There Are Some People Whose Dread Of Human Beings Is So Morbid That They Reach A Point Where They Yearn

You created a shadowy abomination forged in the depths of night.

It created wars, heartache and pain.

Beneath this fearsome exterior lies an unexpected longing—an ache for peace,

as if this existence has been cursed by the very chaos it was born into.

To roam the endless depths, never resting, never finding solace.

It seeks the one thing it can never find: stillness.

Its heart is a void, a perpetual longing that can never be filled, yet it continues its journey with grace, hoping that someday, perhaps, it will encounter a place where it can lay down its burdens and find the peace it so desperately craves.

In the emptiness of the abyss, the Calmatus remains—forever searching, forever yearning.

Its existence is a testament to the struggle for inner peace I like to think.

I hate that I get matches on online dating just to find the majority of the men that match with me don't have the same interests as me. Like what the fuck. It's boring to talk to a guy who has zero interest in your interest, but I be damn if I settle for a guy who is not in the same interest. Conversation is boring as hell. Wasting me time. I might as well be single until I die of old age.

How do I go by this? Does anyone have tips or suggestions?

Very hot today...

so soft it hurts

Jokes aside ... Dazai's eyes are beautiful, in everything……And I thought of doing them in my own way😋😎

“Chuuya.”

“He’s here, Ane-san,” he broke down, his face distraught and his hands on his chest, clutching the fabric of his shirt as if he could rip his heart out. Ane-san stopped smiling. “I let him in, damn it, and I don’t know how to get him out or what to do. I’m desperate.”

“Chuuya, dear.”

Chuuya staggered and fell back into his seat, burying his face in his hands as he fought back the tears. He jumped when Ane-san ran her fingers through his hair. He sniffled. She gently untied his hair and began to comb through his curls.

“I’m sorry,” he whimpered, wiping away tears with the heel of his hand.

“Feelings are complicated.”

“No, Dazai is complicated as hell,” he mumbled.

Kouyou smiled sweetly.

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Now everyone should have time to catch up.

Okay, Asagiri, I know I said Atsushi had been annoying me but this isn't what I meant! I didn't mean I wanted him dead 😂. I suppose I kinda got my wish though lmao. As for the ending, do we really keep having to bring Dazai into everything? Especially because it's so hard to tell if he's actually there or still a Figment of Atsushi's imagination. It's getting annoying.

In our lives we know joy, anger, sorrow, and a hundred other emotions, but these emotions all together occupy a bare one percent of our time. The remaining ninety-nine per cent is just living in waiting.

Dazai Osamu, The Setting Sun

Wasn’t able to draw them all but I hope you enjoy these hakuoki chibis

『𝙽𝚘𝚠 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚛 𝚞𝚗𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜.

𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜.

𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚊 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚎𝚝𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚍𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚞𝚙 𝚝𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚕.

𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜.』

— 𝙳𝚊𝚣𝚊𝚒 𝙾𝚜𝚊𝚖𝚞, 𝙽𝚘 𝙻𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛 𝙷𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗