Pls Hear Me Out Onthis Ship.please

I SWEAR TO GOD—

*points at them aggressively* GAYASS

recently someone rolled their eyes and told me everyone's neurodivergent these days. i once spent 5 hours zoned out staring at my new wallpaper slowly peeling off the wall. i was too burned out to get up and fix it but it was bothering me so i couldn't leave it, either. i just sat there and watched the paper crawl downwards.

that whole time i was thinking about how fucked up the show danny phantom is because i think the kid might have actually died? or is a lich? or maybe exists in a limbo between two worlds? he was just 14! does he ever get to actually pass on? did his particles fry?

the wallpaper remained half-peeled for 3 weeks. also, i have only seen like 3 episodes of danny phantom.

something my therapist and i have talked a lot about is that kids with mental illness and/or neurodivergence almost always know, even before the diagnosis. we just know. we can tell there's something ... different about us. i don't know how to explain it. a sense of displacement, of alienation. like everyone else is getting secret, important messages - and we just can't. like the floor is a laser grid, and everyone else is a gymnast, and we can't even see where the heat is coming from; only feel it cut off the parts of our life that someone-else would have had easy access to.

cut off like how danny died(?) in the portal, i mean. its like you become... not a person, but not a corpse. something like that changes you.

i thought i was possessed. real-life full-of-demons possessed. it was the way i was raised. there was no other explanation for it, because i did the math - i saw how people talked about neurodivergence, and i was at-once "not bad enough" and also "too broken." therefore (obviously) i had let an evil spirit into my body. i guess that's kind of like danny phantom too?

i keep thinking about how when people are experiencing mental pain, they often secretly wish something horrible would happen to them, just for the "excuse". depression and anxiety are some of the more common mental illnesses, so they're treated like a small wound. like if you slap a bandaid on the situation, that person will just-pull-through. they are not seen as life-altering, much less life-threatening. they're a minor inconvenience, like needing glasses or being unable to process dairy. everyone is depressed. being neurodivergent these days is kind of the same.

if everyone is special, nobody is. it's kind of annoying, because - if it's true so many of us exist like this, why not make the world a better place for us? why not have more access to things like affordable testing, learning centers, and outreach programs? why not make adult life more manageable for those of us still struggling? why not acknowledge that adhd medication has been scarce for a while now, and that it is absolutely horrible that it's forcing thousands of people into a sudden and non-prescribed withdrawal? if there's nothing really different about us - why isn't the world shaped to fit us? why would we have to "just get over it"?

and why did his parents even have a death tube in their basement to begin with? the kid is obviously intelligent, just tell him "hey, this is a death tube, it's got death inside of it." maybe put a sign up. or safety railings! that shit was obviously not osha-compliant.

in the show, they frame it as danny's mistake, and then he has to deal with the consequences.

i haven't been able to eat anything but my safe foods in weeks. in my monthly "check in" meeting with my boss, he said - you just seem distractable. like, easily. there are no guardrails on my life. either i keep myself in a stranglehold of perpetual control, or it dissolves in the rain. it's a joke with my friends - well, you know her. she'll forget. it's a joke, and it's funny, and i'm laughing. my boss wrinkles his brow. you're a perfect worker, but you miss that 5%.

it would be nice if everyone did understand, is the thing.

wheres seasons greasons

It's midnight here, so happy disability pride month to my fellow disableds, the chronically ill, and also to the temporarily abled.

If your activism doesn't include disability, you're sure as fuck going to wish it did.

Nothing about us without us ♿👊

Love the malicious compliance some subreddits are doing now

/r/wellthatsucks is about vaccuum cleaners now

/r/steam was forced to reopen and is now about actual steam as in gaseous water

/r/iPhone only allows pictures of Tim Cook

/r/aww only allows pictures of John Oliver being adorable

/r/pics only allows pictures of John Oliver looking sexy

One of the things that pisses me off so much about AFTG relationships is whatever the fuck Nora decided to do with Kevin and Thea. For one, let’s start with the big elephant in the room shall we: Kevin was fourteen and Thea was eighteen when they met each other. Kevin was literally a child and Thea was not. When they slept together for the first time Kevin is - presumably - eighteen (Nora only said it was his first year at EAU) and Thea was twenty two/three and it was in front of everyone. We know the Raven’s mindset is fucked up at best but seriously… in front of the entire team? They never talked about themselves in a normal-relationship way when they were at Evermore. According to Nora, “Thea’s last words to Kevin–until she showed up at Fox Tower in TKM–were to get some more practice in with the girls so he’d be ready for her when he graduated.” Be for real… this isn’t normal. But let’s pretend we can put all of this under the “they are Ravens and Ravens knows no boundaries and never had any normal human interaction in their lives” belt.

Let’s do a time skip. Riko breaks Kevin’s hand and Kevin leaves EAU. He spends a year at PSU not playing and not once he reached Thea. Understandable because he was still afraid. Then he starts playing again, still doesn’t reach her. She found out about all of this - broken hand, leaving the Ravens, playing again - through the media. Then, she shows up at PSU out of nowhere and almost doesn’t give a chance for Kevin to explain himself. Except Kevin explain - at best he can, considering he couldn’t put her in danger at the moment - but still she saw how Jean was and she knew what Riko was capable off, right? WRONG. Because Nora goes on to say the worst thing possible about their future:

Be fucking for real. You telling me you saw your teammate an inch from death, saw that the supposed love of your life had his career almost destroyed - and Thea and Kevin got married, so she is aware of the amount of trauma Kevin carry from being raised with Riko at EAU - and still the hate edges off because “after all, Kevin’s playing again, so no harm no foul, right?” ???? Are we seeing this? As a fandom, are we collectively seeing this?

“But Kevin needs someone who can keep up with him and with his obsession with Exy”. Ok, but I’m pretty sure there are other women besides Thea playing Exy that would be able to keep up with Kevin and still have an ounce of sensitivity in their bodies.

Now my only logical explanation to this, which is where I always go back to is that Thea and Kevin weren’t supposed to happen if Nora had planned AFTG like a normal writer should. We know she wrote a thousand versions of AFTG - even versions where Kevin dies or where Kevin/Andrew/Neil were together - before publishing as a book and we know she had so many versions inside her head she made the books a fucking mess but there is no way someone didn’t warned her about this absolutely fuckery of a relationship. I can’t believe we as a fandom bought into this and still reinforce it as a hc.

Also, do we really think Thea helped Kevin navigate his trauma after TKM? During their lives? This is so incredibly unfair because Kevin deserved someone who could help him heal himself and understand life outside of Exy but no, Nora really had to give us/him this mess.

I needed to vent a little, anyway…

please dear lord this cannot be happening 😭😭😭😭😭

BITCH -

habe you ever created a character specifically to go through the horrors and then realized that you don't want him to go through the horrors anymore

[Video description: a digitally drawn animation featuring two cat characters: Pinepaw, a spiky blue cat who’s thinking about the other cat throughout the video with a love-struck expression and Cormorantpaw, a shorthaired black cat with scars who’s sitting next to him with an unreadable expression. End ID.]

Pinepaw and Cormorantpaw from @barrenclan! Thought this audio fit them (in the first few issues at least) so I made this :3

I had this idea even before I’ve got a tumblr account and was looking through the blog when I first discovered the comic (latest issue was #14) and there were a few asks and jokes about what Cormorantpaw is thinking about, so this was based on those asks! (They were from around September 2022 I think) And recently I finally got the time and motivation to draw it :]

(The song is Macintosh plus 420 ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQkPcPqTq4M) and was my edition to the audio)

Detailed video description + transcript under the cut.

[Video description and transcript:

A 14 seconds long digitally drawn animation.

Pinepaw, a spiky blue and white tom with yellow eyes is sitting next to Cormorantpaw, a short-haired black tom with hazel eyes and a big scar across his face.

Pinepaw thinks and blushes: “I wonder if he’s gonna kiss me” while looking at Cormorantpaw who is starring off into space with an unreadable expression.

Next shot is a close up of Pinepaw blushing and thinking: “He’s so handsome”. Behind him is a dreamy image of Cormorantpaw with sparkles around the black cat and a pink background with swirling clouds.

Next is close up of Pinepaw from another angle with a love-struck expression thinking: “ I wonder what he’s thinking about…”

Last shot is Cormorantpaw from chest up with the same unreadable expression. In his thought bubble is a video of a 3D rat spinning while the Macintosh plus 420 music is playing. End video description.]