A Little Poem I Wrote

don’t you want to torture me ? please , just carve into my skin and watch my blood leave a pool of warmth and love . brand your name into my flesh with an iron , leaving a permanent mark of ownership . hear my screams before shoving me head underwater , that’ll shut me up — won’t it ?

So do we all agree that even if we don’t want to recover we still support other’s recovery right?

RIGHT?

I just want someone who can’t get enough of me. Someone who will find out my perfume brand to spray it on a pillow when they can't have me beside them. Someone who will make a shrine of my pictures, of the things they collect of me. Is that too much to ask?

Are you flirting with me like “haha this is a fun way to pass time” or “haha I can picture us growing old together?”

idk if you’re busy rn but i was thinking we could like fall in love or something yk if you’re free

Another vent

Tw sh, sa, child neglect

If any of this triggers you please dont read any further

I have this friend ill call m for this that is really making me want to sh. Basically when I was younger I was sa as a child by my birth mom (who im no longer with or in contact with) and now I'm adopted by my aunt.however my 3 sister all younger than me are living in foster care with my grandpa now m knows all of this and more that I won't get into but she thinks she can tell me about my situation. I try to explain to her that I think of them as my half siblings since we all have different dads but my friend says that's not how it works and I get it might not but that term feels right to me but today she crossed the line.We were In class talking about families and we got to siblings and we had to raise are hands I wasn't going to since she was going to ask questions I knew I couldn't answer them(I saw them for the first time in 7 years a month ago and know their names only)but my friend made me put my hand up and got mad at me when I said I felt like I shouldn't and she kept persisting so I snapped at her and said that it's my life not yours and you don't and I feel like a shit friend for getting mad at her.but it makes me mad at m since she knows I was sa and neglected but she still says stuff like that and makes me feel like shit for even trying to to tell.i feel like a horrible friend and don't know how to fix this

If read all of this thank you for listening

If you have any advice or want to share a story feel free to say anything

dating me is great because u get someone who is completely loyal and obsessed with you but i can't be left alone for five minutes or else i think you hate me and start trying to kill myself

I can't do this omg

Vent post

So I have a friend I'm calling A and I always listen to her talk about the boy she dating or the boy she likes and no matter what I stop what I'm doing to listen to her but today I wanted to tell her me and this girl I like had are first phone call cause it made me really happy and as I'm about to say something she opens her book an says give me a second and I got mad at her for it cause why would you do that and ignored her.well a little bit ago she asked if I was still mad at her and I didn't respond she asked me if I heard about her breakup that happened today (which was her fault cause she flirted with another guy) and I mumbled yea and she starts talking about the breakup so I tell her I don't care and she says why so I tell her I'm not gonna listen to your problem that YOU started when you won't listen to one thing I was gonna tell me and then she says I'll play a game with you if you stop being mad a me like no I don't want to play a fucking game with you. And the most annoying part is she told my friend M that she didn't know why I was mad at her when I HAD JUST SAID IT I swear I'm so fucking done

oh, but for you? for you, i would kneel. for you, i would bleed. i would cut your name into me and show you that i belong to you. i would grovel at your feet. i would whine, beg, plead for you. i'd do anything for you, my darling.