To Me It Kind Of Feels Like I Won't Truly Live Until I'm Skinny. That Right Now, There Is Still A Wall

I mean fruit in general are so awesome

My ed is forcing me to basically love all of them, even strawberries - which I used to despise before lol

But now they're like candy :D

strawberries actually might be the ultimate 3d safe food. 33cal per 100g and so yummy and sweet (especially in summer) to be able to satisfy that sweet tooth and reduce chance of a binge.

when it was just supposed to a quick fix but now i’m pacing the halls every time i brush my teeth , throwing food away again , always waiting for time to pass , gorging myself on yoghurt bowls & protein bars , & fear the scale

Lesbians will see a girl with slightly rolled up sleeves and be like. Oh. Oh no.

Sometimes I like to imagine what it'll be when I live alone

I can see a fucking bright future of cutting whenever and wherever, starving for days and not even getting the binge food in the house in the first place and weighing myself won't be the most stressful encounter to have to be done in secret

Yeah and other than that I wanna go to uni and stuff

Sounds fucking fun

Guys im so angry, because I just ate a protein bar as I always do a little while before eating dinner with my family (so I feel more full and won't stuff myself) and then headed off to orchestra practice but then my mom called after me to take my keys with me because...... My parents won't be there this evening.

Meaning I could've easily fasted until tomorrow evening but noo I had to eat that stupid protein bar.

It's fine; I can just run the calories off but it'll still be that I have eaten when I could've stayed hungry 🥲

Please, I need to wooork, I'm just scrolling through my documents looking at what I already have and time is running from me I need to finish that paper shiiiiit

not to self-diagnose, but something is definitely wrong here.

Idk I just really don't like warm food/drinks.

Hot stuff like tea and coffee are okay, but lukewarm stuff I can't stand and I just prefer cold stuff really

parents brought home huge apples today

And they're really fucking red and have I mentioned just how large they are?

Goodness

to cut or to not cut, that is the question. except im an addict and we all know the answer