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18+ shigaraki drabble, MDNI
dom tomura pressing his tiny, meek little s/o into the matress, fucking them senseless. they're covered in bruises and they've cum countless times already, their little hole sore from the abuse and hot tears rolling down their red cheeks. tomura wipes them away with his thumb, hushing them and telling them how good they're being for him.
tomura pressing his hand against their neck, one finger lifted, carefully restricting their airflow til their vision goes spotty. hand around their neck to remind them that they're his. that he's in control here. the other hand grips their thigh, holding one leg over his shoulder to bury his cock into their core impossibly deeper. their little hole so hot and tight, it's like he's taking their innocence, corrupting them all over again.
when his mouth isn't on their lips, it's exploring the rest of them while he fucks them dumb. leaving dark hickeys, bite marks, licks and kisses all across their flesh, making sure to leave some places they can't hide easily. he wants everyone to know they belong to him. he wants to show them off proudly. he wants to see their hopelessly flustered face when they're around the others and desperately trying to cover the marks he left.
tomura feels like a predator with a fresh catch. a wolf, devouring a rabbit. his quiet, skittish s/o reminds him so much of a little bunny. their cries and moans and mewls and squeals resembling that of a small mammal in the jaws of a ravenous beast. but unlike a wolf or a beast with their prey, he'd never hurt a hair on his s/o's pretty head.
just when his little darling is on the verge of breaking, tomura's thick cock trobs inside of their sensitive walls, causing them to cum one more time with a weak cry. he stops, fully sheathed inside as he fills them to the point of overflowing with his hot, thick cum. he stays hilted inside of them, twitching, panting, petting their head while the seed that can't fit inside of them coats their already sticky thighs. tomura mutters small curses and praises that make them feel warm.
he stays inside until he's soft, part of him never wanting to move again. to just bask in the comforting feeling of his darling wrapped around his cock, looking so pretty underneath him. eventually, he pulls out, a flood of cum coming with it. he cuddles beside them and wraps a protective arm around their small frame. and with his s/o in his arms, leaking his seed, all fucked out and drifting off, he's happy.
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pairing: shigaraki tomura x reader
words: 8.7k
prompt: "getting paired up at a dance class"
warnings: enemies to lovers, cunnilingus, dom!shigaraki, sensual dancing, tit play, fingering, hand kink, doggystyle, protected sex, alcohol, frat party, complicated relationship
 Youâd absolutely lost the class registration lottery. After days, even weeks of agonizing over what classes filled which requirements and yet still gave you enough wiggle room to have your off days, you were exhausted. Everything was planned to a tee, and your dismayed face was evident as you told your roommate the dreadful news.
âI have to take a dance class! A partner dancing class! I might as well drop out,â you cry forlornly, looking at Nejireâs baby blue rug in frustration.
âIt canât be that bad! I mean, at least the professorâs good, right? Nemuri Kayama, I think. Sheâs one of the best; youâre in good hands,â your friend pets your head softly before leaping onto her plush bed, âmaybe youâll even dance with someone cute! You should keep your head high.â
â...Well, I guess. If Iâm with a creep, Iâm gonna be so annoyed! How are you so positive?â
Nejire seems to think over her answer before giving you a teasing grin, âbecause I got the schedule I wanted.â
âNejire!â
Sheâd reassured you she was just joking, but it was true. If you were in her position, youâre sure youâd be glad to have everything work out how you want it to. Sucking it up, you were determined not to let a stupid class ruin your well-earned GPA. You don your best comfy clothes and arrive ten minutes early at the studio.Â
A couple of people are hanging out in the studio, and thereâs a pleasant buzz of chatter while you sit. Maybe it wouldnât be so bad. People continued trickling in, and before you could realize it, your professor clapped her hands.
âGood morning, everyone!â
Your face burns a bit hot, was she supposed to wear such tight (and revealing!) clothing? She quickly introduces herself even with all the muttering, âI hope today goes as well for you as it does for me, and I want you to all know that this class will excite you, will make you feel, and most importantly is a lot of fun!â
Everyone around you seems to be either drinking in your professorâs appearance or wondering if they should drop the class; youâre thinking the latter, too, until she drops a bomb on the students.
âYouâre all too uptight! You know what? Partner up!â
It feels like youâre about to faint. Looking left, people are making eyes and nodding at each other. Looking right, itâs the same thing, and your heart stops at the realization that you donât have a partner. Thereâs so much chatter and commotion as people enter the room to find a clear spot for this cruel icebreaker.Â
âDoes anyone not have a partner?â
You almost donât raise your hand, but you have to. Red-hot shame is coursing through your veins. Could this get any worse?
Thankfully, a lanky and pale arm shoots into the sky alongside yours. Before you know it, Nemuri pushes you two toward each other and moves on to the assignment.
âFirst, say hello. These will be your partners for the rest of the semester, so make sure you like them! I know some of you are gonna date outside of class, and donât get handsy over there!â
Heâs very tall. You have to actually look up at his grumpy face to see him. His hair falls flat, looks damaged, and your cheek twitches. Heâs not ugly! If he cared for his hair and maybe got more sleep⌠dare you say it, he could be cute.
Shigaraki towers over you easily, eyes raking your form (noting that he can see your perky tits in your bra from this advantage.) You look alright, but heâs getting the feeling that you think heâs weird, âyou can stop looking at me like an animal.â
âI wasnât! I really wasnât,â you offer your hand and introduce yourself, âI really like your skull necklace!â
It feels like a ruse, and Shigaraki reluctantly takes your hand with a bored face, âIâm Shigaraki. Thanks.â
While others seemed to be faring better with their partners, it feels off-putting that he wonât even try to converse with you. If heâs going to have his hands on you, how could he act so cold!?
âWell, jeez. Donât try to say it all at once,â you mumble sourly, to which your partner scoffs.
âItâs just a class. Itâs not even important.â
âItâs important to me,â and you donât like this guy.
âThen maybe you should find a different partner.â
You look like a kicked puppy when he says that, but he doesnât take it back and mentally stews in his harshness. Maybe he should make a better effort⌠you were cute, he supposed. You had great tits, and you complimented his necklace.
Turning back to Nemuri, you canât think of anything to say to that. Even though you donât know him, it still stings a bit and your confidence leaks. Were you really that down on your luck?
Nemuri begins, telling each duo to get in a typical slow-dance pose for fun and to âget to know each other more.â Itâs starting to get a little creepy, but you wind your arms around Shigarakiâs shoulders anyways. He rests his hands casually on your waist but doesnât hold you like others.Â
âArenât you supposed to hold my waist?â
He snickers, âdo you want me to?â
Trying to talk to this man is pointless, but you almost smile at his response anyway.
âJust donât be weird!â
âNo promises,â and heâs glad to see you smile at his pervertedness.
Shigaraki decides to be nicer right then and there, in his own way.
Nemuri instructs you to casually slow dance and continue conversing; she even adds music to jazz up the class, which surprisingly works. Your nerves are melting away like butter, and Shigaraki seems to have mildly warmed up to you.
âSo⌠Do you like to dance?â
âFuck no.â
His bluntness makes you giggle, âyeah, me either. Except at, like, parties. But I wouldnât really call it dancing!â
âYou go to parties?â
âSometimes! I have a lot of friends who go, so itâs like an outing every time! Do you go to parties?â
It feels kind of dumb to ask that question. No offense to him, but youâre already suspecting his answer before he gives it. He twirls you, and you feel a rush of butterflies.
âNot really. People donât want a zombie dude at their parties,â his voice is gravelly but smooth, âbut Iâve been to a few.â
âTheyâre fun!â
Before you can continue finding common ground, Nemuri is hollering about reading the syllabus and upcoming material youâll cover. Shigaraki quickly gets his hands off you, and your heart aches.
âHey, do you want to exchange social media?â
Heâs already got his bag halfway on your shoulder, giving you an unimpressed look.
âI donât use social media,â and he shuffles even closer to the parade of students exiting the lecture hall.
âOh. Well, your number?â
You feel yourself grow hot when all he does is smirk and input your digits into his phone.
âThere, do you need anything else?â
What happened to the Shigaraki from a few minutes ago? He seems to be in a rush, but you canât help but feel hurt by his mood swings. Was he always going to be this irritable? Was he going to be someone you could count on in this class?
â...I guess not. Bye.â
Heâs out of the room before you realize it, gingerly grabbing your stuff and worrying your lip. This class would be a piece of work, and you couldnât find your footing so far. Maybe you should just drop it? But you really need that humanities credit andâŚ
âItâs Nejire! Pick up the phone!âÂ
Nejireâs self-imposed ringtone is heard through your AirPods. The stress is already leaking out of your body just hearing her voice. If you had a girlfriend, sheâd be it. You answer cheerily, âhey!â
âHey! Are you coming back from class right now?â
âYeah, I just got out. You have to hear about this; my partner sucks!â
Well⌠youâre embellishing. He doesnât suck, but heâs not great.
âAw man, really? I canât believe it! I thought for sure it was gonna go okayâŚ.â
âItâs whatever! Iâm over it,â you werenât. âWhyâd you call?â
âOh! If youâre up for it, Phi Psi is having a party tonight! Do you wanna go?â
Hmm, ironic since you were just talking about parties. Maybe itâd be nice, and perhaps itâd be good to let loose for a couple of hours. The memory of Shigaraki telling you that he goes to some parties replays in your mind, but you try to ignore it.
âSure! We can go. Whatâs the theme?â
Pajamas, sheâd said. You know that your silk sleep set is more lingerie than anything else, but your nerves are buzzing with pre-gamed shots of vodka and the promise of attractive people buttering you up. Looking around, itâs a typical college party, and youâre already feeling warm from how guys eye you like youâre the hottest thing there.
Shigaraki thinks so and turns the corner, missing your flushed wandering eyes.
âWe needa dance!â
Nejire babbles excitedly, Mirio accompanying her while she clutches your bicep.
âMhm, mhm! Let me get another drink first!â
Mirio keeps Nejireâs legs from buckling and smiles, âweâll be right here!â
You weave in and out of people, vision getting hazier and every touch feeling electric. A man starts pouring your drink, giving you a dazzling smile. He opens his mouth to talk, but youâre suddenly caged against the fence and face to face with Shigarakiâs chest.
âWha?â
âHey.â
He watches you search his eyes for a minute, teetering slightly as you sip the mix of alcohol and punch. Then, thereâs remembrance, and youâre leaping joyfully into his chest. It feels⌠nice, and he gingerly pats your back before steadying you on the balls of your feet.
âHey! I didnât know you were going to be here. My friends are over there,â you point past his shoulder, and he sees a guy chasing a girl around, âhiii, Nejire!â
Youâre pretty cute when youâre drunk, elongating words and joy coming out of you like a waterfall. A dainty hand grabs a bony one, and youâre about to drag Shigaraki toward your friends to âmeet them!â
âI donât think thatâs a good idea,â harsher than he meant to, he rips his hand away, âhow drunk are you?â
You give an offended huff, âIâm not drunk! I only had a c-oop! A couple of shots! And this drink! Itâs not even a lotâŚ.â
Shigaraki feels tempted to be childish and poke fun at you. Boop your nose and pull your hair, but youâre suddenly lost in thought and fascinated with your slippers.
âYou look drunk.â
âWell, âm not. I donât even know why Iâm talking to you right now,â and youâre suddenly invigorated and wanting to seek out your friends, but the first step sends you wobbling right into Shigaraki.
The boy yelps, hands gripping your shoulders and steadying you, âwatch it!â
âLet go of me!â
Some onlookers look on, peering eyes, and boys puffing their chests out in case they need to step in. Shigarakiâs mind goes blank, and all he can think of is that youâre so fucking annoying, and why does he still want to help you?
Why did he think of you while fucking his fist in bed last night? He shushes you and crosses his arms.
âDo you want to walk home by yourself?â
You look like a child, happily sayingâ yesâ and nodding proudly. Unfortunately, Shigarakiâs plan failed; you were too happy to wander off alone. Heâs reminded of a time when people used to call him creepy when he was smaller and more bug-eyed.
âOh, okay. Sure, get murdered. See if I care.â
This makes you react like youâre actually thinking about the consequences now. Mulling it over, you chew the inside of your lip and let your head roll back against the fence.
â...Well, I donât wanna be murderedâŚ.â
âThen let me take you home.â
âSince when are you nice?!â
It may sting a bit, but he shows no emotion. He takes a calm breath and blows the air out through his nostrils. There are no words at first, and youâre looking at him with a glint in your eye, and he wonders what you look like when you laugh. When you cry or when you get really excited.
âYou donât even care about me.â
â... Youâre my dance partner.â
Heâs sure his heart overrode his brain. Thereâs no way he could say something so cheesy. It makes your heart pound; what did he mean by that? Your drunk brain couldnât decipher how he presented his feelings, but then he was offering you a hand like a prince.
You never thought youâd call Shigaraki prince-like, and youâre worried that this might spiral out of control soon. Letting him lead you away, you figure that thatâs definitely what will happen.
âWhoâs room isâŚ?â
Shigaraki has no idea and frankly canât be bothered to care that heâs stumbling into a random frat guyâs room, âdonât know. Donât really care?â
He tries to take your shoes off at least, but youâre unceremoniously dropping yourself onto the bed like a fish out of water. Shigaraki feels his cheek twitch in annoyance, and then youâre turning your head with a jutted lip.
âAre you gonna lie?â
âAm I going to what?â
He assures himself youâre too drunk to understand what youâre saying. Thereâs no reason for you to ask that other than the need to not be alone. Youâd never ask that because you genuinely wanted, no, trusted Shigaraki to stay with you. Heâd never believe it, but his feet carried him to the edge of the bed, and then he sank into the soft mattress.
Itâs quiet, maybe too quiet. The musicâs bass thrums through the floors, but all Shigaraki can hear is your soft breath. He doesnât even realize youâre looking at him in the dimness of his room until he turns his head. His breath catches in his throat. Have you always been so pretty?
The alcohol makes you too sleepy too fast, and it feels like this moment is slipping away from you like youâre trying to cup water in your hands. Itâs leaking out of you, and then his red eyes lock onto yours.Â
âWhy donât you like me?â
âWhat do you mean,â and it comes out almost wounded.
âI-hic. I mean, like, when you suddenly act so⌠mean.â
For the first time in a long time, Shigaraki feels rendered speechless. He wants to jump up and run out of the room like the child he once was, but he canât find the strength to pull away from your gaze.
â...I donât know.â
âWhy?â
âI just donât,â and he finally breaks eye contact to look through the window behind you, âyou donât have to pity me, then.â
âI donât!âÂ
The end of your words slurs, and you know youâll lose yourself to the intoxicating feelings of sleep soon.
âI just⌠I want to like you.â
âLike me?â
You smile widely before you lean forward and press a kiss to his nose. He even goes cross-eyed to try and follow your movements.
âYouâre kinda⌠cute. But, youâre mean. So just be nice! Okay?â
Heâs not even sure why he goes along with it.
âOkay.â
Your eyes close, and for a second, he thinks heâs finally free from this impromptu analysis of⌠well, him. But, you beat him to the chase and whisper quietly.
âI meant it.â
âWhat?â
âThat youâre cute.â
One eye peeks open when he doesnât respond, and the embarrassment that should be there is only replaced with pure elatedness. His eyes sparkled a bit more. It makes you think that you should compliment him more. You shut your eyes.
âYouâre going to be embarrassed tomorrow.â
Maybe he waited too long, but all he knows is that your soft snores escape you quickly, and his heart warms at the sound. It shouldnât, but it does. He falls asleep shortly after and dreams of a faceless girl who dances with him all night. The girl always keeps smiling at him no matter how stiff he is.
Itâs a beautiful dream.
-
Shigarakiâs kind enough to shake you awake just past dawn, and the splitting headache doesnât make the visual of him leaning over you with a gentle hand easier to see.Â
âHey. Wake up. Some frat dude is gonna yell at you.â
The idea of someone barging in makes you move to sit up and groan, âdo you have any water?â
âNo. Get up, hurry,â and heâs tugging you off the bed.
It was a bad idea, your sleep-addled brain lagging and causing you to flop directly into a firm chest, âwatch out!â
âIâm sorry! Iâm barely awake,â and it comes out like a whine, âcan we get water?â
You almost think heâll say no, tell you to fuck off and get water yourself. But, he makes a move you wouldâve never expected, calmly lacing his hand with yours and steadying you on your feet.
âFine, letâs just get going already.â
Was this the Shigaraki youâd met? Had he been replaced by a clone that happened to be identical to the tone of voice? The feeling of a bony hand in yours is unreal. You can hardly take your eyes off the entanglement while Shigaraki urges you to come down the stairs faster than you are.
âAre you listening to me?â
âDid I say something weird last night?â
It comes out in a whisper, and Shigaraki feels like going to college was a huge mistake when he pulls his hand away and holds it close to himself like youâre injured. Like he injured you.
So, be nice! Okay?
âShigaraki?â
âYou said I was cute.â
Heâs blushing as he blurts it out like itâs a defense mechanism to keep you from getting closer. You rack your brain for the precise wording, but you can only remember bits and pieces of lying down to look at each other.
Did you really call him cute? You gnaw on your lip and look away, but as you glance at him again, you know you definitely did say that. Your lips turn upwards, the hilarity of you having to double-check while sober if you meant what youâd said...
Shigaraki was even hot now that you really looked at him, even with the tsundere thing going on.
âWell⌠well! I was drunk! Besides, you canât tell me you didnât like hearing it.â
âNo, I didnât. Youâre mistaken.â
âWhatâs that, huh? Why do you look like a tomato, hm?â
He wants to throttle you, wagging your finger in his face and poking his cheek like heâs a zoo animal.Â
âI shouldâve just left you up there, let you get eaten by wolves.â
âBut you didnât.â
Youâre right. Somehow in the mix of pushing you away and being pulled closer, he still stayed there the whole night to keep you safe. He still woke you early enough to escape the wolves lurking in the nearly destroyed frat house. He couldâve let you be eaten by wolves, but he didnât.
â...Well, whatever. Letâs go.â
âMkay.â
Itâs surprising how you decide to drop the subject. This strange attraction thrummed in your bones, urging you to do something about this little⌠crush. You let him guide you out the door and towards his car, a beat-up little Toyota. Itâs red, too, like his eyes. Maybe it was on purpose.
âYouâre okay to drive?â
âYeah, Iâm good.â
Shigaraki drives recklessly, you note. The way his hands grip the wheel, tires screeching as he swerves out into the abandoned street and takes off. It should make you scared, want to yell, and demand he let you out. Only he gives you a quick glance and smirks.Â
You really should talk to Nejire before you decide to fuck him. His music taste blares out of old speakers, a mix of rock and metal that wakes you like a good cup of coffee. Youâre about to lose yourself to the Foo Fighters song, but then he snaps the knob down to zero and clears his throat.Â
âYou owe me.â
âI owe you what? I donât owe you,â you even cross your arms for effect.
How cute.
âFor taking care of you, ruined my night,â heâs lying, and he knows heâs lying, but he canât help but take a chance.
Take a chance and see if you really mean it, if heâs not just making things up because you want to be nice. The part that runs deep in his blood tells him it canât be true, and he hopes that, for once, heâs wrong.
âPsh, ruined. You love being around me. Thatâs why you get like that,â you push it even further, âyou just donât know how to tell me you want me.â
He doesnât know what to say, and youâre carelessly whistling a tune while picking at your nails.Â
âWe have to practice our dance for class,â smooth, peaceful transition.
âRight! Tomorrow evening, in one of the practice rooms, yeah?â
âYeah.â
âThanks for walking me home.â
Shigaraki repeats his reply, and you note that he seems distracted. You wonder if you also seem distracted; you had a lot to think about!...
And all Shigaraki could think about was holding your waist in his hands. It made his heart thump in his chest. God.
The walk to the practice room was cold, and you were thankful for your quick thinking of wearing leg warmers like a ballerina. Youâre unsure if Shigaraki is already there, but youâre shaking off the cold as quickly as possible while storming into the building.
He is there! His phoneâs hooked up to a small speaker, and the pale blue walls make him shine even in dark clothing. His hair shakes when he gives you a blithe wave, âhey. Took you long enough.â
âHey! I came as fast as I could. Is that your speaker?â
âMm, no. My roommateâs, uh⌠Dabi? You donât know him.â
Oh, youâve heard of him. Frankly, this should be an even bigger red flag, but you pay it no mind and shrug, âI mightâve heard of him.â
He chuckles at that. So you have heard of him.
âWell, anyway. He never uses it, so I took it.â
âWow, evil.â
You drop your bag next to his, a frumpy black backpack with suspicious stains. You sidle close to him, peering at his Spotify while he scrolls for the correct song.
âYou should show me your Spotify account!â
âGod no, youâll never see it. Câmon, we need to get this over with.â
âWhaaaat? You donât want to hang out and stall practicing with me?â
Heâs gotten warmer since your first meeting, lips quirked up as he drops his phone and crosses his lazy arms, ânope.â
âFine! We can practice, and maybe later, I can steal your phone for your Spotify.â
âYeah, yeah,â his voice dips a bit lower, âcâmere.â
Something inside of you ignites, but you force yourself to ignore it while wrapping your arms around his shoulders; he slumps a bit to accommodate you, making the fire even hotter. You melt like butter into him. The two of you fit perfectly. You could feel it.
The melody is something from an old movie, gentle and sweet with a romantic vibe. Itâs causing tension between you and Shigaraki.
Itâs making you want to kiss him.
âYou stepped on my foot,â he whispers while twirling you in a half-circle.
Squeaking a quiet apology, he rolls his eyes and dips you a tad, âyou seem distracted.â
You can hardly hear him over âEasy Loversâ playing in the background. Itâs consuming you whole like you might not ever breathe again.
âDo I?â
âMaybe I just donât know you that well enough,â and you twirl again.
Itâs just practicing for class, for a dumb class that wouldnât even matter in four years. But you didnât think of anything at that moment, just that you were pressing soft lips against chapped ones with a feeling of passion behind it. Even if he lacked lip balm, the sensation of him gripping your shirt made everything seem so much hotter. Sweeter.
He even has the gall to swipe his tongue over your lip like heâs the one who took the leap and kissed you first. You know that Shigaraki was too shy to kiss you first.Â
â...â
Itâs dead silent, his Spotify queue echoing automatically and filling the room with music you donât think youâve ever heard. Shigaraki nearly shivers at the confused gleam in your eyes.
âItâs called shoegaze.â
âShoegaze?â
âYeah,â and heâs barely finishing the word before taking your cheek in hand and bringing you back to him.
Your breath hitches and you want to get so close the two of you nearly fuse together. Dainty hands tangled in his hair, all raggedy and muted like his skin or clothes. Something about how his bony fingers dig into the curve of your waist keeps your head spinning, and you donât even realize he owns you by pressing you against the wall and licking the inside of your mouth.
âSh-aah.â
The moan wasnât too loud, but it echoed in his head. Shigaraki has never been the type to be so openly carnal and animalistic, and yet it was coming out with every kiss he dotted on the skin of your neck. He could fuck you here if he was so pleased, and briefly, he worried when he felt his cock stir in his pants.
You bring him back to you, grasping like a lifeline and laving over the slickness of his mouth and how he was strong enough to carry you just off the ground. It was stupidly hot; when did he get all this power? Itâs like it overtook him, and the two of you part; neither of you wanted to.
âWe need to stop.â
âBut canât weââ
âNo. Not here,â he mulls over his following words with an annoyed look, âand I donât have a condom.â
You nearly burst out laughing in his face, dry heaving and keeling over. But itâll upset him, and thatâs the last thing you want. âOh, well, Iâm on birth control?â
âStop.â
He seems firm in his decision, but you canât help but wiggle your hips toward him enticingly. Maybe heâll cave, let you give him a handjob or something. I mean, thatâs not that bad, right?
âPlease?â
Shigaraki would usually feel irritation rise quickly and overwhelm him, but his eyes flicker down to your wandering hands and wiggling hips. Well, he was serious about not wanting to fuck here, butâŚ
âIâm only doing this so youâll be quiet!â
He sinks to his knees. You salivate at sight, brimming with joy and confidence. His thumbs hook in your belt loops, and he tenderly runs his hands over your thighs, âgrab onto the ballet bar.â
You donât think youâll collapse to your knees, but youâre shaking in anticipation because he looks like he knows what heâs doing. The way he swiftly tugs your leggings and panties down in one go, you can feel your arousal smearing your thighs; you were already horny just from kissing him.
Finally, he looks relaxed, parting your puffy lips and admiring your dripping hole.
âItâs cute.â
âShut up,â youâre breathless already with how you can feel his breath right where you need him.
Then, heâs licking from your clenching hole to the nub of your clit, the glide slick with spit as he gets to work.
âShigaraki!â
You nearly scream, legs angling in too close, but his surprisingly firm grip keeps you how he wants you. Your hands wrench around the ballet bar as he licks every fold so he can taste as much of you as possible.Â
Itâs wonderful, and you know now that he does in fact, know what heâs doing, especially with how his nose and cheeks are beginning to shine with arousal. Heâs eating you like a man starved like he canât get enough from fucking you on his tongue; he needs more and more. He licks into your hole, savoring every drop with a clench on your ass thatâll leave bruises for days.
He sucks your clit between his lips before pulling away with a pop, âyouâre such a fucking brat.â
âI know, I know, and Iâm sorry! Just keep,â and you tilt your hips towards his shiny lips again, âplease? Feels so goodâŚ.â
Itâs rewarding how he flattens his tongue to grind up your slit, devouring you like he had too much time to practice. The way he toys with your pussy; makes your legs shake and your back arch off the mirror displaying your debauchedness.
Shigaraki mumbles something, but youâre too busy tilting your hips into his face and making him nearly unable to breathe as you tremble on his tongue. He tonguefucks you, digging deep with obscene slurping noises echoing around you, âoh, fuuuuck.â
Your hands entangle in his white strands, grounding you while you speed towards your orgasm like a rocket setting into space. Shigaraki seems to sense your quickened breaths and gyrating hips; his hands grip your ass cheeks to pull you closer as he makes you creamy. He holds you in place, forcing you to feel his tongue grinding flat circles over your clit before dipping down to lap over your pussy. He acts as if itâs a dessert. Like itâs a real treat to eat you out.
He pulls away, mildly huffing out of breath, âstop moving.â
Soft pecks are placed on your inner thighs as he lets you grow needier and needier through pussy neglect, âShigaraki, please.â
âPlease, what? Youâre so selfish,â and he gives a hard suck to your clit, âI should just leave you here.â
 âNo! No, donât!âÂ
His rough treatment of you makes you jump, but he doesnât leave you like he threatened. Instead, he kissed the mound of soft curls in the apex of your thighs, nose curving down the slope of your thigh as his breath barely ghosted over your slick lips.
âI want you to be the one that makes me feel good,â maybe if you lay it on thick, heâll be forced to listen to you!
Instead, all he rewards you with is an unreadable look, but then heâs diving back in between your legs, and you canât focus on what that look means because Shigaraki will make you cum.
âYes, yes! Keep going, hah⌠your tongueâs so deep!â
The wet sounds make you flush, and his intensity makes you jump to your tip-toes and tilt away from the warm, wet mouth that chases you no matter how you tilt your hips.
Your legs are shaking, threatening to close, and the stretched coil snap could happen anytime youâre barely saying, âfeel like Iâm gonna, gonna c-ungh. Gonna cumâŚ!â
He keeps going. Determined and sloppy with how heâs not even taking a second to breathe. Youâre nearly there, humping his face with moans of his name that turn his ears pink. A hand snakes up your leg, and thereâs a wet squelch as he easily slips two fingers inside. The stretch is delicious torture, and you cum while crying out.
âShigaraki!â
His fingers help you ride out your orgasm, the remnants glistening on his fingers as your cream sticks to them lewdly before he sucks the essence off. He stands once youâve regained yourself.Â
âPretty good,â and he gives his hand one last lick; he canât even stop the snark from appearing.
âShut up! Youâre so embarrassing.â
âYeah, yeah, didnât I just make you cum? All whiny, âah, ah! Shigaraki mmph!â right?â
âNo! Not even right at all,â and he casually leans over you with his hands on the ballet bar as if you two were dating as if he was actually your boyfriend, â...but thank you.â
âThank you?â
âWell, well, I mean! Thank you for⌠indulging me.â
You had trailed off, not even realizing how close he was to your ear until he whispered a gravelly, âyouâre so very welcome for making you cum, if thatâs what you mean.â
Neither of you speaks. You canât help but look down and notice the bulge in his pants. He seems unbothered, but leaving him high and dry feels unfair.
âDo you want me toâŚ?â
He gives a quick glance down but shakes his head, âNah. We should just wrap all of this up, though.âÂ
âRight,â and yet you donât stop thinking about it while both of you make the practice room look neat again.
Even while walking you back home, his second time, Shigaraki knows that thereâs something secretive on your mind.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
âNothing! Just tired.â
â...Right.â
He stares at you for too long before you head into your dorm. You know whatâs coming but donât make the first move. Heâs quick about it, but he does kiss you. Itâs so fast, sweet, and low stakes that you smile warmly at him.
âGoodnight, Shigaraki.â
The boy nods, pulling up his hoodie, ânight.â
You canât wait to tell Nejire all about it.
âYou what?! You had sex with Shigaraki?!â
Nejireâs in disbelief, nearly falling off her bed as she bolts towards your side of the room, âyou really did?â
âOther people can probably hear you! But, well, yeah. It wasnât like we went all the way or anything! He just went down on me,â the pink in your cheeks is evident while you begin to unravel the story.
âWait, where was this again?â
âOh. The, well, the practice room?â
âThe practice room?!.â
She suddenly bursts into laughter, and you feel your cheeks twitching as you squeeze her hands, âcâmon, itâs not funny!â
âNo, no, itâs not. I didnât think Shigaraki would eat pussy in the practice room!â
Sometimes you regret telling your roommate anything, but it took the edge off thinking about how he hadnât texted you. Should you expect a text? You figured it would be something lighthearted, but he just went radio-silent. Just like that, it hurt, you had to admit. But, you werenât gonna let him get away with it. Youâll get your payback soon, finally get him to realize what heâs really feeling.
You hope itâs the same as what youâre really feeling.
Then, the day of your presentation is like the sunrise. Knowing everyone would be watching you didnât ease your nerves. Considering Shigaraki had been ignoring your texts since the last time you met, it felt like he was contributing to your anxiety just as much as the actual dance! You could hardly get dressed, shrugging on your comfiest yet presentable clothes.Â
Maybe he thought it was a mistake, and your fingers were itching to send a text. Nejire had advised you to send something short and sweet before leaving for the day, and you finally cave while brushing your teeth.
[Dance Partner]: Do you want to meet up before class?
Shigaraki lay in bed, still in pajamas and debating whether to drop out. His heartbeat spikes at the message, and it feels so dumb to get excited over a mere text. Heâd been practicing, unbeknownst to you, spending so much time in the bathroom with the door locked to practice his footwork that heâd gotten an angry text from his roommate.
[Shigaraki]: I think itâs fine
Part of you wonders if heâll show up at all.
[Dance Partner]: Iâm nervous.
He doesnât reply, but he feels the same. Eventually, he meandered his way to his closet to pick his outfit. Yeah, he was nervous too.Â
You spot him first, and part of you wants to wave him over but he seems to hardly look up. This was all fruitless. You shouldâve never done anything in that practice room. Tears prickle your vision at the sudden emotion of it, a test, and knowing a guy wants nothing to do with you? It sucks much more than you thought it would.
âHey.â
Heâs calm, voice smooth and honeyed as he sits next to you. Hopefully, he doesnât notice your glassy eyes.
âHey.â
The silence passes between you as more people file in, and Nemuri sets up the class materials.Â
âI donât think you should be nervous,â he pauses to side-eye you, âIâve been practicing.â
âYou have?â
âYeah. I donât want to give you a bad grade, and I need to pass.â
He put you first, and maybe itâs dumb to analyze his order of priorities, but it makes you feel special, âI think weâll do well.â
You finally turn to look at him, and heâs already looking at you.
âStop acting weird.â
âI-Iâm not! Iâm just nervous!â
âYeah, right,â and a gentle hand settles on your knee, âI know what youâre thinking. About the practice room.â
âYouâre the one that didnât text me back.â
He doesnât reply right away, but you know he feels terrible. The way he swallows and clenches his free fist, the regret is a bit palpable.
â...I know, and Iâm sorry.â
He squeezes your knee for emphasis, âgenuinely.â
You suppose itâs okay, mumbling that you forgive him and relishing in the burn that his hand leaves on your leg. Nejire clears her throat, and you listen to her instructions. His hand doesnât leave your knee.
She calls your names about halfway into class, and suddenly the lights seem too bright once youâre on stage. You can feel your leg shaking as you stand interlocked with Shigaraki. He looks calm and collected. If anything, he seems to be more worried about you.Â
Indeed he can feel your anxiety shakes, and then his thumb rubs the space between your collarbones. It suddenly feels like everything will be alright.
âAre you two ready?â
You squeak out a âyes!â and Shigaraki merely nods; the music follows, and you retreat into your mind to remember every step.
âDonât be nervous,â he whispers softly, and you feel like you could do anything.
The two of you dance to the same song in the practice room while you swim across the floor with grace, the type of grace thatâs only there because you have a connection. It comes effortlessly, Shigaraki leading with you following as he steadily guides you by your waist.Â
You remember to make eye contact, and your breath is stolen because your biggest fears have been confirmed. You like Shigaraki. You want him carnally. More than anything in the world, you move like two souls on the same plane. Everything about it is perfect.
He stops the momentum, your upper half steadily supported by a hand that shows so much tenderness between your shoulder blades. The two of you were breathing softly, near exhaustion with the way your bodies swirled together into one.
âExcellent! Very nice. Any critiques?â
The spell is broken, and youâre collecting your breath while smoothing your clothes. Whew, that was something. Your eyes track toward Shigarakiâs, and heâs looking at you again.
âI thought you guys looked very clean,â said a meek girl desperate to escape the roomâs silence.
You offer a âthanksâ and note the critique of better posture, among other surface criticism. Nemuri writes on her clipboard, smiling and nodding, âexcellent, thank you, you two.â
âI have to go, excuse me.â
He leaves you alone on the stage to race up the stairs to collect his backpack. Youâre knocked out of a trance and thrown into deep waters, and Nemuri begins to call the next names.
âHiroshi, is your partner not here? Oh, and,â she turns back to you, âyou can take a seat now.â
You do.
Itâs time to settle this, Shigaraki decides. Thereâs a three-day break coming up, and his mind has been looping back to it every passing class. He couldnât keep running away from you anymore after you were assigned different partners for the next dance. If he doesnât act, heâll completely lose you.
And for the record, Nemuri was a liar. Could she not see the connection between you two? Even he could see it, and he wished he couldnât.
It felt like you were slipping away, partnered with someone else, and Shigaraki had been conversing with you sparsely. It was torture, Hell on Earth if he had to imagine it. Youâre getting lost in the waves, and heâs losing his grip.
Meanwhile, youâve been getting on top of your classwork and contacting your new dance partner, Eijirou. It doesnât feel the same of course, not when you can feel Shigarakiâs eyes on you every time youâre in the arms of the redhead.
You donât expect anything from him anymore; you pretend not to. The ding sounds from your phone, and you just know.
[Shigaraki]: hey
It makes your heart race, and you can feel your pulse thrumming in your neck.
[Her]: Hey
[Shigaraki]: wyd
[Her]: Iâm not doing this
[Shigaraki]: come over
[Her]: No
[Shigaraki]: i wanna see you
You want to slap yourself. Tell him thereâs no way you can deal with his hot and cold nature. That even if you like him, heâs not good for you. You canât, shouldnât, wouldnât, wonât.
[Her]: Come to my dorm and walk with me, itâs too dark and cold
[Shigaraki]: omw
Waiting feels painful. You spend a minute making sure you are moisturized and smelling good, and then eventually, heâs at the sliding door of the dorm. Youâre wearing a simple long-sleeve, and youâre keen to pick up on the fact that he really brought you a coat.
âHey,â you smile and eagerly embrace him the tiniest bit.
âHey, take it. âM tired of holding it,â and your hands are brushing when you take the black hoodie to slip over your head.
The walk is quiet, and you can feel anticipation climbing up your spine as the two of you grow closer and closer. The cold is nonexistent, not with the warmth you feel because of the boy beside you.
âIs your roommate home?â
He shakes his head, hand steady as he slips the key into the lock and brings you into his space. The lights flicker on, and youâre smiling at his side of the room. Dark, a bit punk, and heâs totally unashamed of it. He drops the keys in the bowl, turning his head first before fully facing you.
âSoââ
Youâre rushing to jump into his arms, connecting your lips effortlessly in a kiss that soothes all aches youâd ever had about him. You knew he would catch you, and you fit like the sun and moon. The connection makes you heave into the kisses, leaning into the slickness of saliva coating your lips while he pushes you against the nearest wall.Â
It feels like dancing, the way your tongues slide against each other with a fierceness while he shrugs off his jacket. Youâre already wet, impossibly wet, and the mewls come out despite you trying to swallow them. The need for him is so strong youâre dropping your legs to move things along.
âYouâre so fucking hot,â pressing his forehead against yours, âholy shit.â
âYou wanna see more?â
Peeling off the sweatshirt to catch your curves worn under the fitted long-sleeve. His hand circles your lower back, eyes locked onto how your tits nearly spill out of its v-neck. Theyâre so easy to hold; his hand is already sliding up your side to the underside of your breasts.Â
âCan I?â
âOf course,â you whisper while tugging his hand to squeeze your tits, sighing at the contact.
âNo bra?â
âWhat, you, ah! You want it to get in the way?â
âGod, no,â His other hand meets your other tit, fully groping you, and his eyes nearly crimson with need.
His hardness is apparent, the bulge nudging against your thigh while his knee applies delicious pressure to your aching clit; you canât stop your hips from grinding up against his leg.
âKiss me,â and heâs quick to shut you up, hands raking under your shirt to feel skin on skin.
âShigaraki!â
He could listen to you say that all day, but he canât stand how the two of you are still so tightly clothed. Your shirt comes up, and youâre quick to immediately tug it off and grind on his leg again. Itâs sticky, hot, and heady as the two of you dry-hump against the only space on the wall.Â
âWait, we shouldâŚwe should move to the bed,â and he doesnât seem to hear you with how he lurches forward to lick into your mouth, âSh-Shigaraki.â
The kisses only stop for a moment, but then heâs pushing away from the wall and guiding you by the hands to the bed. He slips off his sweatpants, leaving his boxers on, and you mirror him. It almost feels too intimate when he stares at you once settled on top of you, and you canât take it.
His hand circles your nipple slowly, making you arch at the feeling of him toying with your chest, âmm!â
Resting on his left hand, you watch as the bony hand travels downwards, swooping under your tit to glide past your belly button and reach the black band of your panties, âmay I?â
Youâve never been so turned on, and youâre sure itâll be smeared all over your thighs by the end of this tryst. Lifting your hips, he tosses the panties onto the floor, and your face burns with how your wetness immediately soaks his fingers when he runs them through your slit.
âYouâre so wet, youâre that needy?â
âI just need you to touch meâŚ!â
He gives a low hum, digits circling your clit so slowly that your legs jump closed, âkeep them open.â
Youâre getting desperate, eager to feel him slip his fingers inside and crook them up, but heâs so calm and attentive. Taking his time, he looks at every inch of your pussy with fire in his eyes. Youâre dripping, and the slick sounds when he just barely slips his middle finger into your hole nearly echo.
Finally, he indulges you by slipping it in deep and rubbing your clit with his thumb. You can hardly breathe, toes curling as you hold his wrist to keep fingering you, âfuck, feels so good!â
He can only chuckle, curling his fingers and hitting that gooey spongy spot that arches your back and leaves muffled cries spilling through your fingers. It feels so good, too good, and youâre soaring as he finally starts to thrust his hand.
âCome on, let me hear what you have to say. Do you like it? Do you want more?â
âI wan, I wantâŚ!â
He forces his hand, adjusting to a steady rhythm that you can practically hear yourself getting close from the stimulation of being finger-fucked. Looking down at you, heâs keyed into every movement. Every noise and body twitch. Itâs like heâs been possessed to make you cum, and youâre nearly there.
âGonna cum, fuck, Iâm gonna cum,â you grappled for your tit like a lifeline, and it was like a show with how he watched you tug at your chest.
Itâs so desperate, and it feels perfect to finally be connected and feel the heat of his breath while he makes you cream on his hand. Youâre at his mercy, and he knows it, âgo on and cum. Wanna fuck you.â
You nearly black out, the tension snapping like a rubber band as you gyrate your hips. Itâs debauched, but you hardly care when Shigaraki rubs a tight circle on your clit, âheh.â
âYouâre,â youâre still panting, and he grins.
âIâm what?â
Heâs shrugging his boxers off while you recover, and your clit throbs once he exposes his cock, lean and long like his fingers.Â
âNothing!â
âCat got your tongue?â
You circle closer to him, watching eagerly as he slips the condom on with ease. Your mouthâs watering and you want to go down on him badly, but he has other plans.Â
âWanna do doggy?â
âYeah,â and itâs the hottest sight heâs ever seen when you bend over, exposing your clenching hole waiting to be filled. Your ass is up in the air, and you look perfectly spread out for him.Â
The slap on your ass makes you jump, but Shigaraki seems happy with the way he kneads the fat of your ass. His cock bumps into your pussy as he maneuvers himself, and the slickness of it sliding between your folds and bumping your clit makes you shake.
âGod, I could fuckinâ tease you forever,â and he grips the base of his cock with a groan, âI donât know why I waited so long.â
âI know! Why donât youââ
He slides home, heâs not too girthy, but the length makes your arms shake while supporting your body, âoh god.â
âYeah, fuckkk, yeah.â
Itâs a slow rhythm, clearly reveling in the wet warmth and tightness of your hole; heâs got a death grip on your hip as he shallowly thrusts into you, âamazing pussy.â
You can only moan a âthanksâ as he moves a bit more, cockhead dragging against your walls and then filling you back up till you feel like you canât breathe. The bed creaks, and he starts pounding you so hard it cries. Jolting you forward, you canât even lean away from how he plows himself into you, balls slapping against your clit, giving you aftershocks.
Itâs messy, and heâs barely holding his rhythm because youâre squeezing around him so tight and he feels like he might shoot his load any second. He slows down for a mere second to rub your clit, lean body resting on yours as he moves his hips in tandem with yours.
Heâs panting and is too stuck on your eyes rolling back to notice heâs inching closer and closer to his orgasm. The coil is hot in his tummy as he ravages you and makes you take all of him. The connection drives you wild, and soon youâre pushed face-first into the pillows as he fucks you like a fleshlight.Â
âFuck, fuck, oh my god,â and he fucking whimpers inside of you.
It sends your head spinning as he reaches his peak, a hand slapping your ass as the two of you move together. Your ass smacks against his lower abs, and the slick that coats the top of the hair around his base makes him heave, âIâm gonna cum. Fuck, gonna milk this sweet pussy.â
You barely crane your head to catch a view, and he looks heavenly, and his eyes draw shut. Heâs barely even thrusting, just mashing into you deeper and harder. He opens his eyes, and the red in them turns nearly burgundy as he grunts.
âShiga-ShigarakiâŚ!â
One, two, and then heâs pinning you down with his body weight as his hips jerk up into you. You know heâs wearing a condom, but part of you wants to imagine the heat filling your insides and breeding you. The thought of it makes you squeeze around him, and his fingers leave bruises on tender parts of your flesh.
It takes a minute for your breath to calm. The feeling of satiation with Shigaraki still buried to the hilt in you feels so comforting that you could fall asleep. Youâre barely there, thoroughly fucked and floating in space. He has enough strength to interlock your hands on top of you, and the two of you bask in the post-coital glow.
âYou gonna get off me any time soon?â
He offers a steady deep breath before replying.
âNope. Itâs my reward for looking after you at that party.â
âReally? Youâre still on that?â
Sidelining you again, you remember why he frustrates you so much once again. But it doesnât hurt this time; it just feels good.
âGo on a date with me.â
âYou canât just change the subject like that!â
âThen go on a date with me, and I wonât have to.â
Your mouth flattens into a straight line, âyouâre lame.â
Small kisses dot the curve of your neck as he finally pulls himself out of you. You leave in a flash to use the bathroom and return to the covers being pulled up just for you.
The two of you settle on meeting up next Monday.
[Shigaraki]: See you at the ice skating rink
You never knew Shigaraki would be one to skate between you two? He didnât, either. He supposed you just bring out that side of him.
The side that likes dancing, ice skating, and you.
This poor man đĽş
oh but can you do good things shigaraki addition??? plez
pairing: yandere!Shigaraki Tomura x darling!reader goodiebag WARNINGS: yandere, angst
tip-jar: Kofi
Not in the pretty love bites and itty bitty bruise or two or ten he gives you, but really hurting you.
He might end up giving you some more proper damage every now and again when you fight back or make him hunt you down after escaping, but he doesnât really enjoy inflicting that sort of pain on you at all.
The thought of actually hurting you haunts him.
Heâll dream about it. Wake up shaking and in tears, wide-eyed and hyperventilating, unable to speak, and itchy like never before. And heâll be afraid to look, the chills strangling him as he slowly turns to his head to where you ought to be lying. Dreading, with every knot in his gut tightening, the bed is full of dust.
But there you are. Pretty face still pretty on the pillow, adorable soft snores escaping you with a little spill of drool running down the corner of your mouth. And he breaks out into a cold sweat of relief, finally allowed to breathe again.Â
Though guilt still haunts him where he lies awake thinking about maybe, just maybe⌠letting you go.
tip-jar: Kofi
Thanks!you anwser so fast too like damn!â¨â
Hiii i just discover your account it's so cool ! What about shigaraki with a darling that litteraly worship him ? đ§
Have a nice day/nightâ¨đ
TOMURA/READER WHO WORSHIPS HIM HC!
A/N: gulps nervously in my tomura collection worth $1k+.. what..worship this guy? hah, never heard of it
(cough sidenote: utahime/urame whatever her name is and sukuna or xielian and huacheng...)
WARNINGS: nsfw under the cut! ooc tomura?, subby-ish tomura
oh my god this boy is sweating, confused, scared, angry.
he's sweating because he's shocked and nervous! how would he even react to someone holding him in their arms and whispering praises into his ear?
he's confused, where did this come from? why does he deserve this? are you serious or are you being sarcastic?
he's scared because there's an odd feeling in his chest that hurts yet feels so good, it outweighs the feeling of hatred that burns so deep within him.
he's angry because he thinks your a spy or is playing a cruel joke on him, that one day this will all just stop or your just using him to your own gain.
you have to try and try for weeks on end to show that your not going anywhere and that you genuinely worship him for who he is.
once he settles in and realizes your treating him like some sort of god, or how people idolize and admire stain/all might with genuine love in your heart he short circuits for awhile.
he lays in your arms quietly as he feels you kiss around his body and tell him that he did such a good job, how handsome he is, how much you love him, how much you care and how much all you wanna do to him is..take care of him.
he'll try and push you off and say something along the lines of 'you're being annoying/stupid, cut it out' or he'll say something cocky, 'you really see me as a god or something, huh? that sounds about right for a king like me.'
once it genuinely sinks into all of him that your being real and not playing with him, it all goes to his head and his dick he becomes more cocky but whenever a plan fails he falls so much harder than he would've if you weren't around.
he loves your kisses and will sulk if you don't give him atleast 5 per 10 minutes like you usually do.
cup his face and shower him with kisses, praise, tell him how handsome he is as your cuteness aggression kicks in and you squeeze his cheeks like they're your life line.
head? blank. mind? off.
even though he becomes more cocky/egotistical, he still short circuits and shuts down for a moment because..what?
he doesn't know what he did to deserve you (besides being a gross ugly gamer boy who should go eat a cup noodle) but he definitely thinks it's because all his hardwork and dedication to master got you by his side.
please be patient with him, if he ever sees you upset with him he might actually go insane.
he loves getting a handjob from you while he suckles on your chest and you whisper sweet things,
he cums so fast when you hug him from behind, one hand stroking his cock and the other playing with his nipples and stroking his chest while you whisper praise into his ear and leave hickeys on his scarred neck or shoulders.
when you praise him, sometimes it just immediately gets him erect, even if you didn't say anything inherently sexual.
he will watch with eyes blown wide or barely open (depends on how long you've been going) as you suck his cock and treat him with utmost care.
yes he is a pillow prince.
he loves it when you treat him like a valuable jewel that could shatter at the slightest touch, your gentle squeezes, your slow and tender kisses, your praise, it all swirls in his head and makes him cum, even if it's just foreplay.
he loves the aftercare, when he's laying down on his stomach and a pillow on his chest as you carefully use wipes to clean his cock, makes him hard all over again.
the aftercare where you shower with him? now he's not sure, he'll say he can bathe himself yet the soft moans he lets out whenever you lather soap on his body or dig your fingers into his hair says he would rather have you bathe him.
cuddles, cuddles please. he needs that.
atleast an hour or 30 minutes of you cuddling him, petting him and telling him how good he did for you, he will sulk if he doesn't get this.
when he's the one mostly in control he's so rough and mean, well..as rough as a lanky twink can get.
he loves watching you cry for him or having you tell him how good you feel, goes straight to his cock.
tell him to go harder, faster, deeper or tell him you're about to cum quick, he loves it, he loves it all.
when your giving him oral, he will just straight up hump/facefuck you, he loves the adoring look in your eyes, it makes him so hard.
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Omg yes same ! đđ
my favorites can easily be put into a pattern
âł tomura shigaraki x female! reader
â°â⤠word count; 1423
â°â⤠drabble; dubious consent, season one shigaraki (not buff lol), cervix fucking, rough sex, dacryphilia kink, creampie, unprotected sex, manhandling, yn has an immune quirk.
shigaraki has your hands pressed to the small of your back.
where your skin is warm, his is so cold.
his quirk does not turn you to dust. no! you are different from all the others. you are special.
maybe too special for your own good because that is the reason you wound up here.
he is panting, sweat lined along his hairline. you are crying so much but he cannot help that it only makes him fuck you harder.
he does not have one bit of restraint.
he does not like that you seem so miserable, he swears he is doing this out of love. he wants to make you feel good. really! he just gets a little rough.
he just gets so caught up in how tight your cunt is, how wet you are, how your gooey walls clamp down on him.
he pounds into your leaking slit until he is bruising you. he does not prep you despite the agonising stretch he subjects your pussy to.
shigaraki is sorry, truly he is!
he hunches over you, his bony chest meeting your back. his balls are squished between your bodies as he presses on the small of your back and ruts into you. it is borderline painful.
he puffs heated breaths, "don't cry s'much." he slurs. he leans down to cover your swollen lips in a messy kiss. he licks into your drool filled mouth, silencing your sobs and a few kisses are all it takes to have you fawning for him again.
you take any and every thing that he is willing to give you.
"don't like it like this." you whine when he pulls away, the strand of saliva sticking to your chin as you mush your face to the sheets.
you say that yet you are pushing your ass back on him. you say that but your cunt is tightly gripping his cock like you need it to survive.
he sneers, nails digging into your flesh, the jagged edges nicking the skin. his cock slips out halfway, covered in slick, so much that it drips between your thighs.
everything is sticky and your eyes squeeze at the feeling. he shoves back in roughly making you jolt.
"but your pussy likes it. your little cunt likes being filled with cock, she's soaking for it." your fingers flex under his hold, you can feel his eyes burning into you, can feel his body against your skin, you wish you could hide.
you cannot at all, not when he is pressing down on your back and has you at his whim. has you in a position where he can fuck you as hard and fast as he wants.
"i want to see your face." you brokenly speak, his spit slick tongue comes out to lave over your cheek, licking up your tears as he pounds his cock into you.
"you are so fucking spoilt." shigaraki's gravelly voice fills you ear, his free hand slips under you, rolling your stilted bundle of nerves.
the pert of his nipples grazes on your back with every sharp movement that has his cock prodding at your cervix. has it dipping deep in your slurping cunt and stretching your hole until it fits perfectly around him.
"fuckkk." he drawls, your body is so soft, so comfortable. you whine, your ass pushing more into him, your body moving with his thrusts. he is putting all his weight onto you, forcing you into the bed completely.
his hand squeezing your neck so tightly you gasp. his jaw hangs, spit trailing down the side of his mouth as his eyes roll back. he is not focused on you, he is focused on how good your slick cunt feels.
how your insides seem to suck him in and grip his cock. it feels like you are milking him dry, like you are squeezing his release out of him and into your pussy.
shigaraki's movements grow sloppy, his strokes are no longer full. his body shakes, humping you shallowly but somehow it hits every spot inside of you.
he is fucking into you with desperation, loud paps and squelches fill the room as your cunt tugs him in.
the swollen walls of your warm insides make it difficult for him to function. he feels like he is short circuiting.
"shouldn't feel this good!" he whimpers. you turn him into a mindless freak who only cares about sticking his cock in your warm, soaking hole.
he hates that you have that power over him.
your ass feels bruised at this point, his pelvic bones colliding with your skin so often you wince.
he is forceful and uncaring, vigorously fucking you with everything in him and his hips stutter before he is releasing heavy drops of his load into you.
you grit your teeth, not able to move with how he forces you down onto the sheets. his hips rock, head leaning back and his lips parted.
it is so hot and thick, it feels like your stomach is bulging from the amount. he is still humping you whilst his cock spurts streams of his load along your walls.
the milky cream coating your cunt and leaking its way into your puckered cervix. he collapses onto your back, your clit rubbed raw although you have not came once.
shigaraki pants, still grinding into the swell of your ass to fuck his seed back into you. the excess spews past the perimeter of his length, making your cunt messier.
he covers you, using all of his weight to keep you pinned to the mattress and only focused on him.
despite your squirming, he is unmoved.
"stop your fucking whining." he pinches your nipple. "your pussy feels good." he says it like it is the most renowned compliment in the world. like it does not reduce you to one thing alone. he nuzzles your cheek like he was not awful just a moment before.
you eyes are still teary, "nothing else?" you mumble. he shakes his head but it is only to get you angry. to see your lips tremble and tears fill your eyes. to see how hard you try not to cry but fail.
he knows you want to move but you cannot in this position.
not when he has you trapped beneath him, your cunt filled to the brim with his cock and his cum.
"get off!" shigaraki does not like when you talk to him like that. his teeth nip at your throat.
"be nice to me." he rasps. you want to but when has he ever been nice to you?
you can still feel his cum dripping inside you while his heavy body is flushed to you. you can barely breathe when he has you secured under him by lean muscle.
you are not sure how long he keeps you in the puddle of his semen before he pulls out.
his cock bobs between your legs as he sits up, you are wincing at the feeling. the slick mess of his cum leaks out of you.
you feel dirty.
he does not bother asking, his rough fingers tug you to face him but you slump further into the sheets.
you hear him huff at your resistance and then he is forcing you unto your back.
he hovers over you, thick strands of hair hanging down and framing his features.
"i thought you wanted to see my face." you did. you wanted to more than anything else. in a way you like to pretend that he is yours as much as he says you are his.
your eyes trail over his pretty red eyes and his blushed skin. his swollen lips and his sunken cheeks. you want him closer.
he should be the last person you find comforting but you cannot help that you do.
your hand strokes his aching cock, thumb massaging the prominent vein on the underside.
he lurches forward his stiffening erection meeting your slit. you mutely cry as he shoves it inside all at once.
he groans lowly, rocking his hips before his lips meet yours. he sloppily kisses you as he fucks his cum back inside of your cunt.
your hands greedily find purchase in his skin, trying to convince yourself that you mean something to him.
he takes and takes with no consideration. perhaps this is your purpose. to give without a care.
to give shigaraki every bit of you.
it only made sense for someone with a quirk like yours.
i rly rly want to write a daddy kink drabble/fic đŁ
Goodbye Tomura. Goodbye MHA
To Mourn
ShigirakiâŚ..
This may be an underwhelming one. But Iâm pretty satisfied with my final Mha piece. Just like the story itself⌠it was fun.
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Request - Hiya! Can you write yandere! Shiggy with a s/o that loves him, has a healing quirk and she really cares about him? Even though in the past heâs been creepy and violent fluffy please :))) Its nice to see more people writing for Tomura cuz heâs very cute.
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Genre - Yandere | Angst | Dark
Warnings - Stockholm Syndrome / Reader excusing absuive behaviours towards themself / Abuse / Strong language / Yandere / Shiggy being mean and abusive / toxic relationship / mention of heavy mood swings / dark themes / manipulation
Summary - Shigaraki has finally broken you and now living without him seems like your idea of hell.
Authors Notes - I agree, Shiggy is cute! I wanna give him a cuddle tbh! I made the reader in this kinda obsessed with him đł Hope you like it!
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Your best friend vanished on the same night his family was murdered, and even though the world forgot about him, you never did. When a chance encounter brings you back into contact with Shimura Tenko, you'll do anything to make sure you don't lose him again. Keep his secrets? Sure. Aid the League of Villains? Of course. Sacrifice everything? You would - but as the battle between the League of Villains and hero society unfolds, it becomes clear that everything is far more than you or anyone else imagined it would be. (cross-posted to Ao3)
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Chapter 9
âMitsu, come on. Mitsu, donât.â You tighten your grip on her arm and pull harder, even though sheâs drunk in six-inch heels and could topple over if the wind blows the wrong way. âItâs not worth it ââ
âYou hear that, you piece of shit? Itâs not worth it.â Mitsukoâs imitation of your de-escalation tone isnât as good as Tenkoâs, but it sounds pretty bad when sheâs using it to jeer at a couple of sidekicks. âJust like you and your fucking friends decided that my best friendâs life wasnât worth it ââ
âMitsu ââ
âWhen you left her under an apartment building one of you knocked down for six fucking hours!â
âWe werenât even there,â one of the sidekicks shouts at her, and Mitsuko spits at him. âUgh! You crazy bitch ââ
You suck in a breath, and so does everybody else. This fight has drawn a crowd, and you see at least one phone out, one camera on. Someoneâs just caught a hero on camera cursing out a grieving civilian. You see the hero blanch. He turns towards Mitsuko. âI didnât mean ââ
âNo, you said what you meant. Youâre all the same,â Mitsuko sneers. âSo big and bad, except when it counts. Fuck you.â
Mitsuko has a flair for the dramatic, even when sheâs so drunk she canât see straight. She turns to you. âCome on. Get me out of here before I puke on my shoes.â
You hustle her off down the sidewalk, leaving the crowd and the heroes behind, cursing yourself for letting this happen. It was your job to keep an eye on Mitsuko tonight, to keep her out of trouble, and now sheâs on camera starting shit with a hero. Now that you think about it, so are you. Nobodyâs going to remember you, not when Mitsukoâs there, gorgeous even with supposedly waterproof mascara running down her face, but itâs not a good thing. There are probably a grand total of eight people who think itâs a good thing, and youâre on first name (or code-name) terms with all of them.
Mitsuko comes to a stop, doubles over â then straightens up. âI need to pee,â she says. âLetâs go to Kamino. I want to pee on that statue.â
âKaminoâs a long way away. You sure you want to hold it that long?â
âRight. I should find a place to pee now,â Mitsuko says. âThen by the time we get to Kamino, Iâll have to pee again.â
Thereâs no way youâre letting Mitsuko get filmed peeing on a statue of All Might, no matter how much of a kick your new friends would get out of it. You take a deep breath and pull out the big guns. âIs this really how you want to honor Hiro? You know watersports werenât her thing.â
Mitsuko snorts, then grimaces. Stomach acid in the sinuses will do that. âThereâs only one way to honor Hiro,â you continue, âand you know what it is.â
âWhat is it?â
âBone Endeavor, film it, and use the tape to ruin his life.â
Mitsuko bursts out laughing. Then crying. Youâve been seeing that a lot lately, anywhere and everywhere â on friends, patients, strangers, and more often than not, on your own face in the mirror.
Japan is reeling from the Kamino incident. Youâre not watching world news, but youâre pretty sure the world is doing the same â itâs not every day that a countryâs Number One hero goes down on national television. The wreckage of Kamino Ward has already been resurfaced, some of the remaining buildings reinforced but the rest knocked down to create a nice big concrete square for the Kamino Memorial Park, complete with a big statue of All Might. The All Might statue takes up most of the space. The walls featuring the names of the victims are off to the sides. New names are still being added every day.
The windows still havenât gotten fixed at your clinic, and in addition to a dust and street debris problem, youâre having an animal problem. You chased a bat out with a broom and wound up needing rabies shots, which left you well-equipped to deal with the raccoon that showed up a week later. Youâre working a lot, for a lot of reasons. It keeps you out of your apartment during the day or night, leaving it safe for the Leagueâs use. You need the money. And as long as youâre busy with work, with the extra classes in trauma treatment youâve started taking, or trying to keep Mitsuko from self-destructing, you donât have to think about what happened at all.
Kazuoâs been keeping busy, too, but your other friends donât have that option. Mitsuruâs job was in Kamino, in a business that was destroyed, and he doesnât have a new one yet. Ryuhei hasnât worked in a while, courtesy of his record, and Yoshimiâs so sick from her treatments that she canât work at all. In spite of that, Mitsukoâs still the one youâre most worried about. She was closest to Hirono. Sheâs always had a lot of anger â like you, except you bury it so deep that you sometimes forget it exists. She doesnât forget. And right now she thinks she doesnât have anything to lose.
You and Mitsuko were supposed to have a wild night on the town, but after throwing up in two trash cans and one alleyway, Mitsukoâs ready to go home. Youâre ready to take her home, too, and you let her sling one arm around your shoulders as you shuffle along. âYou know, I canât work it out,â she mumbles in your ear. âKazuo I understand, but you? Itâs weird.â
âWhatâs weird?â
âHow calm you are,â she says. âLike, right from the start. You love Sho and Hiro just like we do, but youâre â calm. Donât tell me you got religion about it.â
âNo,â you say. âIâve just done this before.â
Itâs not untrue. Youâve lost a friend before, but you didnât cope well at all, and even if you had, this isnât the same. Youâre miserable about losing your friends, but mourning them visibly isnât something youâre allowed to do. Not when youâre responsible. All you can do is try to fix it, or at least try to make sure Mitsuko makes it home in one piece, without passing out somewhere or clawing a heroâs eyes out with her acrylic nails.
As youâre helping her unlock her apartment, an idea occurs to you. âHey, why donât you come with me to Yoshimiâs appointment tomorrow? I have to go to work, so I canât stay long, but it would really make her feel better if you stuck around with her at the clinic.â
Mitsuko looks lukewarm on the idea. âI donât think she wants me there. Iâm not very good at comfort.â
âHow about just company?â you say, and she shrugs. It irritates you to the point where you play a card you shouldnât. âHiro used to.â
âDonât guilt-trip me,â Mitsuko says. Itâs quiet for a minute. âFine. Iâll sit with her. This time. Then itâs back to you.â
âSure,â you say. Youâre pretty sure you can make it so itâs not just this time.
You say goodnight to Mitsuko, stop at a convenience store for supplies on your way home, and drag yourself into your apartment building. Before you unlock the door, you have to brace yourself. In spite of Tenkoâs insistence that you arenât left alone with the League, there have been at least a few times in the past three weeks that youâve come home to at least one villain in your apartment.
After Tenko and the others left, after you went to Kazuoâs and stayed up all night, drunk and mourning your friends from under the weight of your guilt, the first thing you did was buy a whiteboard. You hung it on the back of your front door, and each day, you write your schedule on it, letting Kurogiri know what times youâll be out, when itâs safe to bring villains over for a break. You can tell when theyâve been there, even if you donât see them â things will be out of place, or food will have disappeared, or youâll find a ton of black hair dye stains all over the shower. You donât care that Dabi dyes his hair. You just wish heâd rinse the shower out afterwards.
Sometimes the villains leave notes for you on the whiteboard â Magne commenting on the tragic state of your makeup collection, Spinner apologizing for using the last dryer sheet, Dabi bitching about the neighbors and the noisy sex theyâre constantly having in the bedroom that shares a wall with your living room. Sometimes they leave requests for you to buy stuff for them, along with at least some money to pay for it. The only person whose things you buy without asking for payment is Toga.
Everybody else takes things, or asks for them. The only person who leaves things for you is Tenko. As far as you can tell, he shows up exclusively during times when youâre supposed to be home, but for some reason or another youâre always out and about. The first time you know for sure he was here, you came back late and found a flower sticking out of an empty energy drink can on your kitchen counter. The next time it was a piece of your jewelry, with a note: Compress stole this and had Twice leave a copy, but Twice told on him. You need a jewelry box that locks. The third time it was just a note, and just three words, in Tenkoâs never-got-past-kindergarten handwriting. I miss you.
You miss him, too. While youâre braced for villains every time you open the door, youâre always hoping heâll be there.
Thereâs a villain in your apartment tonight, but itâs not Tenko â itâs Magne, whoâs in the bathroom availing herself of your blow-dryer. Sheâs doing laundry, too, or sheâs done it. You catch the unmistakable scent of a dryer sheet thatâs gotten sucked into the lint-trap on the air. The smart thing to do would be to leave, but youâre tired, and itâs your apartment to begin with. You set down the items you bought at the Leagueâs request on the kitchen table and sit down in a chair, your chin propped in your hand. You think about scrolling your phone to pass the time, but you donât need to. Lately all you have to do is stare off into space, and your mind supplies enough uneasy questions to keep you busy for hours.
You come back to awareness when Magne snaps her fingers in front of your face. âRise and shine, sweetheart. Is this for me?â
Sheâs holding up the three-pack of deodorant. âYeah. Itâs not the brand you asked for â I didnât have enough money â but I smelled all the discount ones and picked the one that was closest.â
Magne uncaps one and sniffs it. âClose enough,â she decides. âWhat about the rest of this? Who wanted thermal socks?â
âSpinner. His note said you all are staying in a warehouse and it gets cold,â you say, and Magne nods. You glance over the rest of the things you bought. Some of them need an explanation. âThe numbing gel is for Toga. She bit her cheek and thereâs a sore in her mouth. Tell her not to eat anything too acidic until it heals. And these are â she knows what these are for.â
Magne nods sagely. âOh, and these are for Compress,â you add, tapping a stack of cheap paperbacks. âHe said he was bored. These should help.â
âYou spoil us,â Magne remarks. She smells like your shampoo. And your body wash. âThe boss is as bad as it gets. Who would have guessed that his girlfriend would be such a little saint?â
âIâm not a saint,â you say. Sheâs not the first member of the League to say that, but your list of sins is long enough already, and itâll only keep getting longer. âIâm just trying to help.â
âI do wonder what the attraction is,â Magne continues, like you didnât speak at all. âGuys like him â when they see something pretty and pure, all they want to do is ruin it. And then they donât want it anymore. I wouldnât get too dirty if I were you.â
âThanks for the warning.â You see shadows flickering in your peripheral vision. Kurogiriâs here. âTake this stuff with you, okay? And tell everyone I say hi.â
âNo problem.â Magne gathers up the results of the supply run. âAny other messages you want me to send? To the boss, maybe?â
âNothing Iâm telling you,â you say, and she laughs. A moment later she vanishes through the warp gate, and youâre alone. Itâs past midnight. Thereâs really nothing for you to do except go to sleep. Or try to.
Youâve been having a hard time sleeping since Kamino. In some ways, it reminds you of how things were after you stumbled into the ruins of Tenkoâs house. The images that wonât leave your head. The questions that chase each other through the darkness â did it hurt, did they know, were they scared, what happened next? There was guilt when it was Tenkoâs family dead, the stupid thought that useless, quirkless, five-year-old you should have stopped it somehow â but itâs nothing like the guilt you feel now. Kaminoâs death toll stands at nine hundred and eight. Magne said you were a saint, but you arenât. No saint, no good person, lets nine hundred people, some of them her friends, die.
Youâre on hour three of trying to sleep when the shadows in the far corner of your room begin to flicker. Itâs another warp gate, and you watch, your heart in your throat, as someone emerges from within it. âTenko?â
Tenko doesnât look as surprised to see you awake as you thought heâd be. âI canât sleep either,â he says. His face is unobscured by the hand. He gestures awkwardly at your side of the bed. âCan I ââ
âYeah,â you say at once, trying not to act like this is the best thing thatâs happened to you all week. âFor sure.â
Tenkoâs wearing gloves already. He kicks off his shoes and strips off his shirt, then climbs into bed on the far side. Youâre expecting him to stay there, but instead he reaches across the bed to pull you closer, and once heâs got you, the contented sigh that exits his mouth sets every inch of your face on fire. âThatâs better.â
You manage to wiggle your arms free, folding one against your chest and wrapping the other around him. His skin is dry and warm beneath your hand, against your cheek. âHi, Ten.â
âHey.â Tenko hugs you closer. âThis is your fault. I canât go back to sleeping standing up after that.â
âThatâs because humans arenât supposed to sleep standing up. I have no idea how you did it for â however long you were doing it.â
âToo long, I guess.â Tenko yawns. âWhy canât you sleep?â
âThe people I worked on after Kamino. I keep seeing them.â You keep seeing your friends, too, although there youâre restricted to whatever your imagination can conjure. âOther stuff, too.â
âLike what?â
Like what Tenkoâs house looked like the morning after, when you ran into the wreckage. What blood and tissue felt like under your bare feet. You still donât know if Tenko knows what happened to his family, how much he knows, how he got from his familyâs house into the clutches of All For One. âThings,â you say. When youâre able to raise the arm thatâs wrapped around Tenkoâs shoulders, your fingers encounter the ends of his hair, and you start fiddling with them, to the tune of another contented sigh. âItâs late. Try to sleep. I will, too.â
Tenko relaxes against you, asleep within moments. It takes you another hour at least.
You expect him to be gone by the time you wake up in the morning, but instead heâs still there, shirtless, with a terrible case of bedhead that you think is way too cute. He doesnât want you to get out of bed at all, but once you do, he trails you to the kitchen, where you start making tea and setting out something for breakfast. âItâs too early,â he complains. âWhere do you have to go?â
âIâm taking Mitsuko to keep Yoshimi company during her treatment, and then Iâm going to work.â You think through your day and grimace. âAnd after that I have class.â
âWhat about tomorrow?â
âItâs my day off.â
âGood,â Tenko says. âTwice is bringing a potential ally. I want you there to meet them.â
Your stomach twists, and your appetite, already fickle on its best day, goes up in smoke. âWho are they?â
âSome small-time yakuza. They want prestige and we need money.â Tenko shrugs. âIâll come back tonight and weâll go together in the morning.â
âOkay.â Something about this conversation strikes you as funny, but youâre not sure what it is. It takes a second for it to click, and once it does, youâre laughing.
âWhat?â Tenko asks suspiciously. âWhatâs funny?â
âWeâre eating breakfast and talking about our schedules,â you say, still giggling. âWe sound so normal.â
You think Tenko will laugh, too. Heâll say something snarky, something derisive, about the whole concept of normalcy and moving in with somebody and having any kind of life within the boundaries of a corrupt society. Instead his expression takes on a strange cast. âDo you think we would have been?â
You almost spill the electric teakettle out of shock. âWhat?â
âIf nothing had happened. Do you think weâd have ended up like this?â Tenko gestures around the room, then between the two of you. âLike â us.â
If the two of you had gotten to grow up together, what would you have been? Youâve asked yourself that more than a few times. âIf nothing had happened,â you repeat. If Tenkoâs family hadnât died, if he hadnât wound up with a quirk â or even if he had, and youâd lived across the street from each other in middle school, high school. âI think so.â
âYeah,â Tenko says after a moment. âI think so, too.â
He doesnât say how he feels about it, and neither do you, but thereâs a distant look in his eyes, like his mindâs gone somewhere else, somewhere far from here. It doesnât fade until you set a cup of green tea down in front of him. âSo,â he says, looking up at you, âhow much do you know about the yakuza?â
âNot very much,â you admit. âWhat do I need to know?â
Tenko gives you a brief overview in between bites of food, then starts in on the details. âThe group Twice made contact with is called the Shie Hassaikai. Their leader goes by Overhaul, and heâs young â not our age, a little older. Twice says he seems genuine, but I donât want us caught off-guard.â
âWhich is why you want me there,â you surmise. âIf things get heated, turn the temperature down.â
Tenko nods. âIt shouldnât. Heâs coming alone.â
âRight.â You force down a bite of your breakfast, then another. âAnd I should bring the disguise.â
âYeah.â Black mist begins to ripple through the air near the door, and Tenko swears. âGo away, Kurogiri. Iâm not done.â
âIt is Dabiâs turn. And according to the schedule, she will be leaving soon.â If Kurogiri could tap his foot right now, he probably would. âWith haste, Shigaraki Tomura.â
Tomura swears again, then heads back to your room for his shirt and shoes. âIâll be back tonight,â he says as he pulls them on.
âMe, too.â You wince as Kurogiri loudly clears his throat, then hurry forward to kiss Tomura goodbye. Heâs frustrated. You can tell by the tension in his mouth, the way it takes too long to soften against yours. âHey. Iâll see you soon, all right?â
Tomura nods once. Then he disappears through the warp gate. As he vanishes, you see him removing his gloves.
Youâre alone in your apartment again, and the surge of emptiness you feel threatens to knock you off your feet. Youâll see Tenko tonight, which is good, but tomorrow, youâll be with Tomura â Tomura and the League of Villains, in disguise like youâre one of them. To the head of the Shie Hassaikai, youâll be indistinguishable from the others.
And speaking of the Hassaikai â you werenât lying when you told Tomura you know next to nothing about the yakuza, but you know someone who does. Itâs a good thing youâre seeing Mitsuko today.
âThe Hassaikai?â Mitsuko repeats, when you ask her while the two of you are waiting for Yoshimi to finish her vitals check. âWhereâd you hear about them?â
âA patient.â You arenât technically lying. Tenko was your patient. At one point. âIt wasnât a name Iâd heard before, so I thought Iâd ask. In case there was a chance you knew anything.â
Mitsukoâs settled down a bit now, but in middle school and high school, she was in a lot of trouble â skipping school, getting drunk and using who knows what else, hooking up with older guys, sometimes for money or gifts or just to make whatever was going on in her head go away. Some of those guys were yakuza. A lot of them were. And Mitsuko always said they liked to pillow-talk.
She thinks about it for a moment, frowning. âTheyâre a small group,â she starts. âTheyâve got a cross-country network, but there arenât very many of them. The old head of the family was popular, but the new one isnât.â
Huh. âDo you know why?â
âThe family thing â itâs not a joke to them,â Mitsuko says. âThatâs how the former head treated it. Not the new one. One of the guys I used to see â he was from another group, but I remember heâd talked to somebody whoâd left the Hassaikai when they were both in jail. That guy said the guys in his gang were just employees now. And they were expendable.â
âSo the new guyâs a shitty boss.â
âTry worse. He called him a monster. Said he was empty inside.â Mitsuko looks troubled for a split second. Then she shakes her head. âThey all are, though, arenât they? Yakuza, villains â well, maybe not that Shigaraki guy. He looks like heâs so full of crazy itâs a miracle he doesnât explode.â
You keep your mouth shut with an effort. What would you say, anyway? Nothing convincing, not without giving away more information than anyone outside the League should know. Mitsuko gives you a curious look. âDid your patient get mixed up with them somehow?â
âI guess so.â
âHopefully they get out fast. Those guys are bad news.â Mitsuko grimaces. âIâd know.â
She looks like she wants to say more, but then Yoshimi comes out of the check-in room, and the two of you had a talk about not upsetting Yoshimi more than necessary. The two of you turn to her. âI donât know shit about this,â Mitsuko tells Yoshimi, sounding so much like her usual self that youâd never guess she was wasted and hero-baiting last night, âbut youâre with me today. Anybody who gives you shit, they have to answer to me. And Iâm not nearly as nice as her.â
She points at you, and you roll your eyes. The only reason you were nice to the one nurse who was even sort of rude to Yoshimi is because you didnât want her doing something worse when your back was turned. Yoshimi smiles gratefully at Mitsuko. âIâm so glad youâre here,â she says. âWe need to catch up. Some of the nurses here are cute.â
You tell them both goodbye and sneak out while theyâre talking about the cute nurses. Mitsuko could do a hell of a lot worse than a cute nurse. Maybe she needs that right now. As weird as she gets when sheâs in a relationship, almost anything would be an improvement on the self-destruct sequence sheâs cycling through. Not that youâre any better. If Kazuo wasnât too busy pulling together the official incident report on Kamino to take a look at what youâre doing, heâd probably say you were doing the same thing.
You donât look it. You hold it together at work, checking in on your younger colleagues, supporting the older ones, keeping an eye on the mood with them and the patients both. Itâs not a good mood. The rest of the country is ready to venerate All Might and cheer for his victory, but Yokohama was hit too hard. Too many people lost loved one, and too many of those people live in the other Japan with you. Nobodyâs gone so far as to sympathize with the League of Villains, yet, but plenty of them are angry with the heroes. And plenty of them are saying it out loud.
The organization that runs your clinic is worried about the staff. Absentee rates are high, and people come to work in bad moods and leave in worse ones. Your supervisor is offering everybody extra time off so long as you take it in shifts, and each and every one of you who was on shift during Kamino is scheduled to meet with a counselor over your lunch hour once a week. You donât want to do it. You donât have a lot, or any, good memories of doing therapy as a kid. And this time, thereâs something youâre actually guilty of.
But itâs a requirement, and you donât want to make waves, so you slouch into the mailroom for your counseling session as ordered. Your counselor is rich â you can tell by her clothes and her jewelry â and a whole set of unkind associations spring into your head when you look at her. You try to push them away. If your contempt is oozing from between your teeth, thereâs no way youâll get through this without raising a red flag or ten.
The counselor greets you, introduces herself as Yaoyorozu Shizuka, and something clicks in your head. âYour daughterâs at UA.â
âYes, my dear Momo! Weâre very proud,â Mrs. Yaoyorozu says, even though you didnâtâ congratulate her. âSheâs been through quite an ordeal â just like you and your coworkers have been. Why donât you start by telling me where you were on that night?â
âAt first I worked triage with the evacuees,â you say. âWhen the casualties arrived, I went to assist the doctors and nurse-practitioners.â
âAnd how long did you do that for?â
âUntil someone kicked me out.â
Mrs. Yaoyorozu makes a note in her notebook. Her leather-bound, monogrammed notebook. âHow do you feel about the work you and your coworkers did that night?â
If you try to lie, she wonât believe you, and sheâll push the point. You need her not to push. âI feel like we failed.â
âWhy do you feel like that?â
âBecause thatâs what we did,â you say. âFive people died in the exam rooms back there. Two more died in the hospital later. We failed our patients, just like everyone else did.â
âJust like everyone else did,â Mrs. Yaoyorozu repeats. She looks puzzled, or sheâs faking puzzlement. You really donât care which. âWhat do you mean?â
Of course sheâd ask that question. You canât stop the derisive sound that escapes your mouth. âLet me see. This clinic failed by not being ready to handle a mass casualty event, by not having the necessary equipment to treat major trauma or the staff who know how to do it. The site commander failed by sending those patients to us knowing we couldnât help them. The heroes on-scene failed by prioritizing helping All Might instead of clearing the route to Yokohama General, so the people they were supposed to be rescuing when they decided it was more important to help All Might could have a chance to survive.â
Mrs. Yaoyorozu is staring at you. Your face is hot and your eyes are prickling, and you sink your nails into the palm of your hand, fighting for control. âWe werenât the only ones to fail those people. We were just the last ones. All those people ââ
You cut yourself off. Mrs. Yaoyorozu scrambles to recover. âIt was far from an ideal situation,â she says. âIt was never going to be possible to save everyone ââ
âI thought it was,â you interrupt. âIsnât that what heroes say theyâll do?â
You need to be careful. You sound like Tomura. But Mrs. Yaoyorozu is shaking her head, smiling indulgently, ready to explain how you just donât understand that sometimes hard choices have to be made, and you lose patience. âLook, what are you even doing here? Is it just a hobby of yours to come here and minister to the poor unfortunates who werenât born quirked or pretty or rich? This isnât your city and we arenât your people. We donât need saving. We donât want your help.â
âDonât speak for your colleagues,â Mrs. Yaoyorozu says mildly. âYou donât need saving. You donât want my help. Why not?â
You look blankly at her. âYouâve been through something traumatic,â she continues. âThe whole city has, and those of you who responded directly to the tragedy havenât had time to process what you experienced. Thatâs what this space is supposed to be for. If it would be best for you to process by expressing your anger towards me, thatâs all right.â
âSo youâre going to martyr yourself.â You donât understand where the disdain in your voice is coming from. âSit here for an hour, then go home and tell your maids and your husband and your butler about how the nurse at the poor-people clinic was so mean to you when all you wanted to do was help.â
Sheâs staring at you now like youâve slapped her, when you havenât raised your voice or sworn or even moved an inch in your chair. Youâre using your de-escalation voice, but the context is all wrong, and even as you struggle to rein in your temper, you canât stop yourself from turning her words back on her. âIf thatâs what would best help you process your savior complex, thatâs fine with me.â
Mrs. Yaoyorozu holds your gaze for another few seconds. Then she ducks her head, writing frantically in her notebook. âAre you crying?â you ask her. The false concern in your own voice makes your skin crawl.
Her eyes are clear when she looks up. âBlaming oneself or others for the traumatic events or for what happened afterwards,â she says. âCheck. Persistent state of fear, horror, anger, guilt, or shame â check. Persistent negative cognitions, such as âI am badâ, âno one can be trustedâ â check. Do you know what Iâve just listed.â
âCriterion D of the PTSD diagnosis.â Kazuo tried this trick on you already, and you were a lot more likely to listen to him. âWhatâs your point?â
âI can see by the dark circles under your eyes that your sleepâs disturbed,â she says. âWhether thatâs by nightmares or by ruminating on whatâs occurred, youâve met Criterion B. By verbally sparring with me youâre avoiding engaging with your own feelings about what happened â Criterion C. Disturbed sleep partially covers Criterion E, and I imagine if I asked you whether you startle easily, find it difficult to concentrate, or feel unsafe in most settings, Iâd get at least one yes. But I donât need a yes to diagnose you â the first symptom under Criterion E is irritable behavior and angry outbursts. What would you call this?â
She gestures at the space between you, and you sink your nails into your palm again. âIâve spoken to your coworkers about you. They describe you as kind, supportive, calm â the person who smooths over conflicts, not starts them. This conversation is a symptom, a sign of what youâve been through. Itâs not who you are.â
But it is. It is who you are now â a person who takes a skill youâve used to help people and twists it into a weapon, a person who backs someone else into a corner and goes for their throat, and the worst part is, you canât pin this on your association with the League of Villains. Tomuraâs not standing here feeding you lines. This was all you. Whatâs happening to you?
Trauma, Mrs. Yaoyorozu would say, if you asked what she thought. You know the real answer: Guilt.
Itâs quiet for a little while. When you speak up again, your voice doesnât sound like your own. âI donât want to talk anymore.â
âI understand,â Mrs. Yaoyorozu says. You spend the rest of your lunch hour in silence, staring at the wall.
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