I Just Fucking Binged And I Hate Myself

femmes... 😍 butches... 😍 mascs... 😍 studs... 😍 stems... 😍 futches... 😍 people in between... [im very gay guys]

think coming out as gay is hard? try telling people you don’t want to eat. So much for the tolerant left 🙄

Nothing compares to the deep sadness I feel whenever my monster can is getting empty and I have only one last sip left

My lunch :)

Total: 155

(2x corncakes - 50; 7g Pesto - 23; 84g cottage cheese - 77; 12g frozen berries - 6)

Basically leftovers lol. Tasted okay and at least I'm full now - and don't mind the bowl please. It's cringe but it has a pig face and so whenever I finished eating that's what's staring back at me as a reminder looool not funny Ik

Theres this one special website which tells your weight in x days if you eat a certain amount of calories... What's it called??

I'm going to the store after school today yay :D

I think I'm just going to buy some protein bars and sf energy drinks and gum... I may buy some corn/rice cakes as well and look for new safe foods in general, if I have time... Man, I haven't been shopping like this in a while and I'm more excited than grocery shopping probblably justifies to be lol

Any suggestions on what else I could look for?

"What do you do in your free time" how do I say "pace around my backyard whilst imagining myself reacting to WL related compliments and situations" without sounding weird

Soooo these busy days I mentioned are over and I have in fact reached my lowest weight since summer! It's probably not that impressive but I am incredibly happy still. (And yes, I am in fact absolutely drained but I did have fun, I'm just so tired now 🥲)

Now I have this Sunday to get through, then a week of school when restricting will be easy of course, but then I'll have two weeks off due to Eastern....

I guess I'll really have to bury myself in work and exercise then and not give myself the chance to eat anything besides the meals I'll have to eat with my family.

Breakfast I should always be able to skip, dinner too I could say I take to my room to eat there because of school work or something, and then lunch I'll just have to always help preparing so I know exactly what we'll eat and so I can make at least my serving lower in calories.

Maybe I'll also have to resort to the sad Pinterest ana meals with half a cucumber and egg whites, because my parents don't seem to know an awful lot about nutrition, and as long as I eat anything they tend to not raise an eyebrow.

(No hate on these kind of meals, they're really a game changer, but since I tend to do OMAD and a small snack, I just really like to make my meals more colorful and more interesting)

I'll also have more time to exercise, then I know of two days on which I can fast, because we'll be travelling to my Grandma, and for a couple of days only my Dad and I will be home, and I have a feeling that will make not eating/eating low-cal meals even easier.

(Partly because the chance someone is going to be in the kitchen when I want to measure out my food will be lower lol)

my aunt and godmother just died

you know you’re deep in an ed when you’re triggered by finding out you have a higher than average birthweight 😭 like wdym i was nine pounds as a newborn? ok fatty