Drinking Peppermint Tea Is Like Reliving Memories Of Being Dehydrated At The Hospital And Sitting Lonely

One look in the mirror - and I mean a proper look, not just catching a glimpse of my reflection walking by, no, I mean fully inspecting my body for 5-10 minutes really gets me questioning everything, but it's one of the most motivating things ever, honestly.

Guys im so angry, because I just ate a protein bar as I always do a little while before eating dinner with my family (so I feel more full and won't stuff myself) and then headed off to orchestra practice but then my mom called after me to take my keys with me because...... My parents won't be there this evening.

Meaning I could've easily fasted until tomorrow evening but noo I had to eat that stupid protein bar.

It's fine; I can just run the calories off but it'll still be that I have eaten when I could've stayed hungry 🥲

I just made myself tea that's supposed to be peach vanilla... Tastes like bathtub water honestly

It's good though

I just baked a cake for my Dad's birthday tomorrow

I haven't baked anything in a very long time and I was just remembering how I used to love eating the batter

Not anymore though

I really hope I will get around actually having to eat it, I think I'll just say I'll take a piece to school with me maybe

my aunt and godmother just died

In a way, I'm really scared losing weight will make me look more feminine (because I always used to have broad shoulders and I have now clue what my face will look like once all the fat is finally off)

So I'm hoping that I can lose as much weight as possible on my hips, thighs and lower belly, because once I'll be able to just wear any pants without them looking ridiculous because they're either way too large or make me look curvy and more like a woman, I'll look more like a guy/androgynous, right? Right???

That's so hypothetically speaking I need to lock the fuck in first

But I'm so excited for when I'll finally have a flat chest

hi.. uwu *⭐ves myself*

When u think ur doing 'well' so you try to eat normally again but instead get on a choo-choo train to b1nge land

I be contemplating my whole life

I need to stop normalising binging

I look a little different each day and at this pointy I have no clue what I really look like