I Wonder, Since You're Also Fae+changeling; Have You Also Had That Interest And Ease In Learning Languages

(does one thing) hm i think i deserve a little reward :) (walks around in circles listening to music for three hours)

finding a spot on the floor where the sun is hitting it and it's all warm and you sit/lay on it. true creature behavior (i'm doing it right now) (it feels great)

Autism Type #1814

I want to wear this but it is sensory hell but I will wear it anyway because the way it looks makes me feel happy.

As someone with really terrible memory I totally relate!! It’s okay that you don’t remember when you awakened, you’re not alone <3

I can't remember my awakening :(

The problem with having dissociative amnesia and be in the non human community is that I see all of these other beings saying, like, "I awakened in 20xx"

and I'm like I- I don't remember. I cannot remember . And then I don't feel valid, and I know it's stupid, but.

*explodes :(*

Like, idk if anyone can relate, but I don't even remember when I discovered what being non human/therian meant!!

Sometimes I feel like I just spawned here and it sucks!! I can't remember anything about me or my past.

...Anyway *eats little snack

(idk, I hope at least one of y'all can feel a bit less alone bc I wrote this)

has anyone else noticed their sensory issues getting worse during quarantine? particularly my sensitivity to sound has worsened. I feel like I’ve had the ability to control my surroundings so much that going out in public now is a real struggle cause it’s just so loud and chaotic.

While I don’t often get the phantom sensation that you describe, I do sometimes feel this little twinge of energy inside me around large hawks or mustelids. It’s a bit of instinctual panic. I too have a worry that predators will see through my disguise.

For the most part I don’t feel like a prey animal, but there are times (especially around certain predators) where I am acutely aware of my place as a small part of the ecosystem.

Fellow small herbivores/prey, when passing past a large dog or whatever seems like a predator to you, do you sometimes get a phantom sensation of said predator biting into you and carrying you in their mouths? Makes me wary to walk too close to large dogs at times, and zoos not to mention.

I can almost feel the teeth in my abdomen and gravity working against me, takes me by surprise most of the time.

I'm lucky i'm a lot larger than most members of my species but instinct doesn't know that; what if the dog sees through the disguise and rushes at me? (takes a step back)

This body's weight sometimes bothers me but not in a eating disorder or appearance way. I get annoyed that this disguise is too heavy to climb smaller trees and thinner branches.

Personally I call it the veil or glamour, but I like visage/aspect as well!

Little off topic but glamour has special significance to me since it describes the magic of the fae. Fairies are often described as “wearing” a glamour to hide their true form. For me this means I am charmed to look like a human being even though I am not one.

Offering a term to fellow physical nonhumans* for more natural sounding language/ease of explanation:

The/a visage OR aspect.

What you might see or others see of you even if it isn't actually what's really there.

These are preexisting words that are practically synonymous - visage is defined as being synonymous to aspect which literally means the "appearance to the eye or mind."

So I can say I am physically nonhuman, but my aspect or visage is human - humans see me as a fellow human because they simply are not calibrated to perceive otherwise. My aspect/visage isn't actually me.

*I guess you could use this as a non-physical nonhuman but if you acknowledge your physical humanity I'm not sure where it would fit? Oh well, I don't gatekeep the English language, LOL.

ND things i’m really hoping other people can relate to

“you touched my arm and now i have to cut it off”

“i blinked wrong. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay that’s better.”

“sorry i didn’t quite catch that. sorry could you just- yeah. what? huh? no i didn’t get that- could you just write it down?”

directions just go in one ear and out the other

and god forbid i have to talk to anyone with an accent

“i didn’t listen to that song right. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay, better.”

the r a g e when your plan/routine gets disrupted

“oh that leaf brushed my left hand? okay cool now i gotta brush it against my right hand in exactly the same way or else i’ll Die”

“this has to be symmetrical or i will gouge my eyes out because it feels BAD”

the exhaustion that sometimes follows talking about a special interest

getting overwhelmed talking about/interacting with your special interest

“what emotion is this?”

“this is the only song i can listen to and it brings me a genuine feeling of relief/release to hear it. i must loop it over and over until i suddenly hate it. i don’t know why.”

randomly finding yourself thinking/talking like a robot and having to consciously switch on emotions/empathy

or the other way around, if you get overwhelmed

“loud noises are fucking terrifying and i will cry if i get caught off guard by one”

“someone i don’t like/trust/know touched this thing and now i can’t until it’s been washed”

p a i n

where is the pain coming from? idk.

what’s itching??? where is that???

“wow that hurt! okay, i gotta do it again”

feel free to add on!!

also this point is a bit unrelated, but I find it funny that I keep rats when I’m a snake. whenever I play with them all I can of think is the phrase “playing with your food”. despite the fact that they are technically my prey, I have no urges towards them. again, I see them more as children than anything else.

I don’t know if it has to do with the neurodivergence or the nonhumanity but my relationship with pets is a bit odd. they are more siblings or children than anything else. we are both creatures which is something humans often fail to recognize/respect.

the rats I take care of are my friends. not mine through ownership, but mine through relationship.

I doubt this view is really all that uncommon in the nonhuman community, but I have yet to see much talk about it.