Today’s Thoughts : Is Escapism Or Just A Hyperfixation

i need to be out in the woods so bad im gonna explode

knits you one of those silly little snake sweaters so you don't get cold

^_^ thank you!!

me irl

A hammock of happy ratties

MLM? WLW? How about NLN (nonhuman loving nonhuman)

Adding on to this: nonhumanity is not a psychotic belief. I happen to have a psychotic disorder which affects other parts of my life, but my nonhuman identity is not a delusion. It is fact. Thank you, and I’ll see myself out.

I love that my therapist agrees with me that the point of my treatment is functionality not sanity. Maybe for some there is a need to be sane in order to live how they want, but that is not the case with me.

I don’t need to be compliant to human’s beliefs in order to function and be happy. In fact, pretending I am human and that I think the same way they do is actively harmful for me.

Sanity is a concept made up by humans. They decide when a belief is acceptable, unconventional, or wrong. I would not be considered sane by most people’s standards. That does not make me wrong.

I am inhuman. I am me.

A quick reminder: your nonhuman experiences are your own. They don't have to be 'cute' or 'fun' or 'aesthetic' and don't feel weird if your nonhuman behaviours aren't like the average experiance.

There is no average nonhuman experience, don't think too much about how others perceive your behaviours because it's no one else's business.

Inspired by a post by @/wilczak I’ve been thinking a lot about my own desire to have a pet snake.

For nearly all my life I’ve wanted to keep snakes. I had garter snakes for several years before rehoming them when I went to high school and became busier. I’ve always felt a kinship with them. Even before I knew what I was, I knew snakes were my kind.

It took me a long time to realize I was a snake. I knew I was a changeling since I was very young, however the realization that I was a snake took longer to come. I couldn’t see beyond the veil for a long time and only sensed fragments of my true form. Once I realized I was a snake, my attachment to them made so much more sense.

We’re not a social species by any means, however I’ve always wanted to keep snakes because we’re the same. We understand each other in a fundamental way. Largely we’re uninterested in each other, but there’s a sense of camaraderie in shared species-ship.

I love learning about my kind, and the idea of taking care of another sounds very rewarding to me. We are brethren.

I don’t know if it has to do with the neurodivergence or the nonhumanity but my relationship with pets is a bit odd. they are more siblings or children than anything else. we are both creatures which is something humans often fail to recognize/respect.

the rats I take care of are my friends. not mine through ownership, but mine through relationship.

I doubt this view is really all that uncommon in the nonhuman community, but I have yet to see much talk about it.

Update on this post: I told her! It went really well!

She still doesn’t really understand, but she accepts me and is open to the idea of nonhumans. I was pretty surprised by her reaction since I know she’s been confused about therians in the past, but I was able to educate and explain some stuff to her. So it’s a win!! =3

Creatures who have told their IRLs your nonhuman identity: how did it go? I’m currently considering telling my partner, but I’m just curious about other’s experiences!

(We have a really good relationship and I’ve already explained that I’m more of a snake than a human, but I want to tell her more about the alterhuman community in general.)

Hello! wanted to ask some questions about schizoaffective bipolar type; because we've been dx'ed with bipolar type 1 already but aren't really trusting of anyone in psych-therapy circles to reveal any details about my schizospec symptoms. Aside from the fact that psychiatry in my corner of eastern europe is very anti-dx in general. I had to fight to get taken seriously with bipolar for them to finally stop giving me antidepressants without mood stabilisers kind of deal.

What makes bipolar be schizoaffective and not just bipolar with some schizospec symptoms? How does schizoaffective manifest for you? i've read enough regarding actual dx criteria for schizoaffective and i would fall into schizoaffective but i wanted to hear a first-person point of view.

Feel free to ignore this if you're not comfortable, or dm me instead if it's more ok for you.

thank you!

Hello! I totally understand being hesitant to disclose psychotic symptoms. It’s for different reasons but it took me a very long time to get proper treatment as I was unable to understand that my symptoms were 1. indicative of a disorder 2. severe enough to warrant treatment. Luckily where I live I have access to a lot of resources for psychotic people, so I eventually have found a regime of medications that helps me to think clearly.

I think for me the difference between bipolar with psychotic features and schizoaffective was that i was in a near constant state of psychosis before treatment. In bipolar, usually psychosis is sort of treated as the end of the road: the most severe mood symptoms can get. Honestly there’s a ton of disagreement over what schizoaffective even means. Personally I define my version of schizoaffective as schizophrenia with bipolar episodes, but that’s my personal definition and definitely doesn’t apply to everyone.

Before treatment I was constantly confused and unable to take care of myself. Some of my psychosis was related to my nonhumanity (I consider my god/angel identity to be endelic due to this), but not all of it is. And my nonhumanity is definitely not all psychotic. I really am a fae creature. I know a lot of my beliefs would be written off as crazy talk if I explained them to my psychiatrist. But ultimately I know myself best.

Human definitions for mental conditions are flawed and very subjective/fluid. Unfortunately, I love labels so I choose to identify with the diagnoses I’ve been given.

Sorry if this is a very long rambly response. I love talking about this sort of thing. If you have any more questions/discussion feel free to dm me!