Defending The Akhet Eye

being self aware suuuucks like yeah this thought pattern/behavior is stupid and pointless and a symptom. i know this. [does it anyways

I will say I am so fucking glad we get to finally see some of shiv's rage this season. it's been blubbering under the surface for the entirety of the show and it's finally coming out, slowly, in small increments but it is. but it's still really fucked up how even now, even after everything that's happened, everything that's been done to her, there isn't really a response there from other people, mostly. when she loses her shit at tom on the phone this episode because he FUCKED HER OVER, he doesn't even acknowledge it, it's just 'I don't know what you mean, I don't know maybe Sara made a mistake. I want this to be amicable' literally gaslighting her and making seem as if she's the crazy one for freaking out after he did this to her. same goes for her outburst at the karaoke bar. no one really knows how to respond and she's just left with this ever-simmering rage, that, if she lets it out, proves to everyone around her that she's just the hysterical woman. and if she doesn't it just eats her alive without anyone even taking fucking notice

It’s PRIDE MONTH and wanting to start with this little remembrance from queer people in the past.

captain nemo doodles

So what I do is I read books that came out this year exclusively in print and I read decades-old classic literature in my emails.

Mainly I do this in order to defy god’s will.

THE GODS ARE NOT ANGRY AT YOU!!! YOU ARE ALLOWED TO FUMBLE! IT TAKES WAY MORE THAN SPILLED OILS OR ACCIDENTALLY EATEN OFFERINGS TO ANGER THEM!!

Bless y'all <3

I think Ian and Poppy had to kiss eventually. Not in a rooting for the romance kind of way but their relationship is so knotted up, they are neither platonic or romantic but a secret confused murky third thing. They know how to fight, they can argue and bicker and torture each other - we've seen how they hate other characters with Poppy and her sister's relationship or how Ian's relationship with his son. Hatred is comfortable for them, they understand it. They don't understand love though. Neither were ever shown kind and safe love (Ian's mother's love was shaped by her illness and Poppy's father's love was shaped by her mother, it was the most kind love they know but respectively, it's slightly tainted). They both see love as a tangible physical thing rather than one that can exist in the same vocal medium as their hatred can. They love each other, they hate each other. They don't know how to express it other than furthering blurring the lines.

so hold me like a grudge

Isn't Hannibal problematic...

no, but i understand the confusion! it's a common misconception, but serial murder and cannibalism are okay in real life.