Trauma Is An Identity

Gentle

I lay on his chest breathing heavily and cry into his shirt, he rests his arm on my back keeping me close. Gently moving his fingers over my side. His lips gently kiss my shoulder as I sob and shake. He kisses my head rubbing my side and back gently whispering sweet words that made me cry more not out of sadness but out of pity. I don’t deserve this. I never deserved this. He brings me closer and rubs my wet cheeks as he kisses my forehead, he holds me as if I’m young again. My mind drifts to memories I wish I never had. I sit in a corner of a somewhat empty room crying alone as my world falls apart, I was so little and alone. He pulls me from my thoughts holding me tighter, I feel his chest and arms shake. I feel the wet drops on my head,it’s as if he can feel my pain as if he went into my mind too. As if he sat next to me and cried. He chokes out a sob while I continue to cry into his chest. My sob become more pained. I’m hurting him, I’m hurting him. I grip his shirt and mumble his name begging him to not cry, this pain is my own, they hurt me not him. He saved me. The nights I laid in bed wishing hoping for my death, the dark hole that I laid in. He reach in pulling me out, I still hate myself and life but he makes it all bare able. To feel his body shake as if he’s in pain scares me, i look up at him to see his beautiful eyes glossy, his brows rest downwards and his forehead wrinkles slightly as his sobs rack his body, he speaks lowly. Telling me that he wanted to save me and take this pain away, his grip became desperate as if letting me go would end his life or I would fade away, he was scared. I told him I wanted to die, i told him I’m in pain constantly, i told him I feel dead inside, I’m not me. Theses words broke him to his core, he rubs his fingers through my hair pulling me closer begging me to hang on and that he would help. I feel my head start to pound as he keeps me close,he cries more not caring about how he sounds or looks. This beautiful man sits before me letting the pain for his beloved flood out. He wanted to scream. He loved me and only me.He places soft kisses on my head and face, he moves to my lip kissing me in a way that couldn’t be Described as hunger or lust or passion. It was a kiss of promise, he was my angel sent from heaven, he was meant to be in my life, he was willing to die just to make sure i woke up the next morning. just to make sure i didn’t look in the mirror and hate myself. Just to make sure i didn’t think of constant death. He pulls away breathing lightly, his tears hit my cheeks running down them chasing my own, even tho his eyes were slightly red and his cheeks were slight red, he still gave me a smile. The very smile that made me think maybe life wasn’t so pointless, maybe I do deserve love or a friend. He’s soft gentle hands rub my cheekbones taking my tears with them. His eyes look into my soul, no words or writing could explain the look in his eyes. It wasn’t possessive or desire or need. It was a plead or promise. He had this power to speak without even opening his mouth, he was true to his words even if the words weren’t on his tongue or fell from his lips. His actions were so loud like when he bring me a flower or gazes at me. He is selfless and beautiful no other person could describe him in a way I could, no scientific facts or author or song writer. Not even ancient Scholars could predict or summon a man like him. I rest my forehead on his closing my eyes but hold him tight as if he would slip away. He leans back resting me on his chest as he gently rubs my back. He whispers a sweet “I love you” before I’m consumed by sleep.

The mortal who caught a gods heart (part 2)

I feel the rain soak my hair and cloths like it wised to undress me, it was sinful but felt nice, I craved the touch. I look up seeing her in a white dress, it rested a over her mid thigh as she sat in the rain, the grass around her was wet, her hair was out and rested on her shoulders hugging her. I walk closer but feel my body become heavy, she looks at me, I want to scream her eyes are black and gone blood painted her cheek, I felt rage and saw my enemy holding her eyes, her whimpers reached my ears and I felt like I was being stabbed, she screamed it was like I was bing stabbed multiple times then I fell backwards it went black. I jolt up feeling sweat coat my forehead and I see her laying in her red silk gown fast asleep, my eyes watered. I moved closer resting my chest on her back, I placed small kisses on her bare shoulder as I went to Enter twine our fingers. She moved slightly her voice was small and precious “ what’s the matter my love” I kissed her cheek and ear gently “ I had a dream my love” I felt myself break, before a god that fears not a soul only feared to loose a soul, I could bring her back from the dead but to fail her the first time would break me. She woke up more bringing me close and hums “ do not cry my love I’m here” I shake and grip her arms bring her closer as I kiss her more and more “ you were so beautiful in your dress” I sobbed my words “ you..you..you looked so beautiful in the rain why did he hurt you” her face held sadness as if she saw my dream as if her eyes were really take and she was stabbed, I felt a heat rise in my chest and my cries became more desperate “ I failed you, I failed you” she places small kisses in my bare chest and shoulders “ it was only a dream my love, you will never fail me” I hide my face In her neck and sob “ you were so beautiful my love” she gently moves her fingers through my hair, she brought me closer. Then she began to get up. I saw and heard the sky start to fall, her now in a red dress she pulls me towards the doors “ I will be beautiful for you again my love” she moves into the rain and I watch it run down her body then I see the smile I love ooo so much, she smiles reaching out as she sits on the grass “ my love “ I come closer and wipe my eyes, she pulls me down kissing me deeply and moves her fingers over my body. She smiles bring me inches away from her gorgeous face “ my love, I trust you and know you’ll protect me until this body grows old and my soul goes away. I fear nothing because I have you” I wanted to cry more. In all of history no god has ever bowed or been ruled by a mortal and here I am on my knees for her, her body grows old each day. I can see her soul at night, her body is only a vessel to a beautiful white soul a soul that will go where I can’t go. Kiss her so deeply as if it was my last day on this dreaded planet. “ even when you do grow old my love, I will sit by you till the end just know you are pure” her eyes were beautiful, I’ve seen jewels and Ruby’s but nothing compare to her. With my words I brought more life to them. When she asked the gods for a painting I only saw her dull dead eyes but now that I hold her and love her, a new light lives in her. I made the once sad soul a beautiful one. I kiss her gently “ till death “ she kisses me back “ do us part my love”

(Artist:iwaixumi on Twitter)

@can-i-be-your-blue just saw ur thing lol was bored so here

George is found x baby reader (hair stream)

He puts his hair in a small ponytail getting out his face, he yawns stretching. He hears a low whine and smiles walking towards your room. He walks in seeing you awake in your crib whining. he picks you up gently and kisses your little cheek “ good morning darling” you look up at your father gripping your blue blanket and whine, he bounces you lightly in his arms and kisses your head “ I know love, I know” he goes down stairs and holds you close while getting your bottle, you grip his shirt and whimper “I’m sorry sweetheart “ he shakes the bottle and brings it to your lips rocking you lightly and smile rubbing his thumb on your back and sits down at the table, the sun runs through the kitchen window hitting half your face making you eyes light up, he smiles “ look at my pretty girl “ you look up at him and giggle lightly moving your little legs against his stomach. He laughs kissing your cheek. He gets back to the room laying you down picking out little outfits for you, today was his hair stream and everyone really really wanted to see you. He got ready and puts you in your little baby carrier, grabbing a coat and you baby bag. You look around and George laughs seeing you so in awe of everything, Wilbur comes with him to watch you. Wilbur steps out and smiles at you and you laugh reaching your hand out, he laughs holding your hand “ well good morning to you too, sweet girl” you loved Wilbur since you were born, he helped a lot. You grew up knowing him and only him so it made you excited to see him at times. Gets to the place and Wilbur holds you while you babble and hold your blanket, you smile as the other two men just gush over you. They hold your hand and rub your back as you look back and forth between them, George starts the camera and smile “ come on guys, let’s me see her” you giggle at your father as he rests you on his chest, the chat stars to fill with people talking about you “ y/n look “ he turns you pointing towards the camera you look at it and smile seeing your dad in the reflection. Everyone just melts, Wilbur takes you half way through and you play with his beanie and giggle at him while your dad talks. Half way through they lay your blanket down and you get your bottle completely passing out, Wilbur sits by you so nobody steps on you, George looks over and smiles, his heart melts seeing his little girl all relaxed. George finishes and leans down gently rubbing your cheek with his fingers “ y/n..y/n” you yawn and whimper looking up, you cry looking at him, since your birth he never cut his hair, it’s always been long so seeing it short upset you. You crawl into Wilbur chest crying. George looks shocked you’ve never ever denied him. It really broke his heart to see you cry and move away from him “ I’m sorry sweet girl” he goes to reach for you and you pout hiding in Wilbur’s chest. He rubs his neck and Wilbur turns you around “ it’s your daddy y/n, it’s okay “ Wilbur gets closer to your dad and you whine as your dad eyes water, you look up and whine as your dad holds you, he kisses your cheek softly holding your tummy and bottom “ I’m sorry darling, I didn’t mean to scare you please don’t be upset” you whimper and look up at him touching his face looking up at his hair and pout, George hums kissing your little nose “ shh shh I’m sorry” on the way home you still were whining which made George feel so bad, he tried to comfort you so many times when he gets home. He sighs still seeing you cry “ please my sweet girl, I’m sorry” his eyes water and he holds you tightly “ forgive me sweetheart” he cries lightly and you look up moving you hand over his face as if ur whipping his tears, he smiles and chuckles “ thank you darling” he kisses your cheek and hums taking you to bed, you lay on his chest and he gently rubs your back humming a little rhyme as you finally relax” Good night my sweet girl”

( I don’t do George very much but I hope you like it, you know who you are💙🤍💙)

Life runs us all down

He sits by the large window in our main room, he slouches in the expensive red velvet chair, his shirt is a little unbuttoned and he puffs on a cigar and holds a small glass of whiskey in his other hand the smoke flows smoothly out the large window. He insisted having a huge window. He could see all of las Nevada. You smile kicking off your heels and take your jacket off, you move my hand over the leather and rest between his legs. A small smirk comes onto his lips “ there you are my love “ his voice is low and thick, he’s drunk for sure. I look up at him and giggle moving closer cupping his cheek and kiss his scar, he hated his scar but I loved it. He was beautiful in my eyes, every scar, blemish made him perfect. His Scarred knuckles showed his labor for his new nation, it showed his sacrifices for a nation that burned and betrayed him. His chest showed more scars but he hated them so he got tattoos to cover some which I begged him not to. They showed his story, they showed his courage and willingness. One scar I genuinely hated is the one that rest on his neck it’s little and hidden by his mullet but when he was Vice President to jschlatt, jschlatt got drunk and was angry at one of quackity mistakes. He lashed out throwing a bottle that shattered the glass hit his neck. That night I never cried so hard, my husband laid in my lap with a thick bandages on his neck. He gave me his beautiful white smile telling me not to worry. I begged him to leave it all but now I sit before him as his body is covered in passed mistakes but no matter what he was still the same man I married. I smile seeing him looking so relaxed. It’s been weeks since he’s actually relaxed. He looks down and brings his hand up. I feel his rings rub my cheek. I giggle taking the glass out his hand and put the cigar out, he smiled childishly up at me and giggled which warmed my heart he never giggled unless he was drunk, I gently move up unbuttoning the rest of his shirt, I gently pull his red tie over his head gently pull his shirt over his head. He whined slightly slurring his words “ no baby” I smile “ let’s get you cleaned up love “ he stopped whining and just let me undress him, I pull the rings gently off his fingers and smile at him as I put his arm over my shoulder and lead him to the tub as he sits on the side I fill it. Then pull at his beanie and letting his long hair fall onto his shoulders, I cup his cheek kissing him gently. “ your so beautiful my love “ a blush takes over his face as he looks up. I gently lift his leg and set it in the tub as he sighs in the cutest way possible. He sinks into the warm water. I smile and giggle resting by the side of the tub, I go to the shower pulling his products out, I gently pour water over his head. By the tub their is another window is row like a gambling chip and has his signature smile on it pass the smile you could see the sun set. Looking down you see the sun hug the side of his face, his scar looked magic, I could see his gold tooth slightly reflect. I cup my hand pouring the shampoo into my hand and gently message his scalp. He breaths deeply and closes his eyes. I rinse his hair getting the rest of the products out and get a towel. He has sobered up more so he steps out and wraps his waist in the towel and kisses my cheek mumbling a small I love you before disappearing into the closet. I smile changing and go to get him food. Once I return, he’s on the bed laid out in shorts and a tee. His beanie on the dresser and he’s staring at the ceiling. I smile getting closer, I sit on the bed and gently place my hand on his chest. He looks at me and smiles and hums “ thank you” I run my fingers through his damp hair and giggle lightly “ for what my love “ he only mumbles pulling me into bed “ everything my love”

The will

(Angst, fluff. Really really sad)

I turn my back to him sobbing lightly, that stupid book rests on the table. His will. I just wanted to help him recover and get through it all. I have hope I have so much hope for him to get better. I feel as if I was slapped. He gets up wrapping his arms around me but I move forward pushing him away “ no, you don’t get to do that” I glare at him with tears in my eyes, my chest rises and falls rapidly and I shake slightly“ you can’t write a will then talk about technoblade never dies” I cry more backing up resting my hand on my chest “ you said have faith techno, that thing just seals the fact you have accepted death” his head drops, his face is painted with guilt he hated making you cry“ I’m just trying to be prepared “ i feel a rush of anger as I start to yell “ FOR WHAT TECHNO! FOR WHAT” I get closer and grip his shirt and cry “ you just told me that you don’t care anymore, everything in that book your going to do on your own” he hugs me tightly, I try to pull away but give up after awhile and sob “ forgive me beloved, I didn’t mean for you to take it that way, I just want you taken care of, I just want things to be okay if I don’t…” I look him in the eyes crying more “ I don’t care about what’s left, please don’t say it please don’t. I can barely handle you writing that but to hear you say it hurts so bad techno” I wrap my arms around his neck crying more and start to shake not caring how I looked “ please don’t give up beloved please “ he lifts me up as I cry lightly in his arms, he gently rubs my back and kisses my head moving far far away from that cursed book. I look up at him “ I love you so much please just please, I don’t want a will or anything I just want you please just don’t give up until there is nothing else we can do to help then I’ll take that cursed book and….” I don’t finish and he kisses me softly running my fingers through his hair and grip his shirt tightly as he kisses me more, he runs his fingers through my hair desperately wanting more. He pulls away resting his forehead on mine “ I haven’t given up beloved, I don’t want nothing to happen. I don’t want to know I could leave you beloved but I need to know to know Im leaving you in good hands and in a good spot, it makes me scared at the thought of leaving you alone “ his voice cracks looking up at you “ it helps me rest easier and keep going, I would give the world to know your safe “ my eyes water again “ ooo beloved I love you “ he kisses me softly and smile lightly “ I love you more”. That night I stay up watching his chest rise and fall, he rested his hand on your lap, I gently move my fingers over his cheek and he grunts moving his cheek into my palm and I smile. the medicine make it hard for him to sleep so to see him laid out with his messy pink hair everywhere gave me a peace. I kiss his hand and say a little prayer as I look up I smile sadly and mumble “ it’s not over yet my love”

( I’m sorry it’s sad but I saw his will to philza and bro this broke me, I respect techno and everything just makes me sad honestly sorry🥺)

Sapnap x pregnant reader

You and Sapnap were a thing for a little bit nothing official and nothing public. But with things like that is was impossible for one person not to catch feelings and guess who caught feelings you did but you were a little to late to confess it to him and a year later he announced his proposal and soon to be partners to the world, you could even describe how you felt. Sick, sad but couldn’t feel betrayed. You guys were never a thing so you decided since he was completely invested in his partners that you should just leave or your feelings would ruin everything, but months after you completely disappeared your sitting in a doctors room with paper saying your four months pregnant and you knew exactly who the father was, you cried for days not knowing what to do, with your new home you didn’t know a lot of people. Months passes and your walking through the town cupping your swollen belly as you turn to the corner you bump into someone and catch yourself before you fall rubbing ur head “ hey I’m sorry I wasn’t” before you finish your sentence you make eye contact with the very man you were trying to avoid all together, he looks at you then you belly. Out of panic you turn away then hear foot steps as you get down the trail. “ Y/N “ you hear ur name and try ur hardest to just ignore him, you cup ur swollen belly and feel ur feet starting to swell, he runs In front of you making you stop dropping ur head “ Sapnap please just go please “ you try and walk around him but he blocked you, you step back stepping on ur dress and start to loose ur balance, he moves forward catch you picking you up “ y/n please “ you sigh starting to feel overwhelmed “ fine,fine “ you lead him to ur house, he walks in sitting you down and rests on his knees looking at your stomach “ is it mine “ you bite ur lip nodding and don’t look at him, he gently moves his hand over ur stomach the baby moves and you suck in air and look at him, he’s smiling big at your swollen stomach. He look up then his smile fades “ why didn’t you tell me y/n “ you felt tears fill ur eyes “ we weren’t a thing and you proposed so I thought it be better to stay quiet and move away, it didn’t feel right to come out of no where claiming to have your baby ” tear run down your face “ I didn’t want to ruin your relationship “ I look away “ where’s your partners “ he looks down “ a war broke out their both out of it. I don’t think they feel the same anymore” he looks up into my eyes “ doesn’t matter what I do, it’s still my baby y/n. You still could of told me” I cry lightly and hum “ it’s not that simple” he tilts his head “ what do you mean y/n “ you wipe your cheek “ I love you, I’ve loved you since the beginning and I wanted to tell you but you went and proposed even tho you still came back to me “ you couldn’t tell if it was from the hormones or from the fact that you are realizing what he did was wrong but you got angry pushing him away from you, he looks up shocked “ did you not feel anything or was I just that to you” he looks up “ I don’t know y/n “ you get up and he grabs your arm “ don’t give me that, the nights we spent together and you felt nothing just leave “ tears run down your face “ please y/n please let me make it all up to you, I’m sorry” you look at him and hum “no,no,NO. I’m pregnant with your baby and all you say is I don’t know seriously, I was a fool once I will” he hugs you and rubs your back “ I know y/n, I know what I did was disgusting and wrong. I’m sorry I put you through all this “ he look into your eyes and cupping your cheeks “ I’ll do anything y/n,you know me better then anybody, please let me make this up to you” you cry and hum “ I dont know” he falls to his knees gently touching your swollen womb “if not just please let me be apart of the babies life please” you sigh sitting down “o…o..only one chance mess it up, I never want to see you again “ he smiles big and hugs you “ thank you thank you”. After that day sapnap wanted to prove he wanted you back and was fully invested, he come early in the morning and do extra stuff to help you, you liked

the fact he didn’t hover over you. He brought you flowers and food and different gifts, he was completely invested and didn’t care what it took. One night you lay in bed but hear a knock getting up waddling to the door “ who is it “ I peek the door seeing sapnap “ can I come in “ I open the door “ you okay “ he nods and looks at you “ I couldn’t sleep, I was worried about you “ I raise an eyebrow smiling “worried?, why” he hums “ I mean who wouldn’t be your pregnant home alone and in the woods if that doesn’t worry anybody then their crazy” he Looks up seeing you cup your belly and sits down “ can I please touch you please “ you hum nodding, he moves forward gently moving his hand over your womb letting a small smile rest on his face and rests his cheek on your knee “ have you thought of names “ you smile shaking your head “ have you” he nods and smiles “ yes but is a girl or boy “ you hum “ I wanted to wait till the birth” he smiles “ then I’ll tell you then”.

🍄My sweet mushrooms boy🍄

You giggle watching him sit down, his fingers twirl lightly as little red mushrooms grow up and twirl with his powers, you reach out and once you touch one it shrinks right back down into a little mushroom which makes you laugh more, he closes his hand as all the mushrooms go back to normal, he smiles standing up “ come on darling” you take his hand and he leads you to a large part of the woods with taller trees the sun peeks through the leafs like it’s interested in what he plans to do next, I smile looking at him seeing his glasses rest on top of his head his baby blue sweater has stains on the sleeves and elbows from dirt, his jeans ripped and dirty shoes but even then he was the cutest thing you ever seen, birds flew over head along with squirrels spazzing out when we walk to close we laugh at them. We reach the edge of the woods pass the trees is a field full of flowers with a pond towards the other side, there were so many colors and you look to George “ beloved it’s beautiful” he smiles “ watch this” he bends down and you sit by him, he moves his hands you can see the green magic move out of his hands as he picks a couple flowers and twirls them together, even tho he’s done many things with his powers it always surprised you ever time. He rest it in his hands and there say a flower crown with blue flowers, he rests it on your head kissing your cheek and laughs “ you like it “ you giggle jumping at him kissing him deeply and cup his cheeks, he smiles softly and pulls you toward the field, you guys lay in the middle, he reaches his hand up bc you do too you feel the wind rush through your fingers then you look over finding his nose slightly pink with a blush as the wind nips his pale cheeks, he light brown eyes hold more colors then the rainbow itself, he was beautiful true art. He was nature. You smile rolling over kissing his nose and lips softly as he wraps his arms around you, you cup his cheeks then look to the pond, you giggle getting up. George looks confused as you pull your dress off and panties, his jaw drops as you go running into the pond splashing, you laugh loudly as he gets up doing the same jumping in with you. You both emerge from the water laughing and splashing, you laugh moving closer wrapping your arms around his neck, his arm rest around your waist then a hand on your butt. You both kiss slowly moving your fingers through his hair and hum lightly in the kiss. It was chilly but you both remained in the water completely as the sun beat down on you both, you both got out and laid in the sun, you close your eyes feeling the heat move over your body and then feel a hand opening a eye, George smiles placing soft kisses down your neck and collar bone, his kisses weren’t lustful or desperate but loving you could feel his soft pink lips gently kiss between your breast and move above your bellybutton, you put your arm over you head turning your head to the side feeling relaxed under his touch, he moves placing a kiss on your hips then thighs moving to kiss your knees along with ankles, he kisses the top of your foot moving back up to your belly and smiles resting his chin on your stomach looking up at you “ we should lay like this more often darling” you feel yourself blush and giggle “ should we love “ he only nods as he moves up kissing you more, then rests on your forearm gently kissing the side of your breast and smile as the sky goes from orange to pink then dark blue the star’s twinkle and shine as you both lay in peace, you see something flickering in the corner of your eye, you smile “ George “ he looks up seeing you point to the woods “fireflies beloved “ you smile big as George rest his hand on your hip moving his thumb lightly over your skin and hums, closing his eyes and kisses your breast again “ I’m tired beloved” you smile moving so his face rests between your breast “ get some rest beloved” he smiles moving his fingers as the flowers cover us like a blanket, he brings his hands to rest in your back and gently rests his cheek on your breast moving to kiss above you breast “ goodnight”.

(Artist: wiasdes @wiasdes)

@simpnumber1ne

Random thoughts

I giggle lightly as ghost wraps his arms around my waist as I stand close to him, I wrap my arms around his head and giggle more, his nose above my belly button and forehead in my chest as he just huffs pulling me closer, I gently run my fingers through his short hair and smile as I feel another pair of arms from behind me wrap around my shoulders and a their chin on my head “ ooo bonnie” I smile looking up kissing him as he hums, ghost hums moving me away from the scot. Only to have soap smile. Looking down I catch ghosts this and hum, moving my lips slowly to a peck then a full kiss my lip under his upper one as his teeth nip at my lip lightly before kissing me again roughly , he hums Turing it into a make out session as soap kisses the back of my neck. Ghost hums moving to stand up not breaking the kiss both men had ya between them as each held a part of you, ghost cupped your face as soap interwoven your fingers all eyes closed as each consumed each other. Ghost pulls back breathing lightly as he looked at ya you leaned your head back on soaps shoulder and he just admired how you looked at peace between them.

Sapnap x son reader

Sapnap (teen father) x son reader

Sapnap was in class when he got the news of his son at first he thought it was a sick joke until, the girl brought you in. He was so angry, He knew zip about babies but the way you were being held and treated pissed him off, the mother’s parents didn’t want nothing to do with you and the way you looked broke him. he didn’t even think before taking you away from them. his parents were livid and he got kicked out but dreams family was extremely supportive and helpful to him. The first time he held you, he just was so amazed by you, you were so tiny but definitely him, your hair was like his and the little noises you made always made him and dream “awe” at you but it broke his heart seeing your conditions, he had to save tons of money and ask dreams parents to help get you to doctors appointments and medicines, you were extremely skinny and your color was sickly, he feared going to bed at night in fear of you not being alive the next day but after a month you got your color back and we’re chubby like all babies should be, he fell in love with you all over again but around that time He still went to school but dropped other activities hoping to be able to take care of you so he started working even tho dreams parents insisted he should just focus on school and he worked hard for you. At night he would have you in his arms, after a long day of work and just kiss your little cheek and rub your little belly as you smiled at him and cooed at your dad, rolling over which made him laugh as you pull at the strings on his hoodie, he smiles pulling them away “ aww come on bud, you can’t eat that” you pout as he gently lifts you up, moving to the door. He opens it moving to the kitchen to find you a bottle, he gently laid you on his chest as he moves grabbing a bottle, you giggled seeing dreams. Sapnap laughs at your giggle “ what did I do bud, why you laughing” you focus back on your dad and pull at his ear and lip “ come on buddy, I need those” he shakes the bottle as dream walks in, you smile big at the blond. Dream was like your second father, he loved you so much and cared for you like you were his own, him a sapnap have been friends for years so adding you to the equation wasn’t a big impacted, dream even started working. They wanted you to have a good life no matter what. He turns your body lifting the bottle to your lips “ come on” you grab ahold of the bottle as dream smiles “ he keeping you up “ sapnap lightly rocks you and hums “ a little but he slept the whole day your mom told me” sapnap glares at dream, dream holds up his hands “ he looked so relaxed this afternoon can you blame me” sapnap hums “ your such a sucker for him “ dream laughs “ coming from his dad, I beg to differ” you look between the two and grip sapnap shirt, getting his attention “ don’t listen to him y/n, he’s bluffing” dream laughs moving forward holding your little hand, moving his thumb over your little knuckles “ goodnight y/n” he smiles walking off. Sapnap cleans the bottle and leads you to the room, he gently grabs your orange blanket putting it to the side, he lays you down gently “ let’s take a bath bud, maybe you’ll sleep better with one” he goes to the bathroom filling the tub, his back ached and his feet hurt but he knew he was working towards something good for you and him. He comes back finding you sitting up holing you little blanket close, sapnap smiles lifting you up places blueberries on your cheek and tummy, you scream out and laugh causing him to loose it,moving you to the tub with him, you lay on his bear chest as he leans his head back, gently rubbing your back and hums “ I love you y/n” he brings you up more kissing your chubby cheek and kisses your tummy and laughs when your little legs wiggle. He gently pours the water over your back messaging body wash into your soft skin and you let out a little noise relaxing on his chest “ it that good y/n” he smiles to himself, he could believe it your only one and he just graduated high school, but out of everything you were the best gift life could of given him. He adored you and only you.

(I hope you like it)

Techno x reader

(Warning:detailed birth)

You squat down as you feel your lower half burn, sweat and blood was all you could smell. You whimpered as techno holds you close, his chest bare and hair in a messy state. He holds one hand on your inner thigh as you rested your head on his chest and had your arms around his mind you, he’s 6,7 so your basically resting your head on his stomach. “ your doing so good” he kissed your head and back during the time you both waiting for the midwife . You cry lightly as you stay close to him and mumble “ if you ever get…” you groan “ if you ever get me pregnant again ima kill you” he chuckles lightly holding you closer and hums “ forgive me my love” your leg twitches slightly and you lean ur head back. When the midwife showed up she tried to get you to move but you glared and held onto Techno . He reads you like a book “ she’s fine like this please just supervise” the women nods and bows only moving to the side as techno speaks lightly and your child slowly moves. “It hurts “ you cry out, he rubs his fingers down your back checking down there “ I know, I know your almost there” as the hours passed techno becomes calm like calm. He was so gentle. He had pillows replace his spot as he placed a heated rags over your belly. He had a rag and water and gently cleaned your areas along with your legs. Many minutes later your father philza well known for helping with old ancient medicines and of course birth,he sends away the midwife. He walks in only making eye contact and bows. He comes closer “ how are you doing my dear” you could old muster a slight grin as your body racked with pain. He only called you that when he really cared. He looks to Techno who tells him everything. You watch him move through the room. Gently pressing on your womb or hips or places on your back which felt like heaven as he released the pressure on your body. Techno moves to your side and you finally get a break “ you would think I’m having twins with the way he’s acting” Techno chuckles “ don’t speak just rest” when the time was coming Philza sat between your legs. You look to your dad who tried to keep a brave face but you could tell it all broke him seeing his little girl in pain. He gently moves your legs and something in your mind clicks and you look to him and he smiles. He moves one finger stretching you a little more which hurt but you could feel the baby moving. You gasp gripping his arm “ t…t..their moving” both men smile at your words. Philz smiles “ now give them a push “ you breath deeply and then start to push as hard as you can ending with a scream as you breath heavy “ good girl y/n good girl” techno kisses your hand and smiles “ you got this” you breath and do as your father says again and again. Your father lets out a gasp just like Techno when the baby head comes through. You on the other hand scream feeling the pressure from their shoulders. Philz speaks softly glaring at Techno “ gently y/n gently. Their almost here” you push a little as Philz guides the baby out. You gasp falling into Techno arms as he and Philz laugh out in excitement “ THEIR HERE” you smile and see Philz holding the infant. You lay your head back and breath lightly as Philz moves the umbilical cord and clips it. He looks to Techno to cut the cord and he smiles moving to cut it. “ is it a boy or girl “ you meet Techno eyes and he smiles “ boy” Philz lays the infant on your chest and right on cue a wail is heard. Both Techno and Philz help dress you probably. Your father comes closer, they look at you in awe. You see your pastel pink hair thick on their head and floppy ears which made you laugh a little, their skin was so soft in a fur kinda way just like their father. You cried suddenly which made Techno. Philz smiled “ she’s overwhelmed with love, give her a moment “ you look to Techno who has an arm over you shoulder and smile at you. You pout “ this is our baby “ he kisses your head. That night they both stayed around you, you look over seeing the sky lighten up and smile “ it’s almost morning” everyone slept near you and you never felt more safe.