It Hurted Me Deep Inside Yet I Loved Him 😭i'm Fucked Up

Chapters: 6/? Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko/Reader Characters: Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, Reader, Takami Keigo | Hawks Additional Tags: Yandere Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, Quirkless Reader (My Hero Academia), Voice Kink, Hand & Finger Kink, Porn With Plot, Eventual Smut, really more like a smattering of smut here and there between therapy sessions (and sometimes during), Sexual Frustration, Touch-Starved, Choking, Canon-Typical Violence, Soft Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, not all the time but sometimes, Shiggy is a thighs and ass man I decided, wants to grab reader's ass and massage her thighs and rub his cheeks between them, Mutual Pining, Psychologist!Reader, Prisoner!AU, Shiggy gets therapy, it's giving harleen quinzel falling for joker vibes, you are too curious for your own good, Possessive Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, no beta so please be gentle with me senpai Summary:

Somewhere in the process of analyzing him, you realized that red wine gaze was starting to go to your head. By that point however, you were half-drunk already, settled in the palm of his hand.

Omg i loveeee this fic !

Anxious

(Back again with the soft Tomura, been anxious and overthinking a lot lately so this is a bit of a comfort fic for me! Hope it can comfort you too!~)

Tomura Shigaraki x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Platonic

Summary: You’re new to the League of Villains. You have already proven yourself in combat, showing off your skills with flying colors. Yet it’s easy to see how anxious you are around people when your mind isn’t focused on fighting.

CW/TW: people being judging assholes, degrading comments towards reader (none by the league, just some strangers)

(Y’all are beautiful and sweet, try not to listen to the haters! <3)

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You hadn’t been in the League long, just barely over two weeks and it taken longer than you’d like to admit to get used to everyone’s names. Oftentimes you hung out with Toga or Twice, seeing as they accepted you and made you feel more at ease. Mr. Compress was nice too, one of the firsts to notice your anxiety and help you with it.

You didn’t see much of Spinner, but from what interactions you did have, he was respectful of your anxiety too.

Dabi and especially Tomura, however, scared you to hell and back. Not only did they look like they’d kill you with just one glance, (and honestly they very well could), but they had an air about them. They seemed so high up in the League’s rankings that you were too nervous to even try to talk to them outside missions or training.

It was a Friday night, no big plans were coming up so the league was out and about doing their own things. You were in the training room at base, doing small things with your quirk to test your capabilities.

The sound of the door opening tore your attention away, your head turning to see Tomura in the open doorway.

“Need me for something?” You asked as politely as you could in his presence, the deadpan stare alone made you want to shiver. Tomura was hard to read.

“Come with me. We’re getting snacks.”

You blinked, not expecting the words but nodded nonetheless. You straightened up your clothes as you walked over, taking the jacket he held out to you.

“Wear that. It’ll hide your face.” He spoke, and as he turned, you though you almost imagined him muttering “Plus it’s cold out.”

Either way, you put on the jacket and flipped the hood over your head, following Tomura out of base and onto the yellow-lit streets of the city.

A small part of you found it fun, walking around in the city at night. You never did it often before you found yourself in the League. Plus it was much quieter at night, something you enjoyed. Your gaze drifted to the road, your mind picking out the colors of cars that passed by. Your ears picked up on passing conversations of cars and apartments above, no words to be heard, but the sound of voices was unmistakable.

Your gaze drifted to your feet, Tomura’s moving next to and slightly in front of yours, watching as your shoes made minuscule splashes in the puddles from yesterdays rain shower. An alley cat caught your attention next, head turning to watch the dark-furred feline jump up after a moth fluttering by a door light.

More alleyways passed by, some holding overturned, half full trashcans, others holding trashcans so full the owners had to place the trash bags on the ground next to them. Occasionally, you’d spot movement further in the alleyways, most likely a drunkard or a thug trying to hide away from the road’s street lights.

If Tomura was talking to you, you did not pay him any notice, your mind far too immersed in the city’s ambience to pay attention to much else.

At one point, you thought you saw a flicker of Dabi’s blue flames, way back in a darker alley, to which you pointedly turned your head the other direction. You’d only heard of what Dabi does to people, you didn’t wish to see it in action just yet.

“We’re here.”

You jumped out of your musings at Tomura’s voice, which in the moment sounded almost too loud, your head turning to see a run down general store. Either your wandering mind had kept a listening ear out for Tomura’s voice, or he had purposely raised his voice to pull you from such thoughts.

Following him inside, you glanced around the building. The floors definitely needed cleaned, the shelves were mostly stocked (aside from one entirely empty shelf). The only cashier there looked like he’d rather be anywhere else as he stared up at the TV playing some random late night cop show, his expression making him seem either half dead or half high, you couldn’t quite place it.

But damn, what a mood.

“Get whatever snack you want, I’ll pay.”

A part of you wanted to protest, you never liked having others pay for you, but you didn’t bring any money, and you figured it was best to take Tomura’s generosity when he gave it.

So you nodded and wandered off from his side, perusing the shelves. As you were moving from the sour candies, which you noticed were out of date, and onto the sweeter ones, you glanced up at the sound of the door opening, two teens wandering in.

Paying them no more attention, you reached down for a bag of your favorite chocolates, turning the bag over to check the expiration date.

“Are they really considering chocolate with that figure?” A hushed voice sounded at the end of the aisle.

You tensed, pretending to look busy with reading the other candy labels. The teens thought they were being subtle with their whispers, but in a rundown store like this late at night, their voices were more than quiet.

“Dunno, doubt they care if they’re in a place like this at night though.”

You shook as their quiet laughs reached your ears. God why? Your figure always upset you, some days you looked too big, others you looked too thin.

However, just before your thoughts could spiral more, you noticed their laughter abruptly stop. You lifted your head, just a slight glance up, and immediately dropped your gaze again.

Tomura was standing at the opposite end of your aisle from them, giving them the nastiest glare you’d ever seen on a person’s face. And without the hand on Tomura’s face? Not a look you’d want directed at you.

“Find what you want, (Y/n)?” He spoke up, making sure the two teens heard him as he stepped up to your side, giving you a gentle look that oddly enough, put you at ease.

“Y-Yeah.” You piped up quietly, earning a nod from Tomura.

“Alright, let’s go.” He replied, the toe of his shoe tapping against your ankle to get you moving towards the cash register.

Thankfully, he’d placed himself between you and the two teens, and you wondered if they’d pissed themselves in addition to how pale they’d gone.

You fiddled with a small phone charm up by the register as Tomura paid the cashier, but set it down as he handed the bag to you.

This time, he had you lead your duo out of the store, following close behind you but not without another glare thrown over his shoulder.

A part of you wondered why he hadn’t just gone ahead and used his quirk on them. You’d seen him do so with people that annoyed him, but as he brushed the back of his hand against your still quivering arm, you guessed it was to not upset your anxiety any further.

“You alright?” He asked after a stretch of time, walking beside you, you noticed, as opposed to slightly in front of you like earlier.

“Yeah.” You breathed, “Still a bit shaken, but I’m alright.”

He nodded, one eye glancing your way. “Don’t give those insignificant rats any satisfaction, alright? You’re fine just the way you are.”

You smiled up at him, finding yourself finally calm for once by his side. “Thank you, Tomura.”

“Don’t mention it.” He spoke, looking back in front of him as one hand lifted from his pocket. Clasped in fingers, ring and pinkie fingers extended, was the phone charm you were looking at, and you know he definitely didn’t pay for it.

You let out a small giggle as you took it from him, too caught up in the fact he stole the charm for you to see the way he smiled at your giddy expression.

(So right around where you start walking with Tomura is where I had some damn good city detailing, and then my phone decided to fucking close Tumblr on me making me lose my progress and I had gotten far enough into the fic that I couldn’t remember what exactly was written so I couldn’t rewrite it word for word and I’m so mad about it. Why can’t Tumblr do an autosave thing every minute or so??? Eh, it is what it is I guess, at least this time around I added a bit more details)

I don't have addh but that's litteraly me xD

as a fellow gal with ADHD, please consider: shiggy/hyper & easily distracted gf

Oh man, I think it would drive him crazy. Shigaraki is so hyper focused and determined, and he’s obviously somewhat organized and skilled at bringing things together.

Those of us with ADHD (especially untreated) tend to be a bit scatterbrained and easily distracted. Could you imagine sitting through a long, grueling meeting with the league, and you just find yourself staring at the wall, daydreaming? You’re trying to listen, you really are, but every once in a while, he says something that sends your mind on a tangent and it becomes almost impossible to listen?

Anytime you have to read over recon or reports, you have to do it about 8 times because even though your eyes are scanning over the words, your head is totally somewhere else. It’s just not digesting the words. Sometimes you have to quiz yourself (or have him do it for you) to make sure you absorbed the information.

And sleeping next to him? Oh man.

“Hey!”

“What?”

“You’re twitching your leg again.”

“Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize it.”

“Well stop! You’re shaking the whole bed!”

“I’m trying! I start doing it subconsciously.”

“Well knock it off. I’m trying to focus.”

“Okay.”

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“You’re doing it again!”

He’d have to check in on you and make sure you’re not getting sidetracked while you work. He even has to pay extra attention to where you put things because you have a tendency to lose track of stuff.

“Did you see where I put my phone?”

“I saw you with it two minutes ago.”

“I know. I can’t remember where I put it.”

“Did you check your pocket?”

“Yes, Tomura, I’m not stupid.”

“What about the counter?”

“Already looked.”

“And what about the bathroom where you went right before you lost it?”

“....huh.”

“Idiot.”

Even when he’s looking right at you, he’s not entirely sure you’re listening. Sometimes he asks you to repeat what it is he just said just so he can be sure. Your impulsive nature doesn’t necessarily help matters. He thinks if you spent half as much time working as you did daydreaming, you might have destroyed society on your own by now.

“What the hell are you looking at?”

“Huh?”

“You’ve been staring at the counter for 10 minutes. You’re barely blinking.”

“Oh. I was just wondering what it would be like to have a quirk like Hawks. You know, like flying and stuff? Do you think he ever gets bugs in his teeth? And what about going down, do you think his stomach does the flippy thing or do you get used to it? Also, do you think he needs to like, brush his wings? You know when you get a few hairs parted on the wrong side and it feels weird? You think you get that with feathers? And since he’s birdlike, you think he lays eggs or-“

“You know what? I’m sorry I asked.”

Yeah, it would drive Shigaraki crazy sometimes. But even though he’ll never tell you this, he thinks it’s cute, and he doesn’t mind it nearly as much as he pretends he does. Plus, he’s more than happy to help keep you organized and remember things you might have forgotten. It’s a minuscule price to pay to be with you, and something he’d probably do anyway.

Yay !

Chapter two of the shiggy x reader series will be delayed a bit but it is in progress!!

Same for real xD

This mf needs to stop playing with me and propose already 🙄

✿ Yandere!Tomura Shigaraki x F!Reader ✿

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( Hello ! I wanna start a new Yandere series and here is a little sneak preview of it ;) please if you want tell me what you think so far and tell me what you wanna see in it and please leave request for more series and shorts I’d appreciate. I wanna be more Active on here and find mutuals. Hope you all have nice holidays. <3)

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„Aww come on ten ten don’t be such a sore loser“ you giggled into his headphones.

„yeah whatever“ was all he mumbled back with a blush on his cheeks which you couldn’t see. You and Tomura, or Tenko as he introduced himself to you, have been gaming together for 2-3 months now. You guys met in some sort of chat room and have been hitting it off ever since. You not only game together but also talk on the phone for hours on end about Friends and Family , personal stuff and obviously gaming. Well you more then him. He love listening to you ramble. Your cute voice and addicting laugh.

„It’s getting kind of late ten ten (you’re the only person that gets to call him that) I have work early in the morning but it was nice talking to you“ you giggled. It really was you always felt like he was the only person that understood you. And he felt the same maybe even more but he wasn’t ready to admit that.

„Sleep well ten ten !“

„You too“

Was all he said and that was enough for you. You always knew what he was intending on saying and what he meant.

—————— next day—————————————————

From [y/n] : Hey Tenko you ready to play r/g (random Game) again ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა♡ ?

To [y/n] : sure

You were actually really good also a reason why he liked playing with you besides your cute voice. It was getting kind of frustrating that you were so good. Not to mention you were enjoying yourself quit a bit and making little remarks about how bad he was.

„Ok now your not THAT good“ he said

„I only won four times in a row didn’t I“ you said cheekily.

„Yeah yeah whatever“

„Well maybe you can learn a couple of things from me would you watch play“

What did you mean watch you play. Did you stream ? You guys have been talking about all lot of stuff but jobs and other hobbies have never really been topic. You did send him pictures before so he kinda knew what you looked like. You were the most beautiful girl he has ever seen. But all he said that he didn’t need to watch you.

„Here is the link to my channel if you ever change your mind“

Tomura could feel how his heart sped up and a blush was creeping on his skin. He had to suppress the urge to click on the link and watch you stream. He had recordings of your voice which he listens to every night and the pictures you send him which he looked at when he felt down or when he did other things… But it wasn’t his fault that he got hard looking at you. You were just so beautiful to him.

„Buuut let’s finish this round I’m getting kind of tired ten ten“

„This time I’m gonna beat ya“ he said chuckling. The excitement and the images of you streaming shot right to his member. He wondered if you were one of those who wore slutty clothes and took money from old men. He was gritting his teeth trying not to make a sound. It excited him being able to see you more often it wasn’t enough to just see your pictures anymore he needed more. He won the round and he let out an excited “yes!” Which made him blush a little bit he was still a little awkward about showing so much emotions. You like it tho it was cute the way he got excited. You grumbled in response to loosing against.

“Well I can’t lie that was pretty good ten ten”

You guys logged off for the night. And as soon as the call ended Tomura clicked on the link as fast as possible. The link led him to your stream account it was as he imagined all pastel and pinky it was so you . The brightness stung in his eyes but he was too eager to look away. You were at almost 350k follows how has he never seen you. Well looking through you content you did play games you two liked to play but the majority of you content was games he wasn’t too familiar with. He clicked on one of your videos. The latest one of your streams. You greeted you viewers with a little wave and that cute smile of yours. He couldn’t look away. He had to have you…

Who would win in a fight over you - Dabi or Tomura? And who would be better in bed?

Ooh! Ooh this is an interesting one!

Alright, so if Shigaraki and Dabi both catch feelings for you, you might as well put the High Noon soundtrack on repeat around the hideout because things are about to get a lot more hostile ‘round these parts. Much to everyone’s ire, they’re not exactly shy about this either. Those two don’t get along well on the best of days, so when they’re competing for something they both crave, things are going to get messy. 

But let’s start off slow, shall we?

Afficher davantage

SWEET

This is my copium. Bite me.

Its just ice cream.

Shigaraki looks at you like a wet kitten. He isn't sure why he's acting like this is the strangest thing to ever happen to him. You offered him a bite of your ice cream that you happily scarfed down laying in his lap while he idly farmed away in Breath of the Wild.

He looks at the spoon, then at you. When you offer him a puzzled expression and ask if he doesnt like the flavor he doesn't exactly know what to say. Does he like the flavor? Is he expecting you to share spoons? Why do you eat ice cream with a big spoon? The small spoon is superior...

"I've never had ice cream before." he realizes he's speaking now. He wasn't supposed to say that out loud, it was supposed to be a quiet realization to himself that he had never had something like that before.

You make a face at that, and he knows its not a good face. You're upset with him? He's still not good at understanding your feelings and all of the faces you make, but he's trying. Even so, he can't understand what he's done to make you upset with him. But as if reading his mind, you simply say "thats so sad... I hate your sensei."

Oh. You aren't upset with him. You're upset because master never let him indulge in sweet treats. He wants to argue that he's never deserved them before, but recently you've been making him feel like he's worth it, and like he's not a dangerous return investment. You make him feel wanted, and as if hes the only one in the world worthy of your gaze, and you make him question everything he's ever known.

So cautiously, he opens his mouth and takes a small bite from your spoon. It tastes like... orange and vanilla... Its so cold. But the smile you give him when you see him eat it makes him feel so warm he doesn't even realize hes opening his mouth for you to give him another spoonful, and another after that.

Shigaraki gets his first brainfreeze after trying to eat the whole pint in one go. Your laugh makes it all worth it though, and he realizes he loves orange and vanilla. He realizes he loves this moment with you, its soft and quiet. The only sounds being satisfied hums and background music from Breath of the Wild. Its a domesticity he hasn't ever had in his life and he never wants to let it go, he wants to feel this peace with you again and again. He wants to taste all the ice cream and all the sweet treats he was never able to indulge in before.

But for now, he simply kisses your cold, soft lips. Because you're still sweeter than anything Sensei could've possibly tried to keep from him.

if all goes well for me, i'll be spending two weeks in japan with my best friend this summer. so... | banner link

i can't stop thinking about taking a long awaited trip to japan and running into tomura at a hole-in-the-wall game and anime store.

you're thumbing through some game merchandise and he's standing next to you. he looks over at you, and asks if you've played the game who's merch you're currently sorting through a bin of. you, not knowing the nuances of the japanese language and only able to pick up a few words from that misogynistic sentence, nod your head enthusiastically and smile.

you engage in broken small talk, using a translator for the bits of vocabulary you couldn't remember on the spot. stuff like where you're from, if you're in school and your major, etc are discussed. he asks when you go back to your home country, and you point at the day on the calendar app. he nods. he seems nice.

up from behind him comes another man, face mostly obscured. he says something to the guy you've been talking to, who's name you have yet to catch. you see the man behind him's bright blue eyes and discolored skin in the places his jacket collar doesn't cover.

oh. that's the guy you saw on the nhk website. you were checking the japanese news before you came here and that guy was plastered all over it with an arson attack by some terrorist group. he looks at you, and you avert your eyes.

when he leaves and the conversation between you two resumes, he asks for your number. well you sure as shit can't say no now. you ask if discord is okay. you swap usernames and he's on his way out with the scarred man.

you let out a breath you didn't know you were holding in. your hands are shaking. you just gave some (probable) terrorist your discord along with personal information about you and your trip. great.

you do some googling when you get back to your hotel that night. you see more information on the scarred man and see another blurry picture of him, this time with a man who looks like your newly added discord friend in the back. the article says he's tomura shigaraki, the organizations leader.

leader? as if your day can't get any worse.

it did get worse. you just got a discord notification from tomulov#0007.

A new life for Tomura part3