

- intense special interests (engineering, robotics, that scary clown is probably a thing im their world too, so it counts)

- stimming. Lucas can be seen shaking his leg and humming to himself in Not a Hero. Vocal stimming seems to be a common thing for him. He makes a lot of funky noises

- social withdrawal

- He only wears loose comfy clothes, which may be an indication of sensory issues.

- he also doesn't like being touched (he tells Zoe to get out of his face when she clings too much in Daughters)

- or when his stuff is touched (annoyed when Eveline is taken to his old room; also that fuck you list entry about Jack throwing some of Lucas' stuff out on the veranda)

- sensory issues with food (kinda? He complains about his mom's cooking, doesn't like it even when the whole family is fucked up with mold lmao)

- difficulty with neurotypical communication patterns. Lucas is very direct with expressing his discomfort. Takes things very literally (like in that fuck you list entry about him looking in on Zoe when she was doing yoga. She called him a pervert, most likely JOKINGLY, but Lucas took it seriously)

- tendency to systematise and categorise (the fuck you list and childhood journals)

I can think of a few more symptoms of autism (+adhd) that he shows, but they're either based off his general vibes or my speculations

Aaanyway-

Due to mental health neglect, Lucas is dysfunctional and unaware of his autism, which leads to internal turmoil, low self-esteem and sense of emptiness. Idk it's me speculating here again, but I just enjoy diving deep into psychology, so I dare to assume that Lucas tried to get rid of this emptiness and self-hatred by projecting it onto others and killing people

I'm experiencing curiosity so

Lucas Baker enjoyers, what mental illnesses to you think he's coded with and why?

I've seen a few, I've definitely seen ADHD coded behaviors but I've seen a few people theorize he could be schizophrenic. I'm just overall curious to what people think and their reasons, especially since I haven't analyzed too far into it.

Okay, so I just had a negative online experience. Don't expect me to post anything in the nearest time. I will be moping in my bed, because some random person on the internet thinks I'm problematic😔

if you abandon gender hard enough you can unlock the secret state of nirvana where all clothes give you the thrill of crossdressing

starting a collection #blackmold

I could fix him. I could make him worse. Good for you. I could gently take the weapon out of his shaking, blood-soaked hand and hold him until he finally believes that he doesn't have to be defined by all the ways the world has hurt him. Then we could ruin the lives of everyone who has ever treated him like he's a monster who doesn't deserve love.

I know hype time is over, but wuggies squeezed me tightly and don't plan to let go ;-;

Closeups and some design notes under the cut

Closeups:

Design notes:

- Kissy's outfit is inspired by her official posters and also that cloth she supports her arm with in ch4

I saw people draw stars on this cloth and at first I thought it was a headcanon or sth, but NO, there is actually some sort of stars and moon pattern on it!

- the bow she's wearing as a bracelet is actually Huggy's. Kissy lost hers in the fight with the Prototype, so Huggy gave his to her

- Kissy didn't lose her arm because the plan to blow everything up wasn't set in motion

- however her right eye was so badly injured that it went blind. Kissy now wears an eye patch and she doesn't like it when someone draws attention to her scars

- oh and i draw tails on them optionally. Idk they're just funny monkey creatures to me

Also I've found out today that Kissy canonically has a soft spot for drawing and writing, and my heart melted

Protecc her at all costs fr fr😭💕

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