Well I See A Handsome Boy (Clint Barton X Teen!FTM Reader)

Well I see a handsome boy (Clint Barton x teen!FTM reader)

Pairings: Clint Barton x teen!FTM reader

Synopsis: During a dysphoria episode, Clint is here to remind you you who you are

Tw: angst,hurt/comfort,crying, talk about dysphoria, Intusive thought, fluff, please don’t read if it makes you uncomfortable

Note: You are all beautiful/handsome

You were having a really bad day, everythings was awful...First, the pills for your insomnia that Bruce gave you didn’t work so you find yourself with another sleepless night, then, your dysphoria came out...

In your bathroom, just looking at your reflection want to make you puke and you became a crying mess. It was not the first time dealing with it, discovering your transidentity made you aware of those problems and how to understand and calm them. But this time, the accumulation of missions plus the lack of sleep made your crisis much worse.

Now on your bathroom floor, you’re trying to steady your breath with exercices but they are not working as a result of a hard breakdown. Still in your head, you didn’t hear your name called by your fellow team mates: the Avengers who are in the kitchen. It’s always the same buzzing sound that completely cuts you out until you hear or “make out” several knoks.

Unable to tell the person to leaves you alone and not to open the door, you muffled your cries with your hands and tried to be silent even with your sobs. Suddenly, the door opens with a loud sound making you flinch a little and you were seeing a worried Clint, panting:

Clint: It’s like the fourth time we called y-hey are you okay ?

You can’t help but snort and respond with sarcasm:

Y/N: I’m c-crying on my bath-bathroom floor and you ask me if I-I’m okay ? Do I look like I’m fu-fucking okay to you ?

Clint face softened when he saw the state you were in and he immediately went by your side with a respectful distance.

Clint: Can I hug you ?

He knows your limites and when you shook your head no, he only puts an open hand on the floor for you to take it. Craving for little human comfort, his hand became the most important thing to you so you squeeze it as if your life depended on it. He squeezes back with the same strenght and he gently moved his thumb in a circular motion over your hand while you are crying.

A few minutes later, you regain your breath, some sniffles can be heard and during your episode, without noticing, you got closer to Clint needing more comfort; He didn’t say anything but his arms were around you in a tight embrace and you do the same.

Clint: Do you want to talk about it ?

Y/N: It was just a bad day, it’ll pass

Clint: Nope, don’t do that, it’s not only a “bad day” so talk to me, I’m here kiddo.

The nickname made your heart soft and new tears appears in your eyes.

Y/N: I feel so awful...Why I can’t control anythings today ? Dysphoria is bitch, I hate it, I hate how I look, I hate my chest, I fucking hate myself ! Why I’m not normal like everyone ? Why I have this body...I’ll never be a boy for them. And I’m so tired. I just want one good night of sleep without nightmares or fucking intrusive thoughts.

Clint was right, venting is making you feel a little bit better but the guilt came rapidly.

Y/N: I’m so sorr-

Clint: Don’t.

Y/N:-y.

Clint: Y/N, you did nothing wrong, you don’t have to apologize for telling me that you’re not okay. Like I said, I’m here for you and if venting make you feel a little better then everything’s fine. You know, I’m so proud of you, and all the team think the same. You are always here to help peoples and always so kind and funny with us. You are strong and you're skills are amazing. And well I only see one handsome boy here and plot twist it's not me.

Y/N: Hey no, you're handsome too !

Clint: Thank you but we are not talking about me. We all saw you as a boy because you are a boy Y/N, nothing will changes that. I know that dysphoria is a demon you have to fight but you don't have to do it alone. I am here, Nat are here too and all the team wants to help you kid. We love you for who you are and not for what your head is telling you.

Unable to speak through your tears, you just squeeze Clint more in your arms and he do the same with you.

Y/N: T-Thank you Clint, I needed it.

Clint: You're welcome kiddo, glad I could help you. Now come on, I think Wanda made your favorite.

The both of you get up. You wipe your face with Clint's help and went to join the others. On the way to the kitchen, you spot Pietro who sent you a wave with a smil. You do the same with a smile on your own and he enters the room.

Clint: You should really ask him out.

Y/N: Don't start...

Clint: What !? It's obvous that you two like each other !

Y/N: Clint stop !

He laughs and you nudge him on the shoulder. Well you are definitely blushing now.

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Thank you so much for reading this !I hope you enjoyed this story !

Sorry for my mistakes, english is not my first language :)

Thunderbolts x Male reader / Bob Reynolds x Male reader

Type: fluff/comfort

Relationship: romantic with Bob

Summary: On one of Alexei’s imposed movie nights, reader decides to show the team Dear Evan Hansen which seems to really affect them.

Set after the events of Thunderbolts

No use of Y/N

He/they pronouns for reader

1438 words

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They called themselves the New Avengers. However when the team consisted of Bucky, an ex hydra assassin, Yelena, an ex-widow, Alexei, a Russian captain America bootleg, John, a failed new Captain America who had killed an innocent in front of a lot of people, Ava, a shield reject turned mercenary, [reader], the last survivor of hydra’s augmented people since Wanda had passed, who had multiple times rejected the Avengers title and, Bob, the mystery man, it was hard for the public to see them as a good replacement of the original Avengers.

None the less, a few months after the events with the void the team had settled into a comfortable routine in the Avengers tower. Said routine was especially adored by Alexei, who was the proud creator of weekly karaoke night, weekly game night and weekly movie night. All which was had obligatory attendance for every member of the team.

Tonight was movie night.

“A musical, really?” groans Walker, resting his head on the back of the couch on which he had decided to take up a lot of space.

“Yes, a musical, John. You know there isn’t just action movies in life.” [reader] responded semi-harshly as he sat down on the other end of the couch.

“I thought we were watching Top Gun.” Yelena says as she enters the room with popcorn and other snacks, putting them down on the table for everyone to enjoy.

“No that’s next week, that’s Bob’s movie choice, tonight is mine.” The young man smiles at her as she offers him some chocolate. “I’m sure you’ll like it.” The ex-widow simply hums and goes to sit down.

“And when is it MY turn to choose the movie?” Walker interjects.

“Never.” Ava says suddenly reappearing next to John and scaring the shit out of him.

“Jesus dude, I told you to stop doing that!” The ex-soldier yells.

Everyone else laughs, even Alexei as he steps into the room. “She got you good Mister Walker.”

Alexei sits down next to Yelena and she leans slightly onto him. Ava chooses to lay on the floor close to the snacks table. Bucky arrives soon after and sits between Alexei and Walker. A few minutes later Bob arrives.

“I finished doing the dishes, we can start now.” He says quietly.

“Thank you Bob.” [reader] says sending him a warm smile and patting the space next to him on the couch. An invitation that the other young man cannot resist.

As everyone is settled with their snacks ready, the movie starts to play. The movie is about high school student Evan struggling with mental health. When another student, Connor, commits suicide people start believing Evan was his friend as they find a letter Evan wrote to himself in the student’s bag. Evan not wanting to explain that he writes letters to himself and seeing this as an opportunity to get closer to his crush, the dead student’s sister, fakes having been Connor’s friend.

“So they were friends?” John asks.

“No they were not.” Alexei answers.

“But we see them hanging out now.” continues Walker.

“It’s a representation of what Evan is writing in the fake e-mails dumbass, this is not real Connor.” replies Ava.

As the movie escalates and Evan’s mental health gets worse when his faking of the friendship is revealed [reader] feels Bob tense against them. The young man looks at him, Bob feeling eyes on him turn to look at [reader] who has a worried look on their face.

“I’m okay.” whispers Bob.

The chorus of the song starts:

‘On the outside, always looking in.

Will I ever be more than I've always been?

'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass.

I'm waving through a window’

[reader] hears Bob’s breath start to quicken.

‘So I wait around for an answer to appear

While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass

I'm waving through a window, oh

Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?’

Suddenly Bob stands up.

“I need to pee.” He says in a shaky voice before almost running out of the room.

[reader] quickly follows Bob out of the room. The others notice but are too into the movie to join the situation, they know anyway that if anybody can handle Bob it’s [reader], so their attention goes back to the song.

“Bob? Bob are you okay?” the young man asks as Bob sits down in the kitchen his head in his hands and breathing fast. “hey look at me, I’m with you okay.” [reader]’s hands are on Bob’s knees as he kneels in front of him. “I’m right there… I see you.” The young avenger leans their head onto Bob’s, closing their eyes and breathing loudly but slowing as a way to try make Bob’s breathing match theirs. It works, Bob’s breathing slows and [reader] feels the man’s arms around him, hugging him, so they hug him back. “Bob?”

“I’m fine, I’m fine now. Thank you.” The blue eyed man says as he pull away and look at the person in front of him in the eyes.

“Okay, do you want to talk about it now or do you want to go back to the others and finish the movie?” [reader] asks.

“I want to finish the movie.” He whispers.

“Okay, let’s go.” [reader] takes Bob’s hand in theirs and guides him back to the living room. The two of them sitting back in the same places, only slightly closer this time and holding hands for comfort. The others don’t even notice they’re back.

‘Today. It feels a little closer’ the shot shifts from Evan to the apple orchards before fading to black and the credits start. [reader] turns the lights back on.

“Waw… that was...”Starts Yelena, her head in her dad’s lap.

“Yeah.” Agrees Bucky.

“I told you guys it was good.” the young man sighs.

“Walker are you crying?” Ava suddenly says.

“N-No what the fuck?” The military man asserts.

As everyone turns to look at him they notice his red eyes.

“Oh my god you WERE crying!” Yelena says excitedly as she sits back up.

“No I was not! I was basically sleeping through the movie from how boring it was.” Walker tries to lie.

“You know it’s okay I cried too.” Bob says quietly, making everyone turn toward him this time.

[reader] smiles at him. “So did I.”

“I might have shed a tear as well.” Ava joins.

“I still have tears in my eyes.” Adds Yelena.

“My face is very wet. Touch it, it’s so wet.” says Alexei.

“I could have cried.” Bucky finally joins the group.

“Yeah okay so we’re all crybabies, you guys happy?” Groans John.

“Very.” [reader] says. “But since everyone cried, just checking, is everyone okay?” The young man chuckles. A series of “yeah” and “I’m fine” echo in the room.

“Okay no fuck that shit guys, improvised group therapy now. Come on.”

The team groans but don’t complain much more. Group therapy happened a lot around here, scheduled or not.

“I-I got emotional with the song ‘Waving Through a Window’, it reminded me of how I feel useless or invisible sometimes.” Bob confesses.

“You’re not useless.” Says Bucky.

“Yeah, we see you Bob.” continues Yelena. She take a deep breath before starting “I related to Evan, the loneliness he felt.”

“You’re not alone Lena.” Alexei smiles at her.

“None of us are.” [reader] speaks up and squeezes Bob’s hand that still was in theirs.

“I related to Connor, being mean feels easy when you’re in pain.” Ava says looking down.

“yeah, it does.” John whispers.

Silence falls in the room. Everyone taking the other’s states and confessions in when a chuckle is heard, Bob’s chuckle. [reader] turns to him raising an eyebrow inquisitively. The two look at each other and start laughing. Yelena and Ava look at each other as well before joining the fit of laughter.

“What’s happening?” asks Walker.

The whole team starts laughing either from the awkwardness of the situation or because the others laughing is making them laugh.

“What a team.” Says Ava.

“The dream team! The Avengerzzz!” yells Alexei.

Groans are heard.

“Please stop with that” Yelena tells her dad.

“Alright, good movie and good group therapy, I’m going to my room now. Good night.” Bucky says as he stands up and leaves. Everyone answers good night.

Soon enough everyone has gone back to their rooms except for Bob and [reader]. The two stay sat close and holding hands. Discussing every detail of the movie. The night continues on and they don’t move, eventually falling asleep, both leaning on each other, their fingers intertwined.

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English is not my first language.

A little short by I hope you’ll like it.

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ga-cchn

2 years ago

Accurate.

Tangerine: *makes you jump*

Y/N: FUCK ME-

Tangerine: well if you insist