I Love My Laptop So Much Its So Cute!?!? And I Especially Love The Kitties With My And Charlies Initials😊😊😊

getting sick is my body's way of telling me to slow down and take a deep breath. as much as i appreciate the reminder and accept its what my body needs, i really don't want to be sick now of all the times to be sick:/

sh recov / harm reduction tips for those of us who are in the trenches and may be considering recov or trying to get there one day

⭐️ some people can't just throw away their sh tools and that's okay, but what i suggest is if you don't already to keep them in a hard to get to place so that you can reduce how often you may try to sh

⭐️ try to limit how often you relapse but dont put too much pressure on yourself because it may stress you out worse, id suggest slowly relapsing less by spacing them out more over time.

example: every day -> every other day -> twice a week -> once a week.. etc you get the point, if you cant stop cold turkey then try to reduce how frequently you sh because its just like any other addiction out there.

⭐️ keep in mind it takes about 3 weeks to make a habit, when going fully clean its really rough for those first few weeks but it wont stay that way, that isnt to say you wont have some bad days but it wont be every second.

⭐️ avoid buying new sh tools and new blades, if you plan to reduce or recover then stick with what you have so that you wont automatically have a new tool to hurt yourself with.

⭐️ if you burn yourself or you sh for pain specifically i suggest using (skin safe!) hot wax because it still hurts like hell when it hits the skin. usually these are used for like kink purposes but that also makes it easier to find in a way.

⭐️ for people who cut or need to see blood, some alternatives that work are using red food dye and applying it to something thats pointed but cant actually cut you and dragging it across your skin. another thing thats out there that provides both pain and blood without injury are sh pens! its hard to find these due to the internet censoring things however on platforms like tiktok using slight censorship in search like "self hrm recovery pen" will likely bring you to some results that could help.

⭐️ if you're broke like me or a minor etc and cant purchase tools online to help, id suggest using household items like thumbtacks for harm reduction. something that personally helps me is actually making fake wounds that are like.. actually fake and not real. to do this without any professional products use thin layers of liquid glue as your base and shape it like a wound, and use paint / makeup / whatever you've got. if you have sensitive skin this will probably make you itchy or poses a risk for a skin reaction so do be wary of that. when removing it should just peel right off as long as its fully dry, just be sure to wash the area afterwards.

⭐️ other reduction tips are the typical things people will say to do, surround yourself with friends and safe people if you can. surround yourself with safe items and things that make you feel comfortable and avoid triggers to your best ability. if you seriously are trying to recover please delete tumblr as consuming sh content will trigger you back into it fast.

if anyone has questions about specific circumstances or situations my ask box is open <3

recovery isnt easy but i really hope this helps somebody out there who may be considering getting better.

man i love running so much, its just so much fun😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

Its raining!!!! I love the rain and my plants need it😊😊

Anxiety/mindfulness tip!

cold showers are so helpful, they force deep breaths and help balance the adrenaline system. most importantly, you can make everyone think youre a badass whos not afraid of anything (cold showers are a scary bikers biggest fear(i would know i, too, own a motorcycle(no i dont)))

i dont know if i should keep using the tags i use, i put them there for reach but im worried if someone recovering goes into one it could be really triggering

idk what to do

draft poem i wrote the other day about self harn and dealing with urges

TW under the cut: sh (burning)

I need it, I crave the pops of the flesh against the almost frozen heat, the metal kissing my skin as flames send that familiar smell to my face. I hunger for the sting of relief. Each time I pull my hand away from something warm that voice in my head says "stay"

Vent post

my girlfriend is so beautiful, im so excited to see her again, its been almost a week and im having prettiness withdrawals.

she lights up my life i am so ecstatic 😊😊😊😊

tw mentions of gore/sh

i used to have a really bad problem with watching gore as a form of self sabotage.. does watching horror movies count? i havent watched one in a while and im scared itll trigger me