Hey Im so sorry but I made a SECOND post recently but its gotten way more notes than help again and its slowing down a LOT so since someone suggested I make a new post so people don’t think that its old or that I’m okay now! The date is 6/1/19 right now! TW for content!
TLDR: My name is Em I am a mentally ill, disabled 18 year old who just found out I am pregnant. I am living with my controlling, violent, unstable BF and need help leaving this dangerous environment SOON before he realizes I am pregnant and trying to leave.
I will try to make this short but I started living with my bf who is in his 20s when I was 17 because I was also being abused severely at home. I thought he could understand me bevause we both had mental problems and he seemed very sweet. After awhile he started getting very controlling, manipulative, paranoid, checking my phone and taking it, locking the door and refusing to let me leave. He has threatened to let me sleep on the street because of his paranoia that I am cheating on him/trying to hurt him/ect. He has stopped taking his medication and I have tried to work through this with him because I do love him but he has only gotten worse. He has put his hands on me, forced and threatened me into sex. He belittles me for being disabled, calls me stupid, calls me a slut, he is homophobic because he realizes I am bisexual and thinks girls are only for men. We have almost gotten kicked out because he even threatened our apartment manager. And so much more that I dont even want to list.
I will be homeless if I dont leave because I cant just handle only putting my own life at risk. I know if he realizes I am pregnant he will react very badly. I have tried calling the police on him (which he holds over me now) but they did not have enough evidence of crime. He has a long record of violence but because he is mentally ill he goes to a hospital and then gets out when he becomes violent or threatening and then it happens again when he is off of his meds.
My parents have cut me off for leaving and refuse to support me despite begging for help. I am trying to reach out to all services suggested without raising attention. If anyone has anything to spare, I can afford an apartment on my own with my disability income but I need help affording the application fees, deposit/move in costs. I can pay my own rent from there and be okay! I have no way to work because of my disabilities. My SSI would also be taken away. I have tried even sex work but that is dangerous for numerous reasons and ended badly. I have been looking into shelters but in the meantime trying extremely hard to raise money because I know I can support myself if I am able to pay move in costs. I have had bad experiences in shelters before I moved in with him.
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Paypal: teamaexis@gmail.com
I know this is annoying and I am so sorry. Please please boost. I am terrified of him finding out about any of this every single day and its hard when I dont know whats going on with me and he can tell Im acting weird. I would do anything at this point. Thank you for everyone who reblogs and has reblogged and continues to help me.
Ive done the math and for a cheap apartment I can afford I would need about 6000 to move out safely. Its A LOT and I dont expect to get all of this but I am trying to save on my own also whenever I can. Im currently at around 800/6000 and will keep posting updates!!
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This is such an amazing idea 💡
Step 1: Get a box, any size is fine!
Step 2: Decorate it! (I used wallpaper and paint)
Step 3: Buy things to go inside your box - Remember this is your self-care box, so fill it with things that distract, comfort, relax and cheer you up in times of distress.
For example:
For example - Your favourite memories, reasons to stay alive, reasons not to self-harm, you can do this, motivational quotes, the things you love about yourself
Step 4: Once you have all your items of choice put them all into your box! 🌟
Step 5: Whenever you feel low, anxious, scared, alone, angry or distressed. Go to your box. It will always be there for you when you need it.
Remember - This is YOUR box. Fill it with whatever makes you happy. Some more suggestions could be; bath bombs, lavender oil, hand cream, a blanket, fluffy socks, snacks, pictures of loved ones, a puzzle game, arts and crafts items.
If you make one, take a picture and show me!
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I literally just had the most amazing lazy Sunday and I intend to keep this feeling up all week long. All I had was:
1.) Ate breakfast 🥞
2.) Walked around for a little 🏃🏻♀️
3.) Glass of milk 🥛
4.) Curled up on the couch 🛋
5.) Warm blanket 💫
6.) Read fanfics 🤗
This was literally the best. Feel completely comfortable. Figured I’d share.
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Anybody else feel like a kid on Christmas Day when a fanfic you’re obsessed about finally updates? I woke up this morning in a crummy mood but now I feel like super giddy and excited about this. (Okay. I’m done now. ✅ Thank you for attending my Ted Talk. 😂)
This looks like a gorgeous home. It was built in 1997 in Oregon City, OR. 4bds, 3ba, $1.875.
A babbling brook at the front door. Ah, but the owner had a vision. Check out the inside.
The entrance has a floating staircase and 144,000 lbs. of basalt columns.
So, this looks like a water feature under the stairs, but I can't make out what's in that strip under the stairs. Looks like they decoupaged some magazine pages.
According to the description, the rocks were meticulously placed.
Mini cave to the dining area.
This doesn't appeal to my senses. A cool rock cave that leads to a bland, gray, dated dining room. Bleh.
The openings to the rooms kind of remind me of mines. In the living room there's a large stone fireplace and bring your trains, b/c there are elevated tracks hanging from the ceilings.
There's a mural in the dinette and a high open window to the kitchen, for some reason.
There are too many unnecessary stairs in this house. With all the natural elements, I don't know why they painted the family room rose.
The kitchen's nice. I like the counters. It's kind of angular, but I like the simulated brick oven.
You will notice that, for some reason, this home has lots of windows in the walls.
Here comes the train over the pool room. Reminds me of Mr. Rogers creepy ass trolley.
Is that real moss on the rocks?
This is weird. These stair railings are mission style. Look at the built-in drawer on the left and the little door. Some cool, but odd, features.
What is up with all the windows? This one in the primary bedroom has shutters. There's a lot of built-in furniture, too.
The en-suite has a glass block shower.
The basement isn't finished, but has a nice twig display.
Looks like there's a wood shop.
Large back yard with a patio, decks, and hot tub.
22.75 acres of land. This private road leads to an outbuilding.
This is beautiful. You could actually crawl inside that tree stump like some kind of hobbit.
Someone carved this tree.
This building has great potential to be a 2nd residence.
Gorgeous Oregon views.
The 22.75 acre property is gorgeous. Lots of possibilities.
https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/22091-S-Ridge-Rd-Oregon-City-OR-97045/48279634_zpid/
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