I Want Out

I want out

The pinnacle of giving everything up,

was not something that I thought I would ever reach.

The pain and frustration had exceeded its threshold that the thought of my efforts be put into waste

I no longer deemed regretful.

It was a mistake to have you know that the limit of my patience was non existent

For it gave you the sense of security that I would always take you back.

And so, it became an endless cycle.

Our happiness fluctuated ever so often.

Eventually it started to wear me out.

The fire within me started to fade.

So you began to ruin yourself again.

You made the rain and thunder of your storms much stronger

The noise you had inside your head became louder and intolerable

You cut yourself bleeding just because you know were going to lose me.

And by doing so, you know I would come back.

For I have always been drawn to those broken souls.

And I have always saved you from all the chaos you started

But love, I hope you know that each time you lose me,

I’m not the same person who comes back.

And time will come when all the love in me

would become nothing but pity.

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You conform yourself to fit someone's preference Something I find both admirable yet unnecessary. For if you would only stop all these frivolous acts And see yourself through my eyes, You would see the vast open sea.

You would feel the cool breeze that calms my raging mind, Hear the melodies of the waves that never ceases to soothe my aching soul. Adore the pigmentation of blue colored landscape, ever so changing and ever so intriguing, Clear blue during midday Green when sunset comes Then yellow the very next morning It changes into this wide array of colors But you know inexplicably beautiful nonetheless.

And that is you. You are my sea. Yet I've always been afraid of it, This you already know.

I am afraid of wandering off too far,

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8 years ago

Saudade (A RAURA FANFIC) Part 3/6

Ross hoped that if Laura finds love with someone else, this could be their chance to rekindle their friendship. And it did, now Laura was back to being her old cheery self even in his presence, and Ross was very much delighted with this. That's what he keeps on telling himself. But he can't deny the disappointment every time Laura would turn him down because she already made plans with Riker, or when she makes him feel as if he was put in second place. He can't even help but roll his eyes every time she suddenly mentions Riker's name during one of their conversations. It was obvious that Laura had fallen for the blond bassist. And Ross was sure Riker felt the same way too. He admits that he became sort of a cupid for the two, and sometimes he wonders if letting her fall for his brother was such a good idea. ###### Kissing your co-star for a show wasn't too bad. Kissing your best friend was slightly awkward. But kissing your best friend in front of her lover? Now that was something. The whole set seemed to be enwrapped by the scene being played out before them. Everyone was still (except for the camera men of course) as the main characters of the show sang along to the duet that they had previously recorded and was now being used for an episode in season three. 'Austin' and ally were reenacting how their relationship progressed for 'Dez's' documentary. As they finished the song, 'You can come to me' and spoke their lines. 'Ally' wrapped her arms around 'Austin' and 'Dez' blocked the audience's view just in time for the couple's lips to connect. Earlier, Ross and Laura decided that even though it was blocked, they would still do the kiss. Because "It was less awkward that way" as what Ross had said. The kiss wasn't anything like he expected. Probably because he expected to either feel weird or nothing at all. Just a plain, simple kiss. They were best friends for pete's sake. Plus, Riker's presence didn't really make things easier for him. But as they did it, Ross felt no remorse. Instead, he could only relate himself to the cliche descriptions in romance movies that he's watched. It wasn't exactly like fireworks, but he did feel his mind blacken for a split seconds and found himself deepening the kiss, slightly getting addicted to the taste of her sweet strawberry flavoured lips. It wasn't disgusting, if anything, the kiss felt right. And Laura was becoming responsive every second. Ross was torn between wanting for the director to yell cut and not wanting to pry himself away from her. As soon as Laura's mouth lightly parted, Ross took this as an opportunity to slid his tongue right in, earning a soft, almost, inaudible sound from her which almost sent himself over the edge. Laura's half lidded eyes caught glance of Riker's unreadable stare at them, which sent her sanity coming back to her in full force and she pushed Ross away, breaking the kiss. Heath yelled cut. Laura immediately apologized. They let it slide, it wasn't as if he was expecting that scene to be perfect in one take. Though he did remind her that she cannot make the same mistake twice and Laura nodded in agreement. Afterwards, they we're given a five minute break. Ross watched as Laura immediately ran towards Riker with a worried look on her face. He could tell that she was apologizing and probably blurting out a series of explanation. But after she was done, Riker just gave her a smile and wrapped his arms around her gesturing that he wasn't mad or anything of the sort. But Ross knew Riker, and he can tell that brother was fuming with jealousy, just like how any other normal person would feel if they see the person they like kissing someone else. Though he did also know for a fact that his brother wasn't one to let his feelings get the best of him, he would always think through the situation rationally. That's the kind of person he is. And Ross looks up to him because of this. Besides, it wasn't like Riker didn't know about the upcoming kiss. Oh right he didn't. He thought. Because Ross and Laura only made a decision on this at the very last minute. "What was that about?" A female voice suddenly asks. Ross turns to see Calum and Raini standing behind him. He shrugs, "things got too awkward I guess," "More like heated," Calum scoffed. "You two were getting so into it." He adds. "We just wanted to make it as believable as possible," Ross defended. "Oh really?" Raini cocks a brow, a smile forming on her lips. "Really," Ross states with a tone that ended the conversation. After their talk, Laura and Riker walked towards them, with his arm around her shoulder, looking straight at his brother with an incomprehensible expression. Laura only gave Ross an awkward smile when her eyes met his. Sensing the tension, Raini suddenly speaks. "You know what? I think we should probably get our make-up redone," she then pulls the petite brunette away before she could even react. "I should probably, er, you know, uh, I'll just... yeah" Calum stammered before walking away giving privacy to the siblings. Ross stood awkwardly, slipping his hands into his jeans and scratching the back of his neck, finding the right words to say. He didn't know whether he should feel guilty for kissing the girl that his brother likes, or not because everyone knows that the kiss was just for show. But a part of him felt as if he'd done wrong. Because somewhere deep inside him, something sparked because of that one kiss. Riker let out a heavy breath, pulling the younger lynch from his trance. Wow, that was... pretty intense, huh?" He chuckles. "Look, Riker. I'm sorry-" "Hey," Riker stops him with a calm voice. Like when Ross would tell him that he wanted to give up, feeling so down. And Riker would remind him why he shouldn't and say such encouraging words that would always cheer him up. "What're you apologizing for? I know it's just part of the scene. So no need to feel bad bro. It's okay. We good we cool." He smiles. That's right, this is Riker. He would totally understand. He's always been a good brother. He muses. And for a while Ross felt at ease as they shared a brotherly hug. "Actually, I'm really glad that you're his partner for this kind of scene and not some complete stranger who might try and steal her away from me afterwards," The blond bassist lets out a short laugh. "I mean, You wouldn't do that, right?" And just like that, guilt and anxiety came rushing back to him and began eating him on the inside. "Of course," was all Ross could say. A crew calls out for Ross after a few seconds. Riker patted him on the shoulder. "Well, I guess you guys are on again," Ross nods with a smile and turns to make his leave. But stops as he heard his brother's next words. "I trust you, Ross" He couldn't exactly make out his brother's tone. So he turns only to see Riker smiling at him. As soon as Ross and Laura were back on the make shift stage, and they linked arms to re-do the kissing scene, he closed his eyes and rid his thoughts as their lips connected once more. It wasn't like he was betraying his brother. It's not like anyone would know how he purposely fails to do the kiss properly in order to taste her lips again. Beside's a few retakes wouldn't hurt, right? ####### Laura Marano is beautiful. Ross already knew that, it was one of the many characteristics that he liked about her. He'd known that since the first time he met her, when he was minding his own business and she suddenly approached him, with her perky voice. Her being physically attractive might've not been the first thing that came into his mind, but it was a close second. Yet that never seemed to affect him. At least not this much. Now every time she walks into the room and flashes her bright smile, he would find himself grinning and a warmth would emit from his chest sending his body into an inexplicable heat. And her laughter became music to his ears, just a different kind that what he usually listen to. Yet equally addicting. Sometimes he would find an excuse to let their hands touch, or 'accidentally' bump into her, just so he could feel the smoothness of skin. And during their sweet 'moments' as a couple in Austin & Ally, he would often wish that those moments would last forever. Everything was becoming too cliché, as if his life had become his very own romance movie, like the ones he loved to watch. Although this time, he wasn't sure how it would end. All he knows is at the moment, little by little, he was falling for her too.


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7 years ago

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8 years ago

Saudade (A RAURA FANFIC) Part 6/6

Sometimes when he's lost in his own thoughts he would imagine what would've happened if he'd realized that he loved her sooner. What if he never hesitated, or had second thoughts? What if he told her the he loved her too? He would probably be the one giving her flowers during special occasions, or even on ordinary days just because she deserves it. He would be the one engaging in long meaningful conversations with her, getting lost into the deepness of her dark brown eyes in which her emotions reflected through, giving him a glimpse of her soul. He'd be there beside her all the time, just in time to catch her whenever she falls or just be there and enjoy her company. He would be the one embracing her, smiling as he realizes how perfect she fits in his arms and he wouldn't want to let her go. The one who'd be dancing with her, swaying in a slow motion as a love song continues to play, getting them lost in their own little world as the people around them gradually vanishes. He'd give her kisses. In the forehead, to show that he cares. In the cheeks whenever she would do something cute, which she often does. In the lips to show how much he loves her. And lastly, He would be the one standing by the altar, waiting in anticipation as she walks down the aisle looking as beautiful as ever. But instead he was on the side, watching as the ceremony proceeds trying to be as attentive as possible to the priests words, but he just couldn't pry his eyes away from her and he doesn't care if anyone would notice. This was the last time he could look at her like that, because afterwards she'd belong to someone else, completely, and there was nothing else he could do, but to finally let her go. Ross couldn't admit it before, but he could say it out loud now. "I love you, Laura" But the orchestral music drowned his voice and the crowd cheered as the priest announced the couple as husband and wife. Laura's eyes landed on him with a wide smile plastered on her face. She's truly happy. He could see that very clearly. So, Ross managed to give her a smile in return, a genuine one. Because it didn't matter if he was hurting, or if he didn't get her in the end. For as long as she smiles like that, every pain felt worth it. Fin ###### Okay so that was my first attempt in making a raura(with little bits of riaura) story. I'll go over the story one more time to edit some misspelled/misused words or grammatical errors when I have time, because I didn't have much to re-read this as I was very much excited to post it. Nevertheless, I hope you guys enjoyed reading this as much as i enjoyed writing it. :) 'til next time! :) Cheers! x


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