I Feel

any use i had for my sanity is gone now.

Time to get funky.

so who was going to tell me that horses smell blood really well? Or was I just supposed to find that out when stabbed in a field at midnight?

been craving some vanilla extract recently

i think so much of life is just finding out there are a thousand different ways to lose things.

and i am alive

:D

nothing is sweeter than a partner who understands and loves you more unendingly than the stars

i am doing well

i am loved by he <3

the man weaved of gold and starlight

he puts all sunrises to SHAME

i want to feel his presence in every fibre of my being

i love him

(simply and sweetly)

we are alive in each other’s arms.

my cat his ears are so pointy but his heart is so full....

often,

i feel like a lost sailor in a vast expanse of ocean. A tiny dot of an entity, in comparison to the hugeness of the sea. At times, waves toss my small dinghy, water pouring over the sides, soaking me to my bone. I lie gasping for air in the face of such great loss and pain.

Other days I can lay against the side of the ship, hand dangling in the water, and allow myself rest. Soft shoals of sand shimmer far beneath the calming ebb of the waves, lulling me to sleep.

Raising my spyglass to my eye provides little to no insight into the future temperament of the sea.

Sometimes I wish i could delve deep into the waves themselves. Find the tides and currents that I would ride to new destinations. No longer confined to my tiny vessel. No longer at the mercy of that next storm.

I wonder if one day life will allow for more control over my direction. My destination.

I wish to navigate this sea with the adeptness not only of sailors, but of the creatures that live inside it. I want to make this chaos known. As familiar as a home.

But for now i am battered helplessly against walls of water. Tossed from moment to moment, clinging onto my ship for dear life. Praying for the next soft day. Constantly at the mercy of the ocean. Lost without a will of my own.

I grow tired of battling for an inch of direction. Maybe one day I will know this sea better.

the novelty of having a pet will never wear off on me i’ve had animals my entire life for 23 entire years and i still sometimes stop and go holy fuck there is just a little guy in my house

i felt bad about this acc then i read my own post and laughed so nvm it’s amazing

TORTLES!!!