Hey, Psst, You There. You An Artist? You Like Making Stories? Unsure How To Stay Productive? I Got An

Wooooo 3 hours of anxiety to eventually realize that it was my phones screen that was messed up not my art on other devices wooo. I hate things sometimes

- 6/03/2018

i’m actually allowed to make things a little easier for myself

i’m allowed to take shortcuts

i’m allowed to half-ass

i’m allowed to not always think of the best possible outcome, if that makes me freeze and not do anything

(good enough is good enough but a little bit is better than nothing at all)

happy stimming

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

- 4/13/2018

- 5/29/2018

- 4/01/2018

- 5/11/2018 So I did most of these while watching gather your party (all but the colour that I don’t even like) last night. I kinda like how they eventually just devolve into gesture drawings of faces (but kinda just feel disappointed in others)

- 2/23/2018 Nothing to do with my art but critical role just released the entirety of Hamilton redone for vox machina and while I'm only on song 31 it's 100% awesome