aziraphale always rejects crowley first, it’s part of their dance, part of their routine. crowley suggests the arrangement as neither doing anything, aziraphale rejects it, crowley reframes it as helping each other, aziraphale agrees. crowley asks for holy water, aziraphale rejects him, crowley reframes as dangerous for him, aziraphale agrees. crowley suggests they raise the antichrist together, aziraphale rejects it, crowley reframes it as thwarting evil, aziraphale agrees.
crowley suggests they run away together, aziraphale rejects it. crowley reframes it - hell knows it was me! and aziraphale rejects it again.
crowley had every reason to believe that aziraphale was going to give in eventually. that’s the dance. i’m sorry, whatever i said, i didn’t mean it. now get in the car. he’s panicked, but he is still trying to complete the dance. crowley might have expected the bandstand break-up as par for the course, but crowley doesn’t really understand that aziraphale is really, actually rejecting him until he tries a second time, because he’s always had to try a second time. but aziraphale says no. maybe for the first time ever, aziraphale gets to the end of the dance, and he still says no. you can see crowley finally realize it too:
he looks like he’s been shot. i suppose in some way he has.
Which one are you?
©
DoPil: actual children.
SungPil: go watch What Can I Do - I Loved You - When You Love Someone and feel the sensation.
YoungFeel: major throwback to ASC eps. 238
JaePil: Jae: “I hate u go away.” | Inner Jae: ’NO DON’T GO I’D FUCKING DIE FOR U.’
Jaehyungparkian: “I lov u.” | “I’m not gay.” | “But we’re married.”
BriWoon: Dowoon: *exists* | Brian: “MUST PROTECC™.”
JaeJin: PARK BROS.
BriJin: Goals … Friends goals, bro goals, just goals in general.
JaeWoon: typical english teacher with his best student AU.
SungWoon: literally a dad and a baby, not in a kinky way.
“if he wants, I will go” (vid.cr., transl.)
not gonna lie i’m pretty uncomfortable like all the time
Me: I'm really sad.
Me: Maybe this sad music will help.
I am simply not interested in taking sides when it comes to aziraphale and crowley's little cosmic divorce. this is a jane austen romance, which means that both of our romantic leads need to grow and change before they can have their happily ever after. the problem isn't that one of them is Right and the other is Wrong, the problem is that they're each prioritizing a different problem and then approaching the problem they've backburnered with a long-standing habit or belief that they need to grow out of before they can succeed.
aziraphale is correct that heaven needs fixing! we can quibble over whether accepting a job as the boss is the right way to do that, but ultimately leaving michael or whoever in charge is going to lead to armageddon 2 armageddon harder. it simply will not work. the problem is that he's fumbling the relationship with crowley because he still needs to get over the idea of there being an inherently good and bad side and he needs to stop thinking that it's crowley being a demon that's keeping them apart. it's his own black and white logic that's doing that.
meanwhile, crowley is correct that he and aziraphale need to Name The Relationship and stop fucking around, and also that heaven and hell are the same institution with different labels and it's insane to think either of them is Good. but his impulse to respond to everything by trying to grab aziraphale and run is not gonna cut it here. "you can't fix an institution from the inside" is a philosophy of dubious value if your alternative is not attempting to fix it at all. if aziraphale is being held back by his cops and robbers mentality, crowley is being held back by cynicism and fear. they both need to let go of their flawed moral philosophies and emotional bad habits if they want to keep the world safe and be together! that's the point of the story splitting them up in the first place!
i thought about still beautiful. still dean winchester. in relation to the s7 reunion and had an aneurysm. because “emmanuel” does not know this man. this is a complete stranger killing a demon on his porch.
and when he makes eye contact with this stranger for the first time, his heart stops. beautiful. that’s all he can think. and when the man introduces himself as dean and they shake hands, something in his chest shifts back into place, something he’s been missing since he walked out of that river, though he’s not quite sure what it is. and then he’s sitting in the passenger seat of dean’s car, and they’re alone and it’s dark out and every few minutes a highway light illuminates dean’s face in gold. and all he can think is beautiful. beautiful. beautiful.
and when cas regains his memories, and he looks back at dean, he remembers.
still beautiful.
still dean winchester.
I am MONBEBE.
I am A. R. M. Y.
I am AHGASE.
I am BBC.
I am BLACK ROSE.
I am STAY.
I am TINKER BELL.
I am BABY.
I am VIP.
I am AROHA.
I am CHOICE.
I am BLINK.
I am HONEY10.
I am MELODY.
I am PRIMADONNA.
I am BANA.
I am BOICE.
I am MY DAY.
I am CHESHIRE.
I am INSOMNIA.
I am EXO-L.
I am FANTASY.
I am UNIVERSE.
I am HALOVE.
I am LIGHT.
I am SHAWOL.
I am IKONIC.
I am CARAT.
I am ELF.
I am NCTzen.
I am BLACKJACK.
I am LEGGO.
I am STAR1.
I am N.FIA.
I am HOTTEST.
I am INNERCIRCLE.
I am 24U.
I am REVELUV.
I am SWING.
I am ANGELS.
I am STARLIGHT.
I am MEU.
I am WANNABLE.
I am L.O.Λ.E.
Day6 receiving an award today?? Twice being loved everywhere and breaking records left and right?? GOT7 having a HELLA successful world tour and coming out of it healthy and well?? Stray Kids being celebrated as the rookies of the year everywhere and releasing four mini albums in their debut year?? A big part of 2PM coming from the military soon and those who are left building up a career of their own?? Jimin finally getting a whole album with some bomb-ass tracks?? 2018 really is JYPE’s year, huh?
I won’t run away, but make sure you can catch me.