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I say that I want to go back and be an animal again, but...I'm not really a spiritual alterhuman.

I say this as if there is some part of my past that I want to revert to and reclaim, but I'm not sure I actually do have a past life or anything like that. It's like a nostalgia for something that never existed.

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having lots of hyperfixations at once or not having any hyperfixations

when i have lots of them i get rly overwhelmed cus i just,, wanna do all of them at once and its like a constant need to be doing something related to all of my hyperfixations but u just CANT watch five shows at once or listen to music, watch a video, research, and do crafts all at the same time i just physically cant do that

but when i dont have any hyperfixations i feel so empty. my thoughts get kinda mixed up cus i dont know what to think about or focus on and im just constantly understimulated because of boredom and thats just miserable

shoutouts to fellow nonhumans whose nonhumanity orginates from or is caused by mental illness, delusions, or past/current trauma

we are as valid as any other nonhuman and i am proud of y'all for having the courage to share your experiences. it makes me feel a lot less alone to know that others feel the same as me.

keep being awesome and stay safe 🐾

- from an autistic and mentally ill coyote 🌵

(i apologize if this isn't worded right, very bad brain fog day but this has been on my mind so I wanted to say it)

It is actually completely valid to feel saddened and frustrated by how nonhumanity and therianthropy have been reduced to masks, quadrobics, and tails. It’s an extremely personal experience, and now all we get is this same type of content over and over again that feels like roleplaying and dress up. It feels so synthetic and strictly made for others, and it’s fine if you’re mad at the lack of actual experiences and talk of actual nonhuman feelings that aren’t just “I wanna go home to the forest” “look at my mask/paws/tail” “managed to do this quads jump today”. I don’t believe that that’s the only time you feel shifty. I don’t. And I want to hear more about your daily experiences about your nonhumanity, how it affects you, what makes you euphoric. I want back originality and actually talking about your experiences that aren’t conventional and the same with everyone (as much as they might be similar in the general nonhumanity aspect).

looking back on my childhood there are so many things that make so much sense from a nonhuman perspective. I have horrible memory, but I do know that I was absolutely convinced that I was adopted growing up. I never felt like I was a true part of the family that I belonged to. I never felt a sense of community with people.

now it’s obvious that this feeling arose from the fact that I’m not human, and that I am a changeling. I belong to another realm of existence.

there also comes my obsession with all things fantasy and fairy tales. One of the first books I ever got for myself was a huge collection of the grimms’ fairy tales. I especially loved animal stories. I identified with them so much, and it’s no wonder why.

there are a lot more examples of my behaviors being very off putting to humans, but I’m mainly focusing on my internal feelings in this post.

anyway I’m curious if any other nonhumans have had similar realizations about their childhoods.

Since I’m now agender, ace, aro, & autistic, I’m officially AAAA which is pronounced like a scream

I can only think of a few right now but for me it’s:

-meditation definitely

-basking

-hiking/being outside in general

-seeing other reptiles in the wild

-warm days (especially in spring)

im bored so, whats something you do/see/hear/smell that triggers a shift? ill go first :)

for me its

-eating really juicy fruits

-quadrobics (pretty rare for me to shift when doing this though)

-forest noises/wolf howls!

-meditation (still getting the hang of this one)

-and also certain smells like rain :)

uh oh someone's on autopilot again

Inspired by a post by @/wilczak I’ve been thinking a lot about my own desire to have a pet snake.

For nearly all my life I’ve wanted to keep snakes. I had garter snakes for several years before rehoming them when I went to high school and became busier. I’ve always felt a kinship with them. Even before I knew what I was, I knew snakes were my kind.

It took me a long time to realize I was a snake. I knew I was a changeling since I was very young, however the realization that I was a snake took longer to come. I couldn’t see beyond the veil for a long time and only sensed fragments of my true form. Once I realized I was a snake, my attachment to them made so much more sense.

We’re not a social species by any means, however I’ve always wanted to keep snakes because we’re the same. We understand each other in a fundamental way. Largely we’re uninterested in each other, but there’s a sense of camaraderie in shared species-ship.

I love learning about my kind, and the idea of taking care of another sounds very rewarding to me. We are brethren.

me: i want like a mentally stable friend. a friend who i can just rant to, like tell them everything im feeling and it won’t trigger or even really upset them. they could just listen and make affirmative noises, and then id just leave and that would be our whole relationship. ugh, i wish that were actually a real thing.

me: ohhhhhhhh, therapy. therapist. i want a therapist.