Some Messy Proportion Notes.

Listening to Default Durge’s voice (Tav 5) is so soothing especially the romance replies, I wanted to do a highlight of my favorite ones and just imagine how he would speak to Tav if he was romance-able!!

Song: Rain

Singer: Sleeptoken

Pictures: @astarionposting

Thank you for letting me use your gorgeous screenshots for the video 😭

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Stolas and Blitzo

I love the intentional parallel between Moxxie and Mille vs Stolas and Blitzo. The startled and worry looks on both Millie and Stolas's face when Moxxie and Blitzo were being ridiculed by others.

How at the end of Moxxie's love song, Stolas reached out (emotionally and physically) to Blitzo to try to console him. It symbolises his desire for love as pure and beautiful as Moxxie and Mille's.

But the past relationships that just came back to haunt Blitzo in the form of Verosika and Fizz reopened a raw wound, he wasn't ready to be vulnerable in front of Stolas just yet.

You can almost hear Blitzo's voice crack when he said how Stolas made it clear they were just using each others for sex. Blitzo is torn, he desires love but at the same denies himself of it. He's afraid. He doesn't know how to love or accept it. The fact all his past relationships have never worked out is the proof of it. I'm sure there is a reason for that, it certainly lies in his childhood with his family and maybe we will get to understand why he turns out the way he is.

And don't get me started on Stolas's dilemma. His current family vs his love for Blitzo.

Stolas truly loves Blitzo and he hopes their relationship will work out but at the same time Octavia is really important to him as well. Chasing after a hopeless love or choosing Octavia but getting stuck in a loveless marriage. Stolas will be forced to choose only one and i'm dreaded the day he may eventually end it all with Blitzo unless they manage to reconcile and understand each others' problems.

I hate seeing them suffer like this but this is necessary step towards mending the broken bridge between them. Thank you Vivziepop for focusing and exploring the potential of Stolas and Blitzo's relationship.

No matter how broken and flaw it is. This is just the beginning for them.

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THE LTM IS "???" WITH "Your rockets will blot out the sun." AS THE DESCRIPTION??? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN RESPAWN.

Why I love Rojka 'Kasaan (and you should, too)

If Master Chief blew up a Covenant homeworld, you might look at him differently. You might consider civilian casualties and the cruel calculus of war and wince. His story helpfully side-steps this issue by making it so that it simply never happens. Humanity never found Covenant homeworlds during the war soon enough to target them. Until Glyke.

If we expect cooperation and remorse from ex-Covenant who destroyed human worlds, what do we expect from a Sangheili fleetmaster whose own world was destroyed by Spartans? That's Rojka's story.

Rojka was once a fleetmaster, but was demoted after the Changing of the Guard, sent to a shipyard to repair ships rather than command them. As a result, he was not present for the attack on Reach or the assault on Earth.

When Reach fell, Spartan-II Gray Team was granted permission to target and destroy Covenant homeworlds in what was clearly an act of retaliation. They were cleared to destroy the Sangheili colony Glyke before comms were lost with ONI. Unbeknownst to them, the human-Sangheili ceasefire was initiated just before they decided on destroying the planet, effectively betraying the fresh alliance between humans and Sangheili. Rojka, a Glyke native, lost most of his family.

During the Great Schism, Rojka sided with Thel 'Vadam and the Covenant separatists, taking control of the fleet that he'd been tasked with repairing. Rojka was realistic. Like so many, he faced a crisis of character when he lost his religion. He worried for his species' future and longed for direction. He understood that the Sangheili needed to be allies with the humans to survive. To this end, he learned to tolerate them. But not the Spartans that ruined his life.

Rojka isn't anyone special. He's no Thel 'Vadam, with wealth, influence, and his family behind him. He's no Usze 'Taham, with old-world faith and an impressive pedigree. He could probably be most closely compared to Olabisi Varo'dai, except that she lost her home at the hands of a Covenant accident and not a UNSC attack.

Rojka is a refugee. Anyone in his life who didn't happen to be off-world when the nukes detonated was dead. The fleet he used to have was down to a skeleton crew. But Thel 'Vadam still asked him to lead the refugees to a new world that they called Rakoi. They started to rebuild, with Rojka becoming the kaidon of Rak, the Sangheili capital (nerd sidebar for those who care: I believe he was more accurately the high kaidon). He grows to love his new home, with one complicating factor: unbeknownst to them, Rakoi was originally called Carrow, a human colony that evacuated during the war. When the dust settled, the humans returned to find their new neighbors.

There's irony somewhere in Thel asking Rojka to do something he would never ask of a human: to set aside his anger at losing his homeworld and work peacefully with the people who took it from him. It's something that Thel hopes for, but when humans continue to hate him, he doesn't blame them. But he expects more from Rojka, and Rojka, who is concerned about maintaining support from Sanghelios, is caught in the politics. He agrees to maintain peace with the humans, which leads to a civil conflict led by his own cousin, who disagrees with making peace.

As part of this agreement, he is introduced to the UNSC Diplomatic Corp envoy Melody Azikiwe. At first, he resents her presence, thinking of her as a meddler and someone whose skills were ultimately useless. He considers humans to be a necessary evil rather than allies. He does not believe diplomacy is truly possible, and thinks Melody weak for talking instead of fighting. But when a two-front war breaks out on Carrow and Melody awakens Gray Team to assist, his resolve is shaken. Over and over again, he's reminded of how much both humans and Sangheili have suffered.

Eventually the civil conflict escalates to a point where the entire planet is in danger, and he has no choice but to accept help from the Spartans. The decision to destroy Glyke without clear orders was a contentious one for the team, which broke them once they realized what they'd done. In their own way, they try to make amends with Rojka.

In the end, it's not ships or soldiers who overcome the conflict, but people. Regular people, talking their way out and through problems. Rojka begins to realize the importance of jobs like Melody's and that there are better ways to solve problems than separating heads from necks (although he does do that, too). Having decided to set aside his anger with Gray Team, he returns home to Rak to rebuild. When he gets there, he learns that another kaidon has risen to power in his absence, usurping his title. In what is, in my opinion, his greatest moment of growth, Rojka accepts the new power structure without argument.

I can't overstate how unusual this is. Few things are more important than power and pride in Sangheili culture. Many Sangheili prefer to die than admit to being injured. They prefer to be killed rather than captured. The most honorable way to replace a kaidon is a battle to the death. But Rojka is tired. He wants to go home. He agrees to be an envoy for Rak, having grown to appreciate the power of diplomacy.

Growth!!!!!! That's growth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the upside of ADHD is that it makes you a fucking genius

the downside is that you don't get to decide when and for how long you're a genius.

Were it so easy