It Really Is A Tragedy, Thank You For Giving Us Girl Scout Khun, It’s What The World Needed 😭

Day 4 of crying over banana fish, when usually making me cry would be like moving mountains. I cried myself to sleep the past 3 nights after finishing the anime, this is seriously a different kind of pain. I don’t think any story will ever hurt me as much as this. It really tugs at every fiber of your being until all you’re left with is an inconsolable ache in your heart. I don’t regret anything though. Ash and Eiji will forever be in my thoughts, and their story will forever exist in my soul.

NAH CAUSE I WILL DEMATERIALIZE

Quick kiss doodles 💋

I think about this scene all the time LOL, was definitely on my mind for KhunBam week

KhunBam week 2024 day 5 - Faith

Season 3 Chapter 154

"Don't worry, we have the greatest scammer in the tower with us. I know we are going to win."

"Are you talking about me?"

I have no idea wtf compelled me to make this but here ya go

Using the format of this post:

“Only since meeting you have I rediscovered how simple it is to be happy”

Quick Hualian sketch, it has been a tgcf summer reading all the books and it is a crime I haven’t drawn them yet

SPOILERS FOR STARDEW 1.6

Ok so in the Stardew valley fair in fall you can walk out of the fair by going behind Pierre’s, but I think that was something that you could always do. However, if you go to the bookseller and look behind the tree that had the prize ticket gift box, there’s another one there! Does anyone know if the gift box randomly respawns behind the tree every once in a while or did I find a secret second gift box?

I absolutely love this art style, and these silly little guys (ok but why is Khun slaying so hard like 💅🏻✨)

Had to doodle the trio. They should get a vacation sometime

Actually so accurate, Yuri P. giving Yuuri pirozhki is always so wholesome

#6 Friendship

True friendship makes sure you don't share your food.

Happy 7th anni to Yuri On Ice!

Hello??? This is the best thing ever and I want it

3 parts standee i made for Victuuri and Victuri

Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.