I Spend Another Night In My Lonesome Solitude

I always come back to you

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

I can never stray away

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

You're stuck in my heart

And I can't get you out of it

I can never seem to catch a break

I'm yours to take

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

I know it's forward but its true

I'll always go back to you

Loving you from afar feels like drowning in an ocean of my own tears, while you stand on the shore, oblivious to my plight

I don't know what to do anymore

I'm crying day and night

Yet still somehow I have the will to wake up on the

Last third of the night

To pray for your health and safety

Please give me a sign

I'm lost please find me

I love him

Everytime I try to forget you, god brings me back to you everytime

I love you

It hurts

It won't stop

I've prayed

Instead, my heart yearns harder than before

I love you

It's you

It's always been you

Only you

Always you

Sometimes I don't know why I'm crying

I say i miss you but I've never met you

I don't know you

And you don't know me

But I can feel it in heart and soul

That one day we’ll meet

That we’re destined to be together before everything was written before the beginning of time

My angel

My love

I can't wait for hello

I can't wait to feel your touch

I can't wait to be in your warm embrace

One day instead of my poems or letter

Being written on here

I'll write to you

I only look for you

Only you

I only yearn for you

Only you

I only wait for you

Only you

I only pray for you

Only you

I only love you

Only you

I can't wait to met you

My Muse

My other half

I love you

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

I’m not scared of loving you; I’m just scared of losing you.

I fall in love with the little things, like the sound of your laugh; it makes me feel so warm inside.

My blouse is stained

I haven't changed it since yesterday

Not stained with dirt

But the tears that you steer

Till I'm broken and can't see clear

Are you satisfied?

Stuck on my phone

its getting late

And my eyes a sore

From the bright light, it emits

Like my burning desire for all of this to end

I can't fall asleep

I won't fall asleep again to your voice

Or dream of you again

Will you hold me like a child

Till the thunder quiets done

Till the darkness becomes light

It's Sunday but its still not the end of my pain

You're stained in my heart

I'm bleeding out on my blouse

Again.

I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.

My hairs stand tall from the thought of you

You fill the empty space once filled with tears

This burdened soul can not house another

My heart is heavy and stained with pain

You look at me with bleeding eyes, mine colder than ice

Emotionless but you make me feel alive

But I'm still distant in confined solitude

I want to see your point of view

Maybe then I could love me too

You're crescent moon eyes and crooked front teeth are my favourite

Never hide that beautiful smile

It brings light to my day

My Muse

Every night just when i look up at the moon, i wonder if he’s looking at it too; and i don’t know what to do.