Im Just Not Attracted To Anyone Or Anything Ever. Until I Am.

Bridal Veil Falls.

Unknown Photographer. Tstenkaku Tsutenkaku tower. Osaka, Japan 1964

Suddenly I was in the shower. I looked down and my legs and my feet weren't my own.

It was like I was watching a movie or a cutscene in a video game.

Trying to put clothes on a dead eyed stranger.

Saturn will square my Saturn this coming year and guys I am not prepared. I'm still dealing with Saturn square Pluto

if you can and want to, go to college when you’re 30. move out at 40. learn to drive at 50. life is short but it is also so long. it’s not too late to do new things.

Aries Lilith in 7th House

Aries Lilith

Rebellious and individualistic, having disdain for rules and authority. You may not conform to gender roles or other societal norms, having a very outward expression, even if just in energy, attitude, and beliefs. You always want to do things your way and hate being told what you "should" or "could" do.

Men being super competitive and trying to assert power over you. You could have weird power dynamics with men where they feel intimidated by you. For example, you could lift weights and have guys go, "You're strong but I'm still taller than you."

Women can also be competitive with you or just not like you for some reason. BUT you can also be very competitive as well, whether you know it or not. It could be something you keep hidden depending on the rest of your chart.

People thinking you're too intense or aggressive. You aren't afraid to speak out and stand your ground, burning whatever blocks your way. This is often something you've worked on where you've been in situations that have forced you to be assertive. You might get into conflicts or irritate people just by existing lol.

You can also be extremely inspiring to those that are too afraid to speak up for themselves or express themselves. They can see you as a leader of sorts, quietly admiring from the sidelines.

Lilith in 7th House

(TW) Relationships can be tricky because you may attract partners that are unavailable, struggling with addictions/mental illness, abusive, extremely controlling.

Rejecting traditional marriage/dating roles. You may be opposed to marriage because you find it to be unnecessary. The finality of it can also feel quite daunting, you may really honor your independence and freedom.

Aries Lilith in 7th House

Partners and love interests wanting to suppress your power and dampen your confidence through aggression. I would call this "smothering your flame."

Relationships are quite intense because it unearths a lot of issues that you haven't confronted yet, and they're being reflected back at you. Vice Versa, your partner could feel the same way, it's like a mirror being help up and projected on the other. These issues can be related to impatience, being short-tempered, selfishness, possessiveness, defensiveness, being stubborn - the shadow aspects of Aries.

You may avoid relationships altogether due to past experiences, becoming emotionally unavailable or cold. You may feel like you don't need anyone and push away anyone that gets too close, you want to be your own person.

However, this can teach you how to have high standards and not let anyone walk all over you - know what you deserve and don't settle for any less.

Wild and untamed in sexuality, you crave intensity and being in control. Like I said before, you do not want to be told what to do, you want to be the one taking the lead. You might even be a bit too focused on your own pleasure while being consumed with passion; fast-paced and primal.