i’ve been at college for a few days and holy s h i t the
anxiety
is off the fucking charts
either it’s going to get better or im going to lose it
i lost the last of my pens recently so i haven’t been drawing people
i have some projects i’m doing art for though
I think once I get better at modeling, especially with characters, I might consider trying to do 3d model commissions for people
i really need to stop personifying the self checkout registers at the supermarket i work at but they all have such distinct personalities
#1 is lactose intolerant (she has inexplicable issues with milk) and she’s full of soup
#2 has some nerve issues (her scale is broken) and so she’s in standby a lot of the time so she doesn’t get overstimulated
#4 can’t remember a phone number to save her life
and #8 has been in standby for like a week because her coin slot stopped working
I’m having difficulty figuring out something interesting for the fourth character in my story
the other three all have basically their original backgrounds but I’ve pretty much completely thrown out this character‘s original backstory and now i’m having trouble with a new one
I was thinking of having her be the “normal” one since the other three have such wild backgrounds but I don’t think the other characters allow that to work in a way that is interesting or adds to the others
the fucking thing where a lot of trans women can't. get our lives started for a long time. until we transition and then so often it's like. suddenly you know things about yourself like there's a being inhabiting this body. you start thinking about things you want to do, ways to go out and finally live. and then. the whole damn world is like, no go fucking back in the hole. and it's so hard to live now that you . actually want to
I made the mistake of watching wolfwalkers today for the second time
my brain won’t be back for a couple days
oh yeah that drawing is the cover art btw
this is what most of the cards are going to look like
I'm working on a card game for my final project in my game design class and I have to have all the cards finished by tuesday
i have to make art
for 32 cards
by tuesday
i may be a little bit fucked
Even more progress on Leo The legs need some work on positioning still, they're too far in front of her center, but I'll do that next time I do more work and of course the legs and hips are still very unfinished
like 2 weeks lol
my girlfriend had to go to the ER and im keeping her company and im finally reaching That Point in being awake for way too long where it’s been 22 hours and my stomach is suggesting the idea of flopping around like a dying fish
you know the project brainrot is bad when i start drawing again