Merlin Playlist. Please Love It

I have no one to talk about this with, but I am so thankful for the bbno$ Jayvik cosplay stream crew and the distraction from other events of today (cries in American) that they provided. Made my day 1000x better.

Okay I have to be honest here. I usually love when love triangles get turned into polycules, but not with fiddleauthor and fiddlestan. It just feels weird to me. I say this as a twin. I say this as a twin who has dated my brother's ex. That was weird. Dating the same person at the same time, especially as adults who are likely sexually active, it's too weird for me. Ship as you please, but I cannot be the only one who thinks this. Iove both ships. Separately.

something I was surprised about in deadpool 3 was the genuine respect and acknowledgement of 21st century fox’s x men legacy. obviously there’s the beginning scene w the bones (which I thought was funny & creative btw) but 1. the call back characters 2. the credit behind the scenes footage 3. the treatment of wolverine. especially the treatment of wolverine. because they really said ‘logan howlett is such a tremendously important character that when he dies, an entire timeline could die off with him’. paradox tells wade “you got the worst wolverine” and I was expecting him to have done something horrible and irredeemable but it came down to a group of hateful humans killing his entire family the one night logan wasn’t there. he comes home from the bar, everyone is dead, and his beserker rage took over. even at his worst, logan is incapable of being a truly bad person. he will always grumble and swear and smoke and drink and pretend to be a lone wolf (but he’s a pack animal). he will always protect his own and those who can’t protect themselves. hm

Ever read a fanfic that is so in character but completely throws the plot out of the windows and makes it's own thing in the world and characters to the point it is like you are reading a new og work. And then it's over and you want to read fanfictiom for the said fanfiction and you just don't know what to do with yourself?

"Name your children after your favorite things"

Me: good night "the subplot from Paragon where Alana gives Will's dogs up for adoption and then Will hates her in a petty way for the rest of the story"

listen its not that i dont like fiddlestan, its just that if i go any deeper into it than casually seeing fanart, i fear my brain would destroy itself

I finished my essay. It's the worst thing I've ever written. I wanted to be rewarded with fanfiction but ao3 is still down. Might cry. Might scream. I need my sad brothers and angsty relationships.

Need to write an essay. I was reading stangst instead. Now ao3 is down. I should be glad I can write my essay without temptation of distraction but I'm just sad. I don't have an excuse for procrastination anymore.

Sobbing. I need to be needed. I need the intimacy of it. Let me worship you

Absolutely most in character perfect piece of fan media ever made. Sobbing. Actually sobbing.

ouah,,,