This Used To Be ME

welp... i’m back ????

rlly miss writing so if there’s anyone still here... HELLO

you die in every iteration of the tale. every letter about you is printed in blood.

the reflection in your eyes slowly dims, crimson trailing off your outstretched fingers. you are smiling this time.

since when had this been decided? you don’t know where the path for your inevitable fate started to unfold. you find yourself situated in between the civilians and the threat to their safety.

people around you try to prolong it, burning your draft letters and ushering you home before dusk. they insist you spend the days working the land and nights beside fireplaces.

but nothing can change the shape of your soul. you, self-sacrificial, reach out to wipe the tears of a crying child. you remember what it’s like, to be young and innocent. to have the unyielding belief that the world is, and should be, fair and kind to all.

and you will die, and die, and die.

you do not know your fate, your wide grin casting a light over the overcast sky. you are not fearless, but act in spite of the heavy dread. you do not hesitate, as you push yourself off the cliff along with the enemy soldier.

you are born to die, to leave the marks of your bloodied sword carved into a boulder. to leave the world with red clouding your vision.

Learning to Love - A Kyotani SMAU

Saffron’s Masterlist

Started: December 31, 2020

Last Updated: January 11, 2021

Pairing: Female! Reader x Kyotani Kentaro

Warnings: There’s to be fluff, a lot of fluff, suggestive content, cursing.

Status: Finished

Introduction:

The Boba Buddies; Kyotani’s Pack

Chapter 1: The Meeting

I. You’d think she’d know

II. Different

III. Convenience Store Boy (W.C)

IV. Lose my number (W.C)

V. My Eyes! (W.C)

VI. Poor Tadashi

Chapter 2: Getting Closer

VII. They Found Me (W.C)

VIII. Warm Jackets (W.C)

IX. Keep it. (W.C)

X. Feelings

XI. Nosebleeds

XII. Reverse Harem Vibes (W.C)

XIII. Tokyo

XIV. Returning to Miyagi (W.C)

XV. Jealousy

Chapter 3: Questions and Answers

XVI. Self Love O’Clock

XVII. Late Night Texts

XVIII. The Game (W.C)

XIX. Sleepover in Tokyo (W.C)

XX. Sleepover in Tokyo (Pt. 2) (W.C)

XXI. Questions and Confessions (W.C)

Chapter 4: Preliminaries and Finales

XXII. Training Too Hard

XXIII. TL & C (W.C)

XXIV. The Game (Pt. 2) (W.C)

XXV. A Year Later (W.C)

XXVI. Epilogue (W.C)

Holiday Bonus

Valentine’s Day

Taglist:

@galagcica @halesandy @f1bbe3 @voidednightmares @softiebadbitch @strawberrymarshallow @whyamihere-bro @pelicanpizza @chaeringpop @satoriluver @setterspirit @moonlightaangel @starryleafy @morpheus-rex @kodzuklutz @tazzi-baby @prettyinblack231 @trashy-simp @kookie-doughs @kac-chowsballs

[ 𝟏:𝟒𝟕 𝐚.𝐦. ] - 𝐒𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐒𝐀 𝐖𝐀𝐒 never one to initiate displays of affection in your relationship. In fact, he usually left it to you to hold his hand or give him a hug. You’d both developed a system where you’d tap against the other’s shoulder three times if you wanted a hug, hand-hold, or anything of the sort.

Which is why it comes as a surprise when Kiyoomi feels a head rest against his chest, the warmth that follows your skin starting to spread against his own. At first, he doesn’t know what to do. His first instinct is to push away, simply crawl back into the right side of the bed, his own personal space.

But when you snuggle your head closer against him, arms unconsciously going to wrap around him, he finds himself starstruck. What kind of boyfriend would he be not to let you cuddle him? He couldn’t blame you for your actions, you were asleep, after all. Though, he did slightly regret not getting you that body pillow for Christmas.

You let out soft murmurs against him as your legs started to tangle with his own. Sakusa stiffened, doing his best not to wake you and just let you do your thing. He looked down at you for a bit, tracing your sleepy figure with his eyes. The soft sounds that left your lips were comforting to him, and your bedhead hair was adorable to him. Your eyelashes fluttered against your eyelids, and Sakusa couldn’t help but think of what an angel you looked like in your sleep.

Without even realizing, his left arm had gone around your waist and pulled you closer, his chin resting against the top of yours as he reveled in the warmth of your body. His legs were no longer stiff as boards, instead finding their place against your own as he started to drift off.

You stir, eyes opening groggily before widening as you realize you’re this close to Sakusa. Your heart starts to pound, fearing the worst as you start to babble. You know Sakusa isn’t one to enjoy sudden touches, but exactly how long had you made him uncomfortable with the unconscious cuddling?

“Omi, I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to-”

“Shh,” he whispers, the gravel in his voice telling you he was close to sleeping, “just come here, sweetheart.”

If not for the lack of light in the room, you surely would’ve been teased for looking so flustered in front of him. “O-Okay, babe,” you oblige, placing your hand on his chest as you lean into him. You wouldn’t complain about his change of heart tonight, rather, you’d enjoy it to the fullest.

Sakusa rests his head atop yours again, taking in your scent silently. You smile softly as you relax against him, enjoying the feeling of his arms being around you so carelessly. He was always one to shy away from loving touches, but you knew he was always a big teddy bear deep down. His hand traced slow circles against your skin, each touch lighting your skin on fire as you took deep breaths against him.

“Night, Omi,” you drawled, feeling yourself being pulled into your dreams, “I love you.” 

Sakusa could’ve sworn his heart burst hearing your soft, sleepy voice telling him you loved him. If it weren’t for you already falling asleep, he would’ve asked you to say it over and over until he memorized how pretty you sounded while saying it. But he resorted to pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head, wrapping both his arms around you as he leaned back and repeated your words over and over.

He didn’t mind you leaning on his chest. The thump of your heartbeat against his only reminded him of how much he truly loved you, and how much he felt for you despite not being a physical-touch person. He let out a sigh, closing his eyes after taking one last look at your already-sleeping face.

“Goodnight, my love. I love you too,” He says, pulling you as close to him as he could before letting the night take over.

a/n: thank you to @sugawara-sweetheart​ for getting me into a cuddling sakusa mood🥺 desperately needed a soft omi omi today, hope you like this lil timestamp babe!

taglist: @lexysclubhouse @bubblesugawara @iwaizoom @hurtbycanonthoughts @starrsuki @dearkags​ @kozumesupremacy

wake-up call

A/N : i’m back :D i really missed writing so i thought i’d start posting on my favorite shitpost site 

summary : who’d wake you up in the morning and how they’d do it

inches slowly out of bed so they don’t wake you up. if you show any sign of being disturbed, they will STOP BREATHING and become a living statue 

yamaguchi

shakes you like a magic 8 ball

atsumu, tendou

yanks the covers away from you, if they’re awake so are you !!!

suna, mattsun, osamu, sugawara (he is secretly a menace), kuroo

tries their absolute hardest not to wake you but does it anyway. trips over a cord or smth

bokuto, nishinoya, hinata, ushijima

you wake them up

kenma, asahi, tanaka, sakusa, oikawa

gently taps your shoulder and waits for you to wake up

daichi, aran

opens the blinds, turns on all the lights, probably has an alarm set

iwaizumi, akaashi, kita

hope you enjoyed ! likes and reblogs are always appreciated <3

yeah this actually happened like 100% canon

you: *sneezes*

iwaizumi: are you sick?? *gets you a tissue* i swear to GOD *gives you medicine* it's because you keep staying up LATE *prepares you a healthy meal* and you eat like SHIT *draws you a hot bath* you're ALWAYS on your computer *gives you a blanket* this CANNOT keep happening *tucks you in bed* ENOUGH IS ENOUGH *takes away your laptop* GO TO SLEEP

writers:

break up your paragraphs. big paragraphs are scary, your readers will get scared

fuuuuck epithets. “the other man got up” “the taller woman sat down” “the blonde walked away” nahhh. call them by their names or rework the sentence. you can do so much better than this (exception: if the reader doesn’t know the character(s) you’re referring to yet, it’s a-okay to refer to them by an identifying trait)

blunette is not a thing

new speaker, new paragraph. please.

“said” is such a great word. use it. make sweet love to it. but don’t kill it

use “said” more than you use synonyms for it. that way the use of synonyms gets more exciting. getting a sudden description of how a character is saying something (screaming, mumbling, sighing) is more interesting that way.

if your summary says “I suck at summaries” or “story better than summary” you’re turning off the reader, my dude. your summary is supposed to be your hook. you gotta own it, just like you’re gonna own the story they’re about to read

follow long sentences w short ones and short ones w long ones. same goes for paragraphs

your writing is always better than you think it is. you just think it’s bad because the story’s always gonna be predicable to the one who’s writing it

i love u guys keep on trucking

yeah okay changing the theme

“Up till now, I’ve been "an ace that is coddled by the rest of the team”, but in a few days we’re all going to say goodbye to each other and go our separate ways, so it’s about time I became just, “an ace”.

Bokuto Koutarou → requested by @osamusmiya

having online friends is just “i made food does anyone want some” “i’m gonna fight ur dad” “remember that time you made a typo a year ago that we Still remind you of daily” “i know your deepest trauma but not your last name” “here are the random plants i associate you with” “good morning at 9pm” “goodnight at 7am” “my dog says hi” “LMAO NERD. keep talking about obscure anime tho i’m interested” “hey i know you’re asleep right now but this meme made me think of you” “if we were irls we’d Totally be dating by now” “one day when we live together....” “dude i bet i can jump higher than you let’s have a contest Right Now” “i don’t know what this weird school rivalry you have is but i support you!!!!!!” “getting in the car Right Now to give you a hug” “if i eat lunch while you eat dinner it’s basically like we’re eating together” “i am holding your hand as we speak” “i am kissing you on the forehead right now” “here let me braid your hair for you” “i love you” “i love you” “i love you”