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First kiss (Candy x Amber)

I really wanted to join in for idolcandy's Dykecember challenge, and even though we're already at the half of the month, it's better late than never! if someone wants to requests a pair for a specific day, my askbox is open ^^

Dykecember day 1: first kiss

Words: 1474

Candy's P. O. V.

My phone buzzed with a new notification.

why didn't you pick up? are you in class?

Ever since Nath left, Amber and I looked after his flat, especially Blanche. She has always been an independent lady, but her master's sudden and long disappearance didn't affect her well. It didn't affect any of us well. Even when she wasn't around, I hung out often in his apartment. I liked the quiet that I couldn't experience in the dorms, and I buried myself in my studies.

I tried to divert my thoughts. I didn't tell Rosa or Alexy what was up, but I'm sure they picked up after some time, as I continuously rejected going out clubbing or shopping with them. Rosa told me that I could talk to her anytime, but knowing her opinion about Nath, I rather kept to myself.

So who was left? Amber and Kim were the only two people who still kept in touch with Nath, but Kim was busy managing the gym. She also didn't know about Nath's ehm... business, and with Amber we didn't even feel it fair to tell her about it.

That left just the two of us, Amber and me. I still couldn't quite comprehend the change she went through. Those piercings eyes that I always found cold and condescending in high school, now they lit up when she saw me, always cheerfully greeting. The delicate fingers that carried out so many pranks on me, now I had the opportunity to watch them drum mindlessly on the tabletop while we're having lunch together. One hand would be enough to keep count of the times she behaved kind towards me, and yet now I found myself spending more and more time with her...

It feels wrong to even think about it, considering that she's my ex-boyfriend's sister, but there's something enchanting about her. When I'm with her, I cannot stop thinking about her plush lips and what it would feel like to have them on mine. When she's away, I'm nervous, waiting for the time we meet again.

How does hate turn to love?

Is it even love? I see who I want to see. I'm imagining a personality for her that maybe she doesn't even have. She has her own life, her own passions, her own problems. Hell, the only thing tying us together - Nath - didn't even use to have a good relationship with her until only recently. If she's not the cruel teenager who made my days sour, then I have no idea who she is beyond her worry and love for Nath.

I used to think we share that, but I'm ashamed to see that my heart is beating for someone else now.

My phone buzzed again.

hello?? anyone there?

The student in the row in front of me turned around to shush me. I guess he had had enough of my phone making noise...

This helped pull me out of my daydreams. Although I did spend much of my free time with studying now, I still couldn't keep track of Mr. Lebard's class. If there was a course for reading lullabies to adults, he could be the perfect professor for it...!

I muted my phone, then finally checked out the new messages. Amber has previously asked me if I was free to help her out sometime, as she's moving in to Nath's apartment. God knows when he's going to use it again, meanwhile Amber's model career isn't going as well as she hoped. To save some money, she decided to give out her flat for rent, and live in Nath's place for some time.

I offered to help her move her stuff, but due to our different timetables it wasn't easy to find an afternoon that suited both of us. I sent her a quick reply:

yes, I'm in class, but it ends in 5. I'll call you after

---

"I already found a tenant. She's moving in on Saturday, so I must leave tomorrow the latest."

"Wow, that was quick. Well, I don’t have any classes left today, so it's totally up to you. If you think you have too much stuff, we can ask someone else for help too. I'm sure Kim would be happy to join in, or maybe Castiel...."

What an idiot! I already forgot how big of a crush she had on him. It was partly the reason she was so hard on me. She misinterpreted my friendship with him as something more, and jealousy is never a good advisor.

Either the static of the phone helped hide the tone of her voice, or she was over him by now, as she replied completely unfazed.

"The two of us should be enough, I don't have that many belongings. See you tomorrow afternoon."

"That's perfect for me, alright. I'll meet you at your place. "

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She was right, even with just the two of us we finished sooner than I expected. We talked while moving the boxes, to help pass the time. Only lighthearted topics came up, but it wasn’t the kind of small talk that makes even silence comfortable compared to it. I offered to leave once we were done with the actual relocation, to let her unpack alone, but Amber insisted I stay. She put on some music, and fished out a bottle of champagne from one of the cabinets.

"I bought this for Nath on our last birthday, although I know he’s not much of a drinker. It would be a shame if this got spoilt, am I right?"

I laughed a little while shrugging. "Well, I don’t think Nath would be mad…"

Amber unscrewed the bottle, and shook her head.

"You know what, I don’t want to talk about him. He made his own choices, whatever we think about them. I worry for him, and I know you do too, but he’s not a child." She handed me a glass, and took a sip from her own. "I’m sure two young ladies such as us can find a thousand better topics to discuss."

I couldn’t help but laugh, not missing to notice her wink in the meantime. I didn’t know what to add, so I took my glass, thankful for the "alibi" for not speaking.

"Soo… what are you going to do once you graduate? There’s not much time left until the end of your studies if I recall correctly."

"I never actually got this far when I was making plans for my future."

It was Amber’s turn to laugh, though she was more cynical than me.

"I get that, I didn’t plan this ahead either. When I started, I received two photoshoot offers for each one I did. I thought I was one of the few people who are lucky enough to skyrocket their career right from the beginning. Guess I was wrong."

Little by little, I had already finished my glass by then, and I felt a small confidence boost. I sat next to Amber, hugging her shoulders with my arm.

"I’m not speaking from experience of course, but I’m sure it’s normal to have ups and downs. The things we see in movies are romanticized, it’s never easy in real life."

I was so caught up in trying to comfort her that I didn’t even notice when she refilled both of our glasses.

"Yeah, I can second that. It’s never easy in real life…"

Maybe I was imagining things, but I had the impression that she was avoiding my gaze as she spoke.

I tried to recall all occasions we were together like this. Those late night phone talks, those seemingly meaningless strolls in the park, those "study dates" that always ended up being gossip afternoons. I never noticed until now, but sometimes she would mention her feelings of loneliness and being lost. I always thought she was the kind of social, confident, strong woman that they write motivational articles about in the newspaper. But I realised that it wasn’t only me who started spending more and more time with her; I also took up a bigger part of her life now than I did before. And while I wasn’t sure how she felt about this, I certainly knew how I did.

Mostly thanks to the liquid courage that the now three glasses of champagne gave me, I leaned in, half hopeful, half scared of her reaction. Amber didn’t pull away, and after a few seconds even put down her glass to place her hand on my thigh. Our kiss deepened, and I felt a sense of calm wash over me: whatever confusion I was going through in my life with my studies ending, my unknown future incoming, but also the consequences of Nath’s past threatening to reach Amber and me as well, now I knew I wasn’t alone with it.

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Cela faisait longtemps que je n'avais pas écrit quelque chose... mais là j'avoue que l'épisode 11 m'a un peu frustrée vu que ça commençait bien... Nath en uniforme... enfin! Et hop, episode fini. J'en voulais plus! Et comme on n'est jamais mieux servi que par soi-même... je vous partage un petit texte écrit sur mon téléphone en une petite heure donc désolée si jamais vous trouvez des petites coquilles malgré mes relectures! Cette petite histoire suit directement la fin de l'épisode. C'est plutôt coquinou, y a pas de rapport décrit mais on reste dans le roleplay avec Nath en uniforme. C'est pas grand chose mais ça reste un moment de couple comme j'aimerais en voir souvent sur le jeu.

Je le rajouterai aussi sur le forum sur mon topic d'histoires, qu'il faudra que je clôture un jour d'ailleurs...

Bonne lecture à celles qui auront le courage de se lancer à suivre ce petit texte! A LIRE QUE SI VOUS AVEZ FAIT L'ÉPISODE 11.

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J'ai presque envie de m'endormir mais mon envie de plus prend le dessus. Je suis toujours blottie, nue, contre mon bel inspecteur de police après un moment de passion bien mérité. Enfin nous avons pu nous retrouver. Ses doigts jouent doucement sur ma peau, dans de lentes caresses aériennes et rien que ces petits gestes menacent de me faire frissonner. Je me retiens de soupirer de satisfaction et tourne la tête pour voir observer mon Apollon. Mes yeux rencontrent les siens et je note qu'il a un sourire amusé aux lèvres.

-Je n'ai pas le souvenir d'avoir raconté de blagues pendant notre... "interrogatoire". Qu'est ce qui vous fait sourire ainsi, inspecteur?

Il se met franchement à rire et je jubile de le voir détendu, visiblement heureux et surtout, dans mes bras.

-Ma chère Su, quand je t'ai passé les menottes, je n'imaginais pas que tu te serais totalement prise au jeu. Je t'ai trouvée particulièrement excitée... et excitante. C'est vraiment l'uniforme qui te fait cet effet-là ?

Je fais la moue quelques secondes avant d'y réfléchir. Je me redresse et mes yeux se perdent sur son corps. Je ne peux m'empêcher de rire doucement à mon tour en remarquant qu'il porte encore la chemise de son uniforme, ouverte complètement sur son torse... et rien d'autre.

-Hum... je n'y ai jamais pensé sérieusement mais l'uniforme rend super bien... ou plutôt il te va terriblement bien et ça me fait craquer. Après si tu veux essayer de louer d'autres uniformes... pour qu'on compare...

-Je suis déjà content que mon uniforme n'ait pas été abîmé. J'ai cru que les boutons de la chemise allaient lâcher sous tes ongles!

-Peut-être la prochaine fois...

Je lui dis ça en me mordant la lèvre et ses yeux pétillent, si bien que je sens qu'on va rentabiliser cet uniforme pendant encore un petit moment. Mais j'ai envie de lui parler un peu aussi...

-J'avais surtout besoin de te retrouver, Nath. Ne pas se voir à cause du boulot, je comprends. On ne peut rien y faire. Mais ça fait un moment qu'on ne fait que se croiser et l'inquiétude de te voir partir pour une mission dangereuse... tout ça me fait vraiment apprécier chaque seconde ensemble et je veux en profiter à fond.

Il n'y a que de la compréhension et de l'affection  dans ses yeux dorés. 

-On a encore toute la soirée et la nuit juste pour nous. Et... je sais que j'aurai pas mal de travail encore certains jours à venir mais je vais aussi faire ce que je peux pour avoir un peu de repos. Peut-être même des vacances...

-Oh j'adorerais qu'on programme quelque chose !

-Si ça te dit on peut continuer à en parler dans la cuisine. J'ai préparé des petites choses qu'on peut cuisiner à deux.

Je dois avouer que l'idée de cuisiner à deux puis de me remplir un peu le ventre me séduit complètement.

-Je ne peux pas te résister quand tu me parles comme ça... d'ailleurs... tu remets ton uniforme?

-...

-Je l'amènerai chez le pressing demain, promis!

Il secoue la tête alors qu'il explose de rire. Il s'extirpe du lit et me regarde droit dans les yeux alors qu'il remet chaque vêtement doucement. Je ne rate pas une miette du spectacle, le tissu glissant sur sa peau, moulant ses muscles... Il a bien raison, l'uniforme me fait de l'effet mais son charme naturel reste ma plus grande faiblesse.

-Et toi ma chérie, tu devrais aussi t'habiller. Te mettre en uniforme de travail peut-être ?

-Euh... je n'ai pas d'uniforme si ce n'est un tablier.

-C'est déjà pas mal non? Ça ne te dit pas de jouer le jeu?

Son petit sourire en coin en dit long.

-Tu veux dire... le tablier et... c'est tout?

-Tu as besoin d'un tablier de toute façon, on va en cuisine...

Il soutient mon regard avec un petit air de défi mais je vois bien que l'idée lui plaît beaucoup. Hum... nue sous le tablier? Après tout... pourquoi pas... 

-A vos ordres inspecteur!

Il s'attendait sûrement à ce que j'oppose de la résistance. Je me lève et me dirige vers la cuisine, son regard m'accompagnant sur tout le trajet. J'attrape un tablier et j'allais l'attacher quand je sens ses mains se saisir des ficelles afin de le faire lui-même. Ses doigts effleurent délibérément ma peau et j'adore ça.

Je ne vais pas me mentir, le tablier ne couvre pas grand chose et je suis du coup presque nue dans la cuisine, sous le regard de braise de mon beau blond qui a l'air satisfait de son plan. Je ne vais cependant pas me plaindre, c'est très... stimulant.

-Alors, qu'est-ce qu'on cuisine?

Il a du mal à détourner ses yeux de moi mais il finit par sortir différents petits plats et je suis épatée en voyant ce que j'ai sous les yeux.

-Tu as fais de la pâte à pizza et tu as préparé de la sauce ? Oh tu as même préparé de la garniture... on va se faire une superbe pizza!

- C'est l'idée...

Je voudrais presque prendre une photo de mon officier qui cuisine comme un pro. Il étale avec dextérité la pâte et en peu de temps elle prend forme, prête à être garnie. 

On prend peu de temps pour cuisiner en général et là je trouve ça super qu'il ait pris sur son temps de repos pour préparer un bon repas, d'autant que c'est super mignon de voir qu'il n'a jamais oublié son affection pour la cuisine italienne. J'ai cependant l'impression qu'il passe plus de temps à me regarder qu'à penser à la pizza. Je ne peux pas lui en vouloir, d'autant que le voir en uniforme dans la cuisine est une grande source de distraction. Mais chaque chose en son temps.

Blanche vient se frotter contre les jambes de son maître. Il est vrai que nous l'avons un peu oubliée depuis un petit moment.

-Ma Blanche... je vais te donner à manger pendant que Su finit de préparer la pizza.

Il me jette un petit regard alors que je m'attelle à finir de déposer la garniture sur ce qui va devenir une bonne pizza faite avec amour. Une fois au four, je sors de la cuisine et retrouve mon cher et tendre en train de caresser Blanche qui mange son repas.

-Ta petite princesse aux poils longs te réclame souvent tu sais.

-Elle me manque aussi. Savoir mes amours à la maison pendant que je m'occupe de délinquants, parfois ça me donne juste envie de leur sauter à la gorge pour qu'ils avouent vite fait et que je puisse rentrer vous retrouver... malheureusement, ce n'est pas si simple.

Il se lève et s'approche de moi. L'ambiance légère qui règne dans l'appartement depuis que je suis rentrée devient un peu plus sérieuse. Il pose son front contre le mien et passe une main dans mes cheveux.

-Je voudrais être là. Tout le temps. Pour te soutenir quand tu as du boulot. Pour t'emmener au restaurant. Pour me poser au Cosy Bear juste pour te voir t'activer dans tous les sens. Pour passer une soirée à rien faire. Ou même pour essayer une série d'uniformes et répondre à tes désirs.

-Je sais.

-Quand je suis sur le terrain ou même au poste... je me donne à 100%. Parce que je sais que ça en vaut la peine, de se battre pour que la société soit un peu plus sûre. Alors je fonce. Et je sais que quand mon travail est bien fait, je peux laisser tout ça derrière moi et rentrer te retrouver. Je sais que ce boulot me prend trop de temps. Mais tu es ce que j'ai de plus précieux. Je suis fier de ce qu'on a, de ce que nous sommes devenus. Et je suis vraiment désolé de te causer du souci, Su... je me doute que ça doit aussi t'affecter dans ton travail.

-Nath... Ne sois pas désolé. Je suis la première ravie que tu aies trouvé ta voie. On savait tous les deux que ça ne serait pas facile tous les jours. Tu aimes ton travail et tu le fais bien. Du moment que tu me reviens... Mais plus j'y réfléchis... plus je pense que jamais je pourrai être totalement sereine en te voyant partir. Il faut juste que j'aprenne à vivre avec cette angoisse pour la gérer et ne pas la laisser me pourrir.

Il embrasse mon front puis descend sur chacune de mes joues jusqu'à couvrir mon visage de baisers. Il glisse jusqu'à mon oreille...

-Dis-moi ce qu'il te faut pour que ce soit plus supportable. N'hésite jamais à me parler même si ce n'est pas facile. Je peux tout entendre venant de toi. Je sais qu'on a des exemples peu encourageants sous les yeux... rien que quand je vois Éric et comment son couple a tourné...

Il me serre fort contre lui et je l'étreins à mon tour.

-Je refuse que cela nous arrive. Je sais qu'on ne maîtrise pas tout et que les choses évoluent de façon étrange mais j'ai passé bien assez de temps loin de toi. Je suis prêt à te menotter au lit pour te garder près de moi...

-Hum inspecteur, ne seriez-vous pas en train d'abuser de votre autorité ?

Je sens que cette discussion nous a fait du bien et que je suis plus légère. Les mains de mon cher inspecteur se promènent dans mon dos et descendent de plus en plus alors qu'il plonge ses lèvres dans mon cou. J'aurais pu rire devant la situation précédente : lui en uniforme et moi nue sous mon tablier, en train de parler sérieusement. Mais au final, on a laissé tomber nos barrières, notre stress du quotidien et là on peut juste profiter.

-Nath... il faudrait peut-être surveiller la pizza  non? Ça commence à sentir super bon...

Il desserre son étreinte légèrement et soupire.

-J'imagine qu'il vaut mieux éviter de faire cramer l'appartement...

-Oui et reprendre des forces c'est pas plus mal. Parce qu'après je compte bien utiliser les menottes sur toi.

-Tu vas utiliser mes menottes contre moi? C'est la honte pour un flic de se faire avoir de cette façon...

Je me mets sur la pointe des pieds pour murmurer à son oreille...

-Je te promets de bien les utiliser, tu n'auras pas à regretter et peut-être même que tu en redemanderas...

Je me dirige vers le four pour en extraire la pizza et l'amener à table. Nath me dévore des yeux et je vois bien que ma proposition lui donne envie de remettre le repas à plus tard. Je ne me démonte pas et fais le service. Il finit par me rejoindre à table et je dois me retenir de glousser comme une lycéenne. Le reste de la soirée s'annonce excellent et finit de tourner la page sur ces jours d'anxiété.

13, 14 and 19 with nevra from eldarya?? 💕💕 i love your writing!!!

oh anon, I’m such an idiot. I accidentally read 13 as 3 and wrote it like that, I only realised my mistake now. don’t worry though! someone else requested 13 with Nevra as well, so you will still get it, just later. sorry again, I’ll try to learn how to read 😅

3. injured

Nevra is too proud to let others see him being hurt, he’d rather hide it and take care of himself, so he soon recruits Ewelein as his sworn enemy lmao

he’s not a medic though, but he still wants someone close to him to cure him. since Ezarel’s departure, this person is Huang Chu (I don’t think Nevra has a good relationship with Mathieu)

it’s the complete opposite when Guardian is injured: he immediately drops their last petty argument, and rushes to get help for her as soon as possible, even if it’s just a small injury like a burn or a cut on her hand

he’s embarassed about it later, but seeing Guardian’s grateful smile makes him swear to keep being overprotective of her

14. pregnancy / birth

“honey, I’m pregnant” “....WHAT”

I’m pretty sure Nevra will be shocked when he hears the news, but his astonishment will turn into excitement soon

having a younger sister makes things easier though, mostly because he has some kind of experience of taking care of someone, but also because he can pass his kid to Karenn whenever they start to cry and Guardian is not around

he doesn’t have any experience of the actual pregnancy however, so those months are a rollercoaster with him. he tries to be his usual protective self around Guardian, while she tries to make him understand that she wasn’t and still isn’t made of glass

when Guardian is giving birth, Nevra is just staring at the sidelines with wide eyes, but inside he’s happy for the little one

19. domestic life

if you want to keep your eyesight undamaged, don’t look around in Nevra’s home. seriously. that guy doesn’t know the word “organised”. he cleans it, don’t get me wrong, but things don’t have their place, everything is just lying around

this makes living together a challenge, but Guardian is absolutely up for it, never getting tired of organising things again and again

after a child joins them, life definitely gets more interesting. “who should do what” is a constant dilemma, but I think Nevra would give up being a Chief after some time, “degrading” himself as an ordinary member, so he has more time to look after his kid

amazing

I was taking a break from my homework, and my graphic tablet was too far away from me…yes, this is Lance,, I mean Cursed Lance.

Ah, but it’s much funnier to imagine random scenes that show their other personality traits, and these gotta be connected somehow

i have to remind myself that i don't need to write a whole book for every character i make. sometimes characters can exist simply for the sake of being sexy

a kind of update about my writing & Other Stuff:

I finally have an AO3 account! you can find it here. I already uploaded some stuff I've written here originally, though I won't upload everything

the only way this affects my account here is that there will be some writings (=fanfictions) that I will write there, and I'll only post a kind of teaser and the link here. I made this decision because writing fanfiction on Tumblr isn't really comfortable, AO3 is a better platform for writings with more chapters

about my fanfictions... I started "Drive away" in January, and no, I didn't forget about it, I just kept postponing the second part until I have AO3. sadly, I have a new fanfic idea 🙃 which is more "urgent" than DA, so I'll put that on hold for some time, then continue when I'm done with the new fanfic

for anyone wondering, the new fanfic will be about Candy and Nath reconciliating after Candy cheating with Eric 🤭 but you will see 😉

3. and 12. for Nathaniel and Candy

thank you for your ask! with the second one, I'll try to be as not NSFW-y as I can, though it's about their first time together so it'll be kinda hard 😅🤭

3. injured

Nathaniel's work is not a harmless job, sometimes he gets hurt, but he would always try to make it appear less important than it is, acting annoyed when Candy tries to help him

this is only the outside though, inside he would be scared for Candy (”what would she do without me?”), and despite acting like a tough guy, he wouldn't jeopardise the healing process

however, if it's Candy who is hurt, his brain is set on 110% protective mode. a nurse was rude? he'd make sure they never come close her room again. Candy feels a little sad? her favourite snacks are already on the table, the TV on, Nath hugging her and making sure she's okay

if Candy was hurt because of Nathaniel (eg. she was kidnapped as a way of blackmailing him), then poor boy would absolutely feel down, and it would be very hard for him to move on and stop blaming himself

and we know what he thinks about children.... so it might not make sense to talk about what he's like as a father, but still. similar to what happens to Candy, if his child is hurt, then Nath is there like superman. he might not make the best choices as he is blindly fixated on solving the problem, but in the end it would all be okay

12. first time

(my Candy had another LI in HSL, so I'll write this like it's in UL)

surely, Nathaniel would both look forward to their first time together and dread it. he was together with girls who were just his company for that night, he wouldn't want Candy to think she's like that for him

don't expect roses and candles though; it will most likely happen when they are at Nath's place, doing literally anything

it's so easy to make Nathaniel want Candy. a kiss that was a little longer than planned, that fitting top she wore, the fact that he hadn't have time for that lately and he's needy....

depending on how experienced Candy is, their positions can change. I'm about 98% sure Nath wouldn't be against being submissive, even though it's usually him who's dominant

as the first time together is usually special, it's based on mutual trust and all that, it wouldn't be too kinky or long. one night spent together, mostly in each other's arms, that's perfect for a first

the next day, neither of them feels regret. Nath is a bit scared that Candy does, but she soon reassures him and they spend the morning together, celebrating their relationship that reached a new level

send me headcanon prompts!