Fun Fact!

i’ve been playing guitar in webfishing lobbies and now i’m making friends with people?????

i love the webfishing community

my fucking dorm building is on fire

i wasn’t going to go to sleep for a bit but still

i just had a family dinner and people were talking about their dogs for a bunch of it and the whole time i was thinking about HDG and thinking about it like affini talking about their florets and i had to like physically restrain myself from saying anything

i am losing it

i keep realizing how much i need to find things to do and people to do them with

i’m struggling bc all i’ve done in the past is be social when i’m around people and then just stay inside doing my own thing otherwise

and it’s just leading to me seeing friends occasionally and spending all the rest of my time in my dorm being lonely and unsure of how to get to the point of doing stuff

the only dreams i’d consider nightmares are that time i watched someone turn into a fish and that time i ate someone’s face

and i don’t think there’s a recurring theme there other than that the imagery was terrifying

rb with your most common recurring theme in your nightmares. mine is pregnancy

i feel like i don’t fit any depictions of women i see

and i don’t fit any depictions of trans women i see

and both of those are defined so heavily as groups by suffering they experience

but because i just look like a cis guy to basically everyone who would be inclined to be shitty i just don’t get those

and this along with some other things makes me think i should put more effort into presenting feminine

but is it worth it to change how i present myself just to be seen by random people in the way i want

i like my more masculine presentation

but it makes it harder for me to be seen as a woman

and maybe that’s mostly for me

or maybe i just have some things to get over

but i don’t feel very visible

im trying to work on some drawing again

once i get this onto a (working) computer it’ll get better

(my computer is kinda dead so i can’t use photoshop rn TwT)

why is vent art always so much better than anything else I draw

>:|

we’re so back (in the text editor)

“it’s a sock or boot world”

my friend while squished into a bus seat