I Need Fanfics W This PleasepleasepleasePLEASEPLEASEPLEASEEEEE

"happy birthday to me."

guess who was Steven Universe fan all along??? (not me, i just watched it and now I’m obsessed.)

I haven't owned Tumblr account when it was Sans birthday but I'll still post this anyway.... again, happy b-day lazy bones :]

DIP-DOP APPRECIATION POST!!!!!

Happy (early) Halloween folks. Here, have little Billy. rise the saturation for two fun facts on the image, find em.

and him too

This is actually the advice I am subconciousely following since 2020, and ykw? It works.

Well. Somewhat...?

BUT!!!! I make them get good happy pleasant experiences instead of therapy since i got bad experiences with therapists myself (I've been to 4 different therapists. They would either say that it's all my fault and I deserve it, or just suck it up, or that "I don't try hard enough", they ruined my understanding of therapy. Mother only dragged me there with the intention to "fix whatever is wrong with me", not help.)

Basically, running the character through similar horrible experiences to yours and making them heal. Feeling like you're part of it. and if they healed - so can you.

I know I began talking about a bit of a different topic but I still wanted to express my opinion, so I hope that it's fine(I hope so?)

I've been doing this similiar thing for.... 4-5 years now? I'm definitely better than I used to be.

Put a bullet in my head but I'm not going back to whatever 2015-2020 was. I don't even remember most of it but I'm not going back. No.

If you can't get any help, or don't want any help - working on yourself BY yourself WITH yourself is the best thing that can be done. It's hard but don't lose hope!

Whatever I get horribly flashbacked to everything traumatic that ever happened in my life - my mind just refuses to accept it, like no, that's not me, that must have been someone else, I POSSIBLY couldn't be fine after [REDACTED] but, I'm fine, right? so it means that [REDACTED] never happened and I'm just lying to myself and making shit up, I just gotta suck it up and be tougher.

and if you ask me that's very fucking Stanley Pines core.

"my niece told me that some of you on the internet are thirsting after me" - Stanford pines²⁰²⁵

Mabel probably has tiktok folders for all those edits of her grunkles..... Kept safe and sound.....

"They're so cool....." She chants while rewatching the thirstrap, giggling and kicking her feet while being completely unaware of editors true intentions.... (Yet)

I FUCKING LOVE STATEMENT ABNEGATION YOU JST KILLED ME PHMYGOD😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Based on the fanfic Statement Abnegation (1/2)

Part 2

I keep forgeting to post this, I'm still not over this fanfic 😭

What did you see, Fiddleford?

Livid for this

Really can't get over the CAN WE TALK? stickynotes. And I mean I think part of it really kinda clicked when I've seen some fanart about it. We really see in TBOB that Ford after beginning to hear voices slipping through the cracks and questions Bill, to learn what Bill really intended, ENTIRELY shuts down his communication with Bill. And you see Bill when he gets questioned in that moment responds with a heavily implied dialogue along the lines of "haha, yeah I tricked you, I'm here to overtake your dimension". But Bill still expects Ford to respond to him in some way, and it's very clear that Bill is shocked when Ford REFUSES to talk to him. And what's interesting is Bill doesn't just IMMEDIATELY begin with threats; he actually leaves stickynotes first, before Bill realizes he's FUCKED UP big time and gets really nasty. There's something pleading with the CAN WE TALK? sticky note. There's a point where Bill does realize he's not getting what he expected, that he's missing Ford, and that he's willing to possibly even smooth some things over, explain things better (maybe even the part that the nightmare dimension is unraveling perhaps) or persuade Ford into Bill's plans. But Ford refuses, and it's already too late for Bill because just like with Stan, Ford feels betrayed and when Ford feels betrayed he'll mercilessly cut the person out of his life. Ford deeply, deeply holds hurt and betrayal and as a result he has zero desire to speak with Bill again (and also uhhh big red flag to take over the world, so also. Yeah).

And it's interesting because it's a slower ramp up until Bill is desperate and threatens, uses violence, because that's what he's always used when it comes down to it, and an ultimatum is given. It wasn't just threats out of the gate; Bill DID try to speak to Ford (btw this is not me being like Ford should have spoken to Bill and it would be magically healthy, cause no matter how you slice it it's just a toxic mess tbh). Threats out of the gate would have been faster; there's over three weeks in the timeline, before Ford goes through the portal (althought we don't get too much context around exactly when everything occurs). That's a lot of time! But Bill didn't threaten Ford immediately. And I think part of that reason is because Bill expected Ford to speak to him, expected their relationship or at least their project to mean enough to Ford that Ford would speak to him and then continue their work, once his anger cooled off. And I think also part of it is because Bill cared about Ford, not that he'd admit it in the moment; but he'd rather Ford willingly be alongside him, then have to force him through threats to do the work on the portal. You see that, even after Ford spends 30 years trying to kill him and nearly even does, when he offers him during wierdmageddon to be a henchmaniac. Bill cares about Ford, wants Ford beside him. But then Ford continues to refuse to engage with him at all, and Bill realizes he's lost Ford, and progressively gets more desperate and angrier as he's still refused, and falls into the violence he usually uses, to get Ford to cooperate.

Anyhow it's one of those things that you wonder what would've happened if they DID speak, but that would ultimately be defying a big part of who Ford is... So in a way it's a juicy juicy tidbit to chew on, the implications beyond the writing on the sticky note.