My First Actual Post On Here Just To Say That Bsd Ch. 121.5 Was Everything I’ve Been Waiting For For

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good and cool and normal thoughts in my brain about sskk. as always

imagining them post-canon is always a time but right now I'm specifically thinking of ways they would show trust to each other. because they would absolutely, absolutely trust each other more than anything.

i have a few interesting thoughts on how they would show trust.

one is clothes as trust-- akutagawa's form of vulnerability. not wearing his coat around atsushi, or letting atsushi borrow it. not feeling the need to wear long sleeves or layers. being around atsushi means he doesn't need to be on guard, ready to tear somebody apart with rashomon in an instant. it doesn't feel like he's exposing himself to be killed if he wears lighter clothes, less clothes, no clothes at all. because being around atsushi is inherently safe to him.

one is food as trust-- atsushi's form of vulnerability. food was something he was rarely given as a child, and it's something that he wouldn't share. it's too precious. but he would get food for akutagawa, share food with him, save some of his own food for akutagawa to eat. and akutagawa would do the same. akutagawa isn't going to let him starve. he'll eat his part of a shared meal and let atsushi have his. if atsushi gives akutagawa some of his food, he trusts that some other day, akutagawa will give atsushi some of his. he doesn't need to live in fear that he won't eat again, because he trusts that akutagawa won't let that happen.

and lastly, rest. sleep. sleeping next to somebody is one of the most vulnerable things you can do, especially for atsushi and akutagawa, who were in danger throughout their childhoods. sleeping means you can be killed. sleeping means you are unaware. sleeping means you can be betrayed. to close their eyes, let alertness of their surroundings slip away, feel sure that the other won't hurt or kill them, maybe even that the other will hold them gently... that's the sort of trust they'd have.

for some reason these two panels having akutagawa drawn at almost the exact same angle in the same pose but with completely opposite expressions and things he's saying makes me foam at the mouth. harukawa (+ asagiri) you can't do this to me

thinking about atsushi’s hallucinations as things he has to overcome- with the headmaster, he obviously has to accept his trauma instead of hiding from it, which is symbolized in the last scene of ch 122 when atsushi lets the headmaster help him open the door..

the dazai hallucination tho- yes it was the headmaster hiding between a person atsushi trusts but i don’t think that’s all it is-

atsushi has to overcome his idealization of dazai, of his all-knowing-ness to trust himself more, and that happens by him seeing how pm dazai treated akutagawa. i’m not saying atsushi is naive, he knew that dazai has a dark past but seeing it with his own eyes is different, which is why then the headmaster hallucination came back bc he and the trauma attached to it are his next obstacles.

and he gets past them.

atsushi character development for the win.

(i hope this made sense)

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His heart is my sword

this manga has me in shambles with every chapter, the meaning behind every little thing makes me go INSANE-

What do you mean. What do you mean Akutagawa didn't know why Atsushi saved him. What do you mean Atsushi saw how Dazai treated Akutagawa, thus adding a new layer of understanding between them. What do you mean Akutagawa wanted to kill Atsushi for fear he would never be accepted "and then—" And then what, you fell in love??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN DAZAI WAS THE DIRECTOR BECAUSE ATSUSHI TOO HAS TO ACCEPT HIS PAST—

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which one of u was going to tell me that tea tastes different if u put it in hot water?