“The Prettier The Garden, The Dirtier The Hands Of The Gardener.”

Today I got 200 words written down.

And they were ~the best words~ I've written so far.

(The scene isn't even ready...)

~just a little patience~

I knew this fic would take time, and it'd probably only be ready near August, but it always surprises me... the amount of work one actually has to do to write like, 100.000 words??

I love every damn second of it, anyway.

C&D Book Update #5

Spent my whole Sunday fleshing out chapters 57+. Added chapter 70 today as well, after the idea for it just crossed my mind before bed yesterday.

I found I'm a really silly person. Also, shameless.

Chapters 57+ don't look polished yet, but I love them! It was so much fun...

Now I want to just immerse myself in the book I wrote and enjoy it, but I think I have to fix all the red marked phrases first. They have bad wording, or are too old (discarded ideas), or n other reasons... they are bad. And they need to go.

I feel lazy just thinking about it, but hey, no one will do it for me.

C'mon...

F can do it!!

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Omg I'm here wanting to cry. Why? Because I'm hearing lo-fi & eating nutella. Somehow that's cry-inducing to me now.

And you can't even say that it must be 'that time of the month' cuz I'm not a woman, technically. What's wrong with me. WHY does lo-fi makes me want to cry. What do I even hear if not lo-fi to relax?? I tried 3daysgrace, for hours, then Bullet for my Valentine, then back to 3daysgrace, now I got no idea what to listen to. Also, I have to work, so I can't just go home and bury myself in a tower of blankets like I'm rebuilding Babel.

Never gonna hear lo-fi again.

(Make a bet on how long it takes for me to listen to it again.)

TCIK Original Book Update #7

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY

MY FIRST BREAKTHROUGH

IF I SOUND CRAZY, IT'S BECAUSE I AM!

finally

finally

I came across this old animation I first saw when I was like 12? And it sparked so many ideas! I totally wasn't prepared for it, and it opened my eyes!!

I still have like, to work on 70% of the book (that's still a mystery to me), but the dots are doting now. The lines are lining. The floor is flooring. Things are feeling alive, and I feel like I understand the theme of the fic for the first time. The feelings. The vibe.

I got the main character's backbone yesterday, and now a specific scene's vibe (and some repercussions for the entire fic...)

I'm so happy

C&D Book Update #3

I finally finished the first draft!

The final chapters aren't that good yet, or fleshed out (at all), but they are finished!

I knew I could do this before September. I knew it!

Now I'm going back to chapter 57 to flesh it out a bit, then I'll flesh out the last chapters, then I'll go over the whole book and fix a ton of mistakes/bad research/etc. (most chapters are red marked by now, 2 chapters need a whole rewrite...) and THEN I'll do the last reading. And it'll be ready! <3

I also commissioned an artist to do a chibi version of the C&D couple and it looks soooo cute!! i'm so excited to reveal it all soon!!

Where does chocolate milk come from? I’ve heard brown cows but part of me doesn’t want to believe it.

That’s a good instinct! The true story of chocolate milk (and all chocolate!) begins not at our local pasture, but with the rare and beautiful beans of the Brazilian rainforest

IT'S LIKE A HUNDRED NINETY NINE DEGREES, WHEN YOU'RE DOING IT WITH ME, DOING IT WITH ME

TCIK Original Book Update #1

Finally, I have the structure of the story complete! Like, the main ideas in each arc.

I'm still drowning in my notes. I have at least 200 pages of it, and the worst laziness to sort them out. Some of the ideas are already outdated, but some are gold. I'm organizing them all in this new document, and it's going well, even though it's a very slow process.

I'm still not satisfied with the ending. It has already morphed into something brand new in the time I've been thinking about this fic (like, one month?), but I find something is still missing… I'll keep thinking about it and trying to figure it out.

Another challenge is making the romance feel earned. I wrote a bit of it already, and I'm not satisfied. The protagonist feels like a dunderhead, and the main love interest a creep. I feel this is something I'll end up figuring out at the last moment…

Anyway, despite hating crosswords and puzzles, I find book-puzzles like those fascinating. Hurray!! Another day of slaving over my book <3

When people think I'm a man they treat me better than when people think I'm a woman.

It brings me back to that one time I was on this school show, acting as an old, male historical figure. I welcomed the incoming kids from other schools and taught them this one little song. We all had a good time. But some of them (mainly the adults) kept asking me: are you a boy? Or are you a girl??

Like, the hell should they care?

I had short hair, kinda deep voice, just a teen, but my voice was high enough and my face feminine enough that it made them doubt.

And does that even matter?

Yes, it does. Because when I tell people I'm technically male, they bite their tongues and don't say nasty shit.

And while being nonbinary myself (and I can't care less about what other people think of my gender), I can't help thinking:

What horrible world for my sister to grow up.

I wish we can all make it a better place for women, one day.

Martin is famous for his “gardening” approach to plot development. He doesn’t want to plot things out and build a fixed plot, he wants to imagine what all the characters are getting up to and let all of that together grow into something organically. It’s a nice sentiment, it just doesn’t work well with what he was doing.

Source: here

Really interesting. I never thought about what I did was "gardening". Fascinating. I think the difference is, I do know exactly how I want to end, I do have strong ideas on the vibe and what happens. But I need time figuring out the in-betweens; how each character will act and the repercussions.

That's why I can spend years upon years planning a book. The planning bit is the most important part...