just did my last exam so i will ….. never see her again
unless i go in next week to return books so i can speak to her
what do i SAY tho she’s not here all summer and i’m too nervous too ask for her number
so i’m seeing her next week :)
i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.
she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .
i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed
how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?
i'll choose you over and over again.
in this lifetime, and the next, and the next after that.
i will choose you until the universe gets tired of me choosing you.
how are ppl just. normally attached to ppl on a healthy level
always enjoy the little things in life, because one day you’ll look back and realize they were big things.
30/03
j recommended me a movie to watch called room in rome ?? and she was like oh it’s 18+ be careful and i replied IM 18 IM LEGAL so…. embarrassed 🫠🫠
but i looked this movie up and it’s literally just . lesbian sex WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
what did she reply !!?!
she was just like !!! use my email also miss u come see me before u move to university
so
i’m seeing her on friday
crying screaming throwing up