Also I'm Such A Gemma Girlie. I Don't Mean In Relation To Mark Or Vs Helly I Don't Care About Any Of

Hannibal (2013-2015) Interview with the Vampire (2022-)

the severance finale really said humans find beauty and meaning everywhere despite of it all and that doesn't justify the existence of the system that opresses them but also doesn't negate the worth of the life that has been carved out of it despite of it all and fuck you for creating and maintaining and profitting off the very same system that abuses and exploits me and those I love while saying our lives are too miserable to have worth and meaning. they do. no matter how small. despite of it all. despite of it all. I am chewing through cardboard.

jeremy strong was SO right when he described kendall as goncharovian btw. that scene where de niro walks out of that church and keeps on walking... that's literally kendall walking back to the venue after killing that kid. he's walking into the night (which obviously symbolises his memories of russia) or he's walking to logan it is literally the same thing. what the fuck was it that matteo said in the dvd commentary? your beginning is your undoing and your salvation but you can never go back, or it tightens and winds like a chain around your neck. you CAN'T go back. clock motif my beloved. he's literally the most goncharovian poor little meow meow on earth

oops! it seems i tripped and dropped several million free books, papers, and other resources

https://annas-archive.org

https://sci-hub.se

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WERE ANY OF YOU GOING TO TELL ME THERE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A PHYSICAL REACTION TO HOT PEOPLE??? LIKE HEARTRATE RISES AND ALL THAT. THAT’S REAL??

what i bring to the table:

vibes

good taste in music

a very interesting collections of books

a few generational curses

a peculiar amount of knowledge about very niche topics and historic events

poppy and ian's dynamic is so compelling, but not in an 'i ship them ' kind of way. they're coded romantically (always being compared to a couple going through a divorce, king and queen, paralleled to doc and beans + dana and rachel, both actual couples) but i also can't see them becoming a couple nor do i want them to. on one level i do think they're sort of soulmates, not in a 'fated to be together' way but more of a ' the way we developed as people throughout our respective childhoods, and then the way we grew together has resulted in us being the only two people who fully understand each other best and mean the most to one another' (the good place soulmates aren't found they're made etc). they're not in a romantic relationship but theyre clearly the most important person in the world to one another which is so refreshing in that it's so rare to see that outside of a romance. they're insane and they hurt each other all the time and yet they remain emotional core of the show. im sure there's some people who ship them but they're already so entertaining to watch have such a unique dynamic that i can't imagine wanting anything more out of their relationship than is already onscreen. i love them so much.

“If I was gay,” I told the ceiling, “I wouldn’t need an asterisk beside my name. I could stop worrying if the girl I like will bounce when she finds out I also like dick. I could have a coming-out party without people thinking I just want attention. I wouldn’t have to explain that I fall in love with minds, not genders or body parts. People wouldn’t say I’m ‘just a slut’ or 'faking it’ or 'undecided’ or 'confused’ I’m not confused. I don’t categorize people by who I’m allowed to like and who I’m allowed to love. Love doesn’t fit into boxes like that. It’s blurry, slippery, quantum. It’s only limited by our perceptions and before we slap a label on it and cram it into some category, everything is possible.” I glanced at Josh. “That’s me. I’m not gay, not bi. I’m something quantum. I can’t define it.”  “You’re just human.”

Elliot Wake, Black Iris (via thebooksaidthat)

Repeat after me:

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

Remember, the second and third can't happen if you don't have something to work with. Your first draft will always be shit compared to your third, but at least it exists. The worst first draft is an unfinished one. The best first draft is a just completed one.

You read books/stories not in their first draft form-- only in their finished form (third, fourth, sometimes fifteenth draft). So stop comparing your first draft with a final one.

So, just write--you can make it better later. Perfectionism is the greatest weight a creator can carry.

Poem for Sekhmet

Nourish my soul, nourish the rage, nourish the heartbeat inside of its cage: Bringer of Heat, Lady of Flame, Mother, I've hidden within me a shame. Choked down my anger, cut down my claws, Ignoring a longing that burns my lungs raw, Help me see red, help me see rage Help me break open and out of this cage. Carnelian carnivore, Lady of Light, Instruct me in carnage. Teach me to fight. Let me make true all the thoughts in my mind, in ways that are safe, and help others be kind. Help me make action of heat in my chest, Lady of Power, Dua Sekhmet!