Graduation

Adult and young Mo Ran sketches from this month 💙 I love him so much.

最好的师尊

the look of love (for writers)

"it's all in the eyes i was once told"

catching the stare of someone across a crowded room

subtle furrowing of eyebrows beyond a blank facade

coldness easing into warmth

a fond mothering gaze

corner of the lip nudged upward

forced glower/glare as they break underneath

batting their lashes, playful

a boisterous laugh

intrigue piercing the stoic

proud smugness at the other's success

lingering glances

a childish joy bursting through

pupils dilate

eyelids shut in a look of peace, calm and trust

look of longing/betrayal

"there was once a time when they were mine"

terseness

features fold into a scowl

an urgent flinching back

coldness returns (as though the warmth had never come)

lips part then purse

invasion of shock

slow stare at the floor

the ripple effect of a swallow

frustrated breath/sigh

bitter laugh in reminiscence

dread tearing through the seams of their composure

look of hatred

"darkness"

mean smirk- teeth bared grimace- scowl

dismissive gaze

gaze of contempt/impatience

threat lowering the voice

sardonic goading grins verging on manic

rolling one's eyes

flicker of irritation in the eyes

stares stubbornly ahead despite distraction

gritted teeth, clenched jaw

fierce biting remarks

even measured complexions betraying no thought

strangling oneself back from violence

utter apathy

murderous silence hanging in the stare

snobbish laughter

smiling at another's downfall

Do you ever look at this?

And see this?

And doesn’t it just make you want to go like this?

Sebek, you know what to do.

No because what is this endless cycle of “I can love them but they can’t love me?”

I know I talked about their self-hatred a bit here.

I know the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree but this is ridiculous??

Always seeing it as a lens of giving to others but not recieving.

Lilia -> hatches Malleus and wakes Silver but runs away from them.

Malleus -> wants to make Lilia proud and helps raise Silver but doesn’t see the happiness his birth brought and calls himself useless in front of Silver who took comfort in him enough to be vulnerable with him.

Silver -> loves Lilia and Malleus but believes he doesn’t deserve that love given his heritage.

Sebek is out here just: 🧍‍♂️ “I’m surrounded by idiots”

It’s just so frustrating?? I know there’s learned habits of love but it’s ridiculous when you have learned habits of sacrifice too.

Because if you are always thinking about love this way, aren’t you diminishing the love given to you?

In return, does that not continue this cycle? That we see? Over and over? Because you are not receiving it as was intended hence the one who gives it to you freely…feels it’s not enough. Will never be enough. So they try harder and feel this self-depreciation because of it.

When that is not true!! It is enough! Always enough!! Ahhhhhh *hugs Sebek* 😭😭😭

(There are many more moments that show this cycle between the three but I chose these moments because they are the most well known and tumblr 10 limit image on the app my beloathed.)

[Translation credit to Gasmask01]

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Hakaze Kaoru | My take on Kaoru's experience with grief and mourning throughout the years.

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🐉 even the painful moments are memories

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🐉 a recipe for outlandish chemistry!

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Lilia Vanrouge & Silver | Lilia and Silver's oddly familial bond through the eyes of Night Raven College students. Outsider POV + 4+1 Things.

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Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio | Five times Kageyama references Hinata in his interviews and the one time Hinata interviews him.

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🎶 My thoughts on Starry Symphony Day 1

i get tears in my eyes whenever i think of how karasuno was the foundation of kageyama’s growth. tobio found a team that accepted him & gave him the space to grow as a setter. not being accepted into shiratorizawa was the best thing that could happen to him. because of that rejection, he found his way to shoyo, who would become his lifelong partner and rival. because of his teammates, he finally understood what it meant to be a team. he felt valued and was able to build a connection with people that went beyond volleyball. it’s because he played at karasuno that he’s now able to create connections that help him become a better person AND player. karasuno needed tobio & tobio needed them.

Always an angel never a God

no i actually love that classism is made present and obvious in haikyuu so much, like it’s made to fit so well as an important theme

the difference between the public, private and state schools is so obvious and, imo, well done (e.g. shiratorizawa vs seijoh vs karasuno)

furudate also hits on the urban/rural divide in terms of resources, security, educational standards, etc, and how that affects the tokyo teams compared with the miyagi ones, as well as others

it gets a really good balance between “ppl from lower income backgrounds can and do succeed”, and “ppl from privileged backgrounds have a far higher chance of success” and i love that

some of my favourite examples under the cut, in no particular order

kageyama and ushijima in general, and in their relationships with everyone honestly, but especially hinata and oikawa

“what have you been doing the last three years”

ushijima’s metaphor with plants growing in the best soil (in which the best soil is an elite public school) vs “i am hinata shōyō, from the concrete”

that line is so. fucking good.

karasuno’s vb team struggling to get access to the gym and daichi competing with other teams for facilities

the whole “you should have come to shiratorizawa” thing, especially ushijima and oikawa’s conversation after aoba johsai loses to karasuno (it’s really well done in the stageplay, i can’t find the link rn)

actually i feel like a lot of the fandom’s memes and jokes with ushijima stem from lines that are some of the most poignant examples of class dynamics

hinata cycling over a mountain to get to school

karasuno’s coaching team compared with the other ones, and the patchiness in having reliable teaching supervisors in the past

the timeskip jobs. shiratorizawa, nekoma and karasuno come to mind for me as schools that illustrate this really well.

also the difference in types of schools (e.g. dateko being a technical college) is really interesting when it comes to timeskip. actually, i feel like this’ll end up a whole extra post

the parallels and differences between tanaka, kyōtani and yamamoto

team records of making it to nationals, e.g. shiratorizawa dominating the miyagi prefecture

the roles of parents and the notable absences in many instances

‘the lucky ones’, i think is the chapter title translation - the one focusing on ushijima and sakusa post-timeskip - it’s a really good chapter

nekoma’s motto being ‘connect’ - it’s a key team value, but also highlights the privilege of being well-connected and living in the capital city. it also affects their timeskips, facilities, ability to hold training camps, etc

the everyone-knows-everyone vibe of the town karasuno is in. really hits the nail on the head.

tokyo having an extra team in nationals as the event sponsor slot (i forget exactly what they call it)

it doesn’t diminish the impressive abilities of the players who went to public schools (like sakusa, reon, etc) but also acknowledges the ways class privilege helped them to get where they ended up and i just think that’s a really good balance

oh yeah i live in the uk so in case there’s confusion, us public school = uk state school. public schools here are an extra elite type of private school (eg. eton, harrow, etc)

I think the resolution is a little bad because of some problem but i love this scene with my whole life